Suicide Paranoia – 8: Giving-up on Self and Giving-in to
Paranoia DAY 394
Continuing with the process of Thought-development
in relation to Suicide Paranoia, to understand that: as we have illustrated in
the previous post, the process unfolds from energy, to memories, to imagination
and self-talk, which is thinking; therefore, the human being Internalize
reality into themselves, into energy, and then re-produce memories of actual
reality WITHIN THE ENERGY THAT THEY REACTED. This means, that – if/as the
individual reacted, emotionally,
to/as other human beings’ words and behaviour, such as being belittled, over an
extended period of time, those memories are internalized into and as the Mind
and is ‘tainted’ with and as the Energy, the emotional energy’ that the human
being experienced in and as reality, and is now being replayed, recreated in
and as the memory / memories in the Mind.
So, it’s like fascinating that: the energy, such as
belittlement, for example, permeate and infiltrate the memory and then in the
memory and as the energy – the being then starts evolving the memory and the
energy IN THEIR OWN MINDS even more, it’s like the energy itself, the memory/memories
themselves “comes alive in the Mind” and so the being will replay the
memory/memories over and over and over again and as we said/explained: creates
a complete paranormal reality in their Minds, of themselves, of others, of
conversations, of reactions/experiences which then in turn becomes a
possession, into a paranoia where the Individual will then start seeing
Reality/Others through the eyes of their Reactions/Memories/Paranoia that they
created in the Mind and soon enough, EVERYTHING and EVERYONE starts looking
like/feeling/saying/behaving according to how they created others to be in
their own Minds.
Let’s say a being is exposed to bullying over an extended
period of time. What their Consciousness/Mind memorizes are the
moments/instances where they were verbally being bullied. Such things makes an
extensive impact on an individual’s self/mind and experience/living, mostly
because they don’t know how to deal with such bullies and also don’t know how
to deal with the reactions they experience within themselves. Then, all those
moments of bullying becomes accumulated memories in the person’s Mind, where
they replay the events over and over and over again, where it’s like – with it
being replayed in the mind, it’s experienced EXACTLY the same as though it is
happening in reality / ‘real life’. What is also interesting regarding us
Humans, is how we tend to believe MORE what OTHERS say about ourselves, than us
standing by a decision/living statement of/as who we are – and so, because of
this, the individual that is being bullied, with replaying the memories over
and over and over again, with the memories/moments having such
energetic/emotional impact on themselves, starts considering that What OTHERS
are saying about them “must be true”. This in itself is quite a shock to the ‘Self’,
because in a way – there exist the awareness of the fact that, Self is
accepting/allowing others to define self, that Self is ‘giving into THEM and
giving up on SELF’. So, it’s fascinating that the point of ‘giving up / giving
in’ already in fact happen in the Mind-Self relationship, where Self accept and
allow what others, in the memories of one’s Mind say about self, such as being
useless/a loser/not worth it/not going to make it/ugly/fat/ etc. to give up/give in and so let others Define
Self in one’s own MIND. Other’s voices in the head, in/as memories Haunting
one’s self / one’s Mind. And, when that happens, it is also, in a way, already
giving up one’s life – we all in some way have committed a form of suicide in
the sense of our “Self”, our “Who We Are”, our “What we Stand for and as” and
have compromised that “for the sake of others”, to fit in, to be popular, to be
a consumer, to have a social network, to be Noticed – but all in the sense of EGO,
for Money, for Survival – preserving Self-Interest, and so-doing, ending THE
Life, THE Self within the principle of/as equality and oneness, what’s best for
all, so we all gave up/gave in on Life-itself for the sake of Self Interest,
Ego.
Therefore, when the Human Being, in their Minds start
defining themselves MORE to the voices of others, than hearing their own commonsense
awareness: the relationship to/as Paranoia becomes more extreme, because in
the memories of the voices of others, they lose their own Voice, their own
Awareness, their own Stand and Paranoia takes over, the Memories takes over,
the Voices of others takes over, their Own Thoughts turn against them as they,
themselves, then start believing that what others are saying about them are
real/true/in fact so. There is the saying “there can Only be One” – we’re
either going to develop our SELF Awareness to stand and Live, or we create our
own Paranoia, the Paranormal Reality in Consciousness that then possess our
Self, our Awareness; I mean why not Consider what one can Create within and as SELF Awareness and one’s LIVING in and
as this REAL WORLD than accepting and allowing Self to Create your own Paranoid
Possessions in/as Consciousness that will only lead to unnecessary consequence
and regret.
We’ll continue more in the Next Post
