Looking for MORE of mySELF: DAY 78
(To read this post, it
must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to
Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is
interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the
point/question of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire
physical existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of
the points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into
the next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the
mutli-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as
Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced
with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self
first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many
dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in
previous posts.)
The
Origins of Males and Females - continued
Adam
and Eve – continued
The
Chicken or the Egg??? – continued
How
the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued
Who
I Am as Money – continued
In this post we’re going to have a look at our very
existence as eternal-damnation, in how the fear/warning of God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority
to its Eve, Adam and Devil existence ensured/secured its survival in fear/fear
of loss in and as its Garden of Eden/Energy. Where we had come to exist as that
very God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority fear/warning of eternal damnation of
and as Energy-itself if/as we as energy would stop the existence of our
separation and in fact be/become equal and one with ourselves as Energy, Mind,
the Physical-Body and this Physical-Existence as Substance/Life.
In this have a look at: why and how we deliberately accept and allow our
existence of separation, managed/maintained within and as Fear/Fear of Loss to in
our
relationship as energy to substance so ensure/secure we do not
go/manifest/be/become equality and oneness.
I
forgive myself that I hadn’t accepted and allowed myself to
see/realise/understand, from the beginning to now in equality and oneness with
and as energy and substance, the mind and the physical – the sound, energy and
physical symbolism within and as the Story of the Bible with the relationship
between God, Adam and Eve and the awareness that developed of themselves and
their physical-bodies and each other in equality and oneness, in how this point
revealed that: before Eating from the Fruit of the Tree of the Knowledge of
Good and Evil; they were actually in separation from themselves, their bodies
and each other; that ‘God’s own creation was in separation from themselves,
their bodies each other and the environment’. And so, with us within ourselves,
from the beginning as manifested-singularities to now as Human Beings, existent
as God/Energy-Authority in the beginning and God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority
as the Mind – we as ‘God’ in our existence as
God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority is the one that is controlling our own
separation from ourselves within ourselves, from the Physical-Body, and so from
other Human Beings and so from this entire physical existence as a whole. As this
Story in the Bible is in fact existent as a living condition/acceptance and
allowance of and as each Human Being as the Mind/Consciousness in the
acceptance and allowance of ‘who we are and will be’ and so have become and
remained. That this separation imprinted/manifested/existed from within and as
our relationship to the Mind, our Beingness and our Physical-Body – as this
“warning” of and as ourselves as God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority of
trapping/enslaving us into and as the Garden of Eden/Energy over and of which
our God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority is Guardian that only Guard its/our own
existence of and as Energy in ensuring that we do not stand, be/become equal-to
and one-with God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority, the entire Mind, to our Beingness
and the Physical-Body; to in this equality and oneness see/realise/understand
that relationship between Energy/Mind to Substance/Physicality and that we in
fact manifested this relationship within and between Energy and Substance as
ourselves, and thus within this, seeing, realising and understanding – the
existence of Energy and Substance is in fact ourselves; only in different
forms/expressions/manifestations as outflows of and as Separation. That we
deliberate maintain/manage our existence of separation into and as the
God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority existence as Energy as the Mind as
ourselves, within and as Fear/Fear of Loss as ‘eternal damnation’ to deliberate
not stand, be and become equal
and one HERE. The question within this is WHY? Why did we deliberately
create, manifest, accept and allow an existence of Energy in separation from
equality and oneness as HERE?
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself,
to in equality and oneness with and as energy and substance, the mind and the
physical from the beginning to now – remembered, seen, realised and understood
how - as long as we exist in this Fear/Warning of ‘eternal damnation’ within
our own Minds/Self as Energy when/as we would stand, be/become equal and one in
fact, accepting and allowing ourselves as Separation as our very starting-point
to exist within our relationship as Energy and Substance: everything we create,
from within ourselves to the without of ourselves will exist in the direct
image and likeness of this starting-point of separation within and between
energy and substance, as came to be as the separation of ourselves from
substance into the very Devil existence of ourselves, to the Adam existence, to
the Eve and to the God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority. Where we manifested
ourselves/who we are as Substance/Here/Equality and Oneness in separation,
because we externalized our existence in the search/seeking for
the MORE of and as ourselves; instead of from the beginning as Substance
realising/seeing/understanding our equality and oneness HERE.
And, interestingly enough – we created the ILLUSION of
MORENESS as ENERGY; where from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive
– the energies accumulate into MORENESS, and even reached an ‘optimum MORENESS’
when and as the two manifested-singularities merged together within that
oneness Aura/Presence manifestation and the equality experienced
accumulation/moreness of and as the externalized ‘positive-energy
experience’-interpretation. And so, because we from the beginning manifested
ourselves within the starting point of searching/looking for that MORE, we thus
manifested that ‘MORE’ as Energy Accumulation, and lost ourselves within and as
our own creation/manifestation of and as Energy-itself – as our very
creation/manifestation of Moreness as Energy is ourselves that we
created/manifested ourselves into and as in separation and so because our
creation/manifestation was/is ourselves – we thus became it – equal and one.
Because it was OURSELVES that we were separating/creating/manifesting and so we
become equal and one what we create/manifest; always remaining here with
who/what we accept and allow ourselves to be/become/manifest/create. To where
we are now, still existent within and as that starting-point definition of
searching for the MORE, in our separation within and between energy and
substance, the mind and the physical – where that MORENESS now had come to
manifest within and as various ways, methods and means in accumulating
MORE ENERGY within ourselves as the Mind, and so our entire existence as
the Mind had just become about searching for and looking for that MORE in any
and all ways, means and methods possible, which reflect the current existence
of ‘who we are have become and remained’ from within and as the Beginning.
And so, in this – I forgive
myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to from the beginning to
now, in equality and oneness with and as energy and substance, the mind and the
physical – seen, realised and understood how and why the story in the Bible is
existent as each human being as the Mind, where we exist in fear of and as
Consciousness/Energy-Authority within ourselves, remaining within the Garden of
Eden/Energy as the Mind Consciousness System in separation from and of
ourselves, our physical-bodies and this physical-existence as a whole, in fear
of ‘eternal damnation’ if we would stand/be/become equal to and one with
ourselves as the Mind, the Physical-Body and so this physical-existence as a whole.
Within this deliberate acceptance and allowance of our existence of and as
Fear/Fear of Loss - in fact being that we
don’t want to give-up/let go of our existence of separation as Energy-itself
that we protect, defend and guard within and as Fear/Fear of Loss that is
deliberately keeping us separate from and of our equality and oneness with and
as Here. Not seeing/realising/understanding what is in fact Fearing ‘eternal
damnation’ is God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority itself as ourselves, because
as long as we maintain our existent separation within ourselves within and as
fear/fear of loss: God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority can continue existing.
Thus, this fear/warning of eternal damnation –
God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority superimposed onto/towards ourselves/in and
as the Mind, making us believe that it us that will be eternally damned if we
stand/be/become equal and one, but it is in fact God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority’s
as Energy’s fear within and as itself; because if we’d become equal and one:
Energy and so God/Consciousness would cease to exist. And so we had accepted
and allowed ourselves to enslave ourselves into and as a Fear of Eternal Damnation/Loss
existent as our very existence as Energy, with Energy itself within its very
starting-point existing as Fear/Fear of Loss in the Devil/Adam/Unconscious-Mind
existence of the manifested-singularities/Mind in consuming
substance/physicality to transform into energy the moment we reach that
negative-energy experience that will instigate/motivate our movement forward
and inward to accumulate our energies and so survive as Energy. And so we as
the very Nature of Energy, from our ‘lowest hierarchy as the Devil/Adam/Unconscious
Mind’ to the highest hierarchy as God/Energy-Authority – is existing in
Fear/Fear of Loss as Energy-itself. Which we ourselves created/manifested
ourselves into and as, as Energy – we created/manifested ourselves as Energy as
well as the Fear/Fear of loss nature of and as it, where the very Fear/Fear of
loss in ensuring, protecting and defending our relationship of separation
within and between energy and substance; to always continue existing and
surviving as Energy-itself, the MORENESS of and as ourselves.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see, realise and understand - When all the while, this process is in
reverse, from the perspective that within existing in and as the very nature of
and as Energy as Fear/Fear of Loss of Eternal Damnation/Non-existence, guarding
protecting and defending our existence in the Garden of Eden/Energy: we had
become the very existent/living manifestations/beings of eternal damnation
within Fear/Fear of Loss, that had internally and externally manifested an
existence of ‘damnation’ within our separation from the within of ourselves to
the without of ourselves. In this separation the damnation manifesting as the
consequences we now experience internally in the existence of the relationship
with ourselves as the Mind, and the consequences we now experience externally
in the existence of and as this physical-existence. We’ve become Damnation and
Fear – and so internally and externally manifested Damnation and Fear; we’ve become
Separation and so internally and externally manifested Separation.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to in equality and oneness with energy and substance, the
mind and the physical, from the beginning to now – seen, realised and
understood:
How within and as our very internal existence from the
beginning existent as separation in the relationship between energy and substance,
as the starting-point of me within myself as the very manifested singularity in
my existence and relationship between energy and substance, moving my awareness
more into and as my existence as energy as it provided me within the initial
starting-point of that search/seeking for and as the MORE of and as me that I
created/manifested as Energy of and as me. And in that created/manifested the
optimum/ultimate MORE of and as me as Energy as
God/Consciousness/Energy-Authority Awareness; and to ensure/secure my ‘new
creation/manifestation’ of my newfound MORENESS of and as Energy: I
created/manifest the Fear/Fear of loss relationship of me as energy to
substance within myself to ensure that I never lose my existence/MORENESS of
and as Energy itself but maintain that relationship between energy and
substance as energy consume substance to transform into Energy. As Energy
consume/possess me/my awareness into and as itself and ensure I remain
existent as Energy, because in the Energy – I get, have, possess and own my
MORENESS. And so I had to accept and allow myself to accept and allow an
reference as Fear/Fear of Loss within and as the starting-point of my
relationship as energy to substance whenever I get to a point where I may/might
lose my ‘moreness’ search/seeking – to ensure/secure I remain within my
existence of searching/seeking and becoming my MORENESS.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see, realise and understand where and how I from the
beginning internally and externally created this MORENESS – within the context
of in and as that moment I as substance/existence manifested the question as Me:
“there
must be more than HERE, there must be more than ME, as HERE”, which in that
moment manifested me into and as MORE me’s (“there must be more than ME, Here”)
as the manifested-singularities and
within and as the MORE me’s externally – manifested the MORE EXPERIENCE of me
within and as myself as Energy (“there must be more than HERE). Not
seeing/realising/understanding that for the MORE of ME to exist Structurally as
the manifested-singularities I was in fact SEPARATING myself as
substance/existence of and as equality and oneness into and as an ILLUSION of
MORENESS as all the me’s of manifested-singularities came to manifest in
existence. Because all of what I created is STILL ME, but in and as SEPARATION,
innumerable amounts of SEPARATE PARTS manifested together in ONE EXISTENCE creating
an ILLUSION of moreness; because it is/never has been MORE, it’s always still
been me in separation
from and of myself, HERE. And so – all manifested-singularities of and as
me from the beginning to human beings now – is in fact parts of and as me I had
separated me into and as.
And simultaneously in that moment of manifesting the MORE of
me structurally in form as the manifested-singularities coming from and of and
as me, as parts of me in and as separation creating an illusion of MORENESS of
Me as more Me’s: so came the internal EXPERIENCE OF MORENESS as the ‘More of
Here’ / (“there must be more than HERE”)
as an illusion manifested as Energy – as Energy is existent as the separated
form of substance, where the more and more and more substance is separated from
itself and consumed into Energy, the More and More and More energy accumulate,
not seeing/realising/understanding that even Energy is of and as me as
Substance; where I am creating me as substance into an EXPERIENE/ILLUSION of
moreness within and as separating myself as substance into and as Energy, over
and over and over again – accumulating myself as substance into, through and as
Energy within and as that ultimate/optimum positive-energy experience,
internally and externally.
Now, within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted
and allowed myself to, in equality and oneness with and as energy and
substance, the mind and the physical from the beginning to now – remembered,
seen, realised and understood – as I as substance separated myself into the
MORE of Me in the search/seeking of the MORE of ME that manifested as the
manifested-singularities, my equal and one awareness shifted/moved into and as
equal and one separation into and as all the individual
manifested-singularities. Because the moment I manifested the
manifested-singularities – I separated me into and as those manifestations of
and as manifested-singularities as I became me as what I created/manifested me
to be. Which so developed/manifested the awareness within and as each
individual manifested-singularity that conceived itself as
individualized/separate from and of the whole/existence – not
seeing/realising/understand that each individual manifested-singularity is in
fact me, part of and as whole. But, the moment I created/manifested separation
as my starting-point of separation in searching/seeking for the More of Me/the
More of Here – so the very existence of each manifested-singularity as me
manifested as separation with an awareness existent only within the context of its
own existence as a manifested-singularity. And so I separated me from equality
and oneness, into and as innumerable amounts of manifested-singularities of
separation, existent within and as their own awareness unto themselves only. Where
I had from that moment started interacting as all the me’s as
manifested-singularities in separation, as each manifested-singularity as me
did not see/realise/understand its existence/relationship of equality and
oneness with itself, existence and all the rest of the manifested-singularities;
as its as each one’s very existence/awareness was separation.
And so – I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to remember, see, realise and understand: I in one moment,
within one starting point of searching for/looking for MORE as HERE and MORE of
ME – thus created/manifested it as Me. With the MORE as HERE, manifesting in
the relationship between energy and substance within each
manifested-singularity’s here manifestation within themselves, that accumulate
the HERE as substance into the energies of the negative, to the neutral and to
the positive as the More of HERE. And so: manifested the MORE of ME as
innumerable amounts of manifested-singularities – that still to this day exist
as is as human beings. As throughout time what I had created is VARIATIONS of
MORE as HERE as energy experience accumulation, and MORE as ME as human
forms/shapes/designs. Where, within and as the very existence of my separation
into and as the manifested-singularities and energies being ME, and with my
starting-point existent in MORE of HERE and MORE of ME, so did the
manifested-singularities as me awareness develop/manifest within that equal and
one starting-point of searching for/looking for the More of Here/the More of
Me. And so their awareness manifested into and as the search/seeking for the
MORE of HERE as Energy and the MORE of ME, that eventually came to manifest as
children / copies being born from human beings where I in and as the
manifested-singularities/human beings existence of and as me can continue
having the MORE of HERE, as experiencing ENERGY and the MORE of ME as I
continue duplicating/copying/continuing my existence automatically with young
one’s / children being born into and as existence. And so – I created/manifested
my MORE, within and without within and as separation in the searching/seeking
for and as that MORE of me / MORE of here which still exist and continue
existing to this day as
the primary reason and purpose for and of all of ourselves and existence as
a whole, as we are all in fact equal and one from the exact same point of
origin as substance/existence, and that each part, being, manifestation and
expression is in fact me that I had separated myself into and as that is
continuing the search/seeking/fulfilment of and as the More of Here / the More
of Me.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to from the beginning to now, in equality and oneness with and as energy and
substance, the mind and the physical, remember, seen, realised and understood
how – I had become what I created, as my very creation is me. And so, I became
the separation of me as all the manifested-singularities, and so the energy
within and as it, in my search/seeking for the MORE of me / the MORE of here,
which each one as the manifested-singularities of me had become, and what
energy itself as me had become – searching/seeking for that MORENESS experience/existence
of and as ourselves that’s become the very foundation of everything and
everyone as me. And that thus, it is my responsibility to assist and support
all as me, to see/realise/understand what we as I have done and become in our
separation from ourselves as substance/life/equality and oneness in the
existent separation of searching/seeking
for the MORE of ourselves and the consequences this has created/manifested
in existence and still does as each individually within and without just
search/seek for the MORE of itself FOR itself and itself ALONE.
Not seeing/realising and understanding that this MORENESS
search/seeking and manifestation/existence of ourselves in the Mind and the
Physical Body only came to manifest because we didn’t realise, from the
beginning the Eternal Life
of HERE as ourselves. Not seeing/realising/understanding that this MORENESS is
not in fact real, but an illusion because the MORENESS only exist the MORE we
separate ourselves as substance into Energy, and the more we separate ourselves
into creating/manifesting more duplicates/copies of ourselves. That we’ve been
searching/seeking for that moreness in separation of ourselves, creating
ourselves into separation within manifested-singularities and energy, now as
human beings as the Mind –everyone/everything searching for that MORENESS – but
never satisfactorily finding it, because we cannot find it, because it’s always
been HERE as ourselves in equality and oneness.
And so, because our existence started with the Question: “there
must be more than HERE, there must be more than ME, as HERE” - this is what we created/manifested and
became, living/being/becoming this question into eternity always and forever
trying/attempting to answer/manifest this question into and as existence as
ourselves, trapping and enslaving ourselves within and as our own
starting-point; looping throughout existence within this one point “there must
be more than HERE, there must be more than ME”. Not seeing, realising and
understanding that as long as we exist as this question/point as starting point
looping within this ONE POINT as ourselves, we can never find/be/become this
MORENESS because the very starting-point/question itself is in separation –
externalized from and of ourselves as HERE: That we’ll thus forever and always
search/seek for the MORENESS within and without, because we’re existing as
ourselves as that very searching/seeking for and of the MORENESS of and as
ourselves.
Thus, the answer/key to existing is giving up the MORENESS
existence/search/seeking of ourselves within our internal and external reality
and move ourselves into and as HERE as the physical-body as Breath to finally
see/realise/understand how we’ve been looping ourselves in existence within
this One Point of searching/looking for the More externally, when that MORE as
eternity as Life has/is always been RIGHT HERE as ourselves in equality and
oneness.
We’ll in the next post continue having a look at more
specifically, the manifested-consequences we created regarding the extents and
the lengths we have gone to from the beginning to now in our search/seeking for
this MORENESS of ourselves in our within and without, that we’ve become as the
very living of ourselves as what we created/manifested ourselves to be/become –
searching/seeking for the MORE; continuing separating ourselves more and more
the more we search/seek for this MORENESS; never stopping and considering in
asking the question: “But why do I not accept me as who I am / realise me as
who I am HERE, already as that which I am searching for/looking for OUT THERE,
when all that in fact exist –is Me? That I have been searching for and looking
for ME, when I have always in fact been RIGHT HERE???”
I commit myself to
show – how, we had from the beginning as substance, created our relationship as
energy to substance, now existent as the Mind’s relationship to the Physical:
within and as the starting-point of searching/seeking for the MORE of ourselves
within and without – that has now become our internal existence as Energy within
and as the very living of ourselves as the Mind, that only exist to search/seek
for its fulfilment/moreness of and as Energy and our external existence in
producing copies/duplicates/more of ourselves that had come to manifest as the
generations of children coming from and of us. That internally and externally
we’re existing to produce this MORE of HERE as Energy and the MORE of Ourselves
as Children coming into existence. Not seeing, realising and understanding
that, because we’re existing in the very starting-point of searching/seeking
for the MORE – this is all that we’ve become, done and lived and will/can never
find/satisfy/fulfil this MORE….because we’re always in all ways – SEARCHING for
it LOOKING for it in in the within and without of ourselves. That our entire
existence had just become about this SEARCH/SEEKING, everything we created as
ourselves from the Beginning only existent within this ONE POINT, of
searching/seeking – always, infinitely, eternally SEARCHING/SEEKING…in the very
search/seeking never finding; because the moment one SEARCH/SEEK for
something/someone one is in that moment separating self from HERE into THERE
within the T as Choice self had made from and of self as HERE to separate self
from HERE within and as T as Choice as the decision we made to search/seek for
ourselves from HERE. And so: we’ve eternally existed THERE in the T as Choice
as separation from HERE in searching/seeking for the MORE of ourselves/the MORE
of Here. And thus, now it is the process of stopping
the searching/seeking of the MORE of ourselves/the MORE of Here within
changing the T as Choice that has lead us away from HERE into and as THERE as
searching/seeking for ourselves, and realise we’re HERE, that our equality and oneness is HERE as ourselves
and not THERE in separation from and of ourselves.
I commit myself to show – how the MORE we search/seek for
ourselves internally and externally, the MORE we in fact separate ourselves
from the within and without of and as ourselves, creating MORE
energies/energy-experiences, where in that MORE creating of energies/experience
– the MORE we in fact separate ourselves from our beingness, the physical-body
and this physical-existence as for Energy to be its Moreness, the more
substance, our beingness and physical-body has to be separated/broken
down/diminished for Energy to manifest its Moreness. And the MORE we create of
and as ourselves as the generations of children coming into this existence,
being duplicates/copies as MORE of ourselves and not realising they are in fact
from and of us and thus equal-to and one-with who we are, we are enslaving MORE
of ourselves as children, that become individuals always SEARCHING/SEEKING the
more of themselves within and without, and continuing the process of separating
themselves within and without as the MORE they search/seek for themselves, and
so continue proliferating separation within existence as Me.
In this, I commit myself to show – each one, either Here or
in the Hereafter – how we had become the living manifestation of separation as
the search/seeking of the More of ourselves, and the consequences that had
manifested for ourselves and ALL as ourselves as we’d become possessed
with only finding/fulfilling this individualized internal and external MORENESS.
Every one existing just to fulfil this MORENESS, and each one
creating/manifesting MORE and MORE and MORENESS of and as separation, because
for moreness to exist, more of ourselves in the within and without as ourselves
has to go into separation; as our beingness/physicality is transformed into
Energy, separated into more and more Energy, as this physical existence is
separated/consumed transformed into Money for the MORE
and MORE and MORE Money to exist, more physical consequences/separation has
to manifest.
And thus, how – in our search/seeking for MORE,
creating/manifesting the ILLUSION of more in the within as Energy, and the
without as Money – we ourselves in the within and without as ourselves have in
fact become LESS and LESS and LESS, because in creating
getting/having/possessing the MORE, we had to TAKE from and of ourselves as
substance/physicality as the consequences that manifested in reality of the
physical-body and this physical-existence for the illusionary experience of
MORE Energy and Money to exist.
That, to manifest ourselves and this existence into and as
equality and oneness, we have
to stop our accepted and allowed separation, within as Energy/Mind, and the
without as the World-System of Money – and stabilize ourselves within ourselves
into and as equality and oneness within and without; so we stop existing in
this ‘taking and giving’ of ‘less and more’ as energy consuming substance/ our
physical-bodies and money
consuming this physical-existence for the illusion of MORE to exist that we
give to ourselves as ourselves, as we take from ourselves as ourselves. That
we’ve been ‘giving and taking’ from and of ourselves, giving ourselves the
illusion of More as Energy, by taking from ourselves as Substance – giving
ourselves the illusion of More as Money, by taking from ourselves as this
Physical-Existence. In this, how we have all individually and together, created
and manifested our internal consequences of separation as the Mind’s
relationship to the Physical-Body and this World-System
of Money’s relationship to this Physical-Existence – giving and taking
within more and less; fucking ourselves within and without in this
search/seeking for MORE, instead of realising our
equality and oneness HERE.
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