Friendship Secret Anthology: DAY 90
"Those are the inner voices inside ones mind, The voice you
use to reason with yourself inside yourself, the arguments you have with others
in your mind, the thoughts you have, the multiple personalities one exist as
where they are one personality with one person and a different personality with
someone else." - Andrew Gable
(To read this post, it
must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to
Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is
interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question
of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical
existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the
points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the
next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the
mutli-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as
Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced
with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self
first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many
dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in
previous posts.)
The
First Character-Creation – continued
The
Chicken or the Egg??? – continued
How
the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued
Who
I Am as Money – continued
As we’ve mentioned in the previous
post we’re continuing with, when and as in present-moments we face human
beings that within our Memories are not aligned with our Characters/Personalities
we physically live-out/embody and the processes that manifest in our
Mind-Physical relationship when this happens/manifest. And within this – the
consequences we have accepted and allowed in our individual
expansion/growth/development as human beings, with accepting and allowing
characters/personalities to determine our relationships based on
experiences/reactions of energies as emotions/feelings; to protect/defend the
secrets of the reality/truth of ourselves within and as our mind and/or
protect/defend our own personal wants, needs, desires and interests within the
secrets of ourselves/characters within and as our minds. Designing
relationships to protect/defend ILLUSION, and self-deception: instead of
aligning our relationships to in fact assist/support our development, growth
and expansion as individuals/human beings to contribute to life for all in this
physical-existence as a whole, in equality
and oneness here.
I forgive
myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to, in equality and oneness
with and as Life,
energy and substance, the mind and the physical, from the beginning to now –
seen, realised and understood within and during an interaction with another
human being, I within my Mind-Physical relationship will imprint/manifest the
present-moment with that being through my Physical-Mind Eyes, into my
Unconscious-Mind ‘glass window pane’, where my Consciousness will scan through
all my already-existent layers of memories/characters/personalities I
created/manifested in my relationship to/towards this particular human-being.
Where, each memory with this particular human-being – contain how I behaved and
experienced myself in my mind-physical relationship to/towards this human being
as how I
defined me in relationship to them, as I defined them in relationship to
me. Where, this process of imprinting present-moments with a human being that
we’ve come to define as ‘friend’ with whom we have had past-experiences/interactions
with, that is existent/layered/stored as memories within our Mind-Physical
relationship – is used by our Mind/Consciousness to ensure that the
Character/Personality that that human being / ‘friend’ secure within ourselves
in our relationship to them within our Memories: is protected. Thus, every
‘new’ present-moment where we interact/participate with them in
physical-reality – is ‘security-checked’ by/through our Consciousness from
within and as all the memories we have in our character-alignment/personality
in our relationship to this human being. Where, the present-moment is captured
within and on the glass-window pane/Unconscious-Mind – resonated within and
throughout Consciousness that detect the human being/friend within past
memories as how we aligned our character/personality in relationship to them,
and will in quantum-time assess whether this ‘new present-moment’ memory within
and on the glass-window pane, consisting of/existing as the human beings’
experience/behaviour/physical presentation is aligned with our
experience/behaviour/physical presentation as character/personality we
embody/live-out in relationship to them. When/as all is aligned, and the two
characters/personalities are synchronized with all the other existent memories
/ primary character/personality we developed/created/manifested to/towards/with
this human being within our Physical-Mind existence/memories: we have the
positive-energy experience that resonate within the memory of the glass-window
pane, with this ‘positive-energy experience’ essentially our character/personality
within the memory “recognizing” its counterpart as the other human being as
being similar/the same. Once this recognition is confirmed/established where
the human being/friend is still aligned with our personality/character – the
memory with the experience and our relationship to the human being/friend is
then transferred into the centre of the mind/head/brain region – resonating
within and through the person’s mind-physical existence and so the person comes
to embody/live-out the character/personality they have developed to/towards
this particular human being in their experience/behaviour towards them.
In this, I forgive
myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and
understand – why and how I have automated my Consciousness to ALWAYS,
automatically cross-reference my characters/personalities within memories of my
relationships with other human beings with any/all present-moments within
which I participate/interact with human beings in my world to/towards which I
created particular-specific character/personality relationships/alignments. In
this: my Consciousness ensuring/securing that my relationships/friendships
protect/defend my Mind-Definitions
of ‘who I am’ as all the Primary Characters/Personalities they
confirm/validate/justify in my relationship to/towards them, in memory and in reality. Not
seeing/realising/understand that this thus means that we’re never in fact
self-honest within our relationships to friends, for example – as they’re
always in the first few present-moments of interacting with them, seen as a
‘potential threat/change’ that is ‘security-checked’ by/through my
Consciousness against all the previous-memories of my character/personality
alignment/synchronicity with them to ensure/secure that they’re ‘still the
same/similar’ so that I remain the same/similar within my definitions as
characters/personalities of me within my Mind/Consciousness.
And thus, within this – friend, with the R as the standing
moment where friend can reverse into fiend the moment the human being/friend
within their character/personality change in any way that would be a threat/change
to my character/personality definitions of and as me within and as my
Mind/Consciousness – always hanging in the balance between friend and fiend in
every moment of present-moment interaction/participation when/as my
Consciousness proceed with the ‘security check’ to protect/defend the
‘me/I/self’ of Mind/Consciousness characters/personalities.
I commit myself to show, how and why the current
definition/existence of friendships only exists within the statement: “You are
my friend – as long as your character/personality secures the existence of my
character/personality and we protect/defend each other’s self-definitions. BUT
this relationship will R reverse into you becoming my fiend, the moment your
character/personality is not in alignment/synchronized with my
character/personality that places my definition of me in my Mind/Consciousness
under threat/change and so will sever all ties with you to ensure I’m
protected/defended in my who I am as characters/personalities.” Thus, within
‘friendships’ that is always existent on the fence, essentially with the fence
the ‘neutrality’ of the moment the present-moment reality
interaction/participation is manifested within the Unconscious/Physical-Mind
and Consciousness assess whether the human being is still friend/fiend, which
from the fence will move either to the positive or the negative, dependent on
whether the person/human being are still synchronized/aligned with our
personalities/characters.
Thus, in this – I commit myself to show – why/how
‘friendships’ as they exist within us in our Mind-Physical relationship is
deceptive/dishonest, as every moment we continue interacting within such
friendships – ‘friends’ are firstly approached as potential threats to our
definitions, and will only be accepted as continued-friends/relationships if
they are aligned/synchronized to who/how we are in our character/personality
definitions. Thus, within this – we are never in fact REAL within our
friendships/relationships, as they’re always determined only according to the
reference/framework of who we are within our Minds within the starting-point to
ONLY protect/defend our self-definitions. That friendships thus have nothing to
do with anything else but each-other holding themselves imprisoned
in the Mind, limited to the definitions as characters/personalities we’ve
become.
In this, I commit myself to show how/why, the
feelings/emotions as experiences we have within ourselves towards friends, does
not define our friendship to/towards them ‘personally’ within ‘who they are’:
it defines us within the according character/personality we created/manifested
within ourselves towards them, that we decided to experience/be/live-out/behave
that the ‘friend’ is protecting/defending/securing for us, within our memories
in our Minds through/from which we’ve developed our characters/personalities in
the first place.
And furthermore, how we use such feelings/emotions as
experiences/behaviours to solidify/cement our relationship to/towards the human
being, as an actual manipulation to ensure/secure that our friendships remain
tied within the memories as we continue living-out/embodying such characters/personalities
within and as our external world/reality. As the more we live them/physically embody
them – the more such characters/personalities integrate/permeate/manifest into
and as our Mind-Physical
relationship, which is the only reason why/how friendships will ‘last long’
as that ‘lasting long’ is the extent to which both equally, more and more and
more physically lived-out/embodied their character/personality definitions
within themselves, towards each other within their memories that became
consistent/cemented/solidified memories/relationships within their
Mind-Physical existence.
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself, to in equality and oneness with
and as Life, energy and substance, the mind and the physical – from the
beginning to now, seen, realised and understood the processes that manifest
within me, in that moment when/as my consciousness scan the present-moment
memory within and on the ‘glass window pane’ within my
Unconscious/Physical-Mind against the framework/platform of all my
previous-memories of interaction/participation with the human-being/friend
that contain my primary character/personality that the relationship with this
human being/friend’s character/personality is securing. And when/as – within
that present-moment, there is an inconsistency within their
presentation/behaviour/language/words, that inconsistency will be highlighted
within the present-moment memory together with an activation within the
present-moment memory as “warning”; where the present-moment memory will go
into a negative-experience of “friction/conflict”, as in that memory – the
other human being/friend’s character/personality is not in
alignment/synchronicity with mine, and so I within the memory will go into
reaction of friction/conflict
as negative-energy experience. This will upload into and as the centre of the
Mind – where, I will in ‘real-time’ as that Memory interact/participate with
the Human-Being and within my Subconscious-Mind
internal conversations/backchats – scan my Physical-Mind Eyes within the
detail of what is ‘different/inconsistent’ within the other human beings’
behaviour/experience as physical presentation/behaviour of their
character/personality.
So, essentially – the processes that manifested in my
Unconscious/Physical-Mind, is now happening in ‘real time’ in the physical
present-moment AS THAT ONE MEMORY uploaded into and as the centre of the
Mind/Head/Brain – with me as Consciousness from and as that ONE MEMORY as me –
assess/analyse/scan whether the person/human beings’ ‘changes’ / ‘inconsistencies’
is/will be a threat/change to my personality/character of me in relationship to
them. Where, within my Subconscious-Mind as Consciousness conversing with only
me in my Mind in deciding whether why/how this person/human being has changed,
what has changed, when this change happened etc. And will within that, in my
Mind, in conversing with myself – see if in this real-time memory-consciousness
interaction, I can determine the change, or whether I will build up enough
energy/curiosity as fear to ask, which is in fact fear as this entire process
is manifesting due to an reaction of friction/conflict with the person/human
being, being a potential threat/change to my personality/character.
We’ll in the next post, and posts to continue – walk the
process of what manifest when another’s character/personality is
changed/inconsistent to who/how they exist-as in our memories in alignment to
our character/personality we secured/protected/defended in our relationship
with them; what processes manifest in our Conscious/Subconscious Mind as internal
conversations/backchats, to in/as fear – assess/determine whether they are/will
be a threat/change to our self-definitions. And how we will accordingly change
in our behaviour as our protection/defence mechanisms as resistance we go into
for a moment while we determine/assess in our Minds/through asking questions
whether the reality of the threat/change is ‘real’ as re-assessing whether
we’ll stay in relationship with them or slowly, but surely start the process of
severing the ties ‘cordially’ or through manifesting deliberate external
friction/conflict within the relationship to justify/excuse why/how the
relationship cannot work, when in fact: it was always in all ways only to
protect/defend our own personality/character as definitions of
Mind/Consciousness.
I commit myself to show – why/how, thus – we as human beings
have never changed/evolved or will never change, as long as we only base/define
our relationships on the starting-point of protecting/defending our
characters/personalities of Mind/Consciousness that we
developed/constructed/manifested from and of our family/parent
relationships. Where we will protect/defend such personalities/characters at
all cost – with ANY change/alteration/inconsistency – no matter how
significant/insignificant in ANY ONE human being we have developed a
relationship of character-definitions to/towards: we will immediately approach
with fear/resistance, not even considering what we may learn from another as
ourselves; but only immediately going into protection/defence
mode as fear/resistance consume/possess our Physical-Mind existence, where
in that moment – we will see NOTHING ELSE, but our OWN FEAR in that moment, and
so completely miss the reality of the moment and the person/friend in
relationship to us.
I commit myself to show, thus – how this expose/reveal the
extent of trust we have within ourselves in our physical-reality participations
with human beings, that we don’t even trust ourselves to accordingly assess the
moment unconditionally, in seeing the reality of the moment/person within what
we can learn with them to expand/grow within who we are, but instead
immediately go into Consciousness/Mind as Fear we have come to accept/allow
ourselves to abdicate our directive-principle/trust into and as, to within FEAR
– make decisions based on the MEMORIES of who we are in our Mind-Physical
Existence. And so always in all ways: securing/ensuring our
definitions/characters/personalities of the past, always remaining existent in
‘past selves’ – never living here in the movement/change of all as me, with
opportunities to expand, grow and develop and learn more about myself/others as
me.
I commit myself to show, how – within friendships,
as they currently exist: we’re ensuring/securing that no-one in fact change,
but remained imprisoned in past-selves living in constant/continuous fear of
any change that may present-itself, and instead of us trusting ourselves to
assess the moment within equality/oneness/what is/will be best for all and thus
best for self: we assess moments in fear/resistance as protection/defence –
guarding our Mind, our past, our memories as the God
of our Eden/energy-existence of and as Consciousness to never step out
of/expand beyond the imprisonment/limitation of our Minds, into and as the
equality and oneness of and as our beingness, the physical-body
and so this physical-existence.
I commit myself to, within and as my friendships – assist
and support me, to investigate
my thoughts, internal conversations and reactions/behaviours to/towards
them, in seeing/realising/understanding that my friends are the mirror of the
characters/personalities I have developed/manifested as me in my Mind-Physical
existence, to protect-defend me in the Mind/my separation from me, my
physical-body and so this physical-existence as a whole. That, it has nothing
to do with the friends/human beings ‘personally’ – but has everything to do
with ME, as MY RESPONSIBILITY of who I am WITHIN MYSELF, and so: it’s not about
me in any way judging/blaming/condemning friends, as I am in fact only doing
that to myself. That it is my responsibility
to first walk my process, in taking responsibility for me – as/while I
continue interacting with friends, for example, to as/while I’m interacting
with friends – to remain here, self-honest with
me, breathing to be a living example
for them as me. Not enforcing change/demanding change, as I see/realise/understand
that it was my decision to start walking my process, walking me from
consciousness to awareness to the living of me in my physical-body in aligning
me/my life to what’s best for all. And so, I first walk me within myself to
be/become eventually a living example, and when/as they are ready as I stand as
a living example, they will ask/not ask – but that will not determine who I am
in my commitment to me as all as me.
Thus, the
key is to first walk self/responsibility to self WITHIN SELF, walking me
into an eventual living example, so that I am prepared/ready to assist/support
those, who are ready to assist/support themselves and so can walk WITH those as
me who have decided with me, they are ready to let go of Fear of Change – and
see the potential of who we can become in
taking responsibility for ourselves and our lives and so for all.
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This assisted me with understanding further a point I saw in a dream I had last night, where I saw the character of myself holding a grudge against a friend/fiend. Thank you