The Creation of the Self Character – Part One: Day 94
(To read this post, it
must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to
Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is
interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question
of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical
existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the
points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the
next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the
mutli-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as
Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced
with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self
first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many
dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in
previous posts.)
Friendship-Suspicion Character – Part Four
The
First Character-Creation – continued
The
Chicken or the Egg??? – continued
How
the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued
Who
I Am as Money – continued
(Continuing from the
previous post…)
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to, in equality and oneness with
and as Life, energy and substance, the mind and the physical, from the
beginning to now – seen, realised and understood the nature of the Thoughts,
Backchats/Internal Conversations and Reactions that manifest within being
confronted with a human being/friend that presented changes/inconsistencies in
their presentation/behaviour/speech, where for example taking a
friendship-relationship between two females, belonging to a group of female
friends:
Where, what must be understood is that
Characters/Personalities have distinctive Thought-Patterns,
Internal-Conversations/Backchats, Emotional/Feeling Bodies, Physical-Behaviour
and Physical-Appearance manifestations. So, with taking for example two Friends
– A and B: How Characters in the Mind-Physical relationship is
aligned/manifested, is that Characters have an External presentation/portrayal
and an Internal Intention/Secret/Starting-point where the Reality of Characters
is seldom physically embodied/lived-out in its totality, as most of our
relationship/living to ourselves is, in fact existent within the Secrets of
our Mind. And so – whatever is externally portrayed/presented is only a
fragment of the entire scope/manifestation of a Character of the Mind. Thus, to
walk this example – we’re going to first have a walk-through of two Characters
within and as two Mind-Physical relationships of Friend A and Friend B, where initially
they aligned within an equal and one Character-Relationship, but where Friend B
started changing, and the Suspicion Character in Friend A started activating.
Therefore, to understand the totality of the dynamics within and between
Characters – let’s first walk two practical examples of the components/parts of
what Characters exist as in the Mind:
Starting with Friend A – for example:
The Character that Friend A manifested is the internal and
external ‘split’ within and between ‘conservatism and promiscuousness’. Where,
externally Friend A present/portray a Conservative nature/presence – perfect
hair, conservative clothes/behaviour, perfect balanced/aligned ‘in her place’
behaviour, with communication and interaction with peers/adults always
according to ‘respect, honour and regard’ and is seen as a ‘A-Class
citizen/model child’, as how everyone else would thus equally as one
interpret/perceive ‘who/how she is’ regarding what she is EXTERNALLY
presenting/portraying of who/how she is.
HOWEVER – within Characters, there’s always an IN and an
OUT, a POSITIVE and a NEGATIVE – it’s existent within the equal and one design
of the Mind as Polarity, as the Mind’s primary ‘life mechanism’, that which
‘fuels its existence’ is the friction/conflict within and between Polarity that
generate energy. As with the very origins of our existence in the relationship
between Energy and Substance – as the Polarity/Separation and the
friction/conflict within and between substance-itself moving into/as opposition
within/as itself, creating/manifesting itself into its polarity of substance
and energy from and of itself. And therefore, in this – the most extensive
friction/conflict as negative-energy experience manifest within the Secrets of
our Mind, to from the continued friction/conflict as negative-energy experience
production/accumulation as we continue participating in thoughts, internal
conversations/backchat and reactions; equally as one accumulate/manifest the
positive external/represented mind portrayal that we physically embody/live-out
as the internal and external dynamics of a Character of the Mind we become.
And so, in this – I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted
and allowed myself to see, realise and understand why and how within Friend A’s
Character – externally is portrayed/presented the ‘Positive’-Polarity of the
Character and internally, the ‘Negative Polarity’. What is interesting
regarding Characters we physically embody/live-out is that the Positive will
predominantly be externally portrayed/presented, as the Negative in fact
reveal/reflect the origin/source/truth of ourselves that we within our
Mind-Physical relationship as most of humanity attempt/try to
deny/suppress/hide within the Secrets of the Mind; with the internal/Secret
Mind manifested as the actual processes that we accept and allow and
participate in to ‘animate’ our Character as the Positive externalized
representation/portrayal together with a hidden secret we’re
attempting-to/trying to materialize as the Origin of a Character of and as the
Mind. All this Equal-to and one-with within the existence of our origins,
originating from and of the Negative-Energy Experience friction/conflict, with
the Positive-Energy Experience essentially manifesting the ‘externalized
portrayal/presentation’ of the manifested-singularities as ‘God’, while the
Devil/Evil as our origins/source is existent within the very starting-point of
ourselves, reversing life/live as substance into and as evil/energy as energy
consume substance for its continued existence/survival.
And so, human beings portray/present the external ‘Positive
Polarity’ as an Angel, while the internal Negative-Polarity as the spawn of the
Devil/Demons within our Conscious and Subconscious-Mind is in constant,
continuous internal friction/conflict generating/producing energy for the
continued existence of the Mind in its relationship to the Physical-Body and so
for our Character-definitions we’ve come to beLIEve is who/what we are.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to, in equality and oneness with and as Life,
energy and substance, the mind and the physical from the beginning to now,
seen, realised and understood the design of Characters of the Mind we
embody/live-out internally and externally, where predominantly; we
present/portray the ‘positive polarity aspect’ of the Character, whilst the
negative polarity aspect of the Character existent within the Secrets of the
Mind, fuel the positive externalized representation/portrayal. Equally as one
as was manifested in the beginning within the manifested-singularities, where:
the negative-energy friction/conflict accumulated into and as the
positive-energy experience.
Thus, the more friction/conflict as negative-energy
experience we produce within the Secrets of our Minds, through thoughts,
internal conversations/backchats and reactions: the more fuel/charge is
produced to effectively portray/present the opposite polarity of a character as
the positive. Where we’d for example, with another human being, be able to
‘smile, be nice and cordial/decent’ WHILE AT THE SAME TIME, within our Minds as
thoughts, internal conversations/backchat and reactions can manifest the most
snide, spiteful and deliberately nasty conversations/fantasies to/towards the
other human being. Where this manifest in various degrees/levels/dimensions
within ourselves, regarding how the Negative as the actual reality/truth of
ourselves within ourselves – fuel/charge the fraction as positive external
portrayal/representation of the entire/total manifested-scope of the characters
we exist-as in the Mind-Physical relationship.
I commit myself to
show why/how we are as human beings are so ‘unaware’ of this relationship
between the internal negative and external positive, as the externalized
positive that we portray/present to the world/reality/society/relationships is
the extent of our awareness of ourselves, primarily existent within the
Conscious/Subconscious Mind. As our awareness – as with the manifested-singularities
in and from the beginning, separated their primary awareness of themselves
into/as/towards the positive only, separating themselves from the very origin
of their existence as the negative. And so, when/as human beings would dare to
investigate the inner workings/mechanisms of the Mind – thought,
backchat/internal conversations and reactions, one will see/realise/understand
that the externalized representation/portrayal that was shown, was in fact a
façade for the reality that is/what manifest in the Mind.
And, it’s not that we can’t see the reality/truth of
ourselves in this relationship between polarity of the positive and the
negative, the external and internal: it’s that we’ve BECOME, accepted and
allowed such an existence as ‘ordinary’ that we have ceased to question who we
are within it all and the consequences we’re in fact creating/manifesting to
ourselves and all as ourselves. And thus, we have simply equally as one
accepted/allowed humanity/this World-System
to continue existing as is, as ‘ordinary’ as ‘it’s how it’s always been’,
continuing to only focus on the ‘positive’ we can get/own/have/possess when
this entire physical-existence is placed within friction/conflict as the
negative as money consume physicality for a select few of humanity to have that
‘positive-energy experience’. And so it in fact equally as one is existent in
our Mind-Physical Relationships as Characters, where we’re as the Character
preoccupied with the External, as the Elite is preoccupied with their
Positive-Experiences of money/material possessions, and Yes – we do see what’s
going on in our minds, as the elite see what’s going on in this world, but what
gets the better of both, is the Secret desires, wants and needs of our
characters/of the Elite, that will accept and allow and ‘play dumb’ regarding
that reality of what goes on in our minds/on this Earth – will accept and allow
this absolute polarity of the negative and positive: Just to get/have/own the
possession as desire, want and need/intention/interest as the sacrifice of
everything/everyone else.
In this, I commit myself to show – how, each Character has
One Point, one Seed – from which it grow externally into the positive
externalized representation/portrayal of a being, and its roots into and as the
internalized root network/system of the Conscious, Subconscious and
Unconscious-Mind; where that One Point will be aligned within a Memory of a
Personal Want, Need and Desire that self had attached/defined self to/as that
developed/manifested self into and as an entire Character.
Where externally: the sun and water and resources will be,
the words, feedback and validation from others for the positive-externalized portrayal/representation
of the Character, that one use to manipulate one’s external world to get the
actual One Point as personal want, need and desire. And then Internally: the
internal Root-Network resources from the soil/physical body, as the
Character-System of energy consume physicality to transform into energy,
together with the friction/conflict resources that fuel the Root-Network as the
negative-polarity of the Character within and as our thoughts,
internal-conversations/backchats, reactions etc.; to again charge/accumulate
the ‘positive-front’/externalized portrayal/representation as self make self’s
way as this Character into the world, to/towards one’s ‘pursuit of happiness’
as the One Point that stand as the ‘neutral ground’ between the Externalized positive
presentation/portrayal and the negative Internalized friction/conflict
resources. With this One Point as The Decision that self had made of ‘who self
is’ within self and this world, and because the decision serve only the
interest of Self, self had to develop, create and manifest a Character for it
to emerge/manifest. As no one else may know of this secret want, need and
desire for in case anyone else want, need and desire the same, and so this one
point became MY PRECIOUS, that self is holding onto, that possess self that
self will get/own/have/possess in any and all means possible, presenting the
positive without, while within the negative of the mind, self will scheme,
deceive and play the game of competing against everything/everyone else as self
make one’s way to/towards that One Point.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to, in equality and oneness with and as Life, energy and substance, the mind
and the physical, from the beginning to now – seen, realised and understood
with continuing with the example of Friend A:
The ‘background/framework processes’ involved in
creating/manifesting her externalized portrayal/representation of
‘Conservatism’ originating from her imitating/copying her Mother, especially
within and during her childhood years, where in her mother’s speech, behaviour
and presentation EXTERNALLY, Friend A equally as one imitated/copied this
presentation/portrayal of her Mother. However, what is not realised, seen or
understood within parent-child relationships regarding the child
imitating/copying the EXTERNAL behaviour, speech and presentation of the
parent, is that the child is not aware of what in fact exist within and behind
the external presentation/portrayal of the parent as what is existent within
the Secrets of their Minds. And so with her relationship with her Mother and so
with her Primary Character that has become her Primary Definition: the
starting-point of this relationship with her Mother and this Character being
one of her Primary Definitions manifested when/as she observed her Parents in
embrace/interaction within the externalized portrayal/representation of their
relationship; where she as a child Made the One Decision of: “This is who I
want to be/This is what I want when I grow up” – as the decision she made in
that moment of ‘who she’s going to be’ as the Character copy/imitation of
‘Conservatism’ as her Mother to equally as one, one day have such a
relationship as her Mother and her Father.
Within this, she/Friend A was not in fact aware of the
reality of the Secrets within both parents’ Minds, the compromises existent
within themselves and their lives, what processes they went through in their
lives and still go through in their Minds that is silent as the REALITY of who
they are and how they became who/how they are individually and together; all of
this, is in no way shown/communicated/shared and thus not considered/known. As
what is Externally portrayed is but 1% of the truth that in fact goes on in the
Mind. And so the parents portray/present an externalized 1% of ‘relationship’ –
with the Child in fact having no concept of what was really involved in both
parents lives and minds for them to externally portray/represent ‘their
relationship’. And so the child will align their life in equal and one
Character, with for example the Mother in relationship to the Father and thus
equally as one align themselves to the life-experiences of and as the Mother.
Because it is within what we live as who we are that we align ourselves/our
lives and relationships; and so the Child will become the Character of the Mother
and so the life of the Mother: just to get/have/own/possess that Memory of the
decision of who she is within herself/her life. Placing herself on the path of
extensive compromises/troubles/tribulations in relationships, equally as one as
what the mother for example experienced – until finally ‘getting someone she
can just settle down with and get it over and done with’; which is equally as
one as what manifested within her Mother within herself and her life in her
existence of the ‘Conservatism Character’. And so Friend A, with becoming the
Character and Life of her Mother – will/may equally as one present/portray an
external image of ‘relationship’ to their children and so pass-on the process
and consequence of Character-Life imitation/copying, when none of it is in fact
real when investigating the extent of internal and external compromise
individuals had gone into and as.
And so, this child in that moment made the Decision from
that memory as the neutral point of the relationship between her Mother and
Father, and would externally portray Conservatism to prepare/practise for the
moment she ‘meets the right man as her mother did’; who would obviously be in
equal and one alignment to the father, as the child become the mother
character, looking for a character equal-to and one with that as the father, as
the child hold the memory within her of her mother and father that direct,
control and influence ALL her relationships and who she is/will be within it.
We’ll continue in the next post, with the Commitment
Statements and with how – for example, as the Child become the Character of
Conservatism for that ONE POINT of and as desire, want and need for
relationship, would then protect and defend this Character from and of
anything/anyone in the within and without of themselves, with, as and through
the Suspicion Character to ensure that that ONE POINT manifest within her and
her life: NO MATTER what extents/lengths she has to go to; and the extents we
go to in our Minds of shaping our thoughts, internal conversations, reactions
to always in all ways protect and defend our Primary Characters, and so OUR
wants, needs and desires – no matter what the sacrifice.
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