The Soul of Fear: Day 35
Energy as Authority - Part Five
The Chicken or the Egg??? – Part Six
How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – Part Seventeen
Who I Am as Money – continued
As mentioned in the previous post, we’re walking how we as Blame within ourselves in the beginning,
to the evolution of ourselves as the Mind and the creation of ourselves as the
World-System of Money within and as the deliberate nature and action of
ourselves as spite, excuse and justification: have deliberately ‘suppressed’
the evidence as consequence of our existence as Energy-Authority in deifying
ourselves into ‘godliness’ and defying actual Life-Authority into and as
ungodliness. Where to this day – we see the consequence of ourselves as Mind
and World-System of Energy and Money in our physical-bodies and this
physical-existence, but deliberately not see our individual responsibility to
our relationship as the Mind to the Physical and the World-System of Money to
this physical-existence. To understand how we as Blame – within and as spite,
excuse and justification protect/defend our existence/survival as Energy, and
deliberately not see/face the consequence we create/manifest in this – first
have to understand Fear, Energy as Fear, and how Fear became our Consciousness
that has manifested the acceptance and allowance of our existence as
Energy-Authority to life/substance as existence as a whole.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to,
in the beginning – from and of my initial conception of separation to/towards
substance/existence-manifest, manifested friction/conflict that consumed
substance into negative-energy experience from and of my external formation as
manifested-singularity, where the negative-energy experience
reverberated/rippled as accumulated into my beingness within my
manifested-singularity, which consumed my beingness into and as neutral-energy
experience awareness and from here accumulated into and as positive-energy
experience. Where, because I conceived as defined my ‘who, what and how I am’
as Energy – my awareness as energy shifted from the negative, to the neutral
and to the positive. In this shifting of and as energy-awareness – I separated
my awareness as Energy to only exist within and as the positive-energy
experience of and as the MORE of me as Energy.
In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to - for me to maintain and sustain my positive-energy experience
awareness of and as the MORE of me as my possession/possessing as survival of
and as myself as Energy, I continued accepting and allowing my nature and
action within and as Blame as deliberate spite, excuse and justification –
deifying me as Energy-Authority as ‘life’ – blasphemizing actual Life as
substance-manifest in and as my beingness and manifested-singularity as
substance-manifest, in the nature and action of me as excusing life-authority
for energy-authority as me to assert myself just to survive/continue existing.
I forgive myself, that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see, realise and understand how - in this process of shifting my awareness
into and as Energy as the negative, neutral and positive – my only purpose/responsibility
as Energy came into existence as possessing me as Energy and surviving as
Energy within and through the nature and action relationship of me as Energy
to/towards substance as Blame within and as deliberate spite, excuse and
justification; manifested as deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life
(excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as consuming substance
to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and deifying energy)
through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding
of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to,
manifest the purpose/responsibility of me as Energy – to only possess me as
Energy, with the nature of that possession as Survival; within and through the
nature and action of and as the entirety of me as Blame within and as spite,
excuse and justification. In this, only manifested my responsibility to me as
Energy-Survival, and separated me from my responsibility to and as all as me as
substance/existence-manifest. In this accepted and allowed separation from and
of Responsibility to and as Life/Living as Substance-manifest – to possession
and survival of and as me as Energy within and as the nature and action of
Blame through spite, excuse and justification: Deifying me as Energy and
defying Life as Substance-manifest – I asserted my Authority to such an extent,
where I would accept and allow any and all abuse, misuse and manipulation as
negative-energy experience friction/conflict for me as Energy to survive and
possess me, because the friction/conflict as negative-energy experience is the
only way/means/method within and through which I attain/accumulate my positive-energy
experience. And therefore, from this moment – my entire existence would exist
within the starting-point responsibility and purpose of possession and survival
of and as me as Energy within and as the nature and act of me as Blame, through
spite, excuse and justification.
In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to accept and allow such an existence of me as Energy to/towards
Substance/Life-manifest that I reasoned as valid/necessary for me as Energy to
possess me and so survive/continue existing, and because I deified me as
Energy-Authority into ‘godliness’ and Life-authority as
Substance/existence-manifest into ‘ungodliness’ – it made it easier to accept
and allow myself to in and as blame, spite, excuse and justification continue
with my existence as deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of
substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as
consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and
deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the
survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see/realise/understand that what of me as Energy-Authority is
maintaining/sustaining this relationship of me to/towards
Substance/Life-manifest – to this day as the Mind/Energy-Authority relationship
to the Physical-Body, and the World-System of Money’s-Authority relationship to
this Physical-Existence: is my starting-point purpose/responsibility of
possession and survival as Energy/Mind/Money-Authority that can and does only
exist within my assertion of me as Energy/Mind/Money-Authority being ‘godly’ –
and the rest of existence, as my physical-body, this physical existence as
substance-manifest being ‘ungodly’. In this Godly Deifying of me as
Energy-Authority, and Defying of Life-Authority as Substance-manifest into and
as Ungodliness, within and as me as Blame as the nature and action of me as
spite, excuse and justification - giving me thus the authority over and of
physicality/substance-manifest, in deeming it my servant to do with it as I please for my pleasure as consuming substance/physicality to transform into
energy for my pursuit of pleasuring me as Energy into and as positive-energy
experience awareness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to
– in and as this Energy-Authority relationship to/towards Life-Authority as
substance-manifest, manifest that which make me as Energy-Possession and
Survival possible: ‘less than me’ / inferior to me. When it’s in fact all in
reverse, I as Energy-Authority am in fact less than/inferior Life-Authority as
Substance-manifest, because I only exist to the evolution of myself as
positive-energy experience, and have to diminish the nature and action of me to
Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification to possess me as Energy and
to survive as Energy; existing as possession and survival within blame as
spite, excuse and justification – instead of existing/living here in and as
equality and oneness with and as Life/Substance-manifest within eternal
expression and creation.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand, how – the moment in my beingness/manifested
singularity in my first experience of me as energy-awareness from the negative,
to the neutral and to the positive; where in that one position/location within
existence – my positive-energy experience awareness started
diminishing/lessening to the neutral and to the negative: how this moment was
the birth of the substance of me as Energy as Fear. Because in that moment I
perceived/believed I ‘lost’ my positive-energy experience awareness, and so had
to go ‘find/search/seek’ my positive-energy experience awareness, which I did
within and as my movement/motion forward for my reward as Energy within and as
the starting-point of me as negative-energy experience that
initiated/instigated the movement, and as I moved forward for my reward in and
as the starting-point of fear as negative-energy experience; the energy
consumed deeper into my beingness, manifested-singularity and
existence-manifest; and in that consumption – accumulated my energy-awareness
from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive. Thus, my starting point
of and as survival as possession of me as Energy as positive-energy experience
awareness stood within and as fear within and as the action and nature of me as
Blame through deliberate spite, excuse and justification – to continue surviving
as possessing me as Energy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
throughout time, exist within and as fear of ‘losing my positive-energy
experience awareness’ of and as me as the possession and survival of me as
Energy-awareness, and in and as this Fear of Loss, accepted and allowed myself
to accept and allow my relationship to substance/life-manifest within and as
the nature and action of me as Blame through spite, excuse and justification
within the starting-point of me as friction/conflict negative-energy experience
for me as energy to possess me and survive as me.
Thus, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed
myself to see/realise/understand that my very nature and action of and as Blame
within and as spite, excuse and justification as deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of
substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as
consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and
deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the
survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness:
only exist within and as fear. Fear of losing me/my
Authority/survival/possession as Energy. And so will, and have throughout time –
deliberately accepted and allowed my relationship as energy to substance/life
as blame within and as spite, excuse and justification of and as fear, as the
godly relationship/authority of energy to the ungodliness of
life/substance-manifest – for me as Energy to survive/possess me as Energy.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand, that me as Energy apparently being
‘godly/authoritative’ is just a cover-up - when the truth of my existence as
Energy is in fact fear; and will continue accepting and allowing the
relationship of deliberate consumption and consequence to/towards
substance/life-manifest to protect and defend that fear through and as blame
within and as spite, excuse and justification to not ‘lose me’ as Energy.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand, that – the only Authority I as Energy in fact have,
is the authority of possession as the accumulation of me as Energy and power of
consumption through deliberate Blame within and as spite, excuse and
justification – that is empowered into and as godliness through and as
deliberate friction/conflict as negative-energy experience as the existence of
me as Energy in protecting and defending my possession/survival of and as
Energy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to
accept and allow me to create myself as Energy as Fear, existing only to
possess/survive me as Energy within and as the nature and action of me as blame
within and as spite, excuse and justification – serving only my
interest/pursuit of happiness as survival/possession of Energy, making my
existence/purpose/responsibility only to me, myself and I as energy
possession/survival.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see/realise/understand – how, I will thus not, and cannot
have any concern/regard/consideration for any other part of me within and as
existence as substance-manifest; because the fear as Energy possess me as my
possession of and as my survival as Energy to such an extent, that I will
continue existing to/towards all and everything and everyone in and as
deliberate blame of spite, excuse and justification to protect/defend my
survival/possession of and as Energy. And will thus, within this – continue
accepting and allowing my nature and action of Blame within and as spite,
excuse and justification as deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of
substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as
consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and
deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the
survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness,
both within myself and the without as myself – to ensure my continued
possession/survival as Energy.
We’ll continue in the next post, with how this Fear
manifested as a ‘presence’ within our unconscious, subconscious and
conscious-mind as Consciousness – that manifested into and as our entire Minds,
protecting and defending our action and nature of blame within and as spite,
excuse and justification – where this Fear became a force/presence/entity that
took control/authority over and of our awareness as Energy; and it is this Fear
that suppressed us into not seeing/realising/understanding the consequences of
ourselves as Energy-Authority over and of the physical-body and this
physical-existence. In this – how, essentially – our beingness became that of
fear for survival and possession, and completely programmed our
Minds/Consciousness in that starting-point and how we deliberately use Blame
within and as spite, excuse and justification to protect and defend that fear.
Instead of us standing up for Life/Equality and Oneness – we fall into the protection
and defence of Fear as the survival/possession of ourselves as Energy.
I commit myself to – through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, assist and support me in and as my process of
transforming my Mind/Consciousness existence of and as fear as
survival/possession within and as the nature and action of me as Blame within
and as deliberate spite, excuse and justification – into and as a living-being,
equal-to and one-with the living-flesh as my human physical body; to birth me
as eternal life from and of the physical.
I commit myself to, assist and support myself within and
during writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, not accept
and allow myself to give-into resistance, postponement, apathy, laziness – as I
see/realise/understand that such constructs are in fact protection/defence
mechanisms of manipulation within and as the starting-point of fear of
Consciousness/the Mind to protect/defend its survival/continued existence for
me not to change/transform me from Energy-Survival to Physical-Living of and as
equality and oneness with and as the Physical. As this change/transformation
would mean the End of Energy, and the Beginning of Life, and energy will fight
for its survival at the cost of life/physicality/substance-manifest – but I
decide to live and no more accept and allow an inferior/limited existence of
survival as Energy, but to stand as life-expression in and as equality and
oneness with and as my physical-body and so this physical existence.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness and
self-corrective application assist and support myself, to re-establish life/physical-authority within and as my physical-body and so this
physical-existence, to no more accept and allow myself to be controlled,
manipulated and directed by Energy as Consciousness within Fear of/for Survival
and Possession. But to in fact live and stand up for and as life/physicality as
substance-manifest, so that we can stop – firstly within ourselves and then the
without as ourselves - our accepted and allowed natures and actions of blame,
within and as spite, excuse and justification of and as fear for
possession/survival of and as energy/money; that we’ve accepted and allowed to
manipulate, abuse and misuse physicality/life-manifest.
I commit myself, to show, reveal and expose the true nature
of Energy/Consciousness/Mind/Money Authority as the fraudulent ‘god’ it in fact
is within this existence, that exist only in and as fear, to survive and to
possess only itself within and as the deliberate nature and action of Blame as
spite, excuse and justification – that has manipulated, abused, and misused the
actual god/life as the physical-body and this physical-existence. So that all
energy-gods can humbly step down to the equality and oneness of the Physical,
and start the process of standing equal-to and one-with physicality as
life/substance-manifest, to stop our internal and external consequences of
manipulation, abuse and misuse of physicality/life and start the process of in
fact birthing and creating Life/Living in ourselves and this existence as
ourselves.
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Took me half an hour to read lol. Awesome, insightful and supportive read. Thanks a lot.