Glorifying the Devil as the Nature of God: Day 36
The Soul of Fear: Part Two
Energy as Authority - Part Six
The Chicken or the Egg??? – Part Seven
How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – Part Eighteen
Who I Am as Money – continued
As mentioned in the previous post, we’re looking at how Fear
manifested as a ‘presence/awareness’ within our unconscious, subconscious and
conscious-mind as Consciousness – that manifested into and as our entire Minds,
protecting and defending our action and nature of blame within and as spite,
excuse and justification – where this Fear became a force/presence that
manifested our awareness as Energy; and it is this Fear that suppressed us into
not seeing/realising/understanding the consequences of ourselves as Energy-Authority
over and of the physical-body and this physical-existence. In this – how,
essentially – our beingness became that of fear for survival and possession,
and completely programmed our Minds/Consciousness in that starting-point and
how we deliberately use Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification to
protect and defend that fear. Instead of us standing up for Life/Equality and
Oneness – we fall into the protection and defence of Fear as the
survival/possession of ourselves as Energy within and as Blame as spite, excuse
and justification.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself,
to:
In the Beginning:
as my beingness/manifested-singularity within and as existence – when in that
one location/position within and as existence, where I for the first time
accumulated myself into and as positive-energy experience awareness, which then
diminished to the neutral-l and then to the negative-energy experience
awareness; where from that negative-energy experience friction/conflict starting-point
I moved me ‘deeper’ into the substance of existence, my beingness and
manifested-singularity where the energy of me consumed the depths of my
substance in my within and without to accumulate me as Energy again from the
negative-, to the neutral- and the positive-energy experience awareness. Where
the awareness of and as me as Energy in that moment manifested as ‘Fear’, ‘Fear
of Loss’ – as my positive-energy experience awareness diminished/lessened to
the negative, and within and as that negative-energy experience awareness as
the awareness of me as Energy as Fear/Fear of Loss - impelled me to physically
move me forward to search/seek for my reward as positive-energy experience,
within and as the who, what and how I am as Blame within and as spite, excuse
and justification as the deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of
substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as
consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and
deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the
survival/rewarding of me as Energy.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand how this Fear-Awareness of and as me as Energy,
manifested in separation from and of me as my beingness, manifested-singularity
and existence as a whole as substance-manifest, where the awareness of me would
have been that of Life/Equality and Oneness with the certainty of eternity Here
as me. But instead – due to my accepted and allowed conception of separation,
manifested me into and as Fear-Awareness as Energy that exist within and as
possession and survival in and as the nature and action of me as Blame through
spite, excuse and justification. That from that moment would only consider/regard
its own possession/survival of and as Energy within and as the starting-point
of and as Fear – manifested as the nature and action of Blame within and as
spite, excuse and justification to protect/defend its own possession/survival.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand, how I accepted and allowed myself to manifest myself
into two Realities – enslaving substance as me through consuming it into
Energy, and enslaving me to Energy that can only exist through consuming
substance within and as Fear as the nature and action of Blame as spite, excuse
and justification – and so imprisoned me into such an existence of the
relationship between Energy and Substance as me within the Eternity of and as
substance as me, manifesting me into eternal damnation/hell as the
Evil/D(manifestation of)evil (me as Energy reversing life/live to energy/evil).
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand how I became the nature of ‘god’ and the
action of the ‘devil’ as Energy – deifying myself as Energy into ‘godliness’ (nature) through and as the defying of Life/actual God as
substance-manifest into and as the action of me as Evil/Devil as the consuming
of life/substance into and energy within and as Blame as deliberate spite,
excuse and justification.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see/realise/understand how the nature of me as ‘god’, and
action of me as the ‘devil’ – exist within and as the energy-awareness of me as
Fear, for my own possession/survival as Energy – to constantly/continuously
through and as the devilish action of me as Blame within and as deliberate
spite, excuse and justification as the process of deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of
substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as
consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and
deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite): manifest
the survival/rewarding of me as Energy/positive-energy experience in
creating/empowering the ‘god’ / ‘godliness’ nature of me as Energy.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand, how – in the beginning, with my starting-point
awareness of me split into the two realities of energy and substance, that I
became the facilitator in the relationship between Energy and Substance. Where,
my initial physical movement into and as the depths of substance in existence,
my beingness and manifested-singularity was INSTIGATED/INITIATED by/through
Energy – where my movement was not an actual Decision, but something that was
driven/instigated by EXPERIENCE as Energy. With that EXPERIENCE manifested in
and as the awareness of and as Energy as me as FEAR within and as the
starting-point of and as negative-energy experience friction/conflict to
search/seek for my reward/survival as Energy within and as the optimum
energy-experience as positive-energy.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand how – from that moment, in the beginning – my
starting-point movement/ ‘living’ of and as me as Energy, would be
driven/instigated/initiated within and from EXPERIENCE as Energy as FEAR –
searching-for/looking for its survival as possession of and as Energy as the
positive-energy experience awareness. Where - the moment the energy-experience
diminish/lessen to the negative-energy experience, it initiate/instigate/drive the FEAR-EXPERIENCE as and from the negative-energy
experience of and as friction/conflict – and so move me to search/look for myself/my
‘godliness’-nature as the positive-energy experience, within the devilish
action of me as Blame within and as deliberate spite, excuse and justification
to protect/defend my possession/survival of me as ‘god’/Energy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
separate me into and as Energy to such an extent, from:
Level 1 Separation: My beingness, manifested-singularity and
existence-manifest in the moment of conception of me as separation
Level 2 Separation: From that separation, manifesting
friction/conflict that generated negative-energy experience, that separated me
further into and as the neutral-energy experience-awareness (only ‘me’) to the
positive-energy experience awareness (the MORE of me)
Level 3 Separation: In and as the energy-awareness of me as
negative, neutral and positive – the moment, my positive diminished/lessen – separated
me into and as the energy-EXPERIENCE of and as FEAR within and as the
negative-energy experience, the fear-experience of and as the ‘lesser’ of and
as me as negative-energy experience possessed the entirety of me as Energy,
where in and as that FEAR/negative-energy experience: I started moving within and
as existence, to search/seek for my survival/possession of me as Energy as the
positive-energy experience awareness.
And so separated me entirely/completely within and as my
beingness/manifested singularity into and as Fear-experience awareness of and as
Energy and the search/seeking for the positive-energy experience awareness
fulfilment/survival/possession.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand, that - within and as that Fear-experience awareness
of me as Energy searching/seeking for its possession/survival of and as Energy/positive-energy
experience awareness, the Fear-experience awareness possessed me as Energy. And
I at this stage had completely/entirely separated me into and as the possession
of me as Energy and the consuming of me in and as the Fear-experience
Awareness, separating me from and of the ways/means/methods I had become Energy
in the first place as the deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of
substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as
consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and
deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the
survival/rewarding of me as Energy. Because – I had become, what I had equally as
one done – consuming and possessing substance for energy, I had now become
consumed by and possessed as Energy as Fear-Experience awareness –
Fear-Experience awareness consuming me as Energy to search/look for its
possession/survival of and as Energy/positive-energy experience awareness.
In the next post, we’ll have a look at how we evolved as the
consuming possession of ourselves as Fear as Energy, manifested as
Consciousness of and as the Mind Consciousness System, and the creation of
ourselves as the World-System of Money – where in and as the consuming
possession as separation, separated ourselves from our natures and actions of
Blame as deliberate spite, excuse and justification as why/how – we to this
day, deliberately do not see/realise/understand the consequences we create to
the physical-body and this physical-existence as Energy and Money in and as our
consuming possession of and as Fear as the protection/defence of our own
survival as Energy and Money.
I commit myself, to through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application – show/reveal/expose the relationships between
‘god’ and the ‘devil’ within and as me as my Mind Consciousness System, in
identifying the ways, means and methods as the devil I use to empower me as
‘god’/Ego in and as my Mind – that especially manifest within and as my
Secret-Mind as the backchat/internal conversations between me as the devil and
god that in that relationship, ensure the possession and survival of me as
Consciousness/Ego.
Because, I see, realise and understand that the relationship
between ‘god’ and the ‘devil’ within me, is simply the relationship between the
negative and the positive polarity of me as Energy that manifest
Consciousness/Ego as the Mind Consciousness System to ensure its
possession/survival of and as Energy. And my process of walking writing,
self-forgiveness and self-corrective application is the process of stopping the
relationship between the negative, neutral and positive of and as Energy, where
the negative empowers the positive – because as long as Energy as the devil and
god exist in the within and without of and as me: Life cannot exist, as
equality and oneness.
I commit myself to show those of and as me – that believe in
the externalized God/Devil, that that relationship externalized is what we in
fact exist as in and as ourselves as the Mind as the relationship between ‘god’
the positive-energy experience of and as Ego, and how we create that ‘god’
within ourselves through and as the action of ourselves as the devil as our
relationship as the Mind to the Physical-Body that consume physicality to
transform into and as Energy. In this, to see/realise/understand – why and how,
beings of religions will stand within and as blame as spite, excuse and
justification to/towards the abuse/consequence that exist within this
physical-existence in and as the name of ‘god’ – because this is equally as one
as what they exist as within and as themselves: standing within and as Blame as
spite, excuse and justification to/towards their physical bodies in and as the
name of and as their ‘god’ as Ego/Mind/Consciousness. And so will only manifest
a relationship to ‘god’ externalized to maintain their relationship within
themselves as ‘god’ internalized as Ego/Consciousness, and so within and as
blame as deliberate spite, excuse and justification – accept and allow the
abuse/consequence internally and externally and not in fact stand up and change
within themselves and this world to bring forth a life of and as equality and
oneness for self and for all, because all is protecting their fear of
possession and survival as energy and money.
I commit myself, to through writing, self-forgiveness and
self-corrective application – as I walk my process of stopping the god/devil
relationship within me as the positive to the negative, as walking my process
of releasing myself from and of the fear-awareness possession/survival of me as
Energy; I assist and support me to stand with and as Life-awareness as the
Physical as manifested-equality and oneness through walking here as Breath, as
Breath the starting-point of me walking with Real Life as the Physical, and
start my process of walking my life-awareness with and as breath as the
physical body.
I commit myself to, as I walk my process of stopping the relationship between god/devil as me in my relationship as the Mind to the
Physical, and walk my process from fear-awareness possession/survival to
life-awareness living through and as breath, writing, self-forgiveness and
self-corrective application as returning me as Energy to Physical equality and
oneness as substance-manifest: To walk into and as the World-System of Money
that had become the nature of and as ‘god’ as the accumulation of and as Money,
through and as the actions of the devil as consuming, through deliberate
manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life/physicality (excusing
life/physical-authority for energy/money-authority to exist), as consuming
substance/physicality to transform into energy/Money (justified as defying
life/physicality, and deifying energy/Money) through and as deliberate
friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding of it as Energy/Money and
positive-energy experience accumulation as the MORE of and as Money. And transform the World-System of Money of the relationship between god/the devil – to Life of
and as equality and oneness as an Equal Money System.
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