Reward – Reap from Wars Within and Without: DAY 20
How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – Part Three
Who I Am as Money – continued
In this post, we’ll be walking through the specifics of our
beingness/‘self’ that had become based within the nature/manifestation of a
rewards-based system. How our initial I/Self design of ‘who I am’ that we
created as ourselves within/as our manifested-singularity within the layers of
self-separation as negativity, neutrality and positivity and the relationship
between those layers – manifested ourselves into/as the Mind/Mind Consciousness
System in a human physical body. Within this – walking-through the
manifested-consequence our accepted and allowed self-separation from/of the
whole as-ourselves created/manifested within the context of ‘who we are’ as
Energy/Mind as
Energy-Consuming machine that only consider/regard the survival of ourselves as
Energy, and our positive-energy experience within ourselves as MORE of/as
ourselves and how we obtained/extracted/took that energy from substance,
through friction/conflict as negative-energy. And the consequences of this with
ourselves, the mind, the physical and our relationships with others and this
physical existence – as we still, to this day exist as an Energy-Consuming
machine that evolved ourselves/our beingness into/as the Mind, the
Physical-Body and this Physical-Existence – as well as the World-System of
Money that we created/manifested in our image and likeness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
transform my equal and one hereness with and as all as me, where my
communication was with and as each part of me within/as existence equal and one
– to a limited version of communication, within the moment of my accepted and
allowed separation, where my communication of/as ‘who I am’ to/towards all as
me within/as existence was: conflict/friction as opposition as manifested
negative-energy experience, and from here – this moment of communication of
‘who I am’ to/towards all as me within/as existence became communication as me,
and so – all starting-points of/as my communication from/of/as me to/towards
all as me, manifested within the nature of conflict/friction as opposition.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see/realise/understand how – this starting-point of
communication of conflict/friction as opposition, manifested as my
self-communication within/as me within my manifested-singularity that I had
become, and that my self-communication with me within myself manifested within
the starting-point of
conflict/friction as negative-energy experience. And so – all communication
within myself, with myself – would be manifested within this starting-point
of/as conflict/friction as negative-energy experience. But, because of my
manifested-separation within my singularity as the layers of my own
self-awareness from the negative-energy experience, to the neutral-energy
experience of/as only me – to the positive-energy experience of/as MORE of/as
me – where my awareness became solidified only within the positive-energy
experience of/as MORE of/as me, shifting between the neutral-energy experience
of/as ‘only me’ to the positive energy-experience of/as MORE of/as me and
seldom into/as the negative-energy experience of experiencing ‘less’ of/as me
as energy: I became unaware of how all that I am within/as my singularity
originate from negative-energy experience.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see/realise/understand how I now exist within/as my Mind
Consciousness System as me, within/as my manifested-singularity as the human
physical body that I had evolved myself into and as, where: I shift between the
Conscious and Subconscious-Mind as my positive/neutral energy experiences of/as
MORE of/as me and ‘only me’ – completely Oblivious/Unaware of how my
Unconscious-Mind that I am unaware of in my preoccupation of my self-awareness
within the Conscious and Subconscious-Mind - is generating/creating/manifesting
energy for me within my Subconscious and Conscious-Mind through
conflict/friction as negative-energy experience. How my entire Mind
Consciousness System had evolved into an networked-unity that move within the
relationships of negative, to neutral to positive for me to always experience
the MORE of/as me as positive-energy experience within/as my Conscious-Mind.
And, within this: how my entire Mind Consciousness System as Energy-Consuming
machine, derive/create me into and as the experience of positive-energy through
the constant/continuous relationship between the energies of negativity,
neutrality and positivity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my
internal reality of/as me within and as my manifested-singularity, to become
structurally designed within layers of negativity, neutrality and positivity
and the substance/beingness within me to be networked/weaved/threaded into
relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity - where all parts of me,
within myself as my manifested-singularity would consist of and exist as
relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity. To so always ensure
that within/as all the parts of me I have separated myself into and as within
myself as my manifested-singularity, as I created my relationship-creations of
me to/towards all parts of me within and as existence – would imprint into me
within the nature of negativity, neutrality and positivity. As each
relationship that I form/manifest from within me – to/towards a part of me,
would stem from the negative, to the neutral, to the positive and only engage
in relationships and relationship creations within myself, where the
relationships of negative, neutral and positive would always get me the MOST
energy.
In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to be/become a Mind Consciousness System – structurally designed within
layers of negativity (Unconscious-Mind), neutrality (Subconscious-Mind) and
positivity (Conscious-Mind) and where all parts of me within my entire Mind
Consciousness System – thoughts, feelings, emotions, backchat/internal
conversation patterns, personalities etc. – would be threaded/networked/weaved
in relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity as I am in constant/continuous
conflict/friction within myself, as myself within/as/towards all parts of me of
my Mind Consciousness System to so constantly/continuously generate/create
conflict/friction for me to experience my positive-energy experience as MORE
of/as me within myself.
In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to structure my world externally within the equal and one structure of
my Mind Consciousness System, in relation to placing people, environments,
situations/experiences, places etc. within the categories of negativity,
neutrality and positivity and within that, engage within those very structured
categories in relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity that had
become the constant/continuous ways and means of engaging within my
relationships with all as me within my world/reality and this entire existence
as a whole, as we constantly/continuously experience/move/establish our
relationships within the relationship-experiences of negativity, neutrality and
positivity.
In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to create/manifest a World-System of Money in my image and likeness,
that communicate to/as all within and as this physical-existence within/as the
natures of negativity, neutrality and positivity. Where, the initial
starting-point relationship of Money to/towards human-beings/this physical
existence is negative as the dependency of money for one’s life/survival, and
from that negative-energy experience relationship, move human-beings/this physical
existence from the negative, to the neutral to the positive as the
reward/jackpot of them obtaining/getting/extracting/having money for themselves
within their lives for their continued survival. But the nature of this
relationship of communication from the World-System of Money to/towards
humanity/this physical existence – moves everything/everyone that is here,
within the constant, continuous relationships of negativity, neutrality and
positivity. Holding humanity/this physical existence captive through them
fuelling/charging themselves from the initial negative-energy experience in
their relationship with money, to experience the positive-energy experience
within themselves in relation to money in getting/having MORE money within
their world/reality and so MORE positive-energy experience within themselves.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
create/manifest within me – from the beginning, to the evolution of the Mind/Physical-Body,
to the creation of me as this World-System of Money – the nature/existence of
communication/interaction as relationships within the energy-experiences of/as
negativity, neutrality and positivity that had become the accepted and allowed
norm of the nature of relationships within myself, towards others, this
physical existence and the World-System as a whole. When, in fact – the actual
nature of such accepted and allowed relationships of constantly, continuously
moving within negativity, to neutrality and positivity within myself, towards
others/this existence and within my creation as the World-System of Money – is
the manifestation of each individual being, part, manifestation of/as me in
constant continuous competition within themselves, towards others/existence and
within and as the very World-System of Money itself – to get/have/extract the
MOST Energy through inducing/instilling the MOST conflict/friction within
themselves towards others/this existence.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand – how, within layering myself into negativity,
neutrality and positivity and accept and allow my interaction/relationship with
myself to be within the relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity:
that I would accept/allow such a way/method of interactions and relationships
to/towards all as me, and so accept/allow such interactions/relationships
within/as my creations as me. And so, have throughout time – done nothing to in
fact change me, within myself, change my relationships to/towards all as
existence as myself, or change my creation as the World-System of Money –
because within those very relationships of/as me getting/extracting/having MORE
of/as me within myself as the positive-energy experience within myself, my
relationships and my relationship to the World-System of Money: I win the
reward of myself, my own experience of/as positive-energy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
– throughout time, throughout all my lives, gather and extract from existence –
that which would/will make me experience myself as MORE/Positive within and as
myself, where I would design/programme my Mind in such away – accumulating,
extracting and hoarding from existence, that which I will use/abuse for me to
experience my Ego as positive/good within myself, utilizing the relationships
of valuing/defining existence within the starting-point of me as Ego as
taking/extracting/hoarding only that which will accumulate my MORENESS as
positive energy experience.
In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to – create/manifest this entire existence and all as me in such a way,
where each individual part/manifestation/being compete within themselves,
within their relationship-creations to/towards all of existence: to within
those relationship-creations that manifest within ourselves from the negative,
to the neutral and to the positive – align our relationships in such a way
within ourselves where we can get the MOST positive-energy experience. And so
the ‘game of survival’ was initiated, where – beings, manifestations / parts
would align themselves in themselves with relationships to/towards existence,
through generating/creating the MOST friction/conflict, to accumulate the MOST
neutral experience, to get the MOST positive-energy experience within/as
themselves as ‘self-empowerment’. That for self-empowerment – empowerment of
energy being powered/charged within ourselves from the
negative/friction/conflict: we had to go into/as the most conflict/friction
to/towards all parts of/as ourselves.
In this, I forgive myself that I didn’t accept/allow myself
to see/realise/understand that for some to get the MOST energy-empowerment as
perceived self-empowerment through friction/conflict as negative-energy experience,
other parts of/as me had to experience the LESS energy-empowerment within/as
themselves. Because – in the moment of conflict/friction with/as another part
of/as me – this moment of friction/conflict is the moment of competition, where
one part will win in getting the MOST negative-energy experience and the other
part will lose in getting LESS negative-energy experience. Dependent on the one
that can in that moment of friction/conflict generate the most negative-energy
experience – the negative-energy experience will discharge into/as the one that
utilize their beingness/force with the velocity that all/most of the energy
gets discharged into them, accumulating/rewarding themselves with the the
positive-energy experience within themselves, where the one that lose, only
gets the minimal discharge of the negative-energy experience and so only a
minimal accumulation of positive-energy experience.
In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to create/manifest this World-System of Money in my image and likeness
of achieving the self-reward of positive-energy experience as money
accumulation through/as inducing/inflicting/instilling the most negative-energy
experience as conflict/friction unto others/this physical existence, where: The
World-System of Money engage in competition with this physical-existence –
by/through conflict/friction – such as animal-abuse/slaughtering,
deforestation, fracking, water and air pollution,
starvation, poverty etc. – as the World-System of Money induce/inflict/instil
the most negative-energy experience as conflict/friction unto others/this
physical existence. The competition between the World-System of Money and this
physical-existence/physical lives that the World-System of Money continue
winning as its own self-reward as getting/extracting/having Money as its own
self-empowerment, and the majority of this physical-existence/physical lives
lose/get little to nothing. Within that conflict/competition with the
World-System of Money for it to have its self-reward as positive-energy
experience as MORE Money as empowerment unto itself, the
physical-existence/physical lives of/as individuals get nothing/less as the
losers in the game of survival between the World-System of Money and
themselves.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand – how, most of my relationships within myself,
towards myself, my relationships towards others as me, my relationship towards
this entire existence as me: stand within the nature of conflict/friction as
negative/negative-energy experience. That I only have a
minute amount of neutral to positive energy-experience relationships – not
seeing/realising/understanding that those handful of neutral to positive energy
experienced relationships, is in fact the groupings of myself with others as
myself that equally as one compete together in similar/the same
ways/means/methods to obtain/get/have the MOST positive-energy experiences
within/as ourselves through the ways/means/methods we deliberately use/abuse
within such groupings to instil/induce/inflict conflict/friction within
ourselves, towards others/this existence as parts of ourselves to
generate/create the most negative-energy experience.
In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to create/manifest the nuclear family-systems – as groupings of
individuals/manifested-singularities that come-together, with specific
ways/means/methods of inducing/instilling/inflicting conflict/friction within
themselves, towards others/this physical existence – to get/obtain/extract/have
the most positive-energy experience within/as themselves. This the
survival-skills that is taught/imprinted on the children birthed into such
groupings/nuclear family systems, of how to most effectively - instil/induce/inflict
conflict/friction within themselves, towards others/this physical existence to
get/obtain/extract/have the MOST positive-energy experience/self-empowerment
within/as themselves for their survival within this physical-existence as
energy and with the World-System with Money.
In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to create/manifest the World-System of Money in my image and likeness,
where the World-System of Money exist in groupings, with various
methods/ways/means of inducing/instilling/inflicting deliberate
conflict/friction within and towards this physical existence, in transforming
physicality into Money for its own self-empowerment as accumulation of money as
positive-energy experience unto itself only. That I did not accept/allow myself
to see/realise/understand – how the World-System of Money only accepts/allows
for a handful/minority to experience the neutral to positive experience of/as
Money – while the Majority experience the loss/losing, because for those
few/handful/minority of the World-System of Money to get/extract/have their
positive-energy experience as accumulation of Money – the majority as to suffer
as the
loss/losers within this competition. Because the World-System of Money – for it
to accumulate the positive-energy experience as MORE Money, it has to instil/induce/inflict
conflict/friction as negative-energy experience within this physical-existence
and physical-lives to be accumulated to positive-energy experience as Money.
Equal-to and one-with me within my limited/minority groupings
– for me/us to have/extract/get the MOST positive-energy experiences within
ourselves – we have stand/be in conflict/friction to/towards the Majority of/as
ourselves within this existence, as from that negative-energy experience: we
transform it into positive-energy experience within ourselves, for ourselves
for our self-empowerment reward as Energy.
In the continuation of this Blog, we’re going to have a look
at the skills the parents/family system train into children within the nature
of competition and the rewards-based system, that prepare the child for the
game of survival as competition in the living of their life in the World-System
of Money. Where ‘life’ had become about competition and survival for reward in
ego and self-interest, instead of all lives being regarded within/as equality
and oneness.
I see/realise/understand that, with me continuing my
relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity within myself as how I
have created/designed/programmed me within my Mind Consciousness System as me:
I will accept and allow the continuation of my relationships with others, this
physical existence and so the World-System as me within the nature of
negativity, neutrality and positivity and only because I don’t change: I won’t
change my relationships with others/this physical existence and the
World-System. In this, I commit myself to change me as the Mind of relationships of negativity,
neutrality and positivity through my process of writing, self forgiveness and
self corrective application, to assist/support the transformation of my
relationships with others/this physical existence and the World-System to stand
within equality and oneness, to
stop the nature of relationships within myself, others/this physical existence
from competition for survival to equality and oneness and living.
I commit myself to – stop the nature of relationships within
myself as competition between the energy-experiences of negativity, neutrality
and positivity that I have only accepted and allowed myself to engage within
for me to experience my self-empowerment as energy-reward for my
positive-energy experiences within myself; which had placed me into a
relationship of competition to/towards others/all as me as well as my creation
as the World-System of Money. I see/realise/understand that – this reward of/as
energy through competition is not me in fact winning, because what ‘lose’ in
the competition of me in all aspects that I exist as/within as myself, others,
this physical existence and the World-System of Money: is the majority of me
within/as existence. That this ‘winning’ as ‘reward’ as self-empowerment of
energy and money is at the cost of the majority of/as me within/as this
existence. That this is not simply a game of winning and losing, but a
war between lives of individuals/beings/parts/manifestations of/as me within/as
existence. And if I accept/allow myself to continue this war to/towards all as
me within the illusion of winning/the reward of self-empowerment as
positive-energy experience: that I am in this equally as one responsible for
all as me that lose their lives/beingness/potential of life within this
existence as me. And in my awareness of this – is my responsibility, to stop/change/transform me from a being of war and murder due to my separation within
competition, to a being of living that give life in/as equality and oneness.
I see/realise/understand that the starting point of me, my
relationships – my creation of/as this physical existence and the World-System:
is me. And to transform this existence as me, from an existence of competition
to survival as wars and give to all life as equality and oneness: I have to
give/transform me into/as Life to be able to give to all as me, Life. With Life
as equality and oneness, manifest – I thus commit myself to birthing myself as
Life from the physical to standing equal and one with all as me within myself,
starting with me standing equal-to and one-with me, by walking through my Mind
Consciousness System as manifested-separation of/as me aligning my relationships with myself into/as equality and oneness as Living Words, to live here in/as/with my human
physical body. And as I walk my self-equality and oneness within, I walk as a
living example
so others can walk with in the process of stopping the wars within and the
murdering of ourselves within, as we destroy/harm/annihilate our human physical
bodies through the Mind – to become living beings that gift to ourselves
Life/Living in/as our equality and oneness. And so come together and stand
together to stop/change/transform the World-System of Money of wars and
murder/suffering/pain, to a World-System that give life to all – equally as one as we have done for
ourselves.
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Great for adding the archive option!
Amazing how we've lived in such a fucked up reversal wherein we were glorifying 'power' while in fact it can truly only exist if a great majority is pumped up with further separation as negativity. Yet because of how this positivity can only last for so long, the dependency is perpetuated with no regard to the effect of the abuse necessary to keep our dreams in place. Thank you for this!