The Forward March to HELL: DAY 28


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The Forward March to HELL: DAY 28




Who I Am as Money – continued

In this post, we’ll be going into more detail/specificity regarding the process of movement as we started walking it within DAY 24 and DAY 25, from the perspective of how we conditioned/manifested our movement out of the mother’s womb within and as the starting-point of negative-energy experience, with (mostly) extensive crying as the physical body surge of negative-energy experience and pain and within this: what the consequence of our movement as energy/mind through the consumption of the physical manifested within ourselves and this physical existence as a whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, throughout time – manifest my movement within and through the motivation / instigation from, of and as negative-energy experience. Where my initial conception of me as separation from and of the whole, instigated friction/conflict as opposition – in that friction/conflict instigation ignited the combustion of substance-consumption that transformed substance into and as negative-energy experience – as the fire would consume the wood through ignition of friction/conflict, equal-to and one-with how I as energy, would consume substance with the ignition of friction and conflict; and so consume the wood/substance-manifest, as I would only exist as Fire/Energy as long as I consume the wood/substance-manifest through friction/conflict as negative-energy experience. In this process, for standing solid in one point as a manifested-singularity that initially conceived myself into existence as energy through separation as friction/conflict that reverberated/rippled into and as my beingness and accumulated neutral and positive-energy experience, as the energy-experience ripples/reverberations/fire consumed my very beingness within and as my manifested-singularity for it to accumulate, as eventually as I stand there in the one point as manifested-singularity, as fire burning from wood – reaching my utmost optimum experience as positive-energy experience, as the fire consuming the wood reach its utmost tip of burning as its highest flames. And as the substance within my beingness, and external formation/structure as manifested-singularity within and as that one point/position diminished – my positive-energy experience/highest flame started diminishing to experiencing ‘only me’ as neutral-energy experience, and eventually the lesser of me as energy as negative-energy/experience/the simmering of the fire within the consumed-wood.
And so, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as Energy - because my awareness of and as me as Energy had already been defined within and as the MORE of/as me as positive-energy experience/highest Flame,  I in and as my manifested-singularity moved myself to search/look for the experience of/as me within and as myself as the MORE of/as me as positive-energy experience, which I as Energy did through moving myself within and as existence/substance with an abundance of substance as existence as the whole available to me as Energy to consume as I move myself as a manifested-singularity within and through existence, as the Fire would move itself in and as its environment in its search for the survival of itself as the highest flame, through consuming more physical-materials to transform into Fire. And as I MOVED through and as the motivation of/as the lesser experience of/as me as negative-energy experience to look/search for the more of and as me as positive-energy experience, the very movement generated/created more friction/conflict as negative-energy experience as I move within, through and as substance itself as existence-manifest, and my very movement create the motion in the relationship between my manifested-singularity and substance/existence, as my manifested-singularity formation/structure accumulate negative-energy experience within and as my constant/continuous friction/conflict to/towards it within and as my constant/continuous movement within and as it. And as the negative-energy accumulate as I consume substance in and as my very movement as manifested-singularity within and as existence, so did the neutral energy experience accumulate into and as the positive-energy experience of/as MORE of/as me. Equal-to and One-with how Fire itself would move itself, in that very movement motion the process of consuming the wood/physical materials through and as the friction/conflict it manifest to/towards the wood/physical-materials for it to reach its highest flame and so continue existing/surviving. And so, from that moment – the very movement of and as me as manifested-singularity was constant/continuous in/through the motivation of/as me - searching for/looking for the MORE of and as me as Energy within/as myself as positive energy-experience the moment I started experiencing either the neutral-energy experience of/as ‘only me’ and/or the negative-energy experience of/as the lesser of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, throughout time thus – manifest my emergence/rebirth into and as this physical-existence as existence/substance manifest, where – within the mother’s womb I develop/manifest simultaneously through the process of conception as Mind and inception as Physicality; within and during that process rebirthing/re-emerging the Energy-Reality from and of the consumption of and as the Physical-Reality. With the mother’s womb, equal-to and one-with my initial positioning within and as one point within and as existence:
Where: as I developed/manifested my Energy-Reality as energy-awareness of me as negative-energy experience, to neutral and positive within and as my manifested-singularity in and as the one point/location within and as existence. Equal-to and one with where I develop/manifest my Energy-Reality as energy-awareness of me as negative-energy experience, to neutral and positive within and as my physical-body in and as the one point/location within and as this physical existence as the mother’s womb.
Where:  as I was within that one point/location within and as existence as manifested-singularity, developing/manifesting my energy-awareness into and as the positive-energy experience, consuming all the substance available to me within my beingness and manifested-singularity structure/formation within and as that one point/location: my positive-energy experience awareness started diminishing/lessening to the experience of ‘only me’ as neutral-energy experience, to the lesser of me as energy as negative-energy experience. Which was the first moment/instance that instigated/motivated the act/action of movement of me as the manifested-singularity through existence: where that movement allowed me to accumulate more friction/conflict as negative-energy experience and so the neutral and positive energy experience. Because, the more I moved, the more substance of existence I consumed and transformed into Energy – from my external formation/structure into and as my beingness. Equal-to and One with – in the mother’s womb, as my conception and inception process manifest into the successful development/manifestation of my physical-body and development/manifestation of my energy-awareness, from the negative, to the neutral to the positive-energy experience as the more of me, that I reached as I consumed from and of my physicality and my beingness within and as my physical-body: my positive-energy experience eventually starts diminishing/depleting as within that one point/location within and as the mother’s womb – I have consumed all the resources/substance available to me within and as my physical-body and beingness to consume to experience my energy-awareness of and as positive-energy experience. And so, my very moment out of/from the mother’s womb/that one location/position/point, is a physical-movement of me as negative-energy experience, that move the very physical-body – as I as the negative-energy experience of/as the lesser of me physically moved me as manifested-singularity out of/from that one position/location – to as negative-energy experience within and as my physical-body, physically move myself into and as this physical-existence, from where I will within and as my constant/continuous physical-movement as negative-energy experience, consume from and of this physical-existence and my beingness, for me to accumulate my neutral energy experience of only me, to my positive-energy experience of and as the more of me as Energy.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, how – in the beginning, my very first ‘physical movement’ as manifested-singularity was FORward FOR the REward of and as myself as Energy as positive-energy experience. With (FOR)(war)d:
FOR - as the initial motivation/instigation of me as Energy-awareness searching-FOR/looking-FOR the experience of me as the awareness of me as energy as positive-energy experience, and MOTIVEation – the motive for my movement as the search/looking for Energy as me, with my motive (moti) initiated (vation) as starting-point from and of the negative-energy experience as the ‘lesser’ of/as me as energy-awareness, to search for/look for the ‘more’ of me as positive-energy experience of/as me as Energy.
WAR(d) – as I search FOR and look FOR the more of and as me as energy-experience in and as my motivation/instigation by/through the negative-energy experience of and as the lesser experience of me as Energy, my very movement/act of movement FOR(war)d stand within and as the nature of war, as I consume substance through and as my manifested-opposition to/towards existence/substance as me through constant/continuous friction/conflict within and as my very manifested-singularity structure/formation of and as me, transforming substance into and as negative-energy experience, that accumulate the neutral and so the positive-energy experience of and as the more of and as me as energy.
Thus, FOR(war)d – (d) the manifestation of and as me, as starting-point of and as action/physical-movement as manifested-singularity – moving myself within and as existence/substance, instigated/motivated by/through the negative-energy experience of and as the lesser of and as me (FOR) me to accumulate energy within myself through consumption of substance (war) within and as friction/conflict; as experiencing the more of and as me as positive-energy experience. With (RE)(war)(d):
RE – as the receiving/having/getting more Energy for me within myself to experience the positive-energy experience of and as the more of me as Energy, which I do through the act/action/physical-movement of me (FOR)(war)d, and the more I move forward – the more the REceiving/having/getting more Energy for me within myself manifest, as in and as my very movement, I consume substance from and of existence as a whole.
WAR(d) – as I within and as my very nature/self as Energy – manifest war against/to/towards me as existence/substance as a whole, because for me to receive/get/have energy, I have to move forward, and thus in that very movement/doing as Forward, that manifest from and of my very nature of me as Energy, my very nature stand within the starting-point of war as initiating/instigating physical-movement as movement forward for me to accumulate/get/have/receive more energy for me to fulfil my purpose/reason as Energy to experience the more of and as me as energy as positive-energy experience.
I forgive myself that I have thus accepted and allowed myself to, manifested the very nature of me as Energy as Reward, and the very action/movement of me as Forward within and as the starting-point of and as accumulating more energy for me within and as myself, through and as the consumption of and as substance/existence for only me to experience my positive-energy experience of and as the more of me, that I do through waging war (earning energy) through and as constant/continuous friction/conflict to/towards existence/substance as me.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, the exact nature of how and why, initially within and as my one position/location within and as existence as manifested-singularity did not sustain my process of consuming substance from and of existence without, and my beingness within, where: from and of my external formation/structure as manifested-singularity, that produced the negative-energy experience as I consumed from and of substance/existence without, that rippled/reverberated into and as my beingness within, for the neutral and positive-energy experience to consume my beingness to be able to exist/survive. That my very physical-movement forward for my reward of and as Energy – initiated the process, whereby: in my moving forward – I moved ‘deeper into’ substance/existence without, where the deeper I move into substance/exist without, the more substance is available in the depths of substance-itself/ as existence-manifest for me to consume and transform into and as negative-energy experience. And so, the same manifested in the within of myself as my beingness of/as substance, where: the energy-experience that would reverberate/ripple into and as my beingness, would move deeper into and as my beingness/the depth of my beingness as substance-manifest and so consume more of my substance as beingness-manifest and accumulate itself from the neutral-energy experience, to the positive-energy experience. Equal-to and one-with the movement of Fire within and as this physical-existence, that would from its one-point/one-location with the resources/physical materials available to it within and as that one point/one location – would move itself forward for its reward of and as the highest flame, and in that movement forward – would move deeper into and as this physical existence, and in its process of movement deeper into its environment, would consume the very physical-materials for it to reach its highest flame.

We’ll continue in the next post, with how this movement into the depths of substance within and without, to consume substance for energy: equally as one manifested our movement out of the mother’s womb, forward, head-first. With the cries the sound of negative-energy experience through, with and as the physical as sounding its starting point of war against the physical/this physical existence, by consuming physicality/substance for Energy to continue existing/surviving as the Mind within the Physical-Body. Until eventually where the depths of substance had been transformed into energy relationships of unified fields, that eventually manifest to the final diminishment/depletion of Energy; as we as energy consumed all of/as substance itself for a finite existence as energy’ instead of standing with and as substance in and as equality and oneness and living eternally here with and as substance as Life.

I commit myself to – through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application assist and support me to put out the fire of me asEnergy/Mind/Consciousness that has consumed my physical-body and beingness, and equally as one putting out the Fire as me within this physical-existence as me  as the World-System of Money that has equally as one consumed from and of this physical existence, as the very physical-materials/manifestations and lives of beings/manifestations within this physical existence for it to continue surviving/existing.

I see, realise and understand, that – for me as Energy/Fire to exist, I consume my very beingness/physicality for me as Fire/Energy to only exist for a finite-moment in and as the eternity of and as this physical existence as a whole. And so, through writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application – I commit myself to, assisting and supporting me, to release the fear of not existing as Fire/Energy, that can only exist when I know that I will cease to exist as Energy/Fire eventually, because my existence is dependent on the consumption of substance/physicality of which I only have so much opportunity/time to use/abuse for me as Energy/Fire to exist for a finite moment.. And in releasing this Fear through releasing myself from and of Energy as the Mind/Consciousness and returning me to Substance/Physicality as the process I walk in standing/being/becoming the Living Word as transforming myself from Energy-experience to Physical-Living, to stand equal-to and one-with substance/physicality/existence: I will come to see/realise/understand that I have not ever in fact existed/lived – I have survived through consumption. That I have never in fact existed/lived as I have missed Life, here as existence in and as equality and oneness as me, and so in that – my fear of not existing was only manifested, because I wasn’t EXISTence in fact as eternity, here.

In this, I commit myself to being a living-example – to have others walk with me, in and as equality and oneness, as we all walk together in putting out our fires/energy as Mind within and as ourselves, stopping the process of beingness/physical consumption and actually being/becoming living-beings, instead of consuming energy-systems; to in our standing-together – walk into and as the World-System of Money, to together put out the Fire in and as the without as ourselves that we’ve created/manifested together, and manifest the System as the Equal Money System –that do not consume life, but gift Life.

I commit myself, to thus – as I put out the Fire/stop as returning me as Energy/Consciousness/Mind to and as the Physical in being/becoming a living being of and as equality and oneness: thus stop the movement of me as forward for the reward of and as positive-energy experience as the more of me, as my self-interested participation in this existence as me, as I consume substance/physicality within my movement forward for only me to exist/survive as reward. That I have to see/realise/understand that I must first STOP, which I do with and as breath, and my process of and as writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application and stand equal-to and one-with the movement as expression of and as my physical-body, to see/realise/understand what movement as expression in and as equality and oneness really in fact mean. 



 
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