Consumerism Starts in the Womb of the Mother: DAY 23
How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – Part
Six
Who I Am as Money – continued
In this post, we’re continuing with how we’ve
created/programmed ourselves (instead of living ourselves) into and as
energy-consuming systems/machines as the Mind, with the awareness of ourselves
as energy that developed/evolved into Consciousness from the Unconscious (Negative-Energy), Subconscious (Neutral Energy) and Conscious-Mind (Positive-Energy). With the entire nature of/as ourselves manifested within
Competition for the Interest of Self-Reward through energy consumption within
ourselves of/as substance, physicality and the without as ourselves as this
physical existence/World System.
In this Post, we’re more specifically going to have a look
at the parent-child relationship within the principle of our equal and one
responsibility as all children, as all parents as ourselves that we’ve
accepted and allowed to be/become and exist as ourselves, and within that – our
equal and one responsibility for the nature of this
physical-existence/World-System that we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to be
birthed into and trained/educated/guided into as the preparation of competing
for our survival as energy-consuming systems/machines as Minds. Instead of
living and being birthed into an existence of/as equality and oneness where
Life is Lived.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
manifest the ‘family system’/ ‘groupings’ that I would be born into with a
parent-child relationship within such systems/groupings – where, the nature of
the family-system/groupings stand within the ways/means/methods I as a child
birthed into this physical-existence/World-System would be accordingly
prepared/trained/educated to manifest me into/as an
self-rewarding energy-consuming system as a Mind with the nature of competition
and survival. Developing my Conscious, Subconscious and Unconscious Mind as my
starting-point of/as me as friction/conflict as negative-energy experience
(Unconscious-Mind/Physical Behaviour) to accumulate my neutral
(Subconscious-Mind Personalities/definitions of/as ‘only me’) and positive
energy experiences (Conscious-Mind Pursuit of Happiness) for me to
get/extract/have the MORE of/as me as positive-energy experience. In this
design/programming of/as me as the Mind – manifesting me as a system for
survival for energy within me, preparing myself from childhood to compete for
Energy within myself for my self-reward/success as positive-energy experience,
to prepare me for adulthood to compete for Money for my survival as my
self-reward/success as accumulation of Money. In this process – consuming
substance/physicality for my Mind to transform into/as Energy, consuming
from/of this physical-existence for me to
accumulate Money from/of the World-System of Money that consume from/of this
physical existence in transforming physicality into Money. And so become an
equal and one individual within this existence – that consume itself and all to
death, instead of me being the future of this existence, that birth as life and
gift life to all within/as equality and oneness – I have become a
reaper of war, that accept and allow wars within myself and this existence as I
have enslaved me as all as me into/as the fight/war of survival as
consuming/extracting substance/physicality for our own survival of/as Energy
within and Money without through friction/conflict as competition.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand – how, in my very physical-development in the
womb/physical-body of the mother, I start the process of
extracting/taking from/of the physicality of the female physical-body for me to
develop/manifest/create MY physical-body. Taking/extracting from the very
substance/sustenance/nutrients and fabric of/as the female’s physical-body as I
develop/manifest/create MY physical body. Equal-to and One-with my
development/manifestation/creation of/as me within/as the
manifested-singularity that manifested from friction/conflict as
negative-energy experience, as I separated me into/as a manifested-singularity
from going into conflict/friction against the whole as me. As MY physical-body
develop/manifest/create within/as the womb of the female’s physical-body, the
relationship that manifest as
MY physical-body from/of the physical-body of/as the female: stand within the
equal and one nature of developing/manifesting/creating through
friction/conflict as negative-energy experience as I extract/take substance/sustenance/nutrients
and fabric of/as the female’s physical-body. And so, in this – manifesting my
very physical-relationship/unconscious-relationship to/towards the
physical-body of/as the female within/as friction/conflict as negative-energy
experience that become the initial starting-point relationship between the
physical’s as manifested-singularities of/as the female and child.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
create/manifest such a relationship between physical-bodies, equal-to and
one-with how I emerged/birthed in the beginning from within/of/as existence –
where: instead of me realising/seeing/understanding the substance of/as ‘who I
am’ within myself as manifested-singularity has birthed from/of the whole as
existence in/as equality and oneness: I interpreted/perceived me as an
individual/separation from/of the whole and so manifested the relationship of
friction/conflict as separation as negative-energy experience to/towards the
whole as me as consuming substance for me as manifested-singularity as energy
to exist.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see/realise/understand how – throughout time, with this separation becoming
my starting-point of/as me within/as existence as I emerged/birthed into
existence – life after life after life: this has become the physicality of/as
my birth/emergence into/as this physical existence as me. With the female-body
the representation of existence, birthing/emerging a part of/as itself into/as
existence, where instead of that part/manifested singularity birthing/emerging
in and as
equality and oneness, where as I develop/manifest/create me as
manifested-singularity/physical-body with/as the whole/female physical-body
in/as equality and oneness – where I assist/support me with/as the whole/female
physical-body, as the whole/female physical-body assist/support me as a part
of/as itself: it has come to where, I am given the opportunity to
develop/create/manifest me as a physical-body with and within the womb of the
mother in equality and oneness, but I don’t equally as one assist/support the
female’s physical-body, and immediately go into friction/conflict as
negative-energy experience to/towards the physical of the female for me to
develop/create/manifest MY physical-body for/of/as my own survival as a
physical-body in/as this physical existence through consuming from/of the
female’s physical-body.
I forgive that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to
see/realise/understand that I accepted and allowed such a birth/emergence of/as
me within/as the womb of the female physical-body, with the initial
physical-relationship/unconscious-relationship manifesting within the
starting-point of/as friction/conflict as negative-energy experience as I
extract/take and consume substance/sustenance/nutrients and fabric of/as the
female’s physical-body: based-on how I have, throughout time – emerged/birthed
into/as existence as a whole, as a manifested-singularity in immediate
conflict/friction as negative-energy experience to/towards all as me as I
consume substance to develop/manifest me within/as my manifested-singularity as
Energy.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand how my very initial physical-development within/as
this physical-existence manifested through/as the female’s physical-body: stand
within the nature of consuming the very life/substance/physicality of/as this
physical-existence as manifested physical-body of/as the female: equal-to and
one-with ‘who I am’ and have been throughout existence as a
manifested-singularity that develop/manifest/create itself from/of consuming
substance/life as existence as a whole for me as a manifested-singularity to
survive/exist.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand how with me developing/creating/manifesting my very
physical body as manifested-singularity within/as the starting-point of/as
friction/conflict as negative-energy experience: I was
manifesting/creating/developing my Unconscious-Mind as my entire
manifested-singularity/physical-body relationship to/towards the whole as me as
this physical-existence that would stand within the relationship-nature of/as
friction/conflict as negative-energy experience. Equal-to and One-with how – in
the beginning, I developed my Unconscious in the emergence of/as me as a
manifested-singularity with/as my initial relationship as
manifested-singularity existing within/as the nature of the relationship
to/towards all/the whole as me as friction/conflict as negative-energy
experience. And so my birth/emergence into/as existence in the beginning, has
become equally as one manifested in the birth/emergence into/as this physical
existence: a manifested-singularity/physical-body in complete separation through friction/conflict as negative-energy experience to/towards
existence/this physical existence as a whole. And so, from here – my accepted
and allowed relationship in this very existence/physical-existence – would be
me as a part of existence/this physical existence, that consume from/of
existence/this physical-existence for me as the
manifested-singularity/physical-body to survive/exist as Energy-Manifest.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand – how ‘who I am’ as Energy, develop/manifest/create
myself with and as my development/creation/manifestation of my physical-body
within/as the womb of/as the female’s physical-body. Where, as I
develop/manifest/create my physical-body from/of
consuming the very life/substance/physicality of/as the female physical-body –
I simultaneously within myself, develop/create/manifest my ‘who I am’ as Energy
– through accumulating and manifesting the negative-energy experience within/as
my ‘who I am’ from/of the friction/conflict to/towards the physical-body of/as
the female – transforming that friction/conflict that manifest between the
physicals into and as negative-energy experience that I accumulate within/as my
‘who I am’ within/as my physical-body development/creation/manifestation. And
so, what I create/develop/manifest my ‘who I am’ into/as from the beginning as
starting-point of/as who I am – is negative-energy that will become my
Unconscious-Mind and physical-behaviour as I birth/emerge into/as this
physical-existence when birthing/emerging out of the female’s womb.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see/realise/understand how – in my initial
development/manifestation/creation years in/as this physical-existence, my
physical/unconscious-relationship to/towards others as me/this
physical-existence as me stand within/as the physical-nature of/as friction/conflict
as negative-energy experience. As I in my physical ‘who I am’ as Unconscious-Mind
as manifested friction/conflict of/as negative-energy experience to/towards
others/this physical-existence as me – communicate through/as friction/conflict as negative-energy experience, as I
had limited/diminished my ways/means/methods of communication since the
beginning to only be able to communicate within/as who I have become as my
communication to/towards all as me within/as the nature of friction/conflict as
negative-energy experience. Where – as a child in the initial years within/as
this physical-existence, I am in fact developing/manifesting/creating my
physical-behaviour as Unconscious-Mind in my relationship to others/this
physical-existence to develop/create/manifest my
awareness as Energy within/as myself as my Subconscious and Unconscious-Mind
through/as my initial interaction/relationship of/as communication within/as
the nature of/as friction/conflict as negative-energy experience.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand that what I do as a child in my initial years within
this physical-existence – is through my physical-communication as
friction/conflict as negative-energy experience: develop/create/manifest my
relationships to/towards others/this physical existence for the most
effective/rewarding ways/means/methods of accumulating negative-energy
experience, to transform into neutral-energy experience, to manifest into
positive-energy experience within/as myself. And this continues into/as my
adult-years, where in my very physical-behaviour/interaction/communication as
my Unconscious-Mind stand within/as the nature of/as conflict/friction as
negative-energy experience to/towards others/this physical-existence as me, as
my ways/means/methods of accumulating neutral and positive energy experience
within/as myself – from/of the extent of conflict/friction I
generate/create/manifest to/towards others and this physical-existence as me,
that I developed/created/manifested in my relationship to/towards my family, as
my parents trained/prepared/educated into/as me .
In the next post, we’ll be going into more detail as to how
exactly, we developed our physical-communication/Unconscious-Mind as ourselves
in relation to family/parents, how as a child we developed the most
effective/rewarding ways/means/methods of deliberately manifesting
friction/conflict for negative-energy experience, and so positive-energy
experience to accumulate within ourselves, and how – within that: our parents
accepted and allowed the development of such physical-communication/behaviour
as the Unconscious-Mind.
I commit myself to – through writing,
self-forgiveness and self-corrective application: assist and support me to
walk-through my Conscious, Subconscious and Unconscious-Mind, to get-to the
core/origin/source of how I accepted and allowed myself to
develop/create/manifest my very physical-living of/as ‘who I am’ as Energy as
friction/conflict as negative-energy experience to/towards myself, others and
this physical-existence; to
transform ‘who I am’ into and as a living-being in/as equality and oneness with
my physical-body and this physical-existence. So that I stop my accepted and
allowed deliberate relationship of consuming substance/physical within myself
and this physical-existence only for me as Energy to survive/exist.
In this, I commit myself to - in this correction of/as me in
my standing with/as my physical-body and this physical-existence in/as equality
and oneness, stand as a living-example for others as me, and especially parents as me – to
change/transform, first – their relationship with themselves as the physical-body/this physical-existence, to
prepare themselves to stand as living-examples for/as their children, to
assist/support and guide/direct their children equal-to and one-with how they
have assisted/supported themselves, to become individuals that stand equal-to
and one-with themselves, the physical-body and this physical-existence. And so,
from us and eventually the children – to change/transform the nature of our relationships of ourselves, the
physical-body and this physical-existence to equality and oneness living with
the physical-body and this physical-existence, and no more accept and allow the
abuse/consumption of substance/physicality in the nature of the relationship of
friction/conflict as negative-energy experience in
developing/creating/manifesting individuals of survival in the nature of
self-reward for/as energy – that use/abuse/consume physicality/this physical
existence through competition/war, but become living beings.
In this, I commit myself to – implementing/manifesting a
World-System of Money, that present the opportunity for parents and children to
walk this process of changing/transforming themselves form energy-consuming
machines of self-rewarding/interested nature within the starting-point of
competition/war/fighting for Energy for Survival that the
current World-System is accepting/allowing/promoting to be the ‘way of life’ –
consumerism within and without at the cost/expense of our own lives and that of
all within/as this physical existence. To a World-System of Money, where each as all have an equal and one life of living
and can from here – assist/support themselves in
developing/manifesting/creating themselves and their children/the children of
this world – into self-equality and oneness, equality and oneness with the
physical and this physical-existence; to so transform this world of war, to a
world of Life.
In this, I commit myself to
reforming the nature of Education in the current World-System to
Education within and Equal Money System – from the education of competition for survival through consumerism, to an
self-education/self-living process – educating parents and children on
effective self-relationships with themselves, their physicals and this physical
existence, and orienting education and evolution to contributing to the
wellbeing of all of humanity and this physical existence, instead of education
and evolutions of systems/technology for profit, greed and dominion.
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While I was reading the relationship of friction developed in the womb, a vague memory came up wherein I would experience this inexplicable hatred toward my mother that would come up like surge within me without a reason. And as I bring the moment here as the experience, I get a sharp sharp pain on my right breast. I cannot remember the memory, only the sensation as a mix of hatred/ irritation/ rejection/ disgust toward my mother.
So it's fascinating, because this could explain how I would struggle to pretend I 'loved my parents' when the experience was the opposite and how it was such a conflict having to make-myself-believe that 'I loved them'
Pandora's box just opened.
Thanks for this, I guess Freud missed out this 'tiny' detail within his theories. lol
Grateful for reading this.
Thank You.
Cool M, yes - we're going to be expanding on this throughout the posts, when we get to the nature of the parent-child relationship throughout their physical-lives in this world within the context of how this relationship in fact already develop/manifest within the womb of the mother. Furthermore - how, in fact all our relationship are conflict/friction driven for self-interest in accumulating the negative-energy from the friction/conflict for our own self-rewarding positive-energy experience.
So - cool that you're able to see this point.