FEAR of our own SHADOW (Part 2): DAY 190

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FEAR of our own SHADOW (Part 2): DAY 190

EVIL – continued

The FORCE - continued

Who I Am as Money – continued

(To read this post, it must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the multi-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in previous posts.)

As mentioned in the Previous Post, we’re walking the Question: “Why, with Always being aware of what goes on in the Mind, what comes up in the Mind –have we never questioned our nature, our beingness, but simply blindly followed/denied it and had it define us/determine our actions/words and behaviour. Simultaneously in such moments knowing we can stop/change and how different the outcome for the moment/relationship would be, but would still, despite that knowledge and awareness – act on/deny the Evil of Mind?”
And within this, we’re starting more specifically with having a look at our accepted and allowed relationship to/towards our own shadows / “Dark Sides” that manifests in our Minds, within our Physical Bodies as-ourselves.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that with having any form of definition/relationship/experience to/towards my own “Dark Side” in/as the Mind, would indicate that I have split/separated myself from parts of me that exist/come up/manifest within me as the Mind. Not seeing, realising and understanding the principle of this accepted and allowed separation as “separating myself from my own Shadow”, which we have done within our Minds, as well as within this World. Even going so far as creating additional Personalities within us to ‘reason with ourselves as to Why the “Dark Side” of our Minds is ‘not our own’’ – trying/attempting to desperately, through Personalities, convince ourselves of being ‘inherently good’; when the Dark, the Evil that is manifesting in this PHYSICAL WORLD in/as Humanity is directly contradicting the ‘good’ we’re so desperately trying to convince to ourselves and to others through our external portrayal and presentation in behaviour/living.
I commit myself to show – how ludicrous/stupid we’ve been in trying/attempting to hide/suppress/deny/resist our own “Dark Side” in the Mind, with having a look at how nasty, spiteful, deliberately, vengeful, deceitful we can be in our thoughts, imaginations and reactions; but instead created such a “shock” / “disbelief” to/towards what comes up/manifest in/as our Minds within the context of “No! This can’t be me, this can’t be Real!” – and then believed that, by simply making a decision of “Now, I am going to be good/positive or of ‘love and light’” that it will ‘sort out’ the Dark/Negative/Bad that come up/manifest in/as our Minds. But, what Human Beings have not seen, realised and understood, is that the Dark, the Bad/Negative of the Mind within ourselves and this world as the without of ourselves – have manifested from/of the inherent Nature of our beingness, that’s existed even before the creation of the Mind, the Physical and the Human Race. And that, simply making a decision to now suddenly be ‘good/benevolent/positive’ is NOT going to sort out/change our Nature/Beingness. On the contrary, all we’ve done is create POLARITY, resisting the Dark/Negative/Bad while attaining for the Light/Positive/Good: in this, not seeing, realising and understanding that creating a Polarity from/of our original/inherent Nature only SUPPRESS our nature/inherent nature and do not actually SOLVE it or bring forth into and as an equal and one real SOLUTION where it NO MORE EXIST.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I have deceived myself, through my own self-dishonesty in my relationship to my own “Dark Side” / Negativity / the Bad that I face and that know exist/come up within me – that I would keep secret in my Mind, hidden within my Mind, not speaking about it but to myself and myself alone, while presenting/portraying an ‘ordinary stability’ when interacting/communicating with other human beings. How we have evolved our Minds to the point where we can switch/move and control Personalities so that the rest only see what we WANT them to see and the reality/truth of ourselves remain secret/hidden within our Minds. That we have done this in fear/resistance/judgment of OUR OWN dark/negative/bad that exist/come up/manifest within our Minds, not seeing, realising and understanding that with resisting/denying/suppressing as keeping the bad/negative/dark secret/hidden within our Minds or blaming/projecting it onto/towards others: does not mean that the negative/bad/evil within our Minds will “go away” or “sort itself out”. But, what has in fact happened is that with us denying/resisting/suppressing and/or blaming/projecting the bad/negative/dark/evil within our Minds and this World – it has proliferated, because what we’ve been doing, essentially, is create a Closet-Space in our Minds in which we’ve been filling/hiding/suppressing all the dark/negative/bad/evil, and painted the door of the closet a beautiful good/positive/love and light portrayal/presentation, believing that “if I don’t see it / if I can convince myself that what is in that closet is “not me / not mine” – it does not Exist!”. However, we as human beings are reaching a point where the closet in our Minds and in this World is Overflowing with all that we’ve tried to hide/suppress/ignore and that Positive/Good/Love and Light presentation as the door as what we show to others is slowly but surely starting to shift open more and more and more as the Negative/Bad/Dark/Evil of the Mind and this World is starting to tumble out.
I commit myself to show how an interesting thing has happened/manifested in the Minds of human beings and this World of Humanity – where we have throughout generations as individuals and humanity as a whole, Never in fact really self-honestly looked at the negative/bad/evil/darkness of what manifests/come up in the Mind as-ourselves, but instead IMMEDIATELY created/manifest a polarity from/of it and in that relationship, created a light that shines on the dark to in fact not see/face/source the dark/negative/bad/evil that can come up in our Minds. Creating the illusion that with the light, the dark is "not there anymore”; when all the while what we’ve done with the dark/negative/bad/evil with suppressing it within our Minds and in this World: have created our own worst enemy, in that those/such Parts of ourselves has within our Minds developed as entities, personalities with an awareness of its own existence that still creep through into the crevices of the Light/positivity/positive energy that we’ve attempted to shine on it for it to “no more bee seen/exist”. How long / to what extent will the real, inherent nature of ourselves in our Minds and in this World have to manifest for human beings to see, realise and understand that we’re not going to sort out ourselves/change this world without actually looking at/facing the negative, the bad, the evil that exist within us and this world – that NO MATTER how much you try and convince yourself of being a “good person / positive / of love and light” that it still makes NO DIFFERENCE to those hidden/secret negative/bad/evil thoughts/imaginations/reactions that can manifest within one’s Mind. That NO MATTER how much you try and Band-Aid this world/humanity with charities/development programmes/initiatives as a solution to the consequences of humanity’s relationship to this World System, that it will make NO DIFFERENCE to the very World System that is creating/manifesting all the consequences in the first place?

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I have created a Fear to my dark/negative/bad that manifest in my thoughts, imagination, reactions, scenes that come up within my Mind, and so from the Fear created a protection/defence relationship against it/towards it as the Polarity that has manifested as the good/positive/love and light. Within this, not seeing, realising and understanding thus, that – the more and more and more I attain / strive / live to/towards the Positive, the good, the love and light in my Mind, the more and more and more I am equally feeding the FEAR of/as my own “dark side” that manifest within me/the Mind. And so, with feeding/fuelling the “fear of the Dark”, I am inadvertently creating/evolving the dark in equal parallel to creating/evolving the light. Now, with the ‘Dark’ existing as my inherent beingness in direct relationship to the Physical, the Dark is what manifests in REALITY and with the Light existing as the polarity I created as Energy that is existent in the Mind – the Light only manifests in the ILLUSION of/as the Mind. And so, why/how it is, that the Dark/Negative/Bad is what is existing/manifesting/proliferating in this REAL WORLD – as everyone, with resisting/fearing the Dark/Negative/Bad in our Beingness-Physical relationship is manifesting it as a REALITY that this world/earth has become, because as everyone is in their Mind, the Illusion of Energy focusing/paying attention to only the Positive/Good/love and light in/as the starting-point of “fear of the Dark” of ourselves/this World – we keep on creating only Light in the Mind and the Dark in the PHYSICAL. And so, why/how we are now at a stage where HELL has become this PHYSICAL WORLD and Heaven only exist as an Illusion in the Minds of Human Beings.
I commit myself to show, how with the tools of writing, self-forgiveness and within that Self-Honesty – self can walk a practical, structural process of facing the dark/negative/bad/evil that manifests/come up within the Mind, to see, realise and understand the source/origin of/as the dark/negative/bad/evil that manifests/come up within the Mind to from there actually walk it into REALISATION and SOLUTION and no more try and run/hide from one’s own Shadows through creating polarities from/of it into/as the Mind through/with Energy, that in no way actually in fact Solves the inner struggles/conflicts we face in our Minds and in this World.
Within this, self will see, realise and understand WHY the negative/bad/evil has manifested into the PHYSICAL of this world and has no way CHANGED – as everyone has been hiding in Light, the illusion that was created from the Dark, to not face the Dark and in not facing the Dark of ourselves within and without, we have accepted and allowed it to proliferate/accumulate. So, investigate Desteni and Equal Money, where we’re walking the process of facing our shadows within and without, and actually ONCE AND FOR ALL find/establish ETERNAL SOLUTIONS that stand, so that the evil/bad/negative as our inherent nature is brought forth to in fact be changed for Real, and so we stop this polarity/conflict between the reality of the dark and the light as illusion, through facing the reality of the Dark and bring it/walk it into Solution. So – stop the creating ILLUSIONS and becoming the LIVING SOLUTION.

We will in the next posts to come walk some practical examples in the Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments of how we, create Illusions to hide from the reality of the Dark and how this thus inadvertently proliferate the Dark, where we’ve been running away from the reality of ourselves, when we should really just face it, direct it and sort it out.

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