The Creation of the Self Character – Part One: Day 94

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The Creation of the Self Character – Part One: Day 94

(To read this post, it must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the mutli-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in previous posts.)

Friendship-Suspicion Character – Part Four

Who I Am as Money – continued

(Continuing from the previous post…)
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to, in equality and oneness with and as Life, energy and substance, the mind and the physical, from the beginning to now – seen, realised and understood the nature of the Thoughts, Backchats/Internal Conversations and Reactions that manifest within being confronted with a human being/friend that presented changes/inconsistencies in their presentation/behaviour/speech, where for example taking a friendship-relationship between two females, belonging to a group of female friends:
Where, what must be understood is that Characters/Personalities have distinctive Thought-Patterns, Internal-Conversations/Backchats, Emotional/Feeling Bodies, Physical-Behaviour and Physical-Appearance manifestations. So, with taking for example two Friends – A and B: How Characters in the Mind-Physical relationship is aligned/manifested, is that Characters have an External presentation/portrayal and an Internal Intention/Secret/Starting-point where the Reality of Characters is seldom physically embodied/lived-out in its totality, as most of our relationship/living to ourselves is, in fact existent within the Secrets of our Mind. And so – whatever is externally portrayed/presented is only a fragment of the entire scope/manifestation of a Character of the Mind. Thus, to walk this example – we’re going to first have a walk-through of two Characters within and as two Mind-Physical relationships of Friend A and Friend B, where initially they aligned within an equal and one Character-Relationship, but where Friend B started changing, and the Suspicion Character in Friend A started activating. Therefore, to understand the totality of the dynamics within and between Characters – let’s first walk two practical examples of the components/parts of what Characters exist as in the Mind:
Starting with Friend A – for example:
The Character that Friend A manifested is the internal and external ‘split’ within and between ‘conservatism and promiscuousness’. Where, externally Friend A present/portray a Conservative nature/presence – perfect hair, conservative clothes/behaviour, perfect balanced/aligned ‘in her place’ behaviour, with communication and interaction with peers/adults always according to ‘respect, honour and regard’ and is seen as a ‘A-Class citizen/model child’, as how everyone else would thus equally as one interpret/perceive ‘who/how she is’ regarding what she is EXTERNALLY presenting/portraying of who/how she is.
HOWEVER – within Characters, there’s always an IN and an OUT, a POSITIVE and a NEGATIVE – it’s existent within the equal and one design of the Mind as Polarity, as the Mind’s primary ‘life mechanism’, that which ‘fuels its existence’ is the friction/conflict within and between Polarity that generate energy. As with the very origins of our existence in the relationship between Energy and Substance – as the Polarity/Separation and the friction/conflict within and between substance-itself moving into/as opposition within/as itself, creating/manifesting itself into its polarity of substance and energy from and of itself. And therefore, in this – the most extensive friction/conflict as negative-energy experience manifest within the Secrets of our Mind, to from the continued friction/conflict as negative-energy experience production/accumulation as we continue participating in thoughts, internal conversations/backchat and reactions; equally as one accumulate/manifest the positive external/represented mind portrayal that we physically embody/live-out as the internal and external dynamics of a Character of the Mind we become.
And so, in this – I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand why and how within Friend A’s Character – externally is portrayed/presented the ‘Positive’-Polarity of the Character and internally, the ‘Negative Polarity’. What is interesting regarding Characters we physically embody/live-out is that the Positive will predominantly be externally portrayed/presented, as the Negative in fact reveal/reflect the origin/source/truth of ourselves that we within our Mind-Physical relationship as most of humanity attempt/try to deny/suppress/hide within the Secrets of the Mind; with the internal/Secret Mind manifested as the actual processes that we accept and allow and participate in to ‘animate’ our Character as the Positive externalized representation/portrayal together with a hidden secret we’re attempting-to/trying to materialize as the Origin of a Character of and as the Mind. All this Equal-to and one-with within the existence of our origins, originating from and of the Negative-Energy Experience friction/conflict, with the Positive-Energy Experience essentially manifesting the ‘externalized portrayal/presentation’ of the manifested-singularities as ‘God’, while the Devil/Evil as our origins/source is existent within the very starting-point of ourselves, reversing life/live as substance into and as evil/energy as energy consume substance for its continued existence/survival.
And so, human beings portray/present the external ‘Positive Polarity’ as an Angel, while the internal Negative-Polarity as the spawn of the Devil/Demons within our Conscious and Subconscious-Mind is in constant, continuous internal friction/conflict generating/producing energy for the continued existence of the Mind in its relationship to the Physical-Body and so for our Character-definitions we’ve come to beLIEve is who/what we are.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to, in equality and oneness with and as Life, energy and substance, the mind and the physical from the beginning to now, seen, realised and understood the design of Characters of the Mind we embody/live-out internally and externally, where predominantly; we present/portray the ‘positive polarity aspect’ of the Character, whilst the negative polarity aspect of the Character existent within the Secrets of the Mind, fuel the positive externalized representation/portrayal. Equally as one as was manifested in the beginning within the manifested-singularities, where: the negative-energy friction/conflict accumulated into and as the positive-energy experience.
Thus, the more friction/conflict as negative-energy experience we produce within the Secrets of our Minds, through thoughts, internal conversations/backchats and reactions: the more fuel/charge is produced to effectively portray/present the opposite polarity of a character as the positive. Where we’d for example, with another human being, be able to ‘smile, be nice and cordial/decent’ WHILE AT THE SAME TIME, within our Minds as thoughts, internal conversations/backchat and reactions can manifest the most snide, spiteful and deliberately nasty conversations/fantasies to/towards the other human being. Where this manifest in various degrees/levels/dimensions within ourselves, regarding how the Negative as the actual reality/truth of ourselves within ourselves – fuel/charge the fraction as positive external portrayal/representation of the entire/total manifested-scope of the characters we exist-as in the Mind-Physical relationship.

I commit myself to show why/how we are as human beings are so ‘unaware’ of this relationship between the internal negative and external positive, as the externalized positive that we portray/present to the world/reality/society/relationships is the extent of our awareness of ourselves, primarily existent within the Conscious/Subconscious Mind. As our awareness – as with the manifested-singularities in and from the beginning, separated their primary awareness of themselves into/as/towards the positive only, separating themselves from the very origin of their existence as the negative. And so, when/as human beings would dare to investigate the inner workings/mechanisms of the Mind – thought, backchat/internal conversations and reactions, one will see/realise/understand that the externalized representation/portrayal that was shown, was in fact a façade for the reality that is/what manifest in the Mind.
And, it’s not that we can’t see the reality/truth of ourselves in this relationship between polarity of the positive and the negative, the external and internal: it’s that we’ve BECOME, accepted and allowed such an existence as ‘ordinary’ that we have ceased to question who we are within it all and the consequences we’re in fact creating/manifesting to ourselves and all as ourselves. And thus, we have simply equally as one accepted/allowed humanity/this World-System to continue existing as is, as ‘ordinary’ as ‘it’s how it’s always been’, continuing to only focus on the ‘positive’ we can get/own/have/possess when this entire physical-existence is placed within friction/conflict as the negative as money consume physicality for a select few of humanity to have that ‘positive-energy experience’. And so it in fact equally as one is existent in our Mind-Physical Relationships as Characters, where we’re as the Character preoccupied with the External, as the Elite is preoccupied with their Positive-Experiences of money/material possessions, and Yes – we do see what’s going on in our minds, as the elite see what’s going on in this world, but what gets the better of both, is the Secret desires, wants and needs of our characters/of the Elite, that will accept and allow and ‘play dumb’ regarding that reality of what goes on in our minds/on this Earth – will accept and allow this absolute polarity of the negative and positive: Just to get/have/own the possession as desire, want and need/intention/interest as the sacrifice of everything/everyone else.

In this, I commit myself to show – how, each Character has One Point, one Seed – from which it grow externally into the positive externalized representation/portrayal of a being, and its roots into and as the internalized root network/system of the Conscious, Subconscious and Unconscious-Mind; where that One Point will be aligned within a Memory of a Personal Want, Need and Desire that self had attached/defined self to/as that developed/manifested self into and as an entire Character.
Where externally: the sun and water and resources will be, the words, feedback and validation from others for the positive-externalized portrayal/representation of the Character, that one use to manipulate one’s external world to get the actual One Point as personal want, need and desire. And then Internally: the internal Root-Network resources from the soil/physical body, as the Character-System of energy consume physicality to transform into energy, together with the friction/conflict resources that fuel the Root-Network as the negative-polarity of the Character within and as our thoughts, internal-conversations/backchats, reactions etc.; to again charge/accumulate the ‘positive-front’/externalized portrayal/representation as self make self’s way as this Character into the world, to/towards one’s ‘pursuit of happiness’ as the One Point that stand as the ‘neutral ground’ between the Externalized positive presentation/portrayal and the negative Internalized friction/conflict resources. With this One Point as The Decision that self had made of ‘who self is’ within self and this world, and because the decision serve only the interest of Self, self had to develop, create and manifest a Character for it to emerge/manifest. As no one else may know of this secret want, need and desire for in case anyone else want, need and desire the same, and so this one point became MY PRECIOUS, that self is holding onto, that possess self that self will get/own/have/possess in any and all means possible, presenting the positive without, while within the negative of the mind, self will scheme, deceive and play the game of competing against everything/everyone else as self make one’s way to/towards that One Point.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to, in equality and oneness with and as Life, energy and substance, the mind and the physical, from the beginning to now – seen, realised and understood with continuing with the example of Friend A:
The ‘background/framework processes’ involved in creating/manifesting her externalized portrayal/representation of ‘Conservatism’ originating from her imitating/copying her Mother, especially within and during her childhood years, where in her mother’s speech, behaviour and presentation EXTERNALLY, Friend A equally as one imitated/copied this presentation/portrayal of her Mother. However, what is not realised, seen or understood within parent-child relationships regarding the child imitating/copying the EXTERNAL behaviour, speech and presentation of the parent, is that the child is not aware of what in fact exist within and behind the external presentation/portrayal of the parent as what is existent within the Secrets of their Minds. And so with her relationship with her Mother and so with her Primary Character that has become her Primary Definition: the starting-point of this relationship with her Mother and this Character being one of her Primary Definitions manifested when/as she observed her Parents in embrace/interaction within the externalized portrayal/representation of their relationship; where she as a child Made the One Decision of: “This is who I want to be/This is what I want when I grow up” – as the decision she made in that moment of ‘who she’s going to be’ as the Character copy/imitation of ‘Conservatism’ as her Mother to equally as one, one day have such a relationship as her Mother and her Father.
Within this, she/Friend A was not in fact aware of the reality of the Secrets within both parents’ Minds, the compromises existent within themselves and their lives, what processes they went through in their lives and still go through in their Minds that is silent as the REALITY of who they are and how they became who/how they are individually and together; all of this, is in no way shown/communicated/shared and thus not considered/known. As what is Externally portrayed is but 1% of the truth that in fact goes on in the Mind. And so the parents portray/present an externalized 1% of ‘relationship’ – with the Child in fact having no concept of what was really involved in both parents lives and minds for them to externally portray/represent ‘their relationship’. And so the child will align their life in equal and one Character, with for example the Mother in relationship to the Father and thus equally as one align themselves to the life-experiences of and as the Mother. Because it is within what we live as who we are that we align ourselves/our lives and relationships; and so the Child will become the Character of the Mother and so the life of the Mother: just to get/have/own/possess that Memory of the decision of who she is within herself/her life. Placing herself on the path of extensive compromises/troubles/tribulations in relationships, equally as one as what the mother for example experienced – until finally ‘getting someone she can just settle down with and get it over and done with’; which is equally as one as what manifested within her Mother within herself and her life in her existence of the ‘Conservatism Character’. And so Friend A, with becoming the Character and Life of her Mother – will/may equally as one present/portray an external image of ‘relationship’ to their children and so pass-on the process and consequence of Character-Life imitation/copying, when none of it is in fact real when investigating the extent of internal and external compromise individuals had gone into and as.
And so, this child in that moment made the Decision from that memory as the neutral point of the relationship between her Mother and Father, and would externally portray Conservatism to prepare/practise for the moment she ‘meets the right man as her mother did’; who would obviously be in equal and one alignment to the father, as the child become the mother character, looking for a character equal-to and one with that as the father, as the child hold the memory within her of her mother and father that direct, control and influence ALL her relationships and who she is/will be within it.

We’ll continue in the next post, with the Commitment Statements and with how – for example, as the Child become the Character of Conservatism for that ONE POINT of and as desire, want and need for relationship, would then protect and defend this Character from and of anything/anyone in the within and without of themselves, with, as and through the Suspicion Character to ensure that that ONE POINT manifest within her and her life: NO MATTER what extents/lengths she has to go to; and the extents we go to in our Minds of shaping our thoughts, internal conversations, reactions to always in all ways protect and defend our Primary Characters, and so OUR wants, needs and desires – no matter what the sacrifice.

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