I Want it, and I want it NOW!!!: DAY 183
Day 158: Are you my Main Character? by Jl Kenney
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Character Dimensions - FEAR Dimension (Part 2)
Character
Dimensions – (Practical Application: Part 20)
The
FORCE - continued
The
Chicken or the Egg??? – continued
How
the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued
Who
I Am as Money – continued
(To read this post, it
must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to
Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is
interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the
point/question of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical
existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the
points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the
next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the multi-dimensionality
we’ve created/manifested as our separation as Energy/Consciousness from/of
Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced with this post, and have not
yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self first start from DAY 1, as
otherwise one will have no context of many dimensions that is walked in this
post, that has been dealt with in detail in previous posts.)
We’re in this post continuing with the Self-Forgiveness
Statements that we have walked in the Previous
Post, having a look at the Nature of our relationship to “I WANT it NOW”
and Responsibility that is HERE in our immediate environment/physical world;
with the creation/evolution of the Postponement Character as
justifying/excusing/validating in important moments/instances, placing our
wants, needs, desires and preferences before practical, physical,
responsibility here.
FEAR Dimension:
Self-Forgiveness (continued)
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to as
a child see, realise and understand the concept of time, of space and time,
and practical, physical reality responsibility and consequence – as I had
primarily in my childhood years lived in the “instant-happy-McDonald’s”-world,
where I IMMEDIATELY satisfy MY WANTS, needs and desires and preferences, and
then suddenly/unexpectedly facing responsibility/obligation was something that
I was interpreting as taking that immediacy of me satisfying my want, need,
desire away. As though, if I don’t have my want immediately/instantly in THAT
MOMENT, I will never get/have it again – completely locked into and as a
perception/idea/belief about time, with not
seeing, realising and understanding with not getting my want, need and
desire in that moment, doesn’t mean I won’t get it AT ALL, it’s just that
responsibility comes first and THEN when/as there’s time to indulge in the
want/preference.
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and
understand how I still, now, in moments of facing responsibility/obligation am
in essence placing my wants, needs, desires, preferences BEFORE physical,
practical reality responsibility that will determine my relationship to me,
others and my future in this world. In this, utilizing the Postponement
Character/Personality as a means to justify/excuse/validate as essentially “making
myself feel better” for placing my wants, needs and desires BEFORE physical,
practical-reality responsibility. Where I in/as the Postponement Character/Personality
initiate the reactions of fears of missing out/losing out on that SOMETHING
ELSE experience/event/relationships if/as I place RESPONSIBILITY in REALITY
before MY WANTS, needs, desires / preferences and so accept/allow myself to
manipulate myself with Fear in relationship to my wants, instead of
remaining/being here, stable in/as breath and getting things done.
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise
and understand how I would still, to this day, with and as facing a
responsibility/obligation – blame the education
systems/teachers/my parents
or even the responsibility/obligation in itself; as tacitly implying that
it/they are in some way “taking away” MY WANT fulfilments in moments in Time
where I know I have to tend to the responsibilities/obligations, but WANT to
satisfy my wants, needs and desires FIRST. And so would inadvertently blame
education/homework/school/the job/teachers/professors/parents – anything/anyone
I can blame/exert my own inner conflict to/towards, as I actually do know what
I am accepting and allowing, that I am frustrated/angry with myself in this
inner conflict battle between MY WANTS and the responsibility/obligation that
is here before me.
In this, I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame everything/everyone
else for ‘taking away’ MY opportunities/time to satisfy/fulfil
MY WANTS – instead of me realising, seeing and understanding the self-honesty
within this is that: I know what I am accepting and allowing as the inner
conflict within me, that I do know the implications/consequence of not
tending to my responsibilities/obligations but would rather satisfy/fulfil my
wants and so I would try and use blaming others/things to further
validate/justify/excuse me satisfying/fulfilling my wants BEFORE tending to the
practical, reality responsibilities.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see, realise and understand how I still from childhood hold onto this
relationship / inner conflict with TIME and the HERE of my world/reality within
and as the relationship to responsibility/obligation, as I STILL, from
childhood – place MY WANTS before life/responsibility/obligation in/as reality,
which is essentially in a way tacitly implying that I can’t even be trusted
with the responsibility/obligation of my OWN LIFE
as I place wants, needs and desires of the MIND as
entertainment before my life/living in this world/reality.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see, realise and understand how this one point essentially applies to All of
Humanity – even that we’ve created an entire Consumerist/Entertainment/Postponement
WORLD SYSTEM with its primary prerogative as entertaining, preoccupying the
wants, needs and desires of Human Beings, the entire living condition of “I
want it, I want it NOW” that Money can BUY. While in/as this process as
Human Beings continue satisfying their wants, needs and desires IMMEDIATELY,
placing their WANTS before the responsibilities/obligation
to humanity and this world as a whole – we’re all facing the consequences,
the PHYSICAL PROOF of the consequences of placing wants, desires, needs and
preferences BEFORE what is HERE as ourselves in/as this Existence.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see, realise and understand that I’m not a “child” anymore, from the
perspective of me for most of my life trying to hold onto some bit of
positivity/happiness/goodness that I WANT that make ME HAPPY with what I do in
moments of postponement in my relationship to obligation/responsibilities – not
seeing, realising and understanding how whatever happiness/positivity I get
from what I do / don’t do as I follow the temptation of the mind in doing that
SOMETHING ELSE to entertain myself with than getting to the practical, physical
responsibilities of here: is Not Real. When having a look at - that it takes time,
resources and MONEY for me to fulfil my wants, needs and desires, dependent
on the very World System that is postponing humanity’s
responsibility/obligation to existence as a whole. And this physical existence
is not a happy, positive, good place in any way whatsoever. And so in this, I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go so far as creating
an alternate “happy place” in my MIND, postponing my process of actually being
a + 1 for change in/as this REAL WORLD,
with really facing the REALITY of things: I have to stop WANTING
positive/happy/good shit that I create in my Mind and instead face the
Bad/Negative/Consequential Shit we and the generations before us has
accumulated in this real, physical world/reality to in fact establish REAL SOLUTIONS to manifest a Heaven
on Earth where there’d be a REAL PHYSICAL BALANACE between preference and
responsibility, which I would suggest investigating with/as the proposal of the
Equal
Money System. So that we stop this acceptance and allowance of postponing,
creating alternate mind bubbles trying to grasp at some happiness/positivity at
the expense of most of humanity, this earth and the animal kingdom. Instead of
each human being for this ONE
LIFE for a moment, put aside the MY WANTS and get into “what would be best
for ALL” so that we can get this world into an equilibrium/relationship where
ALL stand within the balance of preference and responsibility – instead of what
it is now as a minority satisfying MY WANTS at the expense of the REST OF
HUMANITY and this Physical world. Time
to really mature/grow up and get into prioritizing one’s life/living.
FEAR Dimension: Self-Commitments
I
commit myself to assist and support me to see, realise and understand how I
can no more accept and allow myself to in moments of facing
responsibility/obligation, want to satisfy/fulfil MY WANTS before getting to the
responsibilities/obligations. As this reflect in/on me and my world that if/as
I give into placing MY WANTS before what is best for me/my life in this
world/reality – that I cannot be trusted even with my own life in relation to determining
importance/priority/responsibility. And so I commit myself to take myself, my
life in this world/reality in/as my capable hands and living and get things
done in prioritizing me/my time in such a way to ensure that I get to the
responsibilities/obligations FIRST in directing me/my world and then afford some
time to preference.
I
commit myself to assist and support me to no more accept and allow the fear
of missing out/losing out on MY WANTS to overpower, determine or control
me in moments of facing responsibility/obligation – as I see, realise and
understand that I am not in fact losing anything/missing out on anything that
is real, that is substantial, that is relevant within the context/comparison of
the responsibility/obligation that I am facing in/as that moment. If anything –
I am in fact missing out/losing out on me/my life in/as this physical,
practical real world and this simply indicate even further that I really need
to sort out my definition/prioritizing
regarding what Responsibility in fact is in my relationship to
myself, my world and my future within it.
I commit myself to assist and support me to really in fact
grow up and stop accepting and allowing myself to still act like a child in my
relationship to my own life and the responsibilities/obligations within it,
stop throwing tantrums in my mind through blaming others for the
responsibilities/obligations I require tending to, stop placing MY WANTS as my
attempt at creating an alternate reality in my Mind as the illusion of
positivity/happiness before REALITY as the PHYSICAL that is Real, and get
into the grips of reality/things in this world with seeing, realising and
understanding that nothing in this actual, real
physical world will/can change unless I stand as a + 1 in getting my priorities
straight with seeing, realising and understanding that whatever
positivity/happiness I create in my Mind CANNOT be real if it can ONLY EXIST at
the sacrifice of humanity, this physical existence with the WANTS that I
possess/accumulate/attract in my life through MONEY and money’s relationship to
humanity/this existence as a whole.
I commit myself to assist and support me to start practising
me prioritizing my responsibilities/obligations and preference, essentially “postponing
MY WANTS” for a moment and getting into the immediacy/now/here moment of/as my
responsibilities/obligations and real, actual substantial meaningful living
in/as this world/reality. In this, essentially it’s time for the generations of
human beings, to let go of the Consumerism Brainwashing
mentality of “I want it, I want it NOW” and get into and as the practical,
equal and one living alignment of/as “what’s
best for all”, and this Postponement Character/Personality does not stand
within the principle of/as what’s best for all/best for self in the small and
the big, as will be more clearly seen when/as we walk the Consequence Dimension
of a Character/Personality.
Thus, here, it’s too see, realise and understand the
consequences we have individually and collectively accepted and allowed with
shifting the balance between only focusing on the Positive/Happiness in the
MIND as ENERGY in a relationship to MONEY
and material possessions that are linked to a very system that is creating,
PHYSICALLY a negative for that positive/happiness in our MINDS to exist, and
that for only a minority
elite. I mean, this is what must get through to human beings’ awareness –
there’s NO WAY that positive/happiness ENERGY in the MIND is going to
PHYSICALLY change this world that is being created by a SYSTEM and human beings’
living actions/natures that is currently determining the REALITY of this world.
And so, for the minority/elite in this world system to be a + 1 in prioritizing
our lives/living to/as what’s best for all, starting with ourselves, within our
own lives and then taking it to the big as the standing with/as the Equal
Money System. So, kids, time to grow up, time to see
consequence/responsibility/obligation, unfortunately have to for a moment let
go of the “heaven in the Mind as illusion”, get into the reality of things
FIRST and establish a REAL Heaven on Earth with an equal and one balance to
preference/responsibility in REALITY, instead of what it is now as a minority
through money and luxury creating “happy places” as MY WANTS in the Mind at the
cost/expense/sacrifice of this existence as a whole.
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