SEEING in the DARK: DAY 192
Featured Art Work by: Agnieszka Dine
FEAR
of our own SHADOW (Part 4)
EVIL
– continued
The
FORCE - continued
The
Chicken or the Egg??? – continued
How
the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued
Who
I Am as Money – continued
(To read this post, it
must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to
Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is
interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the
point/question of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire
physical existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of
the points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into
the next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the multi-dimensionality
we’ve created/manifested as our separation as Energy/Consciousness from/of
Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced with this post, and
have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self first start from DAY
1, as otherwise one will have no context of many dimensions that is walked in
this post, that has been dealt with in detail in previous posts.)
The Context that we’re walking within Fear of our own
Shadow, stand within the Question: “Why, with Always being aware of what goes
on in the Mind, what comes up in the Mind –have we never questioned our nature,
our beingness, but simply blindly followed/denied it and had it define
us/determine our actions/words and behaviour. Simultaneously in such moments
knowing we can stop/change and how different the outcome for the
moment/relationship would be, but would still, despite that knowledge
and awareness
– act on/deny the Evil of Mind?”
And within this, we’re starting more specifically with
having a look at our accepted and allowed relationship to/towards our own
shadows / “Dark Sides” that manifests in our Minds, within our Physical Bodies
as-ourselves, where we have mentioned in the previous post that we’ll walk some
practical examples in the Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments of how we
create Illusions to hide from the reality of the Dark and how this thus
inadvertently proliferate the Dark, where we’ve been running away from the
reality of ourselves, when we should really just face it, direct it and sort it
out.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to
see, realise and understand the defeatism and victimization relationship I
have created to the inherent evil/bad/negative/dark within myself and this
world – where it has become just an automated, natural, acceptance
and allowance “part of human nature” / “part of life on earth”. However the
question within this, is – where have we lost our motivation, our drive, our
absolute determination to ensure/secure a better life/living for ourselves and
for all in this world/reality, and/or where have we lost our motivation, our
drive, our absolute determination to become individuals with integrity, trust,
respect, care, consideration, regard, understanding, commonsense within
ourselves and our living? Or has this never existed in the first place? I would
go for the fact that such characteristics as an actual internal and external
living condition has Never existed for Real; otherwise we would not be where we
are now in our relationship to the Mind, humanity’s relationship to the World
System and the consequences our Mind and World System creations is manifesting
in our
relationship to ourselves, the physical body, others, humanity and this
physical existence as a whole.
I commit myself to
show, how many would say “But, look at what those people are doing for others”
/ “But, look at what that organisation/business/charity is
doing for that country” / “But, look within me – there is good/benevolence” / “But,
look I do ‘good things’” – however, the facts that must be faced is that, in
comparing the extent/amount of good vs.
bad in our Minds and in this World – the Bad is substantially MORE
overwhelming. We really kind of went “Okay, the bad/negative/evil/dark exist in
my Mind and in this World, BUT I can ‘make up for it’ by/through doing this /
being that / thinking/imagining/experience this/that”. It’s like, in our Minds
and in this World we’ve created consequence, and then we have from that
consequence-outflow tried to cover it up/make up for it/searching for
redemption/forgiveness
(e.g. from Religions), resisting the consequence through only being of
love/light/ascension/spiritual (e.g. through Spiritualities) – however, we
never considered understanding the Mental and
Physical SCIENCE of HOW we created the Consequence in the First Place. Both
Religions and Spiritualities stand within the context of Resisting/turning our
backs on the Consequence, abdicating Responsibility through blame/projection
(e.g. the Devil/Lucifer/Satan being responsible for the Consequence) and/or
through denial/resistance (e.g. Spirituality – that the negative that the
Positives experiences
in themselves originate from someone/somewhere else) and then we have the “normal”
humans walking the Earth – blaming/projecting/denying/resisting
Mental/Physical/Life-consequence on everything/everyone else BUT SELF. Really
have a look at ourselves: how much have we in any way taken responsibility for
who we are/ how/what we live in really introspecting/investigating how the Mind
determine our self-definition, and so our living/behaviour that so
determine/manifest this world/reality?
I forgive myself that
I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to consider, what I am accepting and
allowing to manifest in my Mind as the evil/bad/negative/dark within and as it,
that I would accept and allow to participate in when/as I believe I AM ALONE in
my MIND and that no-one will EVER FIND OUT. But, not seeing, realising and
understanding The One I am deceiving the most, here, The One that I am most
dishonest to/towards, is: MYSELF. Because, I KNOW what I do within my Mind,
alone with myself – and even though no-one else knows, what determines this
relationship to me within and as my Mind, is my Self-Definition, Integrity,
Trust, Respect, Comfortability – all of which becomes compromised when I
reveal one Face to myself, and another to Others. What does this show about the
actual nature of our SELF-Relationship, the relationship that should be the
most important, as this Self-Relationship is what determines one’s living, one’s
relationships, one’s life in/as this World: what does this show about our
Self-Relationship, when we can accept/allow such dark/evil/negative/bad to
manifest in our Minds in moments without a flinch, without a flicker of shame,
without even any second thoughts and simultaneously within that believing that “we’re
getting away with it, cause no-one else knows what’s REALLY going on in our
Minds”. What does this say about the actual inherent nature of us Human Beings,
that we can continue participating in such things in our Minds and then through
little/small/insignificant claims/good deeds define ourselves/who we are as
being an “inherently good person”?
I
Commit myself to show how this bring us to the point of how we have become
desensitized from/of the evil/bad/negative/dark in this World/Reality – that we
do not even FEEL for the countless majority of humanity, the earth, the animal
kingdom that is suffering in unimaginable ways
- that we can see/hear this happening without a flinch, without a
flicker of shame
– without any determination, drive and motivation to not have ANY Human, ANY
Animal, ANY part of/as this physical existence deliberately suffer just so that
a Minority can live their lives in “the bliss of ignorance”? This desensitization
originates from/of our relationships to our own Minds. Where we have become so
automatically/naturally “used to” the evil/dark/negative/bad that
exist/manifest within it, justify it /
blaming/projecting/denying/resisting/suppressing it through all sorts of
excuses/reasons/validations as protection/defence mechanisms; and using that
little bit of goodness/love/light/benevolence to make ourselves FEEL BETTER.
Have a look at how much we do within our Minds and this World in our
relationship to the consequence that manifest in the Mind and this World and
our reaction to the consequences is always within the context of what makes us
FEEL BETTER…for a moment. That makes us FEEL GOOD about ourselves/what we have
done. HOWEVER, these feelings of bettering/goodness has yet again, made no
visible, physical difference to the inherent nature of what manifest in our
Minds and in this World as a Whole. We propose to consider, that life should
not just be about those insignificant moments of making yourself feel good/feel
better about doing something really insignificant when looking at the Grand
Scheme of things of Life
on Earth. That, when/as one face consequence in the Mind, this World System –
granted, the World System is going to be a bigger task, and suggest
investigating the Equal Money System for a
Total System Change as SOLUTION. So, with facing consequence in the Mind, the
first point to consider is not to fear it/judge it; as this is creating a
split/separation within self, but rather UNDERSTAND it. I mean, this is how
we walked with Demons in the Demon Dimension – rather than fearing
them/judging them, we communicated with them to UNDERSTAND who/how they are and
could from there, as we understood them, as they came to understand themselves
in/as AWARENESS and Self-Honesty: Could in fact Change and become the Solution
to themselves/their existence. (The
Process we have walked through/with the
Portal with the Demons
is discussed in the Journeys into the
Afterlife Series available on EQAFE).
Thus, we suggest – for those ready to UNDERSTAND the Mind,
not fear it/judge it/condemn it, to join the Desteni
Forums to walk a process of writing/self-forgiveness as the Guidance of UNDERSTANDING the
Mind and how to walk the Mind into and as an EQUAL
AND ONE LIVING SOLUTION.
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise
and understand how we have even gone to the extent of Personifying our
relationship to the Good and the Bad within the context of “Optimism and
Pessimism”, where apparently, if/as one focus on the bad/negative/dark/evil of
the Mind/of this World – one is a “Pessimist” and as an Optimist, essentially,
one should only focus on the good/positive/light/love. However, again here – to
consider the Polarity that we’re participating in, with being an Optimist in
comparison to the Pessimist – Optimism is NOT going to practically, PHYSICALLY,
solve the current conditions/state/living
of humanity/this World System – nor is it going to change, for real, the
inherent Nature of/as the Mind of ourselves. If anything, the Personification
of the Negative into Pessimism and the Positive into Optimism was more for the
Self-Interest of those hiding from/justifying the bad/negative/evil/dark of the
Mind/of this World. So, with defining giving attention to/taking responsibility
for/looking/searching for solutions to the dark/negative/bad/evil as
Pessimistic, the Optimist can furthermore justify/excuse/validate hiding in the
Positive and so resisting/denying/suppressing the Negative and not having to
take responsibility for it.
I commit myself to show, that the Polarity of Optimism /
Pessimism is again the flipside of the same coin – resisting/denying the
dark/negative/bad/evil through hiding within the light/positive/good/love,
again, neither personification bring forth a viable, substantial solution to
what is going on in the Mind of Humans and the World System of this
Earth/Physical Existence. We propose to not be limited in/as
definitions/polarities, but stand within the starting point of equality and oneness as what’s
best for All – really LOOK at and FACE the inherent Nature of the Mind,
with writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application with
support/assistance available at Desteni, the Desteni I Process and then
the inherent Nature of this World System that we’re facing/walking into and as
Solutions within/as the Equal Money System. So, in this, to stop using the
Optimism, Pessimism polarity/definition to not take responsibility for the
Mind/this World – take responsibility through facing it and in the facing,
bringing it into/as an Equal and One Living
Solution for Self and this World/Humanity as Self.
If anything, it should not be “turning on the Lights to see
in the Dark”, it should be “trusting ourselves to stand in the Dark and face it
as-ourselves”. To essentially learn to SEE
IN THE DARK and we may just realise that we’ve actually always only been
afraid of ourselves, we may just realise that this fear of ourselves was so
totally unnecessary when/as one walk through that FEAR of self/the Mind and
realise: “hey – it’s just me, a part of me I did not Understand, now I SEE and
now I can CHANGE”. Where, this seeing in the Dark is not through the ILLUSION
of LIGHT that misconstrue the Dark. This SEEING in the Dark is a Direct
Seeing of Insight, Awareness, Understanding and Self-Honesty AS SELF,
attributes/keys that self develop through/as walking the process of Writing, Self Forgiveness
and Self Corrective Application – suggest reading the 7 Year Journey to Life
Blogs as an example of what it means to SEE in the Dark through/as
Awareness, Insight and Understanding within/through Self-Honesty and how
through/as the Seeing, one come to actual, real, visible, practical Solutions
to/as Facing the Dark of/as Self/Mind.
Thanks Sunette for this series and specifically this one, clarifies the point I was looking at yesterday in terms of the solution to this and the experience toward facing the evil being absolutely unnecessary as it is simply the dark side of the coin of ourselves/ how we have coined ourselves within avoiding to look at the evil and denying it at all cost only to realize that there is no way we can get to know ourselves if we continue avoiding embracing ourselves as this evil aspect.
Cool - thanks