FEAR of our own SHADOW (Part 2): DAY 190
EVIL
– continued
The
FORCE - continued
The
Chicken or the Egg??? – continued
How
the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued
Who
I Am as Money – continued
(To read this post, it
must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to
Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is
interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the
point/question of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire
physical existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of
the points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into
the next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the multi-dimensionality
we’ve created/manifested as our separation as Energy/Consciousness from/of
Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced with this post, and
have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self first start from DAY
1, as otherwise one will have no context of many dimensions that is walked in
this post, that has been dealt with in detail in previous posts.)
As mentioned in the Previous
Post, we’re walking the Question: “Why, with Always being aware of what
goes on in the Mind, what comes up in the Mind –have we never questioned our
nature, our beingness, but simply blindly followed/denied it and had it define
us/determine our actions/words and behaviour. Simultaneously in such moments
knowing we can stop/change and how different the outcome for the
moment/relationship would be, but would still, despite that knowledge and
awareness – act on/deny the Evil of Mind?”
And within this, we’re starting more specifically with
having a look at our accepted and allowed relationship to/towards our own
shadows / “Dark Sides” that manifests in our Minds, within our Physical Bodies
as-ourselves.
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise
and understand that with having any form of definition/relationship/experience
to/towards my
own “Dark Side” in/as the Mind, would indicate that I have split/separated
myself from parts of me that exist/come up/manifest within me as the Mind. Not
seeing, realising and understanding the principle of this accepted and allowed
separation as “separating myself from my own Shadow”, which we have done within
our Minds, as well as within this World. Even going so far as creating
additional Personalities within us to ‘reason with ourselves as to Why the
“Dark Side” of our Minds is ‘not our own’’ – trying/attempting to desperately,
through Personalities, convince ourselves of being ‘inherently good’; when the
Dark, the Evil that is manifesting in this PHYSICAL WORLD in/as Humanity is
directly contradicting the ‘good’ we’re so desperately trying to convince to
ourselves and to others through our external portrayal and presentation in
behaviour/living.
I
commit myself to show – how ludicrous/stupid we’ve been in
trying/attempting to hide/suppress/deny/resist our own “Dark Side” in the Mind,
with having a look at how nasty, spiteful, deliberately, vengeful, deceitful we
can be in our thoughts, imaginations and reactions; but instead created such a
“shock” / “disbelief” to/towards what comes up/manifest in/as our Minds within
the context of “No! This can’t be me, this can’t be Real!” – and then believed
that, by simply making a decision of “Now, I am going to be good/positive or of
‘love and light’” that it will ‘sort out’ the Dark/Negative/Bad that come
up/manifest in/as our Minds. But, what Human Beings have not seen, realised and
understood, is that the Dark, the Bad/Negative of the Mind within ourselves and
this world as the without of ourselves – have manifested from/of the inherent
Nature of our beingness, that’s existed even before the creation of the Mind,
the Physical and the Human Race. And that, simply making a decision to now
suddenly be ‘good/benevolent/positive’ is NOT going to sort out/change our
Nature/Beingness. On the contrary, all we’ve done is create POLARITY, resisting the
Dark/Negative/Bad while attaining for the Light/Positive/Good: in this, not
seeing, realising and understanding that creating a Polarity from/of our
original/inherent Nature only SUPPRESS our nature/inherent nature and do not
actually SOLVE it or bring forth into and as an equal and one real
SOLUTION where it NO MORE EXIST.
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise
and understand how I have deceived myself, through my own self-dishonesty in my
relationship to my own “Dark Side” / Negativity / the Bad that I face and that
know exist/come up within me – that I would keep secret
in my Mind, hidden within my Mind, not speaking about it but to myself and
myself alone, while presenting/portraying an ‘ordinary stability’ when
interacting/communicating with other human beings. How we have evolved our
Minds to the point where we can switch/move and control Personalities so that
the rest only see what we WANT them to see and the reality/truth of ourselves
remain secret/hidden within our Minds. That we have done this in
fear/resistance/judgment of OUR OWN dark/negative/bad that exist/come
up/manifest within our Minds, not
seeing, realising and understanding that with resisting/denying/suppressing
as keeping the bad/negative/dark secret/hidden within our Minds or
blaming/projecting it onto/towards others: does not mean that the
negative/bad/evil within our Minds will “go away” or “sort itself out”. But,
what has in fact happened is that with us denying/resisting/suppressing and/or
blaming/projecting the bad/negative/dark/evil within our Minds and this World –
it has proliferated, because what we’ve been doing, essentially, is create a
Closet-Space in our Minds in which we’ve been filling/hiding/suppressing all
the dark/negative/bad/evil, and painted the door of the closet a beautiful
good/positive/love and light portrayal/presentation, believing that “if I don’t
see it / if I can convince myself that what is in that closet is “not me / not
mine” – it does not Exist!”. However, we as human beings are reaching a point
where the closet in our Minds and in this World is Overflowing with all that
we’ve tried to hide/suppress/ignore and that Positive/Good/Love and Light
presentation as the door as what we show to others is slowly but surely
starting to shift open more and more and more as the Negative/Bad/Dark/Evil
of the Mind and this World is starting to tumble out.
I commit myself to show how an interesting thing has
happened/manifested in the Minds of human beings and this World of Humanity –
where we have throughout generations as individuals and humanity as a whole,
Never in fact really self-honestly looked at the negative/bad/evil/darkness of
what manifests/come up in the Mind as-ourselves, but instead IMMEDIATELY
created/manifest a polarity from/of it and in that relationship, created a
light that shines on the dark to in fact not see/face/source the
dark/negative/bad/evil that can come up in our Minds. Creating the illusion
that with the light, the dark is "not there anymore”; when all the while
what we’ve done with the dark/negative/bad/evil with suppressing it within our
Minds and in this World: have created our own worst enemy, in that those/such
Parts of ourselves has within our Minds developed as entities, personalities with
an awareness of its own existence that still creep through into the crevices of
the
Light/positivity/positive energy that we’ve attempted to shine on it for it
to “no more bee seen/exist”. How long / to what extent will the real, inherent
nature of ourselves in our Minds and in this World have to manifest for human
beings to see, realise and understand that we’re not going to sort out
ourselves/change this world without actually looking at/facing the negative,
the bad, the evil that exist within us and this world – that NO MATTER how much
you try and convince yourself of being a “good
person / positive / of love and light” that it still makes NO DIFFERENCE to
those hidden/secret negative/bad/evil thoughts/imaginations/reactions that can
manifest within one’s Mind. That NO MATTER how much you try and Band-Aid this
world/humanity with charities/development programmes/initiatives as a solution
to the consequences of humanity’s relationship to this World System, that it
will make NO DIFFERENCE to the very World System that is creating/manifesting
all the consequences in the first place?
I forgive
myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and
understand how I have created a Fear to my dark/negative/bad that manifest in
my thoughts, imagination, reactions, scenes that come up within my Mind, and so
from the Fear created a protection/defence relationship against it/towards it
as the Polarity that has manifested as the good/positive/love and light. Within
this, not seeing, realising and understanding thus, that – the more and more
and more I attain / strive / live to/towards the Positive, the good, the love
and light in my Mind, the more and more and more I am equally feeding the
FEAR of/as my own “dark side” that manifest within me/the Mind. And so,
with feeding/fuelling the “fear of the Dark”, I am inadvertently
creating/evolving the dark in equal parallel to creating/evolving the light.
Now, with the ‘Dark’ existing as my inherent beingness in direct relationship
to the Physical, the Dark is what manifests in REALITY and with the Light
existing as the polarity I created as Energy that is existent in the Mind – the
Light only manifests in the ILLUSION of/as the Mind. And so, why/how it is,
that the Dark/Negative/Bad is what is existing/manifesting/proliferating in
this REAL WORLD – as everyone, with resisting/fearing the Dark/Negative/Bad in
our Beingness-Physical
relationship is manifesting it as a REALITY that this world/earth has
become, because as everyone is in their Mind, the Illusion of Energy
focusing/paying attention to only the Positive/Good/love and light in/as the
starting-point of “fear of the Dark” of ourselves/this World – we keep on
creating only Light in the Mind and the Dark in the PHYSICAL. And so, why/how
we are now at a stage where HELL has become this PHYSICAL WORLD and Heaven only
exist as an Illusion in the Minds of Human Beings.
I
commit myself to show, how with the tools of writing, self-forgiveness and
within that Self-Honesty – self can walk a practical, structural
process of facing the dark/negative/bad/evil that manifests/come up within
the Mind, to see, realise and understand the source/origin of/as the
dark/negative/bad/evil that manifests/come up within the Mind to from there
actually walk it into REALISATION
and SOLUTION and no more try and run/hide from one’s own Shadows through
creating polarities from/of it into/as the Mind through/with Energy, that in no
way actually in fact Solves the inner struggles/conflicts we face in our Minds
and in this World.
Within this, self will see, realise and understand WHY the
negative/bad/evil has manifested into the PHYSICAL of this world and has no way
CHANGED – as everyone has been hiding in Light, the illusion that was created
from the Dark, to not face the Dark and in not facing the Dark of ourselves
within and without, we have accepted and allowed it to proliferate/accumulate.
So, investigate Desteni and Equal Money, where we’re walking the process
of facing our shadows within and without, and actually ONCE AND FOR ALL find/establish
ETERNAL
SOLUTIONS that stand, so that the evil/bad/negative as our inherent nature
is brought forth to in fact be changed for Real, and so we stop this
polarity/conflict between the reality of the dark and the light as illusion,
through facing the reality of the Dark and bring it/walk it into Solution. So –
stop the creating ILLUSIONS and becoming the LIVING
SOLUTION.
We will in the next posts to come walk some practical
examples in the Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments of how we, create Illusions
to hide from the reality of the Dark and how this thus inadvertently
proliferate the Dark, where we’ve been running away from the reality of
ourselves, when we should really just face it, direct it and sort it out.
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