FEAR of our own SHADOW (Part 3): DAY 191
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EVIL
– continued
The
FORCE - continued
The
Chicken or the Egg??? – continued
How
the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued
Who
I Am as Money – continued
(To read this post, it
must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to
Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is
interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the
point/question of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire
physical existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of
the points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into
the next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the multi-dimensionality
we’ve created/manifested as our separation as Energy/Consciousness from/of
Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced with this post, and
have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self first start from DAY
1, as otherwise one will have no context of many dimensions that is walked in
this post, that has been dealt with in detail in previous posts.)
The Context that we’re walking within Fear of our own
Shadow, stand within the Question: “Why, with Always being aware of what goes
on in the Mind, what comes up in the Mind –have we never questioned our nature,
our beingness, but simply blindly followed/denied it and had it define
us/determine our actions/words and behaviour. Simultaneously in such moments
knowing we can stop/change and how different the outcome for the
moment/relationship would be, but would still, despite that knowledge
and awareness – act on/deny the Evil of Mind?”
And within this, we’re starting more specifically with
having a look at our accepted and allowed relationship to/towards our own
shadows / “Dark Sides” that manifests in our Minds, within our Physical Bodies
as-ourselves, where we have mentioned in the previous post that we’ll walk some
practical examples in the Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments of how we
create Illusions to hide from the reality of the Dark and how this thus
inadvertently proliferate the Dark, where we’ve been running away from the
reality of ourselves, when we should really just face it, direct it and sort it
out.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to consider the point of “trying to find the good in people” / “always looking
for the good in people”, from the perspective that this would imply, with
having to “find or look for” the good in people, that the “good” is not
evidently here in/as Physical Living and would thus furthermore imply that the “bad”
is most evident, because one have to “search / look” to “somewhere find the
good”.
I commit myself to show, how within ourselves, others and
this world – the Dark/Bad/Negative/Evil has been the most evident, and we’ve
been trying to search/find, and even going to the point of creating
polarities/illusions from/of the backdrop of the Dark/Bad/Negative/Evil to
manifest “some good/positive/light/love” within and from it all. Not seeing,
realising and understanding how within this, we’ve never faced/taken
responsibility for the Dark/Bad/Negative/Evil in ourselves, others and this
world as a whole and that No Light/Love/Positivity/Goodness can in fact be REAL
as long as Dark/Bad/Negative/Evil exist. Because we’ve created the Good FROM
the EVIL and so the Good will always be dependent on the Evil/Bad to exist,
because we’ll create this relationship where we’d actually accept and allow the
Bad/Negative/Dark/Evil to exist, just so that we can Find/Experience
the Love/Good/Positivity/Light. And so we inadvertently accept and allow the
Bad/Negative/Dark/Evil to continue existing/manifesting/evolving – not wanting
to give up the Good/Positive/Light, because we’re in fact AFRAID of what we may
find in the Dark/Negative/bad/Evil, and so we instead continue, incessantly,
insisting that there is “good/love/light/positivity” – but what is in fact
driving that, is FEAR, us rather wanting to fight for an Illusion as keeping the
Light On, than facing the reality of the Dark/Negative/bad/Evil.
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise
and understand how this Dynamic between Good and Evil / Positive and Negative
exist in my relationship
to me, within my Own Mind – where, there exist this automated
defence/protection mechanism that if/as anyone would say to me “You are
Evil/Bad” or “Your beingness is inherently Evil/Bad”, one would immediately go
into a reaction of Fear/Resistance
and immediately respond with “No! I’m a Good Person!” – which, within this is
interesting, that we’d REACT
to the words Evil/Bad and such words connotation/definition to who we are/our
beingness. With reaction and the response through defensiveness, indicating
that we know there is Truth to it, within ourselves – because, whatever one
REACT to, and especially within the context of becoming defensive/resistant,
like really enforcing denial/suppression: Show that there exist a SECRET in the
Mind, an Awareness
of what is in fact being said. Where we’ve accepted and allowed ENERGY and WORDS to
be “enough” to justify self as being a “Good Person” within/as the Mind, that
we have made MONEY and CHARITIES justify as being “Good Deeds” within/as this
World System of Money – BUT STILL: energy and words as experiences and
personalities, DOES NOT CHANGE THE INHERENT NATURE OF THE MIND, as does money
and charities NOT CHANGE THE INHERENT NATURE OF THE WORLD SYSTEM. And this is a
pivotal point to be seen, realised and understood: that we SPEAK a lot, that we
DO a lot within the Mind and this World System within the context of good, of
light, of love, of benevolence of positivity: but still, the very Nature of
Human Consciousness, the very Nature of this World System is remaining
untouched/unchanged. Why is that?
I commit
myself to show, how within the Mind, for example – we play this God-Devil
game with ourselves, and this goes for all human beings. Like, the Devil within
us appear in all its glory such as jealousy, nastiness, competition,
comparison, vengefulness, spitefulness, deceit, compromise, dishonesty – and the
extremes to which our imaginations/projections in the Mind can take us when/as
someone/something “push a button”. And then, what many human beings refer to as
a “conscience” would manifest and we go into an internal
self-talk/backchat/internal conversations by suppressing what we participated
in/trying to make up for what we’ve done to/towards others in the Mind – like,
going into a form of prayer/forgiveness for what we have accepted and allowed to
participate in, within the Mind and make up for it through good deeds/convincing
ourselves that “we’re a better person than the Evil that manifests in the Mind.
Or not even make up for it but just give a big SIGH and move through it. But,
we so continue in our Minds, our relationships – see-sawing between our own
Devil/God and Heaven/Hell that can manifest within our Minds and for most part,
all of this Remain Secret/Hidden – how little we in fact share/expose of what
goes on in the
Mind for REAL. If one would really make a list of the actual experiences in
the dimensions of the Mind, one will find for Most part it’s the Devil/Hell
that roams within the Mind and then we really in fact always only access the
Good/Light/Love/Positivity when/as a Dark/Evil/Bad/Negative appear – it’s the
perfect protection/defence mechanism, as soon as a Dark/Evil/Negative/Bad
appear/manifest in our Minds, we immediately try and “turn on a light” within
us to NOT SEE/FACE the reality of what manifests in the Mind. Having a look at
this World System/Humanity – how much Dark/Evil/Negative/Bad exist, and then we
have the governments/politicians come with “shining lights” on the
Dark/Negative/Evil/Bad with EXPERIENCES and WORDS that FILL THE MINDS of Human
Beings with some experiences/light – but does ANYTHING ever really in
fact CHANGE in/as this WORLD SYSTEM and the LIVES of human beings and all
that is Physical: NO. Same goes for ourselves in our Minds, we shine lights on
what goes on in our Minds, filling us with experiences/light, but does ANYTHING
ever really in fact CHANGE in/as the Mind and our lives/living: NO. We’re
internally and externally playing this game, creating LIGHT in our Minds to
shine on the Darkness of the REALITY of the Mind and this World but it does not
change a Thing. So, obviously here we have to face some FACTS:
Love/Light/Positivity/Good is not / has not changed human beings/humanity/this
World System in any way whatsoever.
I forgive
myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to consider an interesting
thing: that when I close my eyes: it’s Dark. So –why hasn’t it been that when
we close our EYES we see LIGHT? Again, here – we can IMAGINE seeing LIGHT
within the Dark – but the base Substance of what we see/become immersed within
when we close our eyes is Darkness. And furthermore within that, is that when
we close our Eyes, the Darkness of MIND seems to run amok as our
thoughts/imaginations/projections start running/racing with all sorts of
bad/negative/dark/evil
contents/experiences – WHY IS THAT? Why, when we close our eyes in the
evenings, Why when we’re alone with ourselves in our Minds – is there not
immediately ONLY good/positive/love/light as the “beautiful things” coming up
in the Mind? WHY can the good/positive/love/light in the Mind only manifest
when we imagine it/create it/deliberately have to focus on it/give attention to
it? WHY is not as NATURAL as the dark/evil/negative/bad coming up?
I commit myself to show, how – we, individually and
collectively, have created this battle between Good and Evil / Light and Dark /
Positive and Negative: OURSELVES, from the within to the without. It’s
interesting, that – everyone is asking for PEACE
from WAR – but not seeing, realising and understanding that for Peace to
manifest: WAR MUST STOP. So, in having a look at this WAR we are creating
within ourselves between Good and Evil / Light and Dark / Positive and Negative
– we must stop BOTH SIDES that is creating the friction/conflict as
war within ourselves: Both the Good and the Bad. As we have shown, the Bad is
what comes up almost ‘naturally / automatically’ within our Minds and then we
have to create/imagine/pay attention t/focus on the Good to manifest or even
exist within us. For War to stop – there cannot be a Winner/Loser: only an Equal
and One SOLUTION. Same with the War we’re waging/creating within ourselves
between Good and Evil / Light and Dark / Positive and Negative – there cannot
be a Winner/Loser, as long as this Polarity exist, this
competition exist, this War exist: there can be no REAL PEACE within/as
ourselves.
And so, we propose to consider, for a moment – having a look
at the Polarities you create in your Mind between good/bad, positive/negative –
how you constantly, continuously see-saw between your own God/Devil and
Heaven/Hell, and from here – rather than creating a Polarity of
Good/Positive/Light/Love: investigate the Bad/Negative that come up in the Mind
and FIND AN EQUAL AND ONE LIVING
SOLUTION for it, where through self will IN
FACT CHANGE within self and self’s living, instead of hiding from the
Darkness within the Light, that brings/has brought not real change to who we are
in/as the Mind and our Living.
We invite you to join the Desteni
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Dark with/as Self with Writing,
Self-Forgiveness
and Self Commitments as the Process of actual, REAL CHANGE and taking responsibility for the
consequences we created from/of the Dark of/as ourselves that we have now for
too long been trying/attempting to Hide from/Deny/Resist/Fear – there’s no
Point FEARING
ourselves, let’s ESTABLISH/LIVE SOLUTIONS.
