Using our own Weaknesses against ourselves: DAY 442
Solution and Reward
Continuing with the Self Forgiveness / Commitment process:
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to within this see, realise and understand how – despite even now having an
‘awareness’ / insight into and as my relationship/responsibility to/as me and
so to all: the wants, needs and desires of/as the Self-Interest of my
Consciousness/Mind – still dominates my decision / ‘living will’ to fundamentally
change/prepare me to take responsibility for myself and so the
position/responsibility of me within this lifetime in relation to
everything/everyone else.
Where, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to even go to the extent of “well, this process is difficult to walk /
it’s impossible to change and so therefore, this must mean that I’m not
‘supposed to change / don’t have to change / that this is not what I’m supposed
to be/do in this life”. Not seeing, realising and understanding how, with such
a stance, what I’m ACTUALLY in fact saying is: “I don’t want to change / I want
to remain in my ‘comfort zone’ / I don’t want to put in the effort/walk the
process of change” and within this, what I am doing is manipulating myself with
using my experience/application in process as the reason/excuse/justification
to in fact protect/defend/validate MY wants, needs and desires – by making my
reasons/excuses/justifications sound plausible/just/okay TO ME inside my own
Mind.
I commit myself to assist and support myself to identify
when I, within my Mind’s thoughts/backchats/reactions – in any way accept/allow
myself to manipulate myself into excusing/justifying why I’m committing to ‘my
WANTS’, rather than standing with and as my Self/Living Commitment to change/face
myself within the Mind and also within this World. To not accept/allow myself
to always WANT to ‘take the easy way out’ of responsibility/obligation for who
I am within and without, but assist/support myself to persevere, to stand, to
move until my Self/Living Commitment to me and to all is a Natural Living
Expression of who I am.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see, realise and understand – how it’s interesting that so
many individuals, even looking at myself before walking process: if someone
would come up to me as I/so many of us walking process now come up to others
and SHOW how the Mind works, how we’re directly/indirectly responsible for our
own Minds and the state of life on earth as it exist now: that many do not even
take the FIRST STEP of allowing themselves to
INVESTIGATE, to SEE for themselves; but rather simply immediately REACT in
the Mind with the statement “NO!!! I’m not responsible! How can I be
responsible? I am my Mind! I am my emotions/feelings!!! There exist no direct
relationship between my mind, me and my body and so therefore also not to this
world/reality”. Instead of taking the moment to look, to investigate “to
investigate ALL things”: one didn’t do it, but instead immediately went into
thought/backchat/reaction in the Mind. Again here the question: how can one say
NO / abdicate responsibility to something – when one had not yet in fact
investigated / introspected / researched it? It’s the same as for example
saying “Chemicals into the atmosphere does not Pollute the air or the oceans”
and making such a claim because you haven’t researched the facts.
With Desteni, you become the facts, the reality, the proof through actually
allowing yourself to LOOK through investigating/introspecting rather than just
immediately reacting.
I commit myself to show how - with so many individuals that
have not investigated/researched/introspected the process for themselves, but
instead immediately went into opinion/reaction in their MINDS without taking
into account/walking the facts/proof for themselves and them saying this
process is impossible/lambasting process: this does not define those walking
process or the process itself – but instead, defines the individuals who are
reacting, as they are becoming their own living proof of the extent of the
problem we face within Human Consciousness, our Consciousness Pre-programming –
where even seeing the words ‘equality and oneness/what’s best for all’ is
simply immediately dismissed, and a stepping back into the mind, the isolation,
the separation and limitation is taken. Within this process exists the Act of
Abdicating Responsibility, and within that – why the world and human beings in
their Minds are in the state/condition that we find today.
In this, I commit myself to assist and support myself to –
when/as I ever find myself immediately going into REACTION when something is
shown or even when I see something of myself for myself in my writing, forgiveness and
living process: to not judge what I see/hear – but instead UNDERSTAND it,
understand the problem, the consequence, look
at the information practically/realistically and find a solution, commit to
a solution and assist/support myself to CHANGE, rather than hold onto/limit
myself in and as my own pre-programming. In this process, I expand my self-awareness,
my world and so my living – instead of separating myself further from such an
opportunity to learn, to expand to grow within and as who I am.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see, realise and understand the seriousness of the problem we face in/as
Consciousness Pre-programming, where – we tend to take even the smallest
moments of wants, needs and desires coming up in the Mind for granted. Meaning:
we don’t see/realise/understand how in such moments, we shift from the here,
from the physical, the moment and so our direct-relationship to reality and
indulge into/as the Mind. The ‘forbidden fruit’ being handed out TO US by the
snake/sly/deceptive mind in/as which we’re so skilled to lure ourselves into
and as Temptation. Then we trap ourselves in/as our OWN wants, needs and
desires and can for a moment, a day, a week, a month…even years/a lifetime:
accept/allow ourselves to get lost in/as this self-created pre-programmed
alternate reality and not even realise/see/question who we are within it all,
our relationship to ourselves, the physical body and so this physical
existence/life on earth.
I commit myself to show how we’re Not considering within
this all how: our Minds is ourselves, in that, “we know ourselves the best” and
so we know our own weaknesses the best and therefore – with how we have programmed
our inherent nature for/as survival/self-interest and greed – we will even use
OUR OWN WEAKNESSES against ourselves in/as our own Minds; exactly as we do with
others in our world/reality. Like with our wants, needs and desires – our own
‘forbidden fruit’ / weakness, our own sly/deceptive/manipulative nature of
reasoning/excusing/justifying why/how we indulge/place our wants, needs and
desires before what is best for ourselves and so for all and our commitment to
ourselves/life: we are our own worst enemy.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing,
forgiveness and self-corrective living – investigate/introspect my ‘weaknesses’,
to understand them, to understand who I am in relationship to them. So that I
can within this assist and support myself to: instead of accepting and allowing
myself to sabotage/compromise myself/my life through using my own weaknesses
against myself – instead learn/teach myself how to not give into temptation as
my own wants/needs and desires dominating my Self-Will, but commit to self/life/living
change and work on strengthening my resolve to stand for/as what is best for me
and so best for all.
We’ll continue more in the next post
