I will not let ‘my Want’ take over ‘my Will’: DAY 437
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Problem:
One often hear oneself, in the Mind, say: “I don’t WANT to”
/ “I don’t WANT to do it now” / “I don’t FEEL like it (also translated into ‘I
don’t want to’). Have we ever considered the extent of self-interest within
such a statement? Self-Interest meaning: within such a statement of “I don’t
want to / I don’t feel like it / I don’t feel like it now/right now / I’m not
going to do it now” – the only relationship that exist within such a statement is
between the “I and the WANT”. Where this “I and WANT” ONLY exists in one’s own Mind,
and the question within this is: where is reality? Where is one’s relationship
to reality/the physical and responsibility within it…it is nowhere to be found.
Now, what is interesting is that most of the things that
come up in our Minds have a direct-relationship to the “I”, where we exist
through the Mind’s I and not the ‘physical eyes’, where we exist within
Illusion instead of reality – where we will thus in such a moment only see the
“I’s WANT” – instead of through the physical eyes, in terms of ‘who/what’s
involved, what’s the responsibility in reality, what’s the consequence if I do
not stand/direct/change/take
responsibility in this moment, what would be best for all and my
relationship to all/everything involved with taking this action/doing this
thing/giving direction?’ None of that is taken into consideration in a moment,
only the I of the Mind and its WANT, the MY WANT is taken into consideration.
PLUS one get an added FEELING to it (Man!!! What a Prize!!!) when/as one go
into that self-interested relationship of “I and WANT” instead of Here and
Responsibility. Meaning, when you have a look for yourself, in memories of
moments where you went into that “I don’t WANT to” – you will find that within
that, you also get an energy experience, an emotional experience that you can
feel in the physical AS YOU SPEAK THE WORDS.
Look back at the memories, the moments – you will find that as you, in your
mind or out loud spoke the words “I don’t want to” – along with it, came an
emotional experience/energy experience from the mind in the body. This showing
how the words we speak in the mind produce energy, as the energy is in
relationship to the words we speak in the mind/out loud. This relationship
between Words and the Mind/Energy and the difference of/as the Living Word
expressed/lived through and as the Physical Body – we will discuss in more in
detail in posts to come; how we have come energy-producing machines for Consciousness,
instead of cultivating Life in the Physical/Real World.
Fascinating that we’d lean towards our own I / our own Want
and creating an energy/emotion for ourselves – rather than, actually
‘creating/directing/moving ourselves in the REAL WORLD where there will be real
impact/movement’. Instead, we ‘move’ in/as energy in the Mind as we speak the
words “I don’t WANT to” – completely disconnecting/separating ourselves from
reality, from REAL responsibility.
One can have a look at the simple, practical things where we
do this to ourselves – in terms of simple/basic responsibilities such as house
cleaning/studying/doing something for someone when asked/lending a helping
hand/gardening/writing/reading etc. This one have to do for oneself – identify
when/where one do this to yourself and your relationship to
reality…additionally, how OFTEN one in fact do this to oneself in the Mind with
the words/statement/context of “I don’t WANT to”.
But, what inevitably happens is: consequence in REALITY
accumulates / time passes and that which needs to be done – is still here to be
done. So, now what we’ve done with the “I don’t WANT to” statement in the
Mind/out loud is get our energy-fix as well as accumulate consequence in
reality / the physical where eventually MORE will have to be done than what it
would have been if one simply physically willed/moved oneself when/as responsibility
in reality came knocking/showing that it needs attention/direction. Consequence
within, meets consequence without – for us to have that Energy Fix in the Mind,
consequence externally continued escalating. Now Imagine, all of humanity in a
similar/same possession – everyone wanting their mental energy-fixes FIRST
before taking responsibility in reality/giving direction in/as their real world/lives
and the earth as a whole. In this process, we’re all placing our own I’s /
Mind’s and the ENERGY we experience BEFORE the Physical, BEFORE Life, BEFORE
Responsibility in/as this real physical existence. Placing ILLUSION
before REALITY.
The question is: what is the difference between the ‘I Want’
in the Mind and ‘Self Will’ in the Physical? What are the consequences of
living in a Mind of Want, rather than a Self-Willed directive principle in the
physical/real world? These questions we will explore in the next post.
