Suicide Paranoia – 7: The Creation Process of Suicide
Paranoia (Thought Dimension Part 2)
DAY 393
Here we’re going to walk the/a practical example to
illustrate how energy transforms into thoughts/self talk in the Mind.
Because Human Beings do not Understand how emotional/feeling
reactions/energies are created within our own Mind-Physical Relationship, the
immediate assumption that exists is that: whomsoever “caused” the
reaction/experience within our Mind “is to Blame”. Not realising that, it
wasn’t the other person “personally”, but rather what they represented within
their words, behaviours, tonalities,
movements, intentions etc. that activated memories and/or knowledge and
information to which we reacted to in and as our own Minds. Thus, our reactions
was not so much towards the other
person, personally, but more towards what memories, knowledge, information,
views, perceptions, ideas and beliefs we hold / define ourselves as within our
own Minds. Thus, other parts/pieces of what other humans represent acts like
“activations for reactions” on ALL levels of our Minds – the conscious,
subconscious, unconscious, quantum mind,
quantum physical and physical body itself.
So, let’s walk an example of an individual that had been
exposed, throughout their lives, to such moments of reactions
within themselves, based on other people’s words, behaviours. So, with all
human beings being exposed to reactions in their relationship to others, why do
only some go to the extent of suicide paranoia and/or to the extent of actually
acting upon it? This has much to do with emotional/feeling ‘sensitivity’.
Meaning, where individuals are more ‘sensitive’ to reactions they experience in
their Minds/Bodies and so reactions are then more ‘accentuated / intense’ than
it would be in others. It’s fascinating within this as well, where – there will
be one person with two human beings standing in front of them and say the same
thing in the same tonality/behaviour to both of them, but it will affect each
one of the two human beings standing in front of them differently. The one,
being more sensitive to their own internal reactions, would take it more hard
than the other who would be more easily to ‘move the reactions in their mind
away’ / suppress it or vent it/exert it in some way or another. Thus, this ‘sensitivity’
of such human beings causes the individual to Internalize their
reactions/experiences MORE. Internalize meaning, they would not have any ‘protection/defence’
mechanisms and/or exertion/venting tactics – but would like “take the punches”
of words/tonalities/behaviour/body language and “sponge it up within and as
themselves”. A Human Being that is Not ‘sensitive’, would have
ways/means/methods to ‘deal with’ the reactions in their Minds/their
relationships/worlds, the Human Being that is sensitive would not have such
ways/means/methods and just internalize it all, sponge it all up, keep it to
themselves, within themselves – with no-one/nothing/no support and assistance
to direct their own reactions in some way or another. All of this obviously
just showing/indicating also how uneducated human beings are within the simple
field of something such as Communication and
how your words, behaviours, tonalities affect/influence human beings
differently/uniquely.
So, with this – the human being then is exposed to reactions
in their Mind that within their life start accumulating. Now, they don’t have
any other context for their reactions/experiences, but in relation to that
something/someone that ‘caused it’. And so, such a human being would ‘take the
punches, sponge up the reactions/experience” and then start replaying the
memory of what happened within and as the Energy that they experienced it. I
mean, imagine, you’re a child,
growing up, there’s no Education with regards to our mental processes of
thinking, emotions, feelings, imagination and how it works and so the only “relationship”
the human being forms eventually with the reaction is “who/what caused it
externally”, not realising how the reactions/experiences were caused in their
own Mind simply because of not understanding how to effectively deal with one’s
own reactions and/or other people’s words and behaviours.
So, what starts happening in the Mind is: the individual
then replays memories, events, instances, moments in their Mind – over and over
and over again, which from here is where the Process of thinking/self-talk
starts emerging. This is also how the Mind of a child develops: starts with
energy/energy experiences/reactions, then memories that imprints into
themselves from their external reality, from where they reference memories to
start forming their relationships, then from memories emerge Imaginations, from
where they start ‘changing reality according to their individuality’, and then
from memories comes thinking/self-talk. The same happens with the Suicide
Paranoia process: the individual, in their energy
reactions, starts looking at memories and from those memories starts “activating
their imagination”. Where they over and over and over again look at the
moments/instances that affected them deeply, and then they TALK about it in
their own Minds, start THINKING about themselves, others, their experience and
so they are catapulted into a Reality in their Mind where they can completely
change what really happened in reality, and even change the way they are, look
like, see themselves, experience themselves and so starts the process of losing
touch with themselves and so reality and start BELIEVING
THEIR MIND more, the memories, the imagination, the self talk and the
thinking…until it possess them completely and eventually leading to making the
biggest mistake of/as their existence and only when it’s too late, after death,
realising what they had done, accepted and allowed in believing illusion in
their Mind, more than the reality of their Awareness in every moment of breath.
We’ll continue more in the next post
