Suicide Paranoia – 12: Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments
DAY 398
So, in this post we’re going to walk a few more dimensions
regarding Suicide Paranoia to take into consideration within one’s process of
assisting and supporting oneself from Paranoia, into and as the Living Reality.
This we’re going to do through walking a Process of Self
Forgiveness and Self Commitments:
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see, realise and understand my accepted and allowed relationship to and as
Suicide Paranoia in my Mind within the context of how Suicide Paranoia
exemplify Human’s Nature
with regards to ‘self interest’, that: if/as my starting point were to be
standing and standing up for, living/living for not only myself – but expand my
awareness, my purpose to something ‘more, to something greater’ than the “Only
ME, ME ME” mind-set – how, in such a starting point/purpose, could even the
option of suicide exist if I understand that there is in fact more to “just me”
within myself and so existence as a whole? How Suicide Paranoia completely
isolate oneself into and as the Mind, me becoming my own possession – feeling
like my world/problems are “closing in on Me” and cycling in my Mind to such an
extent that I cannot, in my Mind, see beyond “just me and the problems that
surrounds me in my Mind” – not seeing, realising and understanding how I am
creating all of this in my MIND, that
if I assist and support myself to walk through the relationship between me and
the problems circling the inside of my Mind, and open me and my eyes into and
as Reality
beyond only directly seeing into the Problems – that I will in fact see the
Potential, the Opportunities that I would have missed and do miss with me
accepting and allowing my own Mind to possess me.
I commit myself to assist and support myself, to through
Writing, Self Forgiveness, Self Commitments and Self Corrective Living – walk-through the
Points, the Memories, Relationships and Experiences that Possess my Mind, where
I have conditioned my Self-Problem relationship in the Mind to such an extent,
that I don’t see that “what you are is what you will create/manifest”. So, if
I, within my Mind – create me into a Self-Problem primary relationship, all I
will be, see, live and experience is “problems” and so I commit myself to stand
and stand up from such an relationship in my MIND, see BEYOND and THROUGH the
problems through walking through them within myself to see into and as
Solutions – from Paranoia Possession to me as the Living Solution.
In this, I commit myself to assist and support me to align
me, my life/living and so purpose ‘beyond only the self interest of the ‘me,
myself and I’-Ego of Consciousness’ – to see, realise and understand that, we
individually cannot accept and allow ourselves to always only look into
Problems and possess our Minds with problems, because in so doing we just
create MORE PROBLEMS/Consequence, but to assist and support myself to start
LIVING SOLUTIONS, to see/walk through the Self-Problem relationship, so that I
can be a Living Example for more to see, to open their Eyes beyond what they
only see in the Mind/Consciousness, so that we can start Looking into Reality,
this Real World, the Real Problems we collectively face on ALL LEVELS of
existence, so that we can stand individually and together and bring this
world/reality into and as a Living
Solution.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see, realise and understand how the Mind/Consciousness can make things seem
“so real”, not seeing, realising and understanding that I only experience it to
be “so real” in the Mind, because I have defined ‘who I am’ MORE to what goes
on in the Mind, than realising I have the ability, within and as my awareness –
to CHANGE this relationship to/as what I have accepted and allowed to be “real”
in the Mind because of acceptance, allowance, belief and definition. Meaning,
that – I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see,
realise and understand that: what goes on in the Mind is “dimensional” – I can
change my relationship to it, I can stop participation in and as it, where the
problems in the mind keeps on coming up as, for example, memories that haunts
my mind and I keep on accepting and allowing myself to react to the memories
the same way, over and over and over again, not seeing, realising and
understanding that: I can CHANGE
me as the reactions I have to the memories, forgive the reactions, let the
memories go and decide to LIVE HERE IN WHAT IS ACTUALLY REAL as the Physical as
who I am in every moment of Breath. So therefore, it is for me to see, realise
and understand the difference between mind-reality and who I am within it,
which I can change – and so change me in who I am in my actual physical living
in reality in every moment of breath. So, my relationship to the Mind and the
memories that haunt me – is only as real as I accept and allow it to be in
terms of my relationship to what goes on within the Mind.
Therefore, I commit myself to assist and support myself to
walk through the Memories that haunt my mind, CHANGE ME in relationship to
them, investigate
the reactions/experiences and make the commitment to no more accept and
allow MEMORIES to define who I am in every moment of breath / how I experience
myself, for MEMORIES
to define the reality of who I am within me and my living, but for me to live
the decision to stand with me, by me to walk this Life and establish my utmost
potential as I walk out of the shadow of the Mind/Consciousness and finally get
to know what it means to live in and as Self AWARENESS in every moment of
breath with and as that which in fact represents Life and Living as the
Physical/the Physical Body.
In this, I commit myself to see, realise and understand that
– I have for too long accepted and allow the past, the memories, the experience
and relationships in my MIND to haunt
me, to possess me to the point where I want to end me within it all, through
for example the suicidal tendencies/imaginations/thoughts. Not seeing,
realising and understanding how I am accepting and allowing dimensional
creations, in a paranormal realm in my Mind, that I am ‘making real for me’
through constantly participating in it, ‘keeping it real, keeping it the same,
making it more and more overwhelming the more I participate in and as it’ – to
drive me to a point of wanting to end me, when in fact: I can be the START the
rebirth of me as my Awareness, with seeing, realising and understanding I can
CHANGE me in relationship to what comes up in the Mind and what I accept/allow in the Mind and what not. And
so, I commit myself to assist and support me to not be the end of me, but to
be/become the beginning, the start, the REBIRTH
and utilize my life/living opportunity in this lifetime, to rebirth me in every
moment of breath, from Paranoia to Self Aware Living – simply by changing who I
am in relationship to the Mind, through writing, forgiveness, commitments and
corrective application.
We’ll continue more in the next post
