The Fear of Failure and Desire for Success (Part Three): DAY 324
Solution (continued):
Here we’re going to walk through opening up all the
Dimensions of the Problem and within the Problem – also see the Solution, as we
walk a Process of
Writing of Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments
For Context from the previous post:
“The question within
this, is: where is Self, who is Self within it all – and: is there another Way
of Change, without waging internal battles within ourselves with
Characters/Personalities in which we split ourselves into two and actually end
up talking to ourselves in our Minds to maintain/control/hold ourselves in/as
‘Change’ or the experience of ‘Change’?”
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise
and understand or even consider/conceive there to be another way of existing
within who/how/what I am, as I have always – from since I can remember, been
existing in and experiencing energy, and accepting and allowing different
thoughts, memories, emotions/feelings,
behaviour patterns, backchat from different
me’s / Characters in the Mind to direct/control/influence/determine Who I
Am. And, with this becoming me / existing as me from since I can remember, all
of my Existence in consciousness have become automated to such an extent that I
had not even REALISED that this is Happening with me, from the perspective of:
how from ENERGY I would talk myself into Character, such as thinking about /
backchatting and imagination myself as ‘being a Failure’ and then
generating/creating the energy-experience of ‘Failing’ and so internally
condition myself into ‘Failing’ and so becomes my external world/reality. And
then to try and ‘fix’ myself – I try and ‘talk myself out of it’ with the same
constructs that ‘got me into trouble in the first place’ – now just CHANGING
the thoughts/backchats/imaginations/reactions/behaviour patterns into a
different energy, Characterizing a different energy such as Desire into Success
and so shape/design/manifest the
thoughts/backchats/behaviours/reactions/imaginations into Creating a New
Character as the OPPOSITE POLARITY of the previous Character. Now, not seeing,
realising and understanding that instead of actually SOLVING my relationship to
me as Lazy, I complicated it even more within the Starting Point of Energy and
Energy Polarity, because NOW what’s going to happen is these two Characters of
Two different Polarized Energy-Sources are now going to exist within me and as
me, and Balance each other out ALL the time – that would eventually lead me
into and as Mental and Physical compromise/consequence as I accept and allow
myself to be moved/changed/controlled by/through ENERGY.
I commit myself to show How – creating Characters that
Oppose each-other, such as Fear of Failure and Desire for Success, in the
example of Laziness and Discipline: is Not in fact a Solution, a Living
Solution – but create/manifest More Consequence in one’s Self-Relationship
and also one’s Relationship with one’s Physical Body and general
Life-Experience. For most part, most Human Being manage to Maintain their
Characters – two Opposite Characters, rooted/existent within two Opposing
Energies, and so ‘manage’ their Character-Relationships and so their
relationship to the Physical Body and their Life/Living. However, what we have
to question here: is that what we’re willing to live with, only ‘managing our
Minds’, see-sawing between energy-polarities, constantly busy in the Mind
managing thoughts, backchats, reactions, emotions/feelings, imaginations,
memories as the Characters in our Minds start speaking/talking with each other
and we’re kind of ‘in the middle of it all’ Regulating the relationships of the
Characters, siding with some, talking others down, suppressing most –
constantly and continuously Managing our own me’s / Characters within our
Minds. In this, no attention/relationship is given/harnessed in our own
relationship to the Physical Body, let alone others – as we’re too busy trying
to manage, maintain and control all the Talking me’s as Characters in the
Mind/Consciousness where most have it fortunate enough to be able to control it
all, however it’s become more and more apparent that most aren’t and soon ‘lost
control’ of it All, which lead to mental/physical Mind Possessions. And
even within this comes the question – are those in Control of it all, really
‘in Control’ – when they change Characters based on reactions, thoughts,
imaginations, backchats, behaviours etc.? Or is that ‘how they REACT’ to the
Characters that come up in the Mind is more ‘controlled’, which doesn’t mean
that they’re ‘in control’ – but the ‘management/regulation’ of all the
Characters is ‘Balanced’ in the Mind with how they DEAL-with the see-sawing
within and between the Energy-Polarities that Consciousness activate/initiate?
So, within this Process – we’re going to Illustrate how to
not create More Characters, More Consequence in one’s Mind by splitting oneself
into different ‘me’s’ – but how to Actually assist and support oneself to
become a Living Solution to/as oneself when Facing a Character in the Mind that
one see/realise/understand is Compromising one’s relationship to Self, the
Physical Body and so one’s Life/Living in general. Because, creating an
‘Opposing self’ from/of the ‘Previous Self’ – is going to, within one’s Mind,
send one into an internal (internal, which also sounds like eternal) Battle/War
within oneself, constantly/continuously ‘Fighting oneself’ to remain ‘Changed’
– but CHANGE should not be a ‘fight/war/inner-battle’ – but a Becoming, a
Living, a Certainty and an Expression that is Natural as who/what/how Self is
in every Moment of Breath.
So, we’ve become so ‘used’ to our Automated existence – that
we haven’t considered/conceived of an Different way of existing/living.
Obviously, because of our Inherent Self-Definition existing in the relationship
to Consciousness with believing that we cannot exist without this Process of
Characterizing Energy, thinking about it, talking about it in our Minds,
generating emotional/feeling responses from Memories/Imaginations – all of
which then accordingly determine our Behaviour/Living: we because of such
Inherent Self-Definition would then look for Solutions in and as ENERGY, in and
as the Mind with how it already exist – because we believe it to be
who/how/what we are ONLY. Not ever seeing, realising and understanding how we
have tried to Create Solutions within, as and from the very thing that’s been
creating Consequence in the first place: the Mind.
And, it’s interesting how this exist within the principle
“as within = so without” – where: we’re trying to create Solutions in the very
system that is producing Consequence, and so in fact create MORE Consequence =
that we’re doing the same with this Current World/Money System. We’re trying to
Create solutions, within, as and from the very System that is
Consequence-manifest, that is creating/producing Consequence and so all we’ve
done within Humanity is create More Consequence in our relationship to the
current World/Money System. And so no-one want to Consider, that: to Change
this World – we’ve got to CHANGE THE ENTIRE
SYSTEM. Same with our Minds – to change our worlds, our relationship to
ourselves, the physical body – we’ve got to Change THE ENTIRE SYSTEM as the
Mind/Consciousness. And within both realities
-within and without, to do that: AWARENESS
is what has to be Developed, and self-definition is what has to be
Transcended/Expanded.
So, with this – we won’t Find Solutions to Consequence of
ourselves in and as the Mind-itself, we’ll only create MORE Consequence. So
where is the Solution to/as ourselves then? Here – we’re going to show you, that:
Who
you are is NOT Energy, and that we currently only exist within the
Self-Definition of Energy/Energy-Experience – because we’re Separate from our
Physical HERENESS, our Physical Living – Embodying who we are into and as
Living Expression, instead of separating who we are into Energies, as
Characters in the Mind. So, where the Solution is: is our AWARENESS – and how
our Awareness has been defined into and as ENERGY, instead of Physical Equality
and Oneness...
We’ll continue more with the Next Post in explaining how we
defined our Awareness in relationship to ENERGY as the Mind/Consciousness, and
creating more consequence that solutions for ourselves with looking for answers
to ourselves in the very System that’s Consequence-itself manifest. And that the Solution to ourselves, is
releasing our Awareness-definition from ENERGY, into and as equal and one
Physical Living, and so become REAL Self-Change in Physical Reality.
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I have just now given myself the time to read this series on Failure/Success and am astounded at how aligned it is to what I am facing currently - thanks A LOT for writing this out Sunette as it has supported me immensely!