Relationships: When Fantasy meets the Real World - DAY 486

The Moment of Shock

Shock, Trauma and Stress (Part Seven)

In the next post and posts to come – we will continue with the Self Forgiveness Process, focusing on that initial real purpose for/of relationship, what Negative things were covered up / suppressed by the Positive things experienced / that was dependent on the relationship and how this creates MENTAL-RELATIONSHIPS, and what would REAL PHYSICAL RELATIONSHIPS be if/6as our starting point for relationships was not based on emotional/feeling energy, but two individuals walking / living as EQUALS.

This is the cycle we get caught up in, ‘looking for love’ – love encompassing all the positive feelings filled into one bowl within our Minds, where all the positive feelings we’re looking for / searching for from another / in a relationship / sex unites in our Minds / Bodies for a moment to be able to drive / motivate ourselves to just not have to look at ourselves, our problems / issues…our own Minds and what really goes on in there. So, ‘love’ – the search for it / yearning for it and how it preoccupies / possesses our minds, in fact functions as a distraction…a distraction from ourselves, our own minds / who we are.

In this post, we’re going to walk a Self Forgiveness process that will illustrate how the positive feelings/energies of our Consciousness suppress the negative emotions / issues / problems in ourselves and how we within this have come to use relationships as ‘cover ups’. Instead of using relationships to ‘open up’ to ourselves and each other – laying out the problems / issues, discuss them and find solutions for oneself and the other. In so doing, supporting each other to work through the ‘real self’ and expand/develop/grow within the relationship by enhancing the strengths and strengthening the weaknesses in oneself, the other and the relationship - instead of devolving within the relationship where it becomes very superficial – purely based on playing mental games with feelings / pleasing each other and so relationships don’t reach any real depth / intimacy or an foundation of trust that will stand the test of time and challenges within this lifetime.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how relationships have gone into ‘reverse’ within human civilization – even to the point of questioning whether “relationships” have ever in fact existed…or only the idea thereof in people’s Minds. “Reverse” because, instead of relationships being foundations, strong foundations that are built between individuals in the relationship/partnership over time with patience and perseverance – most of the time is spent on pleasing / ‘pushing buttons’ to activate positive feelings and simulate the imaginations/fantasies. Where this idea exist that ‘if you can Imagine it / Fantasize it – it will come to pass in Reality’, when the Fantasy of relationship can be sustained for a while – but eventually falls the more the individuals spend time in the ‘real world’, facing ‘real challenges’ – most of which were not entertained in the Fantasies of the relationship in the Mind. And so why and how – most Relationships fall, even before it has started, the “Reverse effect” coming into manifestation; because instead of it being a process of building / accumulation, it becomes a process of slow decline to the eventual dissimilation of the Relationship.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how an Idea of relationships that the Fantasies of the Mind/Consciousness produce – has swooped across Humanity, every one / most that have opportunities for relationships attempting to manifest / materialize Fantasies into physical reality; and despite over and over and over again proving that a Relationship in the ‘real world’ is not a Fantasy, but an actual process to walk, an experience that must be created, a creation that must be built with both putting in equal amount of time and effort – despite this: every one still attempts to ‘fight against’ the ‘real world of relationships’ to manifest / materialize their Fantasies of Relationships.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how we then will move from one relationship to the other – when the Fantasies in the Mind do not match the Reality of the Real World, in so doing – blaming self, the other / the relationship as being the problem. Never questioning, introspecting / investigating this ‘living in two worlds’ dilemma that is in fact at the heart of the problem, with one foot standing in the Fantasy of the Mind and the other in the Reality of the Physical – trying to have ‘best of both worlds’. Not seeing, realising and understanding how the Fantasies of the Mind / Consciousness cannot align with the Reality of the Real World, because the Mind / Consciousness is not IN this real world, but in a ‘world of its own’. This is evidenced by the fact that we try and ‘get / have / own relationships’ based on how we Fantasized them to be, never considering the real time, real world challenges and problems of everyday life, relationships that are walked in the real world. So, every time / most of the time a challenge comes your way, individually / in relation to the relationship – it is blamed for interfering with the Fantasy of the relationship, and so most relationships goes into reactions of blame / anger and so fighting / conflict and/or giving up entirely; instead of looking at problems / challenges and having the patience and perseverance to work through them until a solution is found that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how so many come together, each holding their Idea of relationship as programmed by their Fantasies – and so it becomes a ‘clash of two worlds’ for each one and the relationship as well, because: individually – they have one foot in the Fantasy and the other in the Real World and so they are clashing with the Real World trying to materialize / manifest their Fantasies on an individual level. Then their Fantasies are also clashing on a relationship-level in relation to how details differ of what they want for themselves and each other. So, again – we return to the statement “if you know the beginning, you know the end”; as the relationship is thwarted with conflict from the start in the clash / friction between the Fantasy and Real World and then each other’s Fantasies which eventually leads to the initial conflict rising where it manifests / materialize the fall of the relationship. Each then turning around to the next relationship opportunity – only to create the same process / experience again, because “Creation” is not understood: what you create is a reflection of who you are – so, if we don’t change, the relationship experience cannot change.

We will continue in the next post with having a look at this point regarding IDEAS of relationships created from Fantasies, how this point is not yet grasped within Human Consciousness and how this leads to the momentary rise and eventual fall of relationships with not having both feet firmly rooted within this real world and so building / creating relationships that are in fact longstanding – standing the test of challenges and time.

Waking up from the Consciousness Dream world: DAY 335

(Interview Post Transcription)

Self-Change without using Mind Energy - continued
What will it Take for Human Nature to Change? - continued
From Reactive Responses to Self RESPONSE(ability) - continued
The Fear of Failure and Desire for Success – continued

In this interview post, I am finalizing the relationship that we have accepted and allowed to our minds, our consciousness - in terms of automatically, without question, accepting and allowing the nature of thoughts, imaginations, backchats, emotions and feelings – and how all of that would come up in ourselves in one moment and then determine, define or manifest our behavior and living in our world and reality. By ‘finalizing’ I mean that: if one have a look at where we started, with this process of understanding how we actually perpetuate consequence in our minds or consciousness, with changing in energy polarities, from fear / failure / laziness – to desire and success, by doing that in the energy polarity of the negative and the positive: and the problem within accepting and allowing such a relationship to self within one’s consciousness or mind. So, in this post, we’re going to walk some final points, expanding more on the overall process that we have walked thus far.

As we’ve also mentioned in previous posts, the structure that we’re now going be walking our posts and interviews in is, problem, solution, reward:

Identifying the problem, taking self-response-ability, establishing that ability through writing, self-forgiveness, self-commitments to respond, as stand, as take-on, as direct this ‘self’ that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become.

Within that, from the problem: take self-responsibility for the problem, which is the solution.

From the Problem to the Solution: what is the reward? What is the self-reward as the gift that one will give oneself as what one had walked within the self-for-gift-ness? The Self-forgiveness process is the preparation for the gifting of self back to self. Once one had walked writing, self-forgiveness, commitments and then into the practical living - that IS the reward that self will be, become and live as the living example of/as one’s Self-Change.

So, within these posts and interview posts thus far, we have now essentially looked at the problem and a bit of the solution, in terms of how to change the relationship equation from participation/observation to definition/connection, then reaction and the controlled behavior and living – changing the equation to looking/investigating, then redefinition/re-connotation, then expression and then living change, with the process of writing, self-forgiveness, commitments and practical application within that.

Now - the reward within this all: one will be able to see, realize and understand for oneself in terms of how one will finally realize in relationship to one’s mind, the thoughts that come up that are especially of a personal nature and within that, negative in context: that one do not automatically, without question, have to accept and allow them. That one make a decision, a commitment and a stand to be the directive principle as who one is going to decide to be, within oneself – in thought, word and deed; and that is quite liberating. In terms of the extent of consequence and burdening and experiences that we can accumulate within ourselves towards ourselves just by accepting and allowing ourselves to listen to what comes up without question, without realizing: “but I can decide who I am, in this moment”, this realization, this decision and making a change within the principle of equality and oneness as what’s best for all, to no more accept/allow oneself to burden oneself with one’s own mind, but direct, change and stand – is quite self-liberating.

So, I would like to in this interview post, walk some more self-forgiveness and commitments to assist and support with gaining more clarity, understanding and perspective in relation to our current awareness relationship within our consciousness and really open up more considerations with regards to what it is that we’re accepting and allowing in our relationship to the mind at this stage. Alright - so here we go:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to automatically, without question, simply accept and allow thoughts consisting of/existing as a specific nature, content and context, to enter into my space, into my world, into my ME that exist and live within myself as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that my inner world is ALL ME, it is ME myself that is substantiating what is existing within my mind and so my physical body - that I had never questioned: “But why am I accepting and allowing these types of thoughts and their content and their energy experiences to enter into my ME, my space, my beingness, my mind, my body? Why am I deliberately essentially polluting myself, my ‘who I am’, my substance, my experience, my expression – deliberately, with thoughts, with backchat, with imagination, with emotions and feelings – that are having such consequential effects on my life, my expression, my living?”

I commit myself to assist and support myself to – from this moment, investigate and become more aware and introspective of what it is that I’m accepting and allowing to enter into my mind, into my ME, into my environment, my space that is existent within and as this physical body.

In this – I commit myself to assist and support myself to see, realize and understand that how consciousness operate and function in relation to opposite polarities as the positive and the negative, that simply discarding the negative and only wanting to keep the positive is still accepting and allowing energy in itself to exist. And for energy to exist, it require friction between the positive and the negative to exist, so therefore: I will within only accepting the positive, be inadvertently accepting the negative and I will constantly and continuously be in this energy battle within myself in positive and negative. Always having to be entertained within my mind to keep on stimulating energy experiences and all the while: missing ME, my living, my environment, as my actual physical body, right here as the living breath, all the living organisms that I have not yet developed an equal one relationship with and consideration and regard for. Because I’m too busy, in my mind, generating for me, experiences of energy, either in the positive or the negative, constantly and continuously battling in between them, over and over and over again – missing ME, missing life, missing the living breath, right here.

I forgive myself that I haven’t ever accepted and allowed myself to, REALLY for a moment STOP and realize that what comes up within me in my mind, my ME, my environment, my physical body: I am the directive principle of - meaning that, there is most certainly, most definitely not another human being within me, there is not another being occupying this physical body. Therefore, that I had never accepted or allowed myself to, really have a look at the power, the ability that I have within this relationship, to ME, in terms of what I accept and allow to exist within me, as me and what not. That it was like, I was in this constant, continuous slumber or sleep, within me – you know, registering what’s going on within myself, but not realizing that I have the ability to change it.

And it’s actually exactly the same, now that I look at it, in terms of what happens in dreams. In dreams, we register that it’s happening, but we don’t realize that we can actually wake up in our dreams and direct them and change them. And so within this: I commit myself to assist and support myself to wake up within my relationship to myself, in what I accept and allow to exist within my ME, my mind, my environment, my physical body – to start registering, start realizing what it is that I’m accepting and allowing within and as it. Primarily seeing, realizing and understanding that the energy polarities of the positive and negative are most certainly not the solution. I decide to be here, to live here, to ground myself, to stabilize myself within my physical body, to explore and discover and find out what it means to express me, to live me, to know who I am in every moment of breath.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to develop my awareness, my SELF, my ME – to no more accept and allow my pre-programmed consciousness that has taken over my self-responsibility of who I am within my awareness, to no longer accept and allow my pre-programmed consciousness to direct me for me, in energy – that I’ve only consequentially separated me from my SELF, my physical, my HERE.

And therefore I commit myself to move myself, from reactive responses that was my existence in energy when I was existing in emotion and feeling reactions of the positive and the negative, because – even to keep generating that positive and negative energy, I had to keep on reacting to my thoughts, my backchat, my imaginations. So therefore I’ve always only been stimulated by reactive responses, and therefore I now commit myself to take that stand, to be the directive principle of me, of who I am, be self-responsible, the ability to respond, to direct, to change – the self, the ME, the environment and everything that I’ve accepted and allowed within and as it, both the good and the bad. To not exist within reactive responses and being stimulated by energy, but that I KNOW that when I make a decision of WHO I AM, that I have looked at the reality context, everything and everyone else involved, that I have considered a solution as what is best for all and so best for me, that I no more just blindly accept and allow energy experiences and my reactive responses to my own mind, to my own ME’s that come up within me - to determine, direct and control WHO I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, for so long be aware and that I’ve registered what was going on within me, in relation to my awareness, I mean, I was aware of what was going on within my ME, myself, my mind, my physical. But, that I had never initiated that process of actually changing it, directing it, investigating it, understanding it, taking responsibility for it – and so I forgive me for, for so long disregarding my ME, my awareness, my ‘who I am’. And so, forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for so long to not consider or regard or honor myself, my physical, my awareness, my directive principle and the power I have to decide WHO I AM in a moment.

To commit myself to align that to the principle of life, of equality and oneness, as what is best for all, equal to and one with the measure that the physical body use: it always functions in what is best for itself and what is best for the entire physical, I mean the physical body wouldn’t be able to exist if all its parts did not exist in its full capacity and its absolute responsibility to its relationship with the rest of the physical.

Alright – so this rounds off this relationship of awareness and how we are in the process of establishing that awareness in relationship to the mind and consciousness and within that, that it is going to be a process to develop that awareness. Because we haven’t as of yet really in fact lived it, nurtured it and harnessed it.

Alright – so here then more expansion on the solution and the reward, you know, being that point of you actually knowing who you are in the moment, that you know that you’re not being determined and controlled by only reactive responses.

Thank you very much.

 CAUGHT in the Middle – Balancing Two Worlds : DAY 287

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LIFE-Regulation – continued

In this post, we’re continuing where we left off from the Thread we’re Walking as LIFE Regulation. For context:

And HERE – we get to more Dimensions regarding SURVIVAL, where you have an Internal and External Survival Management System that simultaneously attempt/try to Balance the Morality Scale between what’s Good and what’s Bad…essentially existing in Two Worlds, the Mind and the Physical and then trying to use ONE Morality Scale of Good/Bad to manage two completely/entirely different Realities.

We’ll continue with this in the Next Post with the Internal and External Realities and the One Morality Scale of Good and Bad we use to try and manage Survival in Both, and the consequences this Split has manifested in/as Human Nature/Living in this Physical Existence…

It’s evident that we’re existing in ‘Two Worlds’ – two Extreme Polarities: The Mind World and the Physical World. ‘Extreme Polarities’ in the sense that: the Mind World exist within and as ‘Quantum Energy’, the Physical World exist in/as Space and Time movement – the Laws of the Mind World exist in/as the Reverse of the Laws of the Physical World – YET, what Consciousness as the authority in the Mind World has done is superimpose the Laws of Physics into/as the Mind World, to manifest Quantum Interdimensional-Physical Physics. For such relationships – we suggest reading Physics Journey to Life, where these relationships/dynamics are explained/walked in Detail.

The Authority of this Physical Existence, ‘Life Force’ – the substance-awareness of all that is physical that exist according to its ‘natural programming/expression’ is/has been the Authority that has been undermined in the Physical World, by the Authority of the Mind World as Consciousness. So, we’ve been living in Reverse – under the Authority of Consciousness, instead of the equal and one Authority of Life Force as the Physical.

Now, these ‘Two Worlds’: the Mind World and the Physical World has been driven into/as two Extreme Polarities in the sense of the Separation between Energy and Substance/Physicality. For the most part, we’ve created a ‘Positive’ relationship to the Mind and a ‘Negative’ to the Physical, by our mere defined relationship to the Mind in comparison to the Physical. Now, This ‘positive’ relationship to the Mind, and negative to the Physical – one must understand that, whether one have a ‘positive/negative’-EXPERIENCE in the Mind-itself, one is still in the polarity of ‘Positive and Negative’ in/as the Mind-Physical Existence, as one is creating a Positive to the Mind within/as one’s very participation/existence within/as Consciousness, and a Negative to the Physical in/as one’s non-participation/existence in equality and oneness with and as it.

This has left, essentially – the Physical World, one’s own Physical Body “unmanaged”, because of one’s awareness not existing within and as it, and is one of the main contributions to the extent of consequences that manifest in the Physical Body, because human being’s awareness is not existent within and as it, and so cannot see the consequence the Mind World / Consciousness Authority manifest within/as the Life Force of/as the Physical/Physical Body. The point then within this would mean, that: the Human’s awareness is not even equal-to and one-with Consciousness Authority in the Mind World – this evidenced by the fact that Human Beings cannot explain where exactly energy is produced from, as emotions/feelings, where exactly the materialization of memories come from in the Mind-Physical relationship to how they’re even Produced in absolute detail, cannot explain What exactly Mind Energy is, what it looks like, What exactly Physical Energy is, what it looks like.

(This process of What exactly Mind Energy is, and Physical Energy – is walked in the Kryon Interview Series available on EQAFE).

With this evidence, there is a Distinct certainty of the fact that, we’re even in our Awareness separate from the entirety of the Mind World and the entirety of the Physical World, and we’re as our Awareness “caught in the Middle” of the Extreme Polarities of/as these Two Worlds – not seeing, realising and understanding that the Mind World as Consciousness Authority exist, through resourcing the Life Force of the Physical/Physical Body in the depths relationships of the Quantum Mind and the Quantum Physical. In this, we ourselves know that we’re “Aware” of the Mind World and the Physical World, BUT Not in control/directive principle of either of them. With our ‘awareness’ being aware of and being attached/connected to the Mind World and the Physical World means that we are existing in both of them – so, WHY then – are we not in directive principle of either of them? What is then the directive principle? And this is what we’re explaining/showing within Desteni – that the Consciousness Authority of the Mind World is what is in control/directive principle of itself and the Physical Body regarding how it Resource Physical Life Force for its own Existence – all of which is explained in Detail in the EQAFE Store, where one can make Life Investments with listening to/understanding the relationship/war between these Two Worlds that our Awareness throughout Human Civilization has accepted and allowed, have become, have lived out – without Change.

With this, another point of Evidence of us existing in Two Worlds – is how we can use the Morality Scale of Good/Bad and Right/Wrong, to accordingly attempt/try to manage these Worlds, dependent on within which of the Two Worlds, we’d most likely materialize/manifest our Self-Interest/Greed/Survival. The Consequence, essentially, of using One Morality Scale – for two completely Different Worlds; is/has been one of the causes/sources for/as a Disruptive/Conflictual Nature to emerge within and as Human Beings – with regards to explaining why/how; despite being raised with ‘Morals’ of what’s good and what’s bad; many individuals will do/become ‘what’s Bad’ in the reverse of the Morals they were taught whilst growing up, but to them – they’re doing/have become ‘what’s Good’. So, the problem with Human Beings ‘going off the rails’, so to speak – doing/becoming ‘what’s Bad’ as the opposite of the Morals they were taught during Childhood; or shall we say ONE of the Dimensions that do contribute, is that this Relationship between the Two Worlds is not understood – the Mind World and the Physical World. And that, the Moralities as what is taught within Human Society today – do not consider the Extreme Polarity between the Two Worlds. Where the Morals mostly apply to only the Physical World, but not to the Mind World and so in this Process – the Individual can then warp/change/alter Morals in their Mind World to suit their Physical World, or warp/change/alter Morals in their Physical World to suit their Mind World. Thus, the problem is not within the Morals themselves, or the human themselves - the Problem is with EDUCATION; and how human beings are not Educated within/as the existence and who they are as the Existence in/as the Split between the Two Worlds as the Mind World and the Physical World.

For most part, most of the Morals taught today – what’s Good and what’s Bad, is not applicable in the Physical World, if you live ‘what’s Good’ – especially when it comes to Money/Survival, you’re going to be Fucked; because, this whole System / life on earth / Survival Management is done within/as deliberate Evil/Deception/Badness. This is Why, for example – most Religious people, are economically compromised, cause they try and be ‘Good’ / ‘Nice’ when it comes to Business/Money-Making – religion completely blinding them of/as the Evil of Human Nature when it comes to Money/Survival; and so they compromise themselves Extensively in their relationship to Money/Survival.

To explain another dynamic Between the Morals of ‘what’s Good’ and ‘what’s Bad’ as the conflict between the Mind World and the Physical World, is: a Child is raised with the premise of ‘Alcohol is BAD’ – BUT, they’re forced into social circles in School with other children, other Minds, other upbringing, and with No LIFE-Skills in terms of standing within who they are; to them – Alcohol becomes GOOD in the Mind-World, to substantiate friendships, Personalities, Socializing. So, one then have to consider within this, how Polarities work – in the Mind World, in the relationship between Good and Bad – the Child is in the Mind polarized extremely in terms of Alcohol is BAD, the Mind/Consciousness BALANCE polarities of ENERGIES and so can Polarize Energy to such an Extent, where the Same thing then goes to its Opposite as GOOD and so the Child, now young adult, in/as the Mind World polarize the balance from BAD to GOOD and the PHYSICAL Consequence that goes with it. So, the MIND WORLD – exist in the Polarity of Good and Bad, and balance out such Polarities. The Physical World exist in SPACE AND TIME Consequence…there’s a difference.

We’ll continue in the next post with having a look at the difference between MORALITY education in the Mind World, and CONSEQUENCE education in the Physical World, and how Morality – what’s Good/Right and Bad/Wrong has created MORE Physical Consequence in Human’s lives, than actual learning, life skills, self development/expansion – diminishing the Human, more than evolving Human Nature.