Eternal Darkness: DAY 463
The other day, Adam asked me the following question: “where
do you go when you leave your body?” I explained to him how most of the time,
especially when the other beings come through the Portal, I am in my own
body and cross-reference the words / explanations / points that the beings
communicate through the Portal in their interviews;
or I move through and check into/as the multi-dimensions of this physical
existence – Nature, the Animals, the Earth
etc. But, what also came up while I was explaining to him where I go and what I
do - was one of my ‘favourite’ places to go: the Atom.
There’s a centre-point within the Atom where it is
completely quiet – there’re only darkness, an eternal darkness. When you’re in
that point, it feels like everything / everyone in existence disappears for a
moment and only you remain / exist. So, what I often do here is ‘float’ within
this space of eternal darkness and check myself on all levels of my beingness.
Because of the silence, the darkness – there is nothing externally moving, so
if anything moves within me, even the subtlest shift / change: I know it’s
something I have to work with / investigate, because there is nothing
externally stimulating any movements/reactions within me / my beingness so
therefore – there’s literally no place to ‘hide’ from myself in this point
within the Atom.
In and as such eternal darkness, absolute silence – there is
no way one can blame anything / anyone for any movements/shifts/reactions
within self, because there isn’t anything / anyone around: it’s only self,
here. So, as I was opening up this point in discussion with Adam – I looked at
the following:
When we’re constantly being stimulated – through the
physical senses and also through our mind/consciousness
by our interactions with the external physical environment and also other human
beings: it becomes easier to blame everything / everyone else for what happens
within our minds and our emotional/feeling experiences. This is because that
something / someone that triggered/activated a thought/imagination/reaction
within us is ‘so close’, like ‘right in front of us’ (and because many human
beings do not yet understand how the Mind/Consciousness
operate/functions with regards to how our external environment triggers thoughts
and emotions/reactions) – we often blame everything/everyone else for
who/how we are in moments. When, in fact: as we’re interacting with our
external environment and everything/everyone within it: we’re
constantly/continuously triggering/activating various things in our Minds and
Bodies – but, it’s not “the other” that is to blame / that is responsible for
creating the thoughts/reactions in our Minds: that we do ourselves, that is
where our personal responsibility exists in relation to who we are in thought,
word and deed.
Many might be able to relate to the following example where
we’d have an argument with someone and we’d say: “YOU made me angry”. This would
be illustrative of how we’d blame another for our own emotional reaction within
the Mind, when it’s not in fact that the other made one angry – there is no way
that the other person is within one’s mind/body and created the emotional anger
within self. The other was simply a point that triggered a thought / memory
within one’s own Mind that produced the emotion of anger – but the moment of
becoming angry, of participating in the anger within one’s Mind: that’s ALL on
self and self alone. So, if one would investigate the Mind / oneself in the
moment – one may actually find that a thought came up of “they’re really just
saying this/that to make me angry” and it was that thought that produced the
emotion of anger within self. It’s in fact thoughts / memories and various
other constructs in our Minds that produce emotions / feelings – no-one and
nothing else creates what we do in our Minds but ourselves.
What I’d like to show here is: when one is alone with
oneself – one really gain perspective of how much of the stuff we participate
in and experience within the Mind: we do to ourselves, we’re solely responsible
for. Realising this, makes it a lot easier to take responsibility for what we
accept and allow in our thoughts and emotions; and how we can assist/support ourselves and our relationship
with others with stopping blaming everything/everyone else for who we are in
our Minds, but in fact change ourselves and direct our own thoughts/emotions.
We’ll continue more in the next post
