If I can stop emotions – I am responsible for creating them: DAY 466

(Eternal Darkness continued)

Within this - also show you how you can change the reactions, where you can decide not to react, which is also proof that we ourselves create the reactions we experience, because: if we can stop and change reactions – it means we started them in the first place. No one else can stop reactions within your Mind: only self can.

Let us have a look at the heading (If I can stop emotions – I am responsible for creating them) as well as the last sentence in the above paragraph quoted from the previous post (No one else can stop reactions within your Mind: only self can). These two statements, encapsulates our responsibility to the emotions and/or feelings we experience in our Mind and Body. This is why:

An exercise one can do for oneself to see this point of responsibility for oneself, is the following: Take a person in your world that knows how to ‘press your buttons’. I am sure many will be able to relate to having such a person in your world, where it’s like they just know how to ‘rattle you up’. This is primarily because, through the Mind, we live-out habits and patterns and with being around / living with a person for a long time, one can eventually to a certain degree predict each other’s ‘buttons’ – what it is exactly that would make each other react and often use this to manipulate each other. On that note – it’s fascinating how we’re so aware of other’s ‘buttons’ we can push to manipulate an outcome – yet, we would not investigate our own reactions / patterns and are not so aware of our own patterns/habits as we are of others’. This is a point we can continue discussing in a next post.

Now, in the evening – before going to rest, bring up a memory within oneself of when one recently reacted to this particular person. Here, already, one will be able to prove to oneself that one is able to stop emotional reactions within oneself and stabilize through doing the following: walk some self-forgiveness statements, unconditionally and self honestly, in relation to the emotional reaction(s) that one experienced towards this person. For a more effective result, it is suggested to speak the self-forgiveness statements out loud. Here, remember – it’s not the self-forgiveness in-itself that will release the emotions/feelings – nor is it ever the emotions/feelings in themselves that brings them into existence: it is who we are in relationship to self-forgiveness, in relationship to emotions and feelings that determine the outcome / experience. Therefore, with self-forgiving – really walking the point of taking responsibility for the reactions in the Mind / within oneself and releasing self from the emotions/feelings in relation to the memory / person: will assist/support with seeing/realising and understanding how we can stop and change ourselves in relation to a memory/person and our reactions towards them. One will find how, within/through this process – one become calmer, more stable, until one can see the memory and the person within it and look at it without emotional/feeling reactions. In this, one will be able to see the memory/person for ‘what it is’ and actually be able to further investigate what it is exactly that triggered the initial reaction.

This would be the next step: to for oneself introspect and investigate what exactly of the moment/person in the memory activated an emotional / feeling response. Here one can move through the memory slowly – find the moment that one reacted, pause the memory and look into that very moment; one may find within this it’s the WAY they said something, like the tonality they used. Then one continue the introspection / investigation and ask/question why you reacted to the tonality the person used? In this question, one find that one’s parent / family member in the past used to use this tonality and it always made you feel inferior / disempowered. Now you have identified the ACTUAL reaction: that it was never this person in themselves you reacted to – you in fact had a reaction to the way YOU FELT INSIDE YOURSELF, which was ‘disempowered’. Then, obviously – this opens up a whole other ‘can of worms’, so to speak with investigating / introspecting how you came to accept/allow a tonality to make you feel disempowered / inferior / ‘less than’.

This is the journey into understanding our own programming in our Minds/Consciousness and how much we can learn about ourselves and the Mind/Consciousness through taking responsibility for our own emotions/feelings and understanding how we create them in our own Minds and Bodies.

We’ll continue more in the next post with how you can assist / support yourself in ‘real time’ interaction with another human being and prove to yourself how you can stop / change an emotional / feeling reaction while you are communicating with another human being.

Eternal Darkness (Part 3): DAY 465

  

Another point opened up that’ll show why and how we’re in fact self-responsible for the reactions we create in our Minds:

Here I am referring to the example I used in the previous post regarding our tendency to blame others for our own reactions, such as anger – where we’d think to someone / say to someone “YOU made me angry”. Now, in ‘real-time’ (real-time, meaning while we’re having an argument /disagreement with someone) – it’s ‘easier’ to say “YOU made me angry” / “it’s YOUR fault I’m in this/that mood”, because the person is right in front of us and our focus is on the person / the conversation; little attention is paid to what we’re in fact doing in our Minds that is actually creating the reaction of anger / the mood we’re experiencing.

However - when we’re alone with ourselves, our own Minds, in the evening before going to sleep – we’d often think about the day / recall memories. In the process of thinking about and recalling memories of events/interactions with other people and there was an instance where we had an emotional reaction towards another: we’d still continue blaming the other! But, isn’t this quite strange? Because, we’re alone, with ourselves – in our own Mind and Body, the person is not in our immediate environment – is nowhere to be found and yet when referencing the memory of the event/conversation with the person: we still access the reaction / the anger for example. So now explain to me – lol: how on earth can the person be ‘making you angry’ still if they’re not there??? The anger is still experienced when referencing the memory, so now: who creates the anger? Where is the anger coming from? If one is still able to experience the reaction of anger within oneself when you’re alone – despite the person not being in your environment, not saying anything / doing anything: this then comes to show that we ourselves create / activate the emotions, such as anger for example – that we experience in the Mind and Body. Because, when you’re around the person or when you’re alone with yourself – one thing remains constant: that is the emotional reaction, such as anger in this example, that one is experiencing within oneself. If/as the emotional reaction, such as anger – COMPLETELY went away when you were not physically around the person, even when looking at the Memory of the event and there is NO REACTION or movement or change within oneself AT ALL: then, yes – we could say that the person was the cause. But, each one self-honestly can assess for themselves, that: when they had a reaction towards another in ‘real time’ and they’d think about / remember the memory of the interaction/conversation/event: the reaction / experience remains.

So, many here can have a look at the example and say that one is accessing the MEMORY of what happened and in the MEMORY is existent the reaction that the other person created within oneself – so the memory is containing the reaction, one is not making oneself angry…Really? Now, this time – what is blamed for the reaction is the MEMORY…it’s interesting how far we’d go to abdicate responsibility, to understand how we ourselves create reactions in our own Minds / Bodies.

So, if the reaction was then contained in the memory – then, the reaction should be localized to the memory only. Meaning: we look at memories in the head / brain region – so, if the memory of the event came up and the emotion was caught-up in the Memory, then we should only be experiencing/feeling the anger in the head/brain region where the memory is being looked-at. But, when accessing Memories – especially ones where we reacted, in for example anger: our whole body responds and we can feel the energy moving in the solar-plexus area. Here, we are in fact – in our bodies, through the mind and memory: recreating the emotional reaction of/as anger for example.

What I’d like to show in this example is why/how it is so effective to utilize the moment before going to sleep to assist/support oneself within one’s process by reflecting on the day / looking at memories. Here, one can self honestly assess one’s responsibility within creating emotional / feeling reactions and accordingly take responsibility for one’s own thoughts and reactions. In the next post – I’ll continue with explaining how exactly we create, for example anger, in the ‘real time’ moment we’re interacting with the person/event and also when we’re referencing a memory. Within this - also show you how you can change the reactions, where you can decide not to react, which is also proof that we ourselves create the reactions we experience, because: if we can stop and change reactions – it means we started them in the first place. No one else can stop reactions within your Mind: only self can.

Eternal Darkness (Part 2): DAY 464

What I’d like to show here is: when one is alone with oneself – one really gain perspective of how much of the stuff we participate in and experience within the Mind: we do to ourselves, we’re solely responsible for. Realising this, makes it a lot easier to take responsibility for what we accept and allow in our thoughts and emotions; and how we can assist/support ourselves and our relationship with others with stopping blaming everything/everyone else for who we are in our Minds, but in fact change ourselves and direct our own thoughts/emotions.

The moment I explained to Adam how I ‘float’ within this centre-point within the Atom within absolute silence / eternal darkness – this also reminded me of when we’re in the process of going to sleep. We rest within darkness – when we close our eyes: it’s naturally dark, in the evening – it’s naturally dark. So, this also contributes to why it sometimes feels like our thoughts are so loud and our emotions so intense: we’re alone with only ourselves and we’re not exposed to external stimuli of other people and/or an array of sounds produced by the external physical environment that often distract us / preoccupy us from what we accept/allow/participate in within our own Minds.

I have found within my process, in the evenings – also because it’s generally more ‘quiet’, that our Minds would focus on sounds – cars, insects, animals, music, whatever sounds you are exposed to when/as you’re in the process of trying to rest/sleep in the evenings. I have found that my Mind would focus on and react to such sounds as an additional / continued distraction from myself, my own mind – because: as long as I continue thinking about / backchatting and reacting to the external sounds, I don’t have to face / confront me, my Mind. So, what I started doing is walking self-forgiveness for the reactions I was projecting towards the external sounds, until I was stable, here with me in/as breath and then I’d walk through my day within myself. This was initially quite challenging, because my Mind would have the tendency to want to “wander off” and think / imagine – but, the moment I find I’m wandering off with the Mind – instead of looking at memories and investigating them, I would bring my attention back to breathing and direct myself to look.

So, what would happen within this process is that the external sounds / the physical environment doesn’t become ‘emphasized’ as much within the Mind, because before – it’s like, all my Mind would focus on is the sounds and would produce many reactions within me, causing me to become restless and actually wake myself up more! However, with this change – where I’d focus my attention on the memories of the day, push myself to focus, be here, breathing: the external environment becomes ‘natural’ / ‘normal’, nothing more / less. I can still hear the sounds – but, there’s no reaction towards them within my Mind and this, fascinatingly enough, made it possible to simply ‘accept’ what’s here and so I could focus on the more important things: my process within me.

Obviously, within the Atom – lol, it’s all a lot easier, because it’s very quiet; with no external environmental sounds / noises; however even in the evenings, in the dark within oneself and without: one can walk this same process for self. The only step that needs to be taken is to release one’s Mind from the reactions of the external environment, until one can simply breathe and listen to the sounds and there’s no reaction/movement within one’s Mind/Body. Then, one starts with utilizing one’s memories constructively and have a look at any reactions / challenges one faced throughout the day / in relation with others and start walking self-forgiveness, establishing solutions for mistakes and/or things one see one could have done differently.

Overall, what this process also assisted/supported me with is self-discipline when looking at things within myself / observing memories and learning from them. Self-discipline, meaning: to not follow the thoughts / imaginations that so automatically come up in the Mind, but in fact will oneself to practically look at memories / events of the day, walk self-forgiveness, consider solutions / changes etc. – through consistent application in this regard, it flowed through into my day-to-day living application, with not having the tendency to so immediately/automatically follow thoughts / imaginations and the reactions they produce; but consider by decisions/actions in thought, word and deed.

So, to reconsider one’s relationship to the evenings before going to sleep – to not accept/allow the external environment’s sounds (that one cannot in fact change) to distract / preoccupy one from the opportunity of that which one in fact can change: one’s own process of investigation/introspection and expansion/growth/development through being able to direct one’s own Mind and learn from one’s memories / past experiences.

We’ll continue more in the next post

  

Eternal Darkness: DAY 463

 

The other day, Adam asked me the following question: “where do you go when you leave your body?” I explained to him how most of the time, especially when the other beings come through the Portal, I am in my own body and cross-reference the words / explanations / points that the beings communicate through the Portal in their interviews; or I move through and check into/as the multi-dimensions of this physical existence – Nature, the Animals, the Earth etc. But, what also came up while I was explaining to him where I go and what I do - was one of my ‘favourite’ places to go: the Atom.

There’s a centre-point within the Atom where it is completely quiet – there’re only darkness, an eternal darkness. When you’re in that point, it feels like everything / everyone in existence disappears for a moment and only you remain / exist. So, what I often do here is ‘float’ within this space of eternal darkness and check myself on all levels of my beingness. Because of the silence, the darkness – there is nothing externally moving, so if anything moves within me, even the subtlest shift / change: I know it’s something I have to work with / investigate, because there is nothing externally stimulating any movements/reactions within me / my beingness so therefore – there’s literally no place to ‘hide’ from myself in this point within the Atom.

In and as such eternal darkness, absolute silence – there is no way one can blame anything / anyone for any movements/shifts/reactions within self, because there isn’t anything / anyone around: it’s only self, here. So, as I was opening up this point in discussion with Adam – I looked at the following:

When we’re constantly being stimulated – through the physical senses and also through our mind/consciousness by our interactions with the external physical environment and also other human beings: it becomes easier to blame everything / everyone else for what happens within our minds and our emotional/feeling experiences. This is because that something / someone that triggered/activated a thought/imagination/reaction within us is ‘so close’, like ‘right in front of us’ (and because many human beings do not yet understand how the Mind/Consciousness operate/functions with regards to how our external environment triggers thoughts and emotions/reactions) – we often blame everything/everyone else for who/how we are in moments. When, in fact: as we’re interacting with our external environment and everything/everyone within it: we’re constantly/continuously triggering/activating various things in our Minds and Bodies – but, it’s not “the other” that is to blame / that is responsible for creating the thoughts/reactions in our Minds: that we do ourselves, that is where our personal responsibility exists in relation to who we are in thought, word and deed.

Many might be able to relate to the following example where we’d have an argument with someone and we’d say: “YOU made me angry”. This would be illustrative of how we’d blame another for our own emotional reaction within the Mind, when it’s not in fact that the other made one angry – there is no way that the other person is within one’s mind/body and created the emotional anger within self. The other was simply a point that triggered a thought / memory within one’s own Mind that produced the emotion of anger – but the moment of becoming angry, of participating in the anger within one’s Mind: that’s ALL on self and self alone. So, if one would investigate the Mind / oneself in the moment – one may actually find that a thought came up of “they’re really just saying this/that to make me angry” and it was that thought that produced the emotion of anger within self. It’s in fact thoughts / memories and various other constructs in our Minds that produce emotions / feelings – no-one and nothing else creates what we do in our Minds but ourselves.

What I’d like to show here is: when one is alone with oneself – one really gain perspective of how much of the stuff we participate in and experience within the Mind: we do to ourselves, we’re solely responsible for. Realising this, makes it a lot easier to take responsibility for what we accept and allow in our thoughts and emotions; and how we can assist/support ourselves and our relationship with others with stopping blaming everything/everyone else for who we are in our Minds, but in fact change ourselves and direct our own thoughts/emotions.

We’ll continue more in the next post

Memories as Chains vs. Memories for Self-Change (Part Two): DAY 462

We often ‘indulge’ in our memories, where this ‘indulgence’ can very quickly transform into imagination where we play memories out / relive them and/or transform into internal conversations where we talk to ourselves about the Memories that come up in the Mind.

When memories themselves come up, when we relive them in our imagination and when we talk to ourselves about the memories – they are often accompanied by experiences of emotions / feelings. For most part, as with much of the constructs in the mind such as thoughts / internal conversations / projections / fantasies – we have with memories, not utilized them practically / effectively enough within our Minds. Meaning: Instead of using Memories to reflect on who we are / how we are to facilitate growth/expansion/change – we have used Memories to ‘relive the Mind’, to ‘relive the experiences they produce’ and/or have actually used/misused Memories to justify/excuse/validate certain thoughts/words/deeds that we in fact know was compromising / self-limiting towards ourselves and our relationship to others.

So, with Memories – it’s like we take them and swirl them around within our Minds, looping them over and over and over again: experiencing the same reactions/emotions, having the same discussions, thinking the same thoughts. Not realising how we’re within this process / relationship to Memories: actually keeping ourselves in a loop, keeping our own thought patterns / reactions patterns the same and is one of the reasons why we never change our habits / patterns in our thoughts, words and deeds.

So, the question then: how to assist and support oneself to constructively use one’s memories and relationship to Memories for self-development/growth/expansion and inevitable change, where we LEARN from ourselves through our Memories – rather than solidifying personalities / habits / patterns and create the same consequences / make the same decisions in our lives? See, what is not seen/realised/understood is: through our participation in memories – when we think about them / react towards them / speak about them in the same way, what we’re doing in this process is in fact keeping ‘ourselves the same’. This means: we’re ‘chaining’ who we are and so how we look at things / make decisions - to/as our Past/Memories, and so in the present we’ll make the same choices / decisions which will lead to the same consequences / lead us down the same paths as we had walked in the past / in the memories.

Whereas: if we reflect / introspect on our thoughts/words/deeds in Memories – assess/analyse our words / tonalities / behaviours / choices / decisions and observe their consequences / outflows on ourselves / towards others – we can more ‘readily’ find problems in how we think / speak / act and so accordingly change ourselves so that we don’t make the same mistakes in thought/word/deed.

We contribute to the creation / experience of ourselves and our lives through our relationship to memories – as long as we keep ourselves and the relationship to the memories the same: most of how we experience ourselves and live our lives will be the same. Therefore, in the DIP – one will be introduced to Mind Constructs, which is a practically structured process one walk through Memories in the Mind – where one see for oneself how one’s relationship to memories can be walked in meticulous detail and for oneself see how holding onto memories and our thoughts/reactions towards them: determine how we make decisions/choices and so contribute to how we create/experience ourselves, our lives and relationships within them.

We have also done interviews on EQAFE that explores memories (Here is the link to the page with all the interviews done / walked in relation to Memory: MEMORIES - EQAFE) and how to work with them practically; to discover the resources that in fact exist within and as our Memories and relationship towards them to facilitate oneself into/as self change/growth/expansion within oneself, one’s life and relationships.