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Fear of Commitment (Part Three): DAY 441
So, we’ll continue in the next post with having a look at what it says about ourselves with accepting/allowing our WANTS, in the small and big scales – to have precedence over our will, our commonsense, our integrity regarding who we are as a person within ourselves, and questioning whether the point is in fact about ‘fear of commitment’ or is that simply the ‘nice way we’ve found to hide the truth’: we’re putting our wants/desires before what would best for ourselves and life on earth?
Solution and Reward
In and from this post we’re going to, through walking Self Forgiveness, explore ‘Fear of Commitment’ and why/how it is, in fact, simply a ‘nice way we’ve found to hide the truth’: we’re putting our wants/desires before what would best for ourselves and life on earth. Subtleties
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to, throughout my life, ever question or investigate why/how it is that in my ‘awareness’ / ‘conscious thinking processes’ – I have never really considered my relationship/responsibility to/as everything and everyone within this physical existence.
I commit myself to assist and support myself to ‘expand my awareness’, to ‘expand my world’ – both internally and externally, meaning: to introspect/investigate (with the result of understanding my inner world, my consciousness), how it is that I in fact operate/function within thoughts, imagination and reactions - how they exist/why they exist, what are their relationship to my physical body etc. To within this process – also assist and support myself to expand into/as my outer world / the global consciousness, humanity/this world system and money system. Because I see/realise/understand that we all say “I want to change” / “I want to change my life” / “I wish this world would change”…but we never question: “how can we expect change, if we do not fully understand/comprehend how we got to who we are in our Minds and how we got to how we are as humanity and life on earth to exist as it does?” Without understanding the full-extent of the problem/consequence in the Mind and in this World – we cannot see/create an effective Solution to stop/change the Problem/Consequence.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to consider, see, realise and understand that if I was not ‘shown’, if I was not assisted and supported to see my relationship and so my responsibility to everything/everyone: I would never have noticed the point for myself / by myself alone.
I commit myself to assist and support myself to educate myself in relation to my internal and external world/realities – the “within and without”, for I have been shown and I looked and so could see for myself how the Mind works, the consequence of its existence in relation to who I am and how/what I live and within this also proven to myself that I can change. I have been shown, I looked and so could see for myself how the World System/Money System works, the consequence of its existence in relation to humanity/this physical existence and within this problem – solutions for how it can be changed. That, I have seen/realised and understood with investigating/introspecting problems/consequence and UNDERSTANDING them – comes the opportunity to find/establish Solutions. We individually/collectively have not been able to see/consider solutions – because we have not been willing to in fact investigate the extent of the problem/consequence we face within ourselves and so within this world.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to within this see, realise and understand to what extent my Mind/me within and as it was “closed, isolated and separated” from everything/everyone else within this existence – to the extent where I would not have within and as my existent thinking-processes/reasoning skills been able to question and so investigate ‘who I am within me/my life and my relationship to all that is here’. Therefore exposing the extent to which our thinking/reasoning and even seeing/consideration and regard for ourselves and others is limited/locked-in and caged into and as the confines of our own Consciousness – not leaving any room/space for anything/anyone other than our own Self Interest of wants, needs and desires.
I commit myself to assist and support self to change myself from Consciousness-confinement in the Mind, to and as expanding my Self-Awareness into and as Physical equality and oneness – within this process, to see/realise/understand how ‘oneness’ already exist in that we’re all physically here in this physical existence, however Equality within that Oneness does not yet exist, because we’re all individually separate in our own Minds/Consciousness – competing for our wants, self-interest and greed instead of sharing, consideration/regard and giving to others as we would to ourselves. Therefore, I commit myself to assist and support myself to practically in moments where I see I am thinking only of MY WANT and not what is best for everyone – to stop and change, to become more aware of the consequence MY WANTS create not only for me, but for others as well.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand – what it says about me, my nature, my “who I am” that I for so long within my life lived in such a “closed-off, isolated and separate world in my Mind”, where nothing and no one else in fact existed but “me, myself and I” – what it says about the Nature of me/most of us with such a relationship/consideration/responsibility to ourselves and so to all, that would not have existed and now only exist because it was shown to us…
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that – if I was not shown, if I did not make the decision to LOOK and investigate when I was shown the relationship/responsibility and consequence of my relationship to me and so all: that I would never have thought of it, I would never have considered it and I would simply have been one and the same with the masses of humanity that only live ourselves/our lives in alignment to our wants, needs and desires.
I commit myself to show others, as I have been shown, the consequence of Consciousness/the Mind and the separation it has created from ourselves, each other and the oneness within/as this physical existence. I commit myself to show others, as I have been shown, the consequence of the World System/Money System and the separation it has created within humanity and all living beings within the oneness of/as this physical existence. Within this, I commit myself to – with showing the consequence/problems with the within and without: to show the Solution that is ourselves, that is how we live and the relationships we develop with ourselves and each other. I commit myself to be here, to stand here in/as my words for those who decide to LOOK for themselves, to investigate/introspect for themselves through Desteni, EQAFE and DIP and not just immediately react in opinions/judgments – but take the time/breaths to investigate/introspect/research/read and watch what we show, to so learn/educate themselves as we have to see/realise and understand for self how we can change ourselves and through that change how we live and eventually change life on earth.
We’ll continue more in the next post