Fear of Commitment (Part Three): DAY 441
So, we’ll continue in
the next post with having a look at what it says about ourselves with
accepting/allowing our WANTS, in the small and big scales – to have precedence
over our will, our commonsense, our integrity regarding who we are as a person
within ourselves, and questioning whether the point is in fact about ‘fear of
commitment’ or is that simply the ‘nice way we’ve found to hide the truth’:
we’re putting our wants/desires before what would best for ourselves and life
on earth?
Solution and Reward
In and from this post we’re going to, through walking Self
Forgiveness, explore ‘Fear of
Commitment’ and why/how it is, in fact, simply a ‘nice way we’ve found to hide
the truth’: we’re putting our wants/desires before what would best for
ourselves and life on earth. Subtleties
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to, throughout my life, ever question or investigate why/how it is that in my
‘awareness’ / ‘conscious thinking processes’ – I have never really considered
my relationship/responsibility to/as everything and everyone within this
physical existence.
I commit myself to assist and support myself to ‘expand my
awareness’, to ‘expand my world’ – both internally and externally, meaning:
to introspect/investigate (with the result of understanding my inner world, my
consciousness), how it is that I in fact operate/function within thoughts,
imagination and reactions - how they exist/why they exist, what are their
relationship to my physical body etc. To within this process – also assist and
support myself to expand into/as my outer world / the global consciousness,
humanity/this world system and money system. Because I see/realise/understand
that we all say “I want to change” / “I want to change my life” / “I wish this
world would change”…but we never question: “how can we expect change, if we do
not fully understand/comprehend how we got to who we are in our Minds and how
we got to how we are as humanity and life on earth to exist as it does?” Without
understanding the full-extent of the problem/consequence in the Mind and in
this World – we cannot see/create an effective Solution to stop/change the
Problem/Consequence.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to consider, see, realise and understand that if I was not
‘shown’, if I was not assisted and supported to see my relationship and so my
responsibility to everything/everyone: I would never have noticed the point for
myself / by myself alone.
I commit myself to assist and support myself to educate
myself in relation to my internal and external world/realities – the “within
and without”, for I have been shown and I looked and so could see for myself
how the Mind works, the consequence of its existence in relation to who I am
and how/what I live and within this also proven to myself that I can change. I
have been shown, I looked and so could see for myself how the World
System/Money System works, the consequence of its existence in relation to
humanity/this physical existence and within this problem – solutions for how it
can be changed. That, I have seen/realised and understood with
investigating/introspecting problems/consequence and UNDERSTANDING them – comes
the opportunity to find/establish Solutions. We individually/collectively have
not been able to see/consider solutions – because we have not been willing to
in fact investigate the extent of the problem/consequence we face within
ourselves and so within this world.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to within this see, realise and understand to what extent my Mind/me within and
as it was “closed, isolated and separated” from everything/everyone else within
this existence – to the extent where I would not have within and as my existent
thinking-processes/reasoning skills been able to question and so investigate
‘who I am within me/my life and my relationship to all that is here’. Therefore
exposing the extent to which our thinking/reasoning and even
seeing/consideration and regard for ourselves and others is limited/locked-in
and caged into and as the confines of our own Consciousness – not leaving any
room/space for anything/anyone other than our own Self Interest of wants, needs
and desires.
I commit myself to assist and support self to change myself
from Consciousness-confinement in the Mind, to and as expanding my
Self-Awareness into and as Physical equality and oneness – within this process, to
see/realise/understand how ‘oneness’ already exist in that we’re all physically
here in this physical existence, however Equality within that Oneness does not
yet exist, because we’re all individually separate in our own
Minds/Consciousness – competing for our wants, self-interest and greed instead of
sharing,
consideration/regard and giving to others as we would to ourselves. Therefore,
I commit myself to assist and support myself to practically in moments where I
see I am thinking only of MY WANT and not what is best for everyone – to stop
and change, to become more aware of the consequence MY WANTS create not only
for me, but for others as well.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see, realise and understand – what it says about me, my nature, my “who I
am” that I for so long within my life lived in such a “closed-off, isolated and
separate world in my Mind”, where nothing and no one else in fact existed but
“me, myself and I” – what it says about the Nature of me/most of us with such a
relationship/consideration/responsibility to ourselves and so to all, that
would not have existed and now only exist because it was shown to us…
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see, realise and understand that – if I was not shown, if I did not make the
decision to LOOK and investigate when I was shown the
relationship/responsibility and consequence of my relationship to me and so
all: that I would never have thought of it, I would never have considered it
and I would simply have been one and the same with the masses of humanity that
only live ourselves/our lives in alignment to our wants, needs and desires.
I commit myself to show others, as I have been shown, the
consequence of Consciousness/the Mind and the separation it has created from
ourselves, each other and the oneness within/as this physical existence. I
commit myself to show others, as I have been shown, the consequence of the
World System/Money System and the separation it has created within humanity and
all living beings within the oneness of/as this physical existence. Within
this, I commit myself to – with showing the consequence/problems with the
within and without: to show the Solution that is ourselves, that is how we live
and the relationships we develop with ourselves and each other. I commit myself
to be here, to stand here in/as my words for those who decide to LOOK for
themselves, to investigate/introspect for themselves through Desteni, EQAFE
and DIP and not just immediately
react in opinions/judgments – but take the time/breaths to
investigate/introspect/research/read
and watch what we show, to so learn/educate themselves as we have to
see/realise and understand for self how we can change ourselves and through
that change how we live and eventually change life on earth.
We’ll continue more in the next post
Very cool support here, thanks!