Have you Ever Really Loved your Parents? – Part Two: DAY 87
(To read this post, it
must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to
Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is
interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question
of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical
existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the
points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the
next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the
mutli-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as
Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced
with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self
first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many
dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in
previous posts.)
The
First Character-Creation – continued
The
Chicken or the Egg??? – continued
How
the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued
Who
I Am as Money – continued
This is a continuation of our previous
post, where we’re continuing with more practical/physical examples of how
we never in fact have a relationship with our parents/all beings in our world
for that matter, because ‘who we are’ in relationship to them in our Mind,
is/always has been constructed/manifested from and in relationship to memories/characters
as-us, within ourselves/the Mind. How, we even go so far as
creating/constructing ‘alternate versions’ of our parents within our Minds,
from ‘alternate versions’ of ourselves as characters to serve only our
interest/intentions/wants, needs and desires according to how we manifested our
‘who we are’ in our Minds.
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to, in equality and oneness with and as life, energy
and substance, the mind and the physical from the beginning to now, seen, realised and understood my
relationship to myself and others as existent/defined within my Mind
from/of memories, where with my memories containing defined-relationships of
‘who I am’ to/towards others in my world, will within my/such memories of
past-experiences with others, establish me as the main-character within such
memories, and within the memories-itself: even change/alter/warp the
actual-reality past-experience, ‘who/how I was’ in that moment as well as the
other person, to accordingly mould/shape/manifest my remembrance/memory of that
physical-interaction to best suit my own interested wants, needs, desires /
intentions as the process of using memories of past-experience to
create/manifest me into and as characters in my Mind that SERVE ME and me Only.
Where, for example:
In my relationships/interactions with my parents as a child,
with for example facing a moment where I wanted, needed and desired a
particular-item, with all that stands in the way of me and that item was my
parent saying ‘Yes’. And with the parent saying ‘No’ would go into an absolute
‘break-down’, because:
In the past, before this current-moment in seeing the item I
want, need and desire - I as a child physically-interacted with a particular
item, that was similar/the same to the one I was seeing with my parent in
current-time. Where that particular item in the past, while I was physically in
reality interacting with it/playing with it/eating it: had an overwhelming
experience of joy. This overwhelming experience of joy, coming from
similar/same memories of my parents in my Unconscious-Mind, that merged with my
present-moment – containing me in interaction with the particular item within
the glass-window pane, where I then ‘accepted’ my parents’ memory/their
experience and behaviour as character to/towards a similar/same item; and so
the two memories – (my present-moment interaction with the item, together with
my parents’ memory as character/experience/behaviour to/towards a similar/same
item); then manifested in the centre of my Mind/head/brain region and then
manifested into and as mind-physical experience of overwhelming joy. Where, the
moment I experienced the overwhelming joy with this particular item, I took
another present-moment imprint containing me in the experience of overwhelming
joy in relationship to this particular item with a particular behaviour; and
manifested it into and as my own, personal Unconscious/Physical-Mind
relationship. And this thus the process of creating me into and as a Character
in relationship to a/the particular item, with the Memory as Character of
me, containing the item, my behaviour and experience. And so – every time I
physically see this particular item, my own memory activate within my
Mind-Physical relationship and so will every time access the character I
created as my ‘who I am’ to/towards this particular item in how I behave and
experience myself.
And so, as I was walking with my parent in current-time – I
with my Physical-Mind eyes imprinted a present-moment into my ‘glass window
pane’, of an item that looked similar/the same to the one I formed a
character-relationship to in the past; which then activated this character in
my Mind only. Where I met this item I was seeing in current-time, with a
reaction of recognition of the sense of overwhelming joy. But, because I did
not PHYSICALLY
have it, my experience to/towards that Item in my external world, was only
existent in my Mind as my character and experience of overwhelming joy within
that activated. And so, the only way this Character within me in relationship
to the Item can be physically-materialized/lived: is if I PHYSICALLY
have/get/own/possess that Item. Because the moment I get/have/own/possess that
Item, I can fully embody/physically experience my character with the
overwhelming joy experience and behaviour that goes with it. And so, the
character in the Mind takes centre-point within the Mind – not yet fully
integrated, because it does not yet have a physical-relationship of ownership
to/towards that particular item; and so it is the Character the child created
that asks the parent for that Item, to own/possess/have it, so that it can
physically experience itself as the memory of itself it created within the past
with a similar/same item. And so, the child essentially wants to re-materialize
a memory, to experience themselves the way they did in the memory and behave
the same way they did in the memory and the only thing that can fulfil that
experience/behaviour as character within the Memory: is
getting/having/owning/possessing this item.
And thus why – when/as the Parent say ‘No’ – the child will
in a way ‘break down’; because in their Mind – they already activated the
memory/character of their past-relationship with a similar/same item, already
built up the energy-experience in their Mind-Physical relationship, which mean
within their Mind, they already ‘have the item’ – they just needed to now
PHYSICALLY have/own/possess it. So, the child built up their energies to a
HIGH, and when the parent say NO, the energy suddenly/unexpectedly drop,
because in the child’s Mind, it’s like in physical-reality they already ‘had’
it – but only in fact ‘had it in their Mind’. And so the child interpret the
parent saying NO to them as ‘who they are as a being’, but the parent in fact
only said no to ONE CHARACTER of and as the child, as the relationship they
created within a memory in relation to a particular item. And so this
Character, already positioned in the Mind-Physical relationship, ready to
physically materialize/manifest would ‘fight for its way through into and as a
Physical-Experience/Behaviour’, with this fighting manifesting the child into
and as what is referred to as a ‘Temper Tantrum’ / simply ‘Tantrum’; as the
child as the character take that Energy-Drop of the Energy that went from a
high to a low when the parent said No and use it mentally-physically within and
as the Child to attempt/try to manipulate the Parent
into getting/having/owning/possessing the particular item.
I commit myself to
show, how – as children, we already start with the basic process of character-creation
in our relationship with toys/food/television-shows/school etc. we developed in
and as manifested-memories of ourselves in relationship to the toys/food/television-shows/school
with particular-specific behaviours/experiences. All/most such relationships to
toys/food/television-shows/school coming-from memories of our parents as
characters they created with experiences/behaviours to/towards toys/food/television-shows/school
etc. Where – every moment we, in physical-reality come into contact with toys/food/television-shows/school
where we had already created/manifested characters towards as particular
behaviours/experiences: our Physical-Mind eyes would imprint the present-moments
onto the glass-window pane, activate the unconscious/physical-mind memory with
our character as experience/behaviour to/towards a particular-item, where we
will in quantum-time meet that particular-item with the experience/behaviour as
character we created/manifested to/towards it within our memories. And so,
within this – how, we’re never in fact in REAL-TIME, here as breath within for
example, as children in our relationship to/towards a particular-item, because
we from a certain perspective, with activating our relationship to/towards a
particular item, are only experiencing ourselves / behaving as a embodied
character from a memory that centred itself within our Mind-Physical
relationship. And so – we’re not in fact experiencing/interacting/participating
with a particular-specific item, we’re always only experiencing/behaving WITHIN
OURSELVES, only OURSELVES in our own MIND. And will with our relationship to a
particular-item, essentially be in a possession, as we’re so focused on our
experience/behaviour as character-relationship to the particular item in
reality, that the rest of the world seem to disappear as the utmost/absolute
separation from ourselves, our own body and the rest of the
physical-environment.
And so, I commit myself to show – how, from childhood –
into, through and as our adult-years, why and how it is we
develop/create/manifest preferences to/towards items/material-possessions even
to people –as we’ve used such particular-specific items/material-possessions
and relationships with people, to within our MEMORIES as physical-experiences
with them, develop characters of experiences/behaviours, that ‘activate’ every
time we interact/participate in physical-reality with certain-specific
items/material-possessions and relationships with people. That our
relationships with items/material-possessions/relationships with other people,
never in fact has to do with the real-time participation with the
items/material-possessions/relationships with other people – but how they
activate MEMORIES of characters we created within ourselves with particular
experiences/behaviours that we then get to physically embody/live-out/experience
as ‘who we are’.
In this, I commit myself to show how/why thus – the Elite,
for example within this world will not ‘give up’ / ‘let go of’ or consider
sharing their wealth within the implementation of an Equal Money System, where all are equal and
one in elitist status on this Earth with an equal and one opportunity to
life/living, because such individuals/the elite created memories as characters
with experiences/behaviours in their Mind in their relationship
to money/material-possessions. And so the Characters will fight for their
existence in the Mind of the human being; because they must physically have the
material-possessions/money
to activate the characters/experiences/behaviours in their memories to which
they have defined themselves as. That characters in the Mind would regard
themselves as MORE than other human beings’ LIVES, and would
justify/excuse/validate their why/how as their right to their money/material-possessions,
and the amount of that they have at the sacrifice of countless lives…simply
because a character in a memory wants to own/possess its activations in
physical-reality as money/material possessions as the extent to which human
beings have come to believe ‘who they are’ to be characters in their Minds from
and of memories….
I forgive
myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to, in equality and oneness with
and as life,
energy and substance, the mind and the physical, from the beginning to now –
seen, realised and understood how: the moment the parent say NO, with the
memory and the character still existent in the centre of the child’s Mind in
relationship to the particular item that is attempting-to/trying-to physically
manifest itself: consciousness of and as
the child will imprint that present-moment of the parent saying NO into the
glass-window pane, scan for memories/characters of the parents with a
similar/same memory with their parents saying NO. And when/as the child’s
beingness (now merged with the mind
within and as that one-memory with the character in relationship to the
particular-item) – when/as the child’s
merged-beingness accept a memory found, that memory of the parents is then
merged with the present-moment of the parent saying NO. Then, those two
merged-memories, from the glass-window pane then transfer into the centre of
the Mind merging with the memory in the centre of the Mind of the child with
the memory of the character in relationship to the particular item. And once
all three memories are merged in the centre of the Mind, they resonate into and
as the Mind-Physical
relationship of the child and so the child will physically-behave, squeal
and whine – equal-to and one-with what the child’s parents did in their
character-creation to/towards their parents when their parents said NO as the memory
the child accepted from their Unconscious-Mind and uploaded into and as their
Mind to physically enact/live-out.
And so – what is in fact manipulating in such a
mental-physical state is the Child’s Character in the centre of the Mind,
merged with the present-moment of the parent saying NO as well as the memory of
their parents’ character as how they behaved/experienced themselves when their
parents said NO; together with the negative-energy the child/character
experienced from the drop of the HIGH the child initially experienced within
the expectations of getting/having/owning that physical-item. And so the child
throw their tempter-tantrum/tantrum to attempt/try to manipulate the parent
into giving them that physical-item; as the character in the Mind of the child
fight for its existence.
In this, I forgive
myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand,
what happens from that moment:
If/as the parent maintains the NO: The child will then take
that entire present moment consisting of – the child existing as the
three-merged-memories in the centre of their Mind (Memory 1: the character in
relationship to the item, Memory 2: the moment their parents said No, Memory 3:
the parents’ memory/character of their tantrum as behaviour/experience) the
child will take ‘who they are’ as the three merged-memories, the parent
continuously saying NO as well as the child’s negative-energy experience in
that present moment and manifest it as ONE MEMORY within their Mind-Physical
relationship. Where in the memory of the Child – the child will position
themselves as the Main Character in relationship to their Parent saying NO, and
construct the memory in such a way that it was the Parent that said NO to the
child and caused the child’s negative-experience in their Mind-Physical
relationship, and so in the Memory essentially blame the Parent. When this
entire process/experience: was all in fact playing-out only within the Child
within a character fighting for its existence/embodiment, and had nothing
personally to do with the parent.
If/as the Parent says YES: The child will then take that
entire present moment consisting of – the child existing as the
three-merged-memories in the centre of their Mind (Memory 1: the character in
relationship to the item, Memory 2: the moment their parents said No, Memory 3:
the parents’ memory/character of their tantrum as behaviour/experience) the
child will take ‘who they are’ as the three merged-memories, and the parent
saying YES as well as the child’s positive-energy experience in that present
moment when they got the item and the character was materialized in the
physical: taking all that and manifest it as ONE MEMORY within their
Mind-Physical relationship. Where in the memory of the Child – the child will position
themselves as the Main Character in relationship to their Parent saying YES,
and construct the memory in such a way as the entire process that the child
will thus re-enact whenever the Parent ever again says NO and can embody all
three memories simultaneously – from the character as the experience/behaviour
to the item, to the memory of the parent first saying no, to the memory of the
parents’ character/tantrum when their parents said NO and physically manifest
it until their parents say YES again. When this entire process/experience: playing-out
in the Mind of the child, with the parent thinking/believing that when the
child is happy/satisfied with getting/having/owning the item and the child hug
them/kiss them or say thank you – it’s in fact the character in the Mind that
is pleased to have been able to be physically manifested, and had nothing to do
with the Parent themselves.
I commit myself to show – how, as children – even within
this relationship to getting/having/owning/possessing certain-specific items
to/towards which we developed/manifested a particular character towards with a
particular experience/behaviour, when/as we say thank you/give
a hug, it’s not in fact an actual, real appreciation/gratefulness of another in
the relationship of ‘giving
and receiving’ in REALLY saying thank you in gratefulness to another as
self, but in fact a reaction from a character in our Minds to/towards our
parents for fulfilling our want, need and desire to physically-manifest and
have a particular experience/behaviour, thus essentially a character within the
Mind of the Child saying: “thank you from transferring me from a Memory into
and as an actual Physical-Experience in reality”. And thus, in this example
above – the parent essentially only pleased a character within the Mind of the
Child, and the child’s reaction to/towards the parent is within the fulfilment
of this pleasure-experience – which is thus not in fact Love, but a fulfilment of and
as a self-interested desire.
Which, within this brings into questioning the very
existence of ‘love’ – if even as children, our reactions to/towards our parents
in our relationship as characters; was in no way in any context of ‘love’, but
in the pleasing/satisfaction
of desires within ourselves.
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