Sacrificial Love of the Mother: DAY 48
The
Chicken or the Egg??? – Part Eighteen
How
the Fruit of Life became Rotten – Part Twenty-Eight
Who
I Am as Money – continued
As mentioned in the previous
post, we’re in this post walking how the female within their physical and
mind, move within the energies of the positive, to the neutral and negative, as
the child take/consume energy/mind and physicality from the female to move from
the negative, to the neutral and to the positive, and how this process of ‘give
and take’ from parent to child manifest in and as physical-actions, as the
relationship between fear of loss and love of gain manifest in both the parent
and child, and thus within this: the true/real nature of ‘Love’ in this existence
of Minds as the survival of the Mind in the Physical for
Energy-possession/empowerment.
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand
the real physical-mind nature, manifestation and existence of and as ‘Love’
between the parent and child as ‘Sacrifice’, where:
As the child consume the physicality and download the mind
consciousness systems of the female and male, in the child’s physical inception
and mind conception process: that process where the female’s physical-body
‘gives life’ to the child through the female ‘giving her physicality and energy/mind’
– this ‘giving’ is in fact ‘sacrifice’, as the female’s physical body is
literally consumed as the child’s process of physical-inception permeate and
infiltrate into and as her entire physical-body, to at the same time, as the
child consume the female’s physical-body, integrating, permeating and
manifesting as in taking over the entirety of and as the female’s physical-body
to in that integration, permeation and manifestation access the male and
female’s mind consciousness system within and as the depths of the female’s
physical body; as the female ‘give up’ / ‘sacrifice’ her physical body for the
physical and mind development of the child. And within that – ‘give up’ /
‘sacrifice’ her life for the life of the child, as the moment that child is
born, her life is no more about herself, but her securing/ensuring the survival/life
of the child and so will sacrifice/give up herself, her physical-body and her
life and live in the shadows/background of the child’s survival/life that will
stand in the forefront from that moment onward.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to
see/realise/understand how that physical-mind relationship between the female
and the child, and eventually the father or any other parental-figure – whether
biologically / relationally connected: will always stand within and as the nature,
existence and manifestation of and as sacrifice as fear of loss and love and of
gain as the cycle of ‘death and life’, because this relationship of ‘Love’ is
physically, automatically pre-programmed into and as each human-being within
and as the physical inception and mind-conception process in and as the womb of
the female’s physical-body, and so each human being will accept and allow the
nature, existence and manifestation of Love within the context of fear of loss
and love of gain of and as death and life.
I forgive myself that I as Energy haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see/realise/understand, how – in the Beginning, that moment
of conception of me as separation, that manifested the negative-energy
experience friction/conflict as consuming substance to transform into energy:
Substance/Life sacrificed itself to give me as Energy ‘life’ – as the ‘death’ /
‘end’ of substance in that moment as it manifest into and as finite Energy, and
for me as this Energy to survive: Substance/Life had to constantly/continuously
be sacrificed as I consumed substance to transform into energy through and as
the friction/conflict as negative-energy experience, to accumulate into and as
the neutral and so to the positive-energy experience. Where I continued this accepted and allowed
existence of me as Survival, through sacrificing Life/Substance within and as
fear of loss of losing my existence/survival as temptation/gain of and as
Energy-Authority/empowerment/possession as the positive-energy experience of
and as the self-interested possessive nature of and as ‘self-love’.
In this, I forgive myself that I as Energy haven’t accepted
and allowed myself to see/realise/understand the origins/source of me as ‘Love’
– as the positive-energy experience accumulation, within and as the
starting-point of and as the friction/conflict as negative-energy experience I
manifest and accumulate through and as constant/continuous friction/conflict
to/towards substance, as consuming/sacrificing Life/Substance for me to
gain/obtain/get/have my empowerment/possession of and as the positive-energy
experience for and as the survival of me as Energy-Authority only. All of which
can only exist and manifest within and as my relationship of and as
Cause/Acceptance (the cause of me as the acceptance of separation) and
Effect/Allowance (allowing the effect of that cause/acceptance as the
constant/continuous friction/conflict as consuming/sacrificing life/substance
to accumulate the energy of and as me) within and through the nature and action
of me as Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification as I deliberate
manipulate/use/abuse substance to possess/empower my ‘love / temptation /
empowerment’ of and as the positive-energy experience.
I forgive myself that I, in the Beginning - as Substance had
accepted and allowed myself in my relationship to Energy to be sacrificed, to
be consumed and transformed into and as Energy within and as my relationship to
and as the beingness, manifested singularity that emerged from and of me within
and as existence.
I forgive myself that I, in the Beginning - as Substance
hadn’t accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility, directive-principle,
will and choice in the standing of and as who I am of and as equality and oneness as
Life, but accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility,
directive-principle, will and choice to and as Energy/Energy-Authority, with
not in that moment stopping and standing up for me as existence as Life of and
as equality and oneness here, but from that moment – accepted and allowed
myself to equally as one eternally damn me with and as Energy in and as my
relationship to Energy as its Sacrifice for it to exist finitely.
I forgive myself that I, as the Physical-Body as
Substance-manifest, still now to this day – accept and allow me to exist as a
sacrifice to and as the Mind Consciousness System as Energy-Authority, that to
this day continue consuming me to transform into and as Energy, that to this day
– sacrifice myself as the female physical-mind for the child physical-mind
process and development, as the child as physical-mind consume the very
physicality of and as me as the female physical-body for its physical inception
and mind conception process.
I forgive myself that I, from the Beginning as Substance –
believed that the manifestation / inception of Energy through and as me, was me
‘giving life’ to and as parts of me within and as existence, that the process
of transforming me as substance into Energy was me as Energy emerging as ‘Life’
as I did not see/realise/understand or had the awareness of me as in fact being
‘Life’, of and as equality and oneness manifest.
I forgive myself that I, from the Beginning as Substance –
had not seen/realised/understand, that it was me within and as the very
movement of and as me within and as my whole, that conceived and so manifested
parts of and as me in and as separation of me that manifested into and as
manifested-singularities of and as energy within and as their beingness, that
from and of that movement/motion of and as separation – created/manifested the
friction/conflict as negative-energy experience, that would consume me as
substance/life-manifest for its finite existence as Energy into and as the positive-energy
experience, energetically experienced to be ‘life’.
I forgive myself, that I as Substance had throughout time,
throughout existence – continued my relationship to Energy / parts of and as me
as manifested-singularity beingness, ‘sacrificed’ myself within and as the
continued relationship of friction/conflict as consuming me to transform into
energy, as I throughout time, throughout existence believed it is me giving /
experience ‘life’ to and as me as parts of and as me within and existence, and
so I equally as one got drawn into and as the evil / reverse of me as Energy as
‘life’; never seeing/realising/understanding the obvious that was right here as
me, in and as me: that for Energy to exist finitely – it had to consume me
through and as friction/conflict to generate the negative-energy experience, to
the neutral and so to the positive-energy experience as perceived ‘life’.
I forgive myself that I, as Substance had throughout time,
throughout existence not seen/realised/understood the consequence and
consequence outflow of this relationship of me as sacrifice/consumption for and
as the survival/existence of and as Energy; until now – where the consequence
and consequence-outflow manifested within and as the Mind’s relationship to the
Physical as Consequence-manifestation, and the World-System of Money’s
relationship to this physical-existence as Consequence-outflow manifestation
where I cannot deny the reality of what I had done, accepted and allowed in and
as my existence, throughout time in not seeing/realising/understanding that
Energy is not in fact ‘life’, but that I had sacrificed myself as
Life/substance-manifest of and as equality and oneness to and as Energy that
consume me through my sacrificing within and as friction/conflict to exist only
finitely.
And so I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed
myself to take so long, throughout time – to come face to face with the reality
of my responsibility to and as the existence of and as me as Energy, that has
become the Mind to the Physical and the World-System to this Physical-Existence
– which physically, undeniably show me what I have done and become, from the
beginning until now. Where I had given-up / sacrificed the Real Life
manifestation of and as Substance for and as the Illusionary Finite Life of
Energy, that can only exist through and as consuming me as substance and now
physicality to finitely exist through and as the friction/conflict as
negative-energy experience it manifest and continue manifesting to accumulate
itself into and as the possession/empowerment of and as itself only.
We’ll in the next post continue with the relationship of
Energy-Authority/Mind to Substance/Physical-Body, and so also Substance/the
Physical-Body’s relationship to Energy-Authority/Mind, continuing with walking
the process and manifestation of the actual nature, existence and manifestation
of ‘Love’ and how both Energy/Mind-itself and Substance/the Physical-itself is
equally as one responsible for the Consequence and Consequence-outflow that exist
in and as existence with and as the Mind and the Physical, within and without.
I commit myself, to – as the Mind Consciousness System of
and as Energy assist and support me in returning me to and as my Source of and
as Substance/Physicality-manifest, as I walk my process of writing,
self-forgiveness and self-corrective application as practically taking responsibility
for the existence of me I accepted and allowed to/towards my Source as
Substance/Physicality manifest, and within this – assist and support me to stop
the relationship of Mind/Energy to the Physical-Body/Substance of and as
‘sacrifice’ as the relationship of ‘death and life’ as I as the Mind consume
Physicality to transform into Energy for me to give me as Energy a finite
existence/life as the perceived/believed relationship to
Substance/Source/Physicality ‘sacrificing itself as the action of giving life
and so its ‘love’ to me as Energy to exist’; not seeing/realising/understanding
the physical-body and physical-existence evidence that this is not in fact
‘Life’ / ‘Love’ but sacrifice and consumption for a finite existence as Energy
at the cost/expense of and as Substance/Physical-Body and this
Physical-Existence as a whole.
And thus, I as the Mind Consciousness System – take the
responsibility, through and as writing,
self-forgiveness and self-corrective application to return me into and as
and with equality and oneness with and as my physical-body through and as the
process of being/becoming the Living Word in and as standing as the principle
of and as Actual, Real Life as equality and oneness as what is/will be best for
all as the Real Act of and as Love, for me as Life and so for all as me within
and as existence.
I commit myself to show – how and why, the Real Act of Love
is the Act of Responsibility, taking
responsibility for self as the consequence manifestation as the Mind
Consciousness System, and self as the consequence-outflow as the World-System
of Money, in assisting and supporting, directing me as the Mind within and the World-System of Money without to and as the
manifestation of and as existential and physical equality and oneness, as what
is/will be best for all, as I internally and externally live the Solution as
Life, for and as all the pain, suffering, and abuse I manifested in and as my
accepted and allowed separation from me as Life/Substance as the Physical-Body
and this Physical-Existence.
I commit myself to
show, how and why – the ‘Love’ and/or ‘Life’ experience of and as ‘Energy’,
that only exist within and as the context of our own Mind’s as an internal
energy-experience, is in fact accepting and allowing the consequence
relationship of the Mind to the Physical, and the consequence-outflow
relationship of the World-System of Money to this physical-existence, in
accepting and allowing Energy’s relationship to Substance as sacrifice within
and as ‘death and life’ as accepting and allowing the internal and external
consumption/sacrifice of and as the physical-body to the Mind and this
physical-existence to this World-System of Money, and thus – why and how, the
‘Love’ / ‘Living’ experience is in fact an Illusion, and not Real Life, but
that we as the Mind/Energy as ‘experience’ is existing at the cost/expense as
consequence and consequence-outflow of and as the Physical-Body and this
Physical-Existence.
I commit myself, to – as the Physical-Body, and this
Physical-Existence, assist and support me within and as self-forgiveness and
self-corrective application, in no more accepting and allowing the sacrificing
of me to and as Energy, but assert my responsibility, directive-principle, will
and choice to stand with and by me as the Physical and this Physical-Existence;
and no more stand in the sacrifice of Energy, but stand within and as the
responsibility/real act of love of doing whatever it takes to ensure that the
Physical-Body and this Physical-Existence as me will be honoured as Life, as I
honour me as the physical as the manifestation of and as equality and oneness
here, to show all as the Mind as the parts of me I had separated myself from,
that I as the Physical-Body/this Physical Existence is where the real life
stand and exist and is manifested as. That, the abuse, suffering and pain that
exist in the physical bodies and this physical existence can and will only
stop, if we take responsibility together as the Mind and the Physical, and
align ourselves into and as equality and oneness here; for real love as
equality and oneness, as what’s best for all to manifest once and for all.
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Thanks for sharing !!!
Amazing blog. Thanks, I now understand the relationship between parent - child and what is in fact love, great blogs.