What will it Take for Human Nature to Change?: DAY 329

From Reactive Responses to Self RESPONSE(ability) - continued

The Fear of Failure and Desire for Success – continued

Solution (continued):

Here we’re going to walk through opening up all the Dimensions of the Problem and within the Problem – also see the Solution, as we walk a Process of Writing of Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments

From the previous ‘Interview Post’ – we’re now going to Structurally have a look at the Process of walking the equation and the reverse of the equation of participation/observation + definition/connection + reaction = changing one’s mind/self/behaviour with the examples that we used with regards to how:

One can move from the Lazy/Failure Character – react to it, ‘Negatively’ – such as in FEAR, but then redefine/reconnect one’s relationship to it into and as a Neutral/Positive, by/through justifying/excusing/validating one’s existence as being ‘Lazy/Failing’ and so continue participating/observing one’s ‘new-found’ positive-‘change’ of/as oneself as Lazy/a Failure and so REMAIN existent as the same Character, only changing one’s ENERGY in relationship to/as it.

OR One can move from the Lazy/Failure Character – react to it , Negatively – such as in Fear and then accumulate enough Fear where one’s relationship will go to the Polarity-Opposite as DESIRE. Then, from within DESIRE as a reaction to the Fear of/as the Lazy/Failure Character – redefine/reconnect one’s relationship to self into and as a New Character as, for example, Success/Discipline and then start Participating in/Observing that New relationship of oneself.

In Both instances – one is constantly, continuously walking the relationship-equation of participation/observation + definition/connection + reaction = changing one’s mind/self/behaviour from the one Character as the Lazy/Failure Character and then reverse it in Reacting to it and then moving to the other Character – as either justifying/excusing/validating oneself as being Lazy/Failure or going into the New Character one Created as Success/Discipline – over, and over and over again.

And so, what Determines this ‘Change’ in ENERGY – with going back to the Lazy/Failure Character and/or Creating a New Character – is much dependent on how much REACTION you genuinely experience in relationship to the Lazy/Failure Character. Meaning, if the reality-shock/consequence shock was not enough within your Mind, energetically, and only produced a ‘relative’ amount of Fear: it would be easier for your Mind/Consciousness to just balance out the Energies to take you back to a ‘neutral / positive’ in relation to you justifying/excusing/validating why you are Lazy/a Failure. However, if you reacted ENOUGH, meaning enough Fear was produced in reaction to your Failure/Lazy Character and the reality-shock/consequence was enough to generate/produce so much Shock/Fear into your Mind/System – this would lead to Consciousness then being able to balance the Energies in taking you into and as the Opposite Polarity as the POSITIVE that was equally as strong as the Negative Reaction as Fear; and so initiate you into and as the Energy-Experience of DESIRE and from DESIRE initiate the Process of creating/producing/programming a New Character/Personality. So, here – what in fact thus determine whether you only change in energy-relationship to a Character and/or actually create a New Character as an Opposite of the Previous: is how much you REACTED to/as your Initial Character.

Now, within this also comes an Interesting Point – from the perspective that: how much ‘internal shock’ you get from the ‘external shock/consequence’ within the External Reality/Environment and how much ENERGY that produce - will determine whether you Remain within a Character/Personality and simply change your energy-relationship to it, using the reality-consequence/shock as a further means to REMAIN UNCHANGED. Or whether you go into the Polarity Opposite of an initial Character/Personality and then simply change within an ENERGY-REACTION, using NEW ENERGY to Create a NEW CHARACTER and so still not really in fact Change – but in the Mind, through ENERGY. Granted, yes – this will Change one’s Behaviour/Living, however SELF do not LEARN or become AWARE of how one’s Mind/Consciousness created the Initial Character/Personality and Energy within it, in the first place – and then use the same constructs (thoughts, imagination, backchat, emotions/feelings, memories, projections etc.) that created the problem in the first place, to now create a ‘solution from the problem’, instead of CHANGING the problem. And so, there will always exist a ‘problem-solution’ relationship within self, the problem always existing as the initial Character/Personality battling it out with the new Character/Personality – there’s not rest, no peace, no harmony, no hereness, only constant/continuous inner-conflict.

Within these/such Dynamics as well, what’s interesting is that: Dependent on the shock – internally and externally and the REACTION, the extent/amount of energy produced, will determine HOW LONG you will maintain the ‘change’ and/or how ‘energetically motivated’ you will be to Remain changed. Taking again the example of a Lazy/Failure Character – where the internal/external shock in relation to FEAR was not AS extensive that will ‘just be enough’ for Consciousness to balance it into neutrality/relative positivity in changing the energy-experience to remaining within the Lazy/Failure Character, that will then accordingly determine HOW LONG you can justify/excuse/validate you remaining as a Lazy/Failure Character, until you simply just accept it again and maybe, possibly in the Future create potential for Change. But, every time one justify/excuse/validate the Lazy/Failure Character, the stronger it gets and when/as shock/consequence events do happen, it’s not enough to change the strengthened stance within and as Self as a accepted/allowed Character/Personality. And so, for most part in our Lives within this physical existence – we have used reality consequence/shock wake-up calls, instead of CHANGING, to rather justify/excuse/validate who/how/what we are and remain unchanged in/as our Nature.  

Then as well within the Change from Lazy/Failure to Discipline/Success – dependent on the extent of FEAR-reaction generated, will depend on how much energy you have available to balance out into the Opposite Polarity as DESIRE and so will depend how much ‘energy-motivation’ you have to create and manifest the New Character. Sometimes, there’s just enough DESIRE created for change to sustain only thoughts/imaginations/projections of Change, but it never goes into ACTUAL physical/behavioural change and so one for a Moment experience the DESIRE but then slowly but surely progress back into Failure/Laziness.

Thus, it’s fascinating within this all – with regards to how we’ve used reality consequences/shocks/wake-up calls to not LEARN in terms of how our minds really work and how it create consequence in our world/reality – but used/abused it to create New Characters in the Mind and/or justify/excuse/validate our already existent characters/Personalities. So, it’s like – we in our Minds adapted to our own Consequence we create in our Minds that then filters into our World/Reality, adapted for our own Mind/Energy/Character/Personality SURVIVAL – no Learning, no Real Self-Change, no understanding how the Mind-Physical relationships work and so we continue perpetuating consequence in reality/our Lives and giving more attention to ADAPTING to the consequence we Create, than actually UNDERSTANDING and LEARNING from the Consequences we create to STOP creating such consequences in our worlds/realities and showing others how to do the Same.

In the next post, we’ll continue with the Process of how to CHANGE internally and externally with LEARNING from consequence through understanding our mind-physical relationships, instead of using reality/consequence within it, to further justify/excuse/validate our self-separation and responsibility in relationship to the mind and the physical reality. Because, within this comes to question – to what extremes must reality-consequence go, for the shock/wake-up call to be enough, for human beings to start questioning the mind and its relationship to the physical reality and our life experiences, instead of using our own creation, to justify/excuse/validate the very problem as the mind creating the consequence in the first place? And within this, show how/why we have Never in fact changed within and as our own initiative / motivation – but have always been dependent on REACTION and energy-motivation, and so why/how the Change in Human NATURE has never been VISIBLE within this Physical Existence.

The History of Superiority and Inferiority: DAY 69

(To read this post, it must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the mutli-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in previous posts.)

The Origins of Males and Females - continued

Adam and Eve – continued

The Chicken or the Egg??? – continued

How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued

Who I Am as Money - continued

As mentioned in the previous post, we’re in and from this post going into more detail regarding the evolution of ourselves as manifested-singularities into and as the Mind’s relationship to the Physical Body regarding the “experience” of attraction – how and why we never questioned this ‘automatic’ experience that suddenly/unexpectedly manifest within us, without our directive principled decision, but literally blindly and ignorantly fell into it / as with “falling in love” from “attraction” – where “love” has come to be interpreted in the Conscious-Mind according to “experience”, when it is in fact within the context of the existence of the entire Mind Consciousness System as ourselves: the survival of and as the Mind itself. And had in fact never anything to do with who we are with ourselves and each other as actual beings, but everything to do with the Mind ensuring its survival and evolution as Energy – all of which contributed throughout time, to the consequences of the nature of relationships with ourselves, each other and humanity as a whole.

But, before we can continue with this – what must be understood is the origins of the existence of and as superiority and inferiority as the existence and manifestation of ourselves as the cause that manifested the effect of and as “attraction”.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself, to within and as equality and oneness with and as energy and substance, the mind and the physical – from the beginning to now, remembered, seen, realised and understood how:

In the beginning, within and as the manifested-singularities themselves, the relationships of superiority and inferiority existed within and as each one of the Adam/Male and Eve/Female singularities, where the Adam/Male singularities was ‘superior’ within and as their Adam/Male existence of the action of friction/conflict and ‘inferior’ within and as its Eve/Female existence of having the ability to accumulate its energies constantly/consistently into and as the positive-energy experience. And the Eve/Female singularities was ‘superior’ within and as their constancy of positive-energy experience accumulation/manifestation and ‘inferior’ within and as their Adam/Male existence within themselves. With superiority only existing within the context of to/towards what the manifested-singularities invested their awareness into/as – as the Adam/Male singularities’ awareness-investment manifested into and as its friction/conflict action and the Eve/Female singularities’ awareness/investment into and as its energy-accumulation. And inferiority only existing within the context of to/towards what the manifested-singularities had less awareness into/as - as the Adam/Male singularities’ had less awareness-investment manifested into and as its energy-accumulation into and as the positive-energy experience and the Eve/Female singularities’ had less awareness/investment into and as its friction/conflict action of consuming substance to transform into energy. Where both manifested-singularities manifested/patterned themselves/their awareness within and as their beingness/manifestations within and as the acceptance of and as “this is who I am” and the allowance of “this is who I will always be” – and so within this manifested-decision made within the singularities themselves: this is what they became. And so, with the Adam/Male and Eve/Female singularities existing within and as their acceptance and allowance in their internal/beingness/manifestation relationships between their inferiorities and superiorities: each individually became the cause of the effect that manifested from within and as this acceptance and allowance as: Attraction.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand in and as equality and oneness with and as energy and substance, the mind and the physical from the beginning to now, how:

Within and as that very acceptance and allowance of “who I am and will be and so have become” of and as the manifested-singularities – that this moment became the infinite solidification/manifestation of ourselves as beings in and as our relationship as energy/mind to substance/physicality, where: From within and as this moment, the more and more and more the manifested-singularities remained within and as their existence, acceptance and allowance and thus manifestation and experience of and as Energy within and throughout existence – the more and more and more this acceptance and allowance patterned, manifested into and as their beingness and manifestations as it still exist today within, for example the existence of relationships and attraction. Where: a human being come into this physical-existence within and as their inception and conception process as the mind and the physical, and within and during their formative/development years as a child – will pattern and manifest into and as their Mind/Energy-existence their own acceptance and allowance of “who I am and will be” and so “become” the design/manifestation they patterned into and as their Minds within, for example their relationships within themselves of inferiority and superiority. And, so – each human being had come to exist within this internal relationship of inferiorities/superiorities within and as the acceptance, allowance and manifestation of “who I am and will be and so have become”. In this existence of the acceptance, allowance and manifestation of “who I am and will be and so have become” existent within each human being – the cause as ourselves in our separation from/of our own superiorities/inferiorities within ourselves, manifested the effect of and as Attraction. Attraction that exist in all forms of relationships; whether physical/friendship/familial etc. – with the very nature of attraction the recognition of a part/existent manifestation within and as self, that one is experiencing/recognizing within and as another. Where, attraction can thus only exist – when/as self is separated from/of one’s own superiorities/inferiorities within oneself, and the superiorities/inferiorities can only exist within and as accepting and allowing self to continue existing within and as the primary relationship with and as self as the Mind within and as the ‘living statement’ of and as: acceptance of and as “this is who I am” and the allowance of “this is who I will always be” – and so within this manifested-decision made within the ourselves: this is what we became.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, in and as equality and oneness with and as energy and substance, the mind and the physical – from the beginning to now, the sound, energy and physical symbolism and manifestation of and as the existence of and as superiority and inferiority as:

SUP-E-RIORITY – with S, the manifestation of sound/substance U, reversed and manifested into and as the P as continuation/manifestation of Energy into and as the manifested-singularity/human being as energy/mind, with the very manifestation of P existent as the individual human standing with the head/brain/mind as Primary existence. Thus – SUP indicate the manifested-singularity/human beings’ primary relationship to energy where that primary relationship with E, as Energy, manifest the RIORITY, as priority of and as the manifested-singularity/human beings’ existence. Therefore, Superiority in its very origins/existence – simply indicate to what of Energy/the Mind – from the manifested-singularities to now, self had a primary relationship to/towards that self prioritized within and as the existence of ‘who I am and will be’ and so have become. As with, for example the Adam/Male singularities – their primary relationship to and as energy was existent within and as the action of and as the friction/conflict, and so in and from this primary-relationship – manifested their very awareness/priority/importance into and as this manifested-existence of and as themselves as the action of and as friction/conflict, which manifested their “who I am and will be”, and so became it completely. And with the Eve/Female singularities - their primary relationship to and as energy was existent within and as the accumulation and constancy of and as the positive-energy experience, and so in and from this primary-relationship – manifested their very awareness/priority/importance into and as this manifested-existence of and as themselves as the accumulation and constancy of and as the positive-energy experience, which manifested their “who I am and will be”, and so became it completely.

Then, within the context of human beings and the Mind, where – whatever self within the relationship with the mind/energy have a primary relationship to, that’s become a priority/importance in who self is and will be and so have become – this will manifest self’s ‘superiority’.  Thus, ‘superiority’ is simply to/towards what of self within self, self has a primary relationship to/ most ‘awareness’ within that is existent/become part of the acceptance of ‘who I am’ and allowance of ‘who I will be’ that has become the definition of and as self within and as the Mind.

IN-F-E-RIORITY: With I as the primary existence of the manifested-singularity as Energy, N the continued relationship between Energy and Substance within and as the origins of the relationship between energy and substance, as energy consume substance to transform into energy, that manifest the “I” as the primary existence of Energy itself. And F the awareness separation within and as the manifested-singularity/Mind, with the first line of the F representing the manifested singularity’s/mind’s awareness within and as it highest dimension and the second line of the F representing the manifested singularity’s/mind’s awareness within and as its lowest dimension. Thus, within this existence of INF – is the Energy’s (E) priority (RIORITY) manifested within and as its dimensions of existence/awareness only, that within INFERIORITY, there exist no primary relationship to any particular part/manifestation of and as Energy itself, as it is with Superiority. And thus, the difference in the existence between superiority and inferiority is simply Awareness and a Primary Relationship forming. Where, one will for example exist within and as the context of and as Inferiority within and as that of Self/Mind that self had not developed a primary relationship to/towards and manifested it as part of self’s who I am and will be and have become as self’s ‘Superiority’. Thus, INFERIORITY is essentially the framework of the existence of energy/the mind that consist of/exist as ‘untapped / unused’ energies within and as the dimensions/manifestations of our awareness as energy/the Mind – energies/manifestations of the Mind that we had not yet used/utilized in forming/manifesting a primary relationship to/towards / invested an awareness into/as and manifested into and as our Superiority existence in making it part of our Who I am and Will Be.

This existence of superiority and inferiority we’re walking here is not within the context of the emotional/feeling “experience” of superiority/inferiority – but the Superiority and Inferiority within and as our very existence as manifested-singularities from the beginning and to now as the Mind Consciousness System regarding the superiority and inferiority of what of our relationship to the Mind we have used/manifested our awareness into and as of and as the who I am and will be and so have become (our Superiorities), and what of our relationship to the Mind we have not used/manifested (our Inferiorities). As this existence in our Minds of what exist as superior and inferior within ourselves – is what manifest the relationship and experience of attraction to/towards other human beings; which we will walk in posts to come.

The emotional/feeling relationship to superiority and inferiority evolved from and of this primary existence of ourselves in our Minds in what of ourselves became superior and what of ourselves exist as inferior. Where, the emotional/feeling experience of superiority/inferiority is the indication/reference the Mind use of what within itself is existent within its superior awareness/manifestation and what within itself as the inferior had not yet been utilized to manifest into and as a superior awareness/manifestation. Thus, when for example one ‘feel’ superior – whatever the superior experience is towards within oneself, indicate that that had become part of self’s Ego/existence in the Mind and Physical, and when one for example ‘feel’ inferior that inferiority will be to/towards someone/something as a mirror to/of self that self had not yet manifested within one’s Mind as part of who self is and will be, that self hadn’t yet completely ‘become’ / ‘lived’ within and as the existence of self as the Mind.

We’ll continue more in the next post with having a look at the relationships within and between superiority, inferiority as the Mind and Reactions/Experiences within ourselves – with some practical/tangible examples regarding how this Superior-Inferior existence within ourselves, manifested the nature of attraction and/or resistance within ourselves towards others and so manifested the dimensions/experiences of ‘love and hate’ / ‘like and dislike’ etc. in how we feel / experience ourselves to/towards others, which all originated from/of this original manifestation, acceptance and allowance of and as the superior and inferior relationships/manifestations within ourselves as the Mind.

I commit myself to show – the origins of the existence and experience of attraction and resistance that’s evolved into the vocabulary/definition of love and hate / like and dislike that we experience within our Physical-Mind’s, which originated within and as and from the relationships within ourselves within and between our own Superiorities and Inferiorities within and as our Minds. That, within and behind the existence and experience of love and hate and like and dislike is simply the dynamics of attraction and resistance, originating from within and as one’s own Mind in relation to the manifestation of the relationships of superiorities and inferiorities within ourselves. And thus that love and hate and like and dislike – where the difference between ‘loving someone’ and ‘liking someone’ is simply the velocity/frequency/vibration of the Mind’s attraction experience when/as the Mind sees that it will benefit from a relationship with another Mind/Human Being. And the difference between ‘hating someone’ and ‘disliking someone’ is simply the velocity/frequency/vibration of the Mind’s resistance experience when/as the Mind sees that it cannot/will not benefit from a relationship with another Mind/Human Being and will so initiate/manifest the experience of resistance.  

In this, I commit myself to show how the polarities of love and hate / like and dislike – are Mind-Induced energetic-experiences, existent within and behind them their origins of the Mind’s relationship/existence within and as attraction and resistance, where our very experiences of love and hate / like and dislike, is and never has been an actual physical, practical equal and one decision made by self to experience; but is/always has been controlled, manipulated and influenced by/through the Mind for its own purposes/intentions of evolution as survival. And thus, within this what each human being will face within themselves within this existence – that the love and hate / like and dislike we’ve experienced within ourselves towards others is/has never been self-honest / real; because it’s always been dependent on only the Mind’s evolution as survival. And in this, thus – that no definition/experience of ‘love’, for example is/has been ‘valid’ – as the very origins of the existence of the words/definitions of love is/as been energy as the Mind, that has been utilizing the words, experiences and so controlled behaviour of ‘love’ as ‘attraction’ to evolve itself to survive as Energy and Experience.

I commit myself to show – the reality of the existence of ‘love’ as ‘evol’ / ‘evil’, as mentioned – everything’s in reverse, where the reality of the existence of ‘love’ as ‘attraction’ as the evol/evil it in fact is, is physically proven within and as the manifestation of the ‘law of attraction’ / ‘the secret’, where human beings will participate in the current existence and manifestation of the World-System of Money, hoarding money and resources to only themselves, their own survival and evolution of material possessions / professions within this World, where for them to GET, they TAKE. And within and as how this World System of Money is set-up – for some to have, others will not have, where the Elite/minority in this world is/has been hoarding money and resources to only themselves, taking from billions of human beings starving and struggling in poverty, famine, starvation and war. Where the law of attraction, those participating in it – is equally as one responsible for those starving/struggling in this World-System of Money’s relationship to this Physical Existence; as for them to have, from other’s will be taken. And so it exists within the nature of ‘love’ as ‘attraction’ within ourselves in our Mind’s relationship to the Physical Body, where – for the Mind to have/get its evolution/survival in upgrading itself within/through relationships/sex initiated within/through the experience of attraction, it takes/hoards energy/resources from and of the very Physical Body.

And so, instead of human beings in fact living love as equality and oneness in bringing about a solution for what’s best for all in this physical existence, love in this way in fact being physical, practical and real – human beings in this world system, within for example the law of attraction – only consider/regard their own survival/evolution with money and material possessions. As with relationships/sex – where love is simply just the survival/evolution of the Mind within the interest of having/possessing the / a ‘experience’ – instead of relationships becoming platforms/commitments where individuals really in fact assist and support themselves and each other to learn, grow, expand and develop to be/become individuals with a purpose aligned within this entire world in equality and oneness to be able to contribute to this world and the lives of all of humanity for a better/equal and one life for all.

 

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The Soul of Fear: Day 35

Energy as Authority - Part Five

The Chicken or the Egg??? – Part Six

How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – Part Seventeen

Who I Am as Money – continued

As mentioned in the previous post, we’re walking how we as Blame within ourselves in the beginning, to the evolution of ourselves as the Mind and the creation of ourselves as the World-System of Money within and as the deliberate nature and action of ourselves as spite, excuse and justification: have deliberately ‘suppressed’ the evidence as consequence of our existence as Energy-Authority in deifying ourselves into ‘godliness’ and defying actual Life-Authority into and as ungodliness. Where to this day – we see the consequence of ourselves as Mind and World-System of Energy and Money in our physical-bodies and this physical-existence, but deliberately not see our individual responsibility to our relationship as the Mind to the Physical and the World-System of Money to this physical-existence. To understand how we as Blame – within and as spite, excuse and justification protect/defend our existence/survival as Energy, and deliberately not see/face the consequence we create/manifest in this – first have to understand Fear, Energy as Fear, and how Fear became our Consciousness that has manifested the acceptance and allowance of our existence as Energy-Authority to life/substance as existence as a whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in the beginning – from and of my initial conception of separation to/towards substance/existence-manifest, manifested friction/conflict that consumed substance into negative-energy experience from and of my external formation as manifested-singularity, where the negative-energy experience reverberated/rippled as accumulated into my beingness within my manifested-singularity, which consumed my beingness into and as neutral-energy experience awareness and from here accumulated into and as positive-energy experience. Where, because I conceived as defined my ‘who, what and how I am’ as Energy – my awareness as energy shifted from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive. In this shifting of and as energy-awareness – I separated my awareness as Energy to only exist within and as the positive-energy experience of and as the MORE of me as Energy.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - for me to maintain and sustain my positive-energy experience awareness of and as the MORE of me as my possession/possessing as survival of and as myself as Energy, I continued accepting and allowing my nature and action within and as Blame as deliberate spite, excuse and justification – deifying me as Energy-Authority as ‘life’ – blasphemizing actual Life as substance-manifest in and as my beingness and manifested-singularity as substance-manifest, in the nature and action of me as excusing life-authority for energy-authority as me to assert myself just to survive/continue existing.

I forgive myself, that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how - in this process of shifting my awareness into and as Energy as the negative, neutral and positive – my only purpose/responsibility as Energy came into existence as possessing me as Energy and surviving as Energy within and through the nature and action relationship of me as Energy to/towards substance as Blame within and as deliberate spite, excuse and justification; manifested as deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, manifest the purpose/responsibility of me as Energy – to only possess me as Energy, with the nature of that possession as Survival; within and through the nature and action of and as the entirety of me as Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification. In this, only manifested my responsibility to me as Energy-Survival, and separated me from my responsibility to and as all as me as substance/existence-manifest. In this accepted and allowed separation from and of Responsibility to and as Life/Living as Substance-manifest – to possession and survival of and as me as Energy within and as the nature and action of Blame through spite, excuse and justification: Deifying me as Energy and defying Life as Substance-manifest – I asserted my Authority to such an extent, where I would accept and allow any and all abuse, misuse and manipulation as negative-energy experience friction/conflict for me as Energy to survive and possess me, because the friction/conflict as negative-energy experience is the only way/means/method within and through which I attain/accumulate my positive-energy experience. And therefore, from this moment – my entire existence would exist within the starting-point responsibility and purpose of possession and survival of and as me as Energy within and as the nature and act of me as Blame, through spite, excuse and justification.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow such an existence of me as Energy to/towards Substance/Life-manifest that I reasoned as valid/necessary for me as Energy to possess me and so survive/continue existing, and because I deified me as Energy-Authority into ‘godliness’ and Life-authority as Substance/existence-manifest into ‘ungodliness’ – it made it easier to accept and allow myself to in and as blame, spite, excuse and justification continue with my existence as deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand that what of me as Energy-Authority is maintaining/sustaining this relationship of me to/towards Substance/Life-manifest – to this day as the Mind/Energy-Authority relationship to the Physical-Body, and the World-System of Money’s-Authority relationship to this Physical-Existence: is my starting-point purpose/responsibility of possession and survival as Energy/Mind/Money-Authority that can and does only exist within my assertion of me as Energy/Mind/Money-Authority being ‘godly’ – and the rest of existence, as my physical-body, this physical existence as substance-manifest being ‘ungodly’. In this Godly Deifying of me as Energy-Authority, and Defying of Life-Authority as Substance-manifest into and as Ungodliness, within and as me as Blame as the nature and action of me as spite, excuse and justification - giving me thus the authority over and of physicality/substance-manifest, in deeming it my servant to do with it as I please for my pleasure as consuming substance/physicality to transform into energy for my pursuit of pleasuring me as Energy into and as positive-energy experience awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to – in and as this Energy-Authority relationship to/towards Life-Authority as substance-manifest, manifest that which make me as Energy-Possession and Survival possible: ‘less than me’ / inferior to me. When it’s in fact all in reverse, I as Energy-Authority am in fact less than/inferior Life-Authority as Substance-manifest, because I only exist to the evolution of myself as positive-energy experience, and have to diminish the nature and action of me to Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification to possess me as Energy and to survive as Energy; existing as possession and survival within blame as spite, excuse and justification – instead of existing/living here in and as equality and oneness with and as Life/Substance-manifest within eternal expression and creation.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, how – the moment in my beingness/manifested singularity in my first experience of me as energy-awareness from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive; where in that one position/location within existence – my positive-energy experience awareness started diminishing/lessening to the neutral and to the negative: how this moment was the birth of the substance of me as Energy as Fear. Because in that moment I perceived/believed I ‘lost’ my positive-energy experience awareness, and so had to go ‘find/search/seek’ my positive-energy experience awareness, which I did within and as my movement/motion forward for my reward as Energy within and as the starting-point of me as negative-energy experience that initiated/instigated the movement, and as I moved forward for my reward in and as the starting-point of fear as negative-energy experience; the energy consumed deeper into my beingness, manifested-singularity and existence-manifest; and in that consumption – accumulated my energy-awareness from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive. Thus, my starting point of and as survival as possession of me as Energy as positive-energy experience awareness stood within and as fear within and as the action and nature of me as Blame through deliberate spite, excuse and justification – to continue surviving as possessing me as Energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to throughout time, exist within and as fear of ‘losing my positive-energy experience awareness’ of and as me as the possession and survival of me as Energy-awareness, and in and as this Fear of Loss, accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow my relationship to substance/life-manifest within and as the nature and action of me as Blame through spite, excuse and justification within the starting-point of me as friction/conflict negative-energy experience for me as energy to possess me and survive as me.

Thus, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand that my very nature and action of and as Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification as  deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness: only exist within and as fear. Fear of losing me/my Authority/survival/possession as Energy. And so will, and have throughout time – deliberately accepted and allowed my relationship as energy to substance/life as blame within and as spite, excuse and justification of and as fear, as the godly relationship/authority of energy to the ungodliness of life/substance-manifest – for me as Energy to survive/possess me as Energy.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, that me as Energy apparently being ‘godly/authoritative’ is just a cover-up - when the truth of my existence as Energy is in fact fear; and will continue accepting and allowing the relationship of deliberate consumption and consequence to/towards substance/life-manifest to protect and defend that fear through and as blame within and as spite, excuse and justification to not ‘lose me’ as Energy.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, that – the only Authority I as Energy in fact have, is the authority of possession as the accumulation of me as Energy and power of consumption through deliberate Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification – that is empowered into and as godliness through and as deliberate friction/conflict as negative-energy experience as the existence of me as Energy in protecting and defending my possession/survival of and as Energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to accept and allow me to create myself as Energy as Fear, existing only to possess/survive me as Energy within and as the nature and action of me as blame within and as spite, excuse and justification – serving only my interest/pursuit of happiness as survival/possession of Energy, making my existence/purpose/responsibility only to me, myself and I as energy possession/survival.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand – how, I will thus not, and cannot have any concern/regard/consideration for any other part of me within and as existence as substance-manifest; because the fear as Energy possess me as my possession of and as my survival as Energy to such an extent, that I will continue existing to/towards all and everything and everyone in and as deliberate blame of spite, excuse and justification to protect/defend my survival/possession of and as Energy. And will thus, within this – continue accepting and allowing my nature and action of Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification as deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness, both within myself and the without as myself – to ensure my continued possession/survival as Energy.

We’ll continue in the next post, with how this Fear manifested as a ‘presence’ within our unconscious, subconscious and conscious-mind as Consciousness – that manifested into and as our entire Minds, protecting and defending our action and nature of blame within and as spite, excuse and justification – where this Fear became a force/presence/entity that took control/authority over and of our awareness as Energy; and it is this Fear that suppressed us into not seeing/realising/understanding the consequences of ourselves as Energy-Authority over and of the physical-body and this physical-existence. In this – how, essentially – our beingness became that of fear for survival and possession, and completely programmed our Minds/Consciousness in that starting-point and how we deliberately use Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification to protect and defend that fear. Instead of us standing up for Life/Equality and Oneness – we fall into the protection and defence of Fear as the survival/possession of ourselves as Energy.

I commit myself to – through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, assist and support me in and as my process of transforming my Mind/Consciousness existence of and as fear as survival/possession within and as the nature and action of me as Blame within and as deliberate spite, excuse and justification – into and as a living-being, equal-to and one-with the living-flesh as my human physical body; to birth me as eternal life from and of the physical.

I commit myself to, assist and support myself within and during writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, not accept and allow myself to give-into resistance, postponement, apathy, laziness – as I see/realise/understand that such constructs are in fact protection/defence mechanisms of manipulation within and as the starting-point of fear of Consciousness/the Mind to protect/defend its survival/continued existence for me not to change/transform me from Energy-Survival to Physical-Living of and as equality and oneness with and as the Physical. As this change/transformation would mean the End of Energy, and the Beginning of Life, and energy will fight for its survival at the cost of life/physicality/substance-manifest – but I decide to live and no more accept and allow an inferior/limited existence of survival as Energy, but to stand as life-expression in and as equality and oneness with and as my physical-body and so this physical existence.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application assist and support myself, to re-establish life/physical-authority within and as my physical-body and so this physical-existence, to no more accept and allow myself to be controlled, manipulated and directed by Energy as Consciousness within Fear of/for Survival and Possession. But to in fact live and stand up for and as life/physicality as substance-manifest, so that we can stop – firstly within ourselves and then the without as ourselves - our accepted and allowed natures and actions of blame, within and as spite, excuse and justification of and as fear for possession/survival of and as energy/money; that we’ve accepted and allowed to manipulate, abuse and misuse physicality/life-manifest.

I commit myself, to show, reveal and expose the true nature of Energy/Consciousness/Mind/Money Authority as the fraudulent ‘god’ it in fact is within this existence, that exist only in and as fear, to survive and to possess only itself within and as the deliberate nature and action of Blame as spite, excuse and justification – that has manipulated, abused, and misused the actual god/life as the physical-body and this physical-existence. So that all energy-gods can humbly step down to the equality and oneness of the Physical, and start the process of standing equal-to and one-with physicality as life/substance-manifest, to stop our internal and external consequences of manipulation, abuse and misuse of physicality/life and start the process of in fact birthing and creating Life/Living in ourselves and this existence as ourselves.

  

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