Character Defence Mechanisms: DAY 93
(To read this post, it
must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to
Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is
interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question
of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical
existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the
points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the
next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the
mutli-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as
Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced
with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self
first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many
dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in
previous posts.)
Friendship-Suspicion Character – Part Three
The
First Character-Creation – continued
The
Chicken or the Egg??? – continued
How
the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued
Who
I Am as Money – continued
Now that we understand the why/how we manifest the
‘Suspicion-Character’ to/towards friends in protecting and defending our
Character/Personality, essentially our wants, needs and desires of and as
self-interest that we developed/manifested from and of our Family/those that
have gone before us: we’ll in the next post continue with the Practical Example
of the detail of the Thoughts, Internal Conversations and reactions that
manifest in our Minds in relationship to another human being, to assist/support
self in seeing/realising/understanding when and as the Suspicion-Character
activate, to in this – instead of fortifying self in and as the Mind, to simply
ASK and assess the information within the principle of and as what’s
best for all/equality
and oneness, to stop existing in fear of change, and really learn the
potential of expanding/learning/growing from others as self.
However, before we get into the details of these/such
processes – let’s have a look more at the nature of ourselves within our Minds
as Characters/Personalities
regarding why/how we have become humans that approach all relationships in
fear; always ‘on guard’ – instead of living
here, in equality and oneness as the potential that is existent for, within
and as ourselves if we’d only change and walk through the fear of change…
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to, in equality and oneness with and as Life, energy
and substance, the mind and the physical, from the beginning to now – seen,
realise and understood the nature of
the Thoughts, Backchats/Internal
Conversations and Reactions that manifest within being confronted with a
human being/friend that presented changes/inconsistencies
in their presentation/behaviour/speech, where for example taking a friendship-relationship
between two females, belonging to a group of female friends:
I over an extended period of time in interaction and
participation with my friend/human being, started noticing changes in their
presentation, behaviour and speech – very subtle initially, but eventually
becoming prominent. So, what first started happening with the subtle
changes/inconsistencies – was ACCUMULATING memories/data within my
Unconscious/Physical-Mind platform that is in particular-specific alignment to
the Character/Personality this friend/human being secures. So, for each one of
the Primary Characters we embody/live-out that our Family/Friendship and Partner-relationships
secure, there exist a ‘memory database collection/individualized platform’ that
is particularly-specifically accumulated within and during our particular
Primary-Character/Personality interactions/participations with other human
beings as friends/family/partners. And, when/as our Consciousness
start noticing changes/inconsistencies – dependent on the extent of the
change/inconsistency will depend on the extent of activation of the ‘Suspicion
Character’.
Where, within this instance/example with the friend/human
being – the changes/inconsistencies initially only started subtly over an
extended period of time. So, due to the changes/inconsistencies only
manifesting and being observed/noticed ever so slightly/subtly: the
MEMORIES/MOMENTS with such changes/inconsistencies are accumulated within the
memory-database accumulation platform of and as my particular
Character/Personality that is in alignment to/towards this particular
friend/human being. And will – every time I continue meeting up
with/participating with this friend, become this Character/Personality –
activated the moment I visibly see them/think about them/hear them, and what
will simultaneously come up within this is all the memories/moments of
highlighted changes/inconsistencies I’ve gathered within the
memory-accumulation database of this particular Character/Personality. Thus,
what I as Consciousness/this ‘Suspicion-Character’ is in the process of doing
is accumulating EVIDENCE within me, with each memory/moment where I have
noticed/observed changes/inconsistencies is then manifested within my
Character/Personality platform – consisting of/existing as the noticed/observed
and thus highlighted change/inconsistency, together with my
character/personality subtle reaction of resistance and fear. With these subtle
reactions of resistance/fear still ‘undefined’ with regards to ‘somehow knowing
something is different but not able to put my finger on it’, thus indicating
not enough ‘evidence/memories/moments’ have been accumulated for my
Consciousness/ ‘Suspicion-Character’ to attribute to any extensive potential
threat/change to my Character/Personality due to the changes/inconsistencies being
so subtle. BUT, still within me as this Character/Personality becoming more and
more ‘reserved’ the more and more Evidence is accumulated within my
Character/Personality platform regarding the changes/inconsistencies as they
become more Prominent; where: a moment comes in interaction/participation
within this friend/human being and my Consciousness together with the
Suspicion-Character brought up memories/moments of interaction/participation
with other human beings/in movies/magazines/conversations with parents/others –
where this Character/Personality established such changes/inconsistencies now
ever so prominent in my friend/human being: to be a definitive threat to the
change/constitution of my Character/Personality.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see, realise and understand the various dimensions/layers
existent within and as ourselves as the ‘Suspicion-Character’, where –
dependent on the extent of the changes/inconsistencies, will depend on the
extent to which the ‘Suspicion-Character’ within and as
friendship-relationships will activate, in whether it still remain in the
background until enough evidence in memories is gathered, or whether it will
immediately activate into a possession within our Mind-Physical existence when
the change/inconsistency is prevalent/prominent. Where, when/as the
changes/inconsistencies are initially subtle – we will accumulate the memories
in our Character/Personality platform, to PREPARE for our absolute activation
of the Suspicion-Character together with Consciousness in trying/attempting to
from our MEMORIES determine the why/how/reasons for the change/inconsistency.
And when/as the change/inconsistency is prevalent/prominent – will go into
IMMEDIATE activation of the Suspicion-Character together with Consciousness in
determining the why/how/reasons for the change/inconsistency.
Where, in this – I
commit myself to show how this entire process takes self into a Possession
of protecting/defending a Character/Personality/definition of the Mind, that we
had gone to such extremes/details within and as Consciousness to instil/program
‘protection and defence’ systems, taking much EFFORT and TIME
within our Mind-Physical existence to ensure the survival and continued
existence of OUR DEFINITION only within our Minds of knowledge and information.
Instead of utilizing our living in ourselves, the physical body and this world
in developing an equal and one relationship with ourselves and others,
establishing ways/means for EFFECTIVE, stable relationships through
establishing AGREEMENTS of assisting and support ourselves/each other to reach
our utmost potential within WHO WE ARE within ourselves and our living.
But, instead – approach everything/everyone as a ‘potential
threat within fear’, SPENDING time in the Mind-Physical relationship, mostly
preoccupied within protecting and defending our Characters/Personalities; when
– friendships and relationships have become a domain of ‘pleasure and fear’ /
the most ‘pleasure and fear’; where we simultaneously exist in the pleasure of
securing our Character/Personality, but also in the most fear as we’re ‘MORE
ALERT’ when with friends/relationships to detect any potential threat/change
that can/may influence/affect our Personality/Character.
In this, I commit myself to show – the equal and one
alignment within the principle “As within = So without”, regarding within the
World-System of Money, the extent of MONEY and Resources that is SPENT on artillery,
protection and defence systems – seeing anything/anyone as a potential
threat/change to the character of the Elite/Country, where we have throughout
human civilization, spent more TIME on evolving protection, defence and artillery/war
– developing a World-System of and as Fear, from a starting-point of Fear and
our possession within it, to protect/defend our possessions/definitions in our
within and without.
Instead of from the beginning, having aligned our beingness
with ourselves, our physical body and this physical existence in equality and
oneness, developing a world/humanity
of co-creation/co-existence, we developed/created a humanity divided and
conquered by our own
possessions and fears. The World-System didn’t develop itself/by God – we
the humans did it, within an equal and one mirror of what goes on WITHIN
ourselves as the nature of ourselves that hadn’t changed from the beginning of
our existence. And so we evolved in creating/manifesting systems for survival –
spending internal and external resources of actual physicality, for energy and
money to evolve our protection/defence systems FOR OURSELVES Against
everything/everyone else, spending/wasting so much TIME as PHYSICALITY on
fear/possession – instead of on actually Living/contributing
to a life/world that’s best for all, and so best for self: Becoming soldiers
of and for the Mind – instead of Living Beings of Life.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see,
realise and understand, in equality and oneness with and as Life,
energy and substance, the mind and the physical – from the beginning to now,
how and why – within ALL relationships to/towards all human beings with and
towards which we have particular-specific ‘contracts between
Characters/Personalities’ we secure/protect/defend within and between each
other: will always accumulate significant memories/moments with them, where in
any way my Character/Personality went into a reaction of resistance/fear/uncomfortability/unease,
where the other human being/relationship did not ‘hold up their end of the
contract’ and in any way changed/altered – however subtly/extensive in moments
of interaction/participation that placed my character/personality under
threat/change as moments/instances where I experienced/reacted to them being
unjust/unfair/deliberate to MY character/personality, that I then took
Personally. BUT, didn’t / wouldn’t mentioned anything, only holding-onto such
moments/instances in my Mind, within my Character/Personality ‘memory-database
accumulation’, to when and as needed: use such moments/instances as FUEL
when/as I have an opportunity to equally as one do to them as they have done
unto me, for making me ‘feel the way I did/they apparently made me feel’.
Where – whenever I decided within my Mind, in my
memories/past experiences of our character-relationship that they were
deliberate in their interaction/participation with me; which I essentially
‘took personally’ – I reacted in anger; because they were not keeping their end
of the deal/contract; and so would accumulate such reactive-instances until I
have enough memories, enough energies/reactions to eventually do the same unto
them. Because in such initial moments I did not immediately have a
response/retort back as I did not have enough energy to ‘fight back’, I may
make little snide remarks of spite/anger, but will continue accumulating
energies/memories until I can equally as one get back at them as what they did
to me as the very nature of Consciousness/Personality/Characters we exist as,
that will protect/defend OUR PRECIOUS – no matter whether the cost would be the
friendship/relationship.
And so, I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise
and understand why/how we primarily accumulate such memories/moments, to USE
AGAINST our relationships when/as moments present itself that we can use as an
Artillery to ‘stand in the honour/guarding’ of our Personality/Character when
provoked. Deliberately manifesting friction/conflict
in arguments/fights using the FUEL of such accumulative
memories/reactions/experiences we TOOK PERSONALLY within our
character/personality existence. Where, most of the significant memories are of
those moments we perceived ourselves to be ‘under attack’, and will come-back with
an unexpected/sudden FORCE – speaking those memories/moments to/towards the
human being/relationship within and during the argument/fight to use against
them in justifying why/how we can behave/act to/towards them as we are, as
‘they did the same unto me’. Where we now exist, essentially within deliberate
blame and spite as “do unto others as they do unto you” as the internal and external war we wage
within ourselves and with each other, instead of “do unto others as you’d like
to be done unto you” within the principle of equality and oneness, in
considering/regarding our thoughts, words and deeds and the consequences this
manifest within ourselves and our relationships.
I commit myself to show – why/how it is that, within and
during arguments, with for example friends – we will bring-up, as Consciousness
into our Conscious and Subconscious Mind, all the most prominent memories/past
experiences within this friend/relationship where our Character/Personality
took their Character/Personality ‘personally’ and reacted within emotions/feelings.
Bringing them up – one-by-one-by-one as the accumulated artillery we manifested
in our Character/Personality platform with finally having an opportune moment
to ‘equally get back at them as what they had done unto me’; as what we MUST do
to protect/defend the HONOUR of the Mind/Characters/Personalities.
Where, we will not immediately in moments when we react
to/towards a friend/relationship INVESTIGATE OURSELVES within self-honesty
regarding the reaction, but IMMEDIATELY blame the other/friend/relationship
within our Memories, because remember: the contract between
characters/personalities is: “you secure mine and I secure yours, thus if
either/or in any way place each other’s character/personality in a point of
change/threat – the Other is thus to blame”. Thus, within friendships
within this ‘contract’ – also ensures/secures neither SELF-INVESTIGATE/introspect
our reactions of the Mind within ourselves, cause we BLAME EACH OTHER, when
we’re the only one’s existing within ourselves and thus responsible for our own
experiences. But, in friendships – we can abdicate this responsibility, and
maintain/remain within our characters/personalities by/through blaming each
other for who/how we are within ourselves, and simultaneously within that –
accumulate memories/moments where WE REACTED, and BLAMED THEM for it, so that
within all those instances – we don’t have to face ourselves, but can in an
argument really protect/defend our existence, with spewing out the blame
to/towards them.
And so, I commit myself to show – how and why we accumulate
memories of reactions within ourselves, holding the blame to/towards
others/relationships, so that we don’t have to take responsibility
for WHO WE ARE, but can blame others and in that: protect and defend our
character/personality without having to change.
We’ll in the next post continue with the Suspicion-Character
Part Four – continuing with the practical examples of the details of the
processes that manifest within us is the Mind to/towards
friendship-relationships within the interest of protecting/defending our Minds.
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