Consciousness existing in LIFE, but is not LIFE itself: DAY 501

Please refer to THIS POST for full context and understanding of this Self Forgiveness process as walked by beings from Heaven / The Afterlife through the Portal

Separating oneself from the physical, the physical body, this physical universe – all that is matter: 

NOTE: the self forgiveness here is done in the process us beings walked within and during the opening of The Portal , stretching from 2004 / 2005 to today– sharing the timeline of what made us realise to stand in the principle of equality and oneness and truly understanding the meaning of responsibility and support unto self and all as self.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to, lifetime after lifetime – the moment after crossing over into the afterlife – NOT ONCE thank my physical body, this physical existence for seeing me through each lifetime.

Within this, I forgive myself that I within and throughout each lifetime – every evening before going to rest and every day upon awakening: did not exit and enter each day with deep gratitude and appreciation towards my physical body and this physical existence for its unconditional support, standing, giving, caring in the way of making life / being alive possible.

In fact, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to give my body, this physical existence one iota of credence, honour, respect, love – unconditionally with looking back, throughout ALL my lifetimes, how I seldom ever even had a thought of consideration towards anything physical…

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I, within and throughout each and every single lifetime on this earth – inadvertently blamed my body, this physical existence, ‘life itself’, for my lifetime experiences I’d walk into. Essentially thinking / believing the body / physical / ‘life’ was responsible for my  most challenging, difficult, traumatic events, situations, phases and moments I’d endure. Not ever realizing, seeing and understanding it was ME, MYSELF & I creating and manifesting the lifetime consequence and experiences I’d face: my life a true mirror, a real time living experience reflection of WHO I AM as a being as my total self definition.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to ever see, realise and understand how many varying gods, deities, entities, spiritualities, movements, religions, opinions and beliefs I bowed down to – not realizing, seeing, and understand it was the PHYSICAL, this PHYSICAL EXISTENCE and myself together with all other beings in this EXISTENCE HERE, TOGETHER AS ONE AND AS EQUAL walking our life processes…that I should have been ‘blaming’ myself for being blinded and veiled within my own self separation and inequality for not living with the awareness of what’s real, here: myself, the physical and this physical existence. In this trinity of me and so everyone else equally as me – we all together created and manifested the outcome of the world and the collective and so the personal outcomes of our own and one another’s.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to partake in the audacious thought of “but why didn’t the physical nor this physical existence stand up for me???” – once again, looking and blaming OUT THERE instead of asking the questions we blame others for unto ourselves and asking ourselves “but why didn’t we stand up for ourselves, our awareness, the best of ourselves and why do we still continue not doing so, even in the smallest of moments when it comes to simple thought, emotion, feeling etc. participation???”

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that while I was waiting and expecting the physical, this physical existence to save me, it has already been walking its process of self and life awareness, its self forgiveness and change process on the deep life source level. I have just not been privy to it because of my accepted and allowed participation in self inequality and separation…so while everything in this physical has been walking its process, I haven’t experienced and walked with because process doesn’t exist in inequality and separation, but here with awareness in the physical.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that the physical, this physical existence, ‘life itself’ within and as everything that is PHYSICAL: was the one carrying my being, UNCONDITONALLY supporting my being, holding my being in the HANDS of the Physical as LIFE / God itself…but I was blinded to this fact due to separating me from myself into consciousness. With this one act of separation – I separated me from LIFE itself in the physical, this physical existence and so could not SEE direct, KNOW eternally and FEEL deeply the oneness and equality and in fact share with this existence and how I have always been the master, the creator of me, my life, my experiences, and the consequence I would endure / have to face.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how one such act of self separation / inequality from my being into the Mind Consciousness System as a whole (which is continuing to this day, in every moment I act upon self separation / inequality the instance I accept and allow myself to participate in a thought, emotion, feeling etc. – anything OF the Mind) how one such an act of self separation / inequality without asserting myself, my stand, my HERE when I notice and know, through and through – that I am with awareness accepting and allowing myself to participate in inequality and CHOOSE to not do anything about it when I know I can: is living proof of how we’ve CHOSEN to create and continue existing as consciousness separation and inequality and not with and as LIFE AWARENESS as self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself – throughout all my lifetimes in this world and the next: choose consciousness before standing up for life as awareness as self, because of my own fear…rather remaining in captivity and ‘sticking to the program’ / living in the system than having the guts, courage and tenacity to stand alone, at first, and not give up in the name of and as life until all notice and see: if I can stand up, say NO MORE and CHANGE by CHOOSING LIFE as SELF AWARENESS EVERY MOMENT – so can you.

We’ll continue in the next post with opening the line of self forgiveness of why it is and has been ever so deliberate from each and all of us throughout our lifetimes, choosing to align with consciousness instead of life awareness – also proven by the extent to which we separated ourselves from the physical body, this physical existence and our equal and one responsibility unto ourselves and all.

Character Creation – Review: Day 101

 Featured Artwork by: Kelly Posey

(To read this post, it must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the mutli-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in previous posts.)

Friendship-Suspicion Character – Part Eleven

The First Character-Creation – continued

The Chicken or the Egg??? – continued

How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued

Who I Am as Money – continued

For a moment – let’s Review:

We started off with walking the creation of ourselves as Characters in the Mind and how we do this from and of existent memories within ourselves of our parents, and from external reality present-moments that is manifested as memories within our Minds, and the role that imagination play in how we establish ourselves as Main Characters within the Memories we accumulate/store within our Minds/Physical to so design, program who we are and how/what we live in and as our mind-physical existence and so within this, essentially – create/manifest our lives, our relationships and our experiences within that.

Within this, we started walking the design of the ‘Suspicion-Character’, to within this starting-point understand, see and realise the very nature of the process of Character-Creation in our Minds that comes to define ourselves and our living, regarding why and how it is that we exist in such fear/resistance to/towards each-other/ourselves, why and how we exist as a protection/defence system within our relationships, why and how we align ourselves within particular friendship and eventually partner relationships and within this, why and how we as a humanity have not been able to co-exist in and on this Earth in equality and oneness.

In this, we continued with walking the relationship between Friend A and Friend B, where at the moment we’re in the process of walking the relationship between Friend A and Friend B, with starting with Friend A and how she’s developed/manifested herself into and as a particular Character that aligned her into a particular relationship with Friend B.

We’re walking this process as such, to understand the following points:

How we create ourselves into Characters

How we create/program our Character’s thought patterns, internal conversations, reactions of emotions/feelings and behaviour

How/why we align ourselves into and as particular-specific relationships

How and why we – when/as another human being Change, immediately go into protection, defence within fear of survival, instead of realising another human being as equal-to and one-with ourselves and what we can learn from their change in expanding, growing and developing who we are into and as living beings that contribute to the life of this Earth and Humanity.

Thus, to understand the dynamics within and between relationships of Characters, we first have to walk how Friend A created herself in her Mind, how Friend B created herself in her Mind – to within this, understand the process and consequence of Character creation, and within this – what happens when relationships change, why we as human beings don’t ever in fact change, but approach change with fear/resistance – holding onto, memories/past and never in fact evolving as living beings, but evolving within methods to protect/defend our memories, definitions and past.

This we will walk within this example of Friend A and Friend B with regards to what happens in relationships when one being change, what/why/how is it that the Suspicion Character activates and what’s the processes that manifest in the Mind as the Characters we exist as.

This we’re going to walk with, for example Friend A and Friend B initially existing as Conservative Characters and what happens to the relationship when Friend B change/transform her Conservative Character to the Promiscuous Character and why/how Friend A would so extensively react/fear/resist this change instead of understanding/realising/seeing the change.

To within all of this – change our approach/living to ourselves and each other, where we can transform relationships into platforms of agreements to in fact grow, develop and expand as LIVING BEINGS that contribute to the lives of humanity/this earth as the generation of humans that will emerge, to from self – in fact lead the way/show the way as living examples to the change of this world/humanity as ourselves.

So, now that we have walked Friend A – in her Character-creation from ONE MEMORY within the want, need and desire for and of relationship, where she’s in the process of copying/imitating her Mother’s Conservative Character – from language, to voice-tonality, to emotions/feelings, to thought patterns, internal conversations and behaviours, she’ll accordingly align her life/living to particular friends and eventually partners that stand equal-to and one-with her father, so that she can materialize/manifest that one moment later in her life. This process that we’re walking in detail is how we create Characters from childhood and will have many more examples to come. For the moment, we’re walking the detailed components and process of the construction of Main Characters we come to live-out within and throughout our lives.

In this, now that we have walked how we Sculpt Behaviour from the one being we’re in the process of copying/imitating from childhood, where primarily this process manifest through taking present-moment ‘live pictures’ from our Physical-Mind eyes into our Character’s unconscious-mind platform; accumulating references of emotions/feelings and behaviour from Memories of our parents in our Minds and/or manifesting quantum-integration of behavioural systems into and as our mind-physical existence.

Thus, in and from this post – we’re going to have a look at the detail of how, for example Friend A will develop, create and manifest her Conservative Character’s emotional/feeling body, regarding why/how she would thus have the same reactions to promiscuousness within her thoughts and internal conversations/backchats to/towards promiscuousness as her Mother. So that when/as we come to the moment of Friend A’s relationship with Friend B, with Friend B changing into and as the very Promiscuousness that Friend A created a resistant/fearful relationship to/towards in her Mind within her Conservative-Character: one will be able to see, realise and understand how thought-patterns and internal conversations/backchats as ‘voices of others’, essentially within our Minds that we’ve believed is ‘who we are’, consequentially influence/control our relationship with ourselves and others – with thoughts/backchats some of the primary components/manifestations of the Mind that is limiting/confining our living into our minds.

In this, furthermore – see, realise and understand how our Primary/Main Characters will exist within a polarity of positive-negative, always having an/the positive/friend as the Main/Primary Character and the/a negative/enemy as ‘arch rival’ of our Primary/Main Characters in our Mind and will accordingly, with anyone in our external reality embodying/resembling our enemies/negative in our Minds – will resist them and protect/defend ourselves against them, for essentially the survival of our Characters in our Minds.

So, before we continue with the detail of the creation/manifestation as programming of our Character’s emotional/feeling body, and so also internal conversations/backchat and Thought Patterns, we’ll be walking some self-forgiveness on some of basic, yet multi-dimensional consequences of our relationship to the Mind and our Characters within it.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I have come to exist as Characters in my Mind, as different ‘players’ in this ‘game of life’ as ‘my life’ in this world that I share with this Earth and Humanity and all the beings within it – great and small, but where none of that exist in my awareness within me, as my preoccupation had come to be limited only to my own ‘selves’ in my Mind that keep me busy throughout my life in my Mind, diverting my attention away from me, the physical body and so this physical existence as a whole.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to align my attention and awareness to me, the physical body and so eventually this physical existence, in standing equal-to and one-with me, the physical body and eventually this physical existence as a whole, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application to finally stand with that which I have used/compromised to serve only my ‘selves’ in my Mind; blinding me from seeing/living the/a equal and one solution to me as all as me in and on this Earth and so return to the directive-principle of life/living to the physical, this physical existence to serve/stand with all in equality and oneness so each as all may have an equal and one opportunity to life/living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate my oneness and equality of and as my beingness into and as the Mind/Consciousness that has split me into and as different selves/characters – each with its own ‘agenda’ as secret want, need and desire – spending most of my life in the confines of my Secret Mind, strategizing my ‘plays’ within the various Characters; using/abusing people, the physical and this physical existence to satisfy/saturate only my personal wants, needs and desires; in this – not seeing, realising and understanding my equal and one contribution to the current accepted and allowed state/condition of this world/humanity.

I commit myself to, assist and support me to through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application – identify the characters in my mind, the selves I have split/separated myself into, identify the wants, needs and desires that has consumed my attention/awareness into my Mind, that’s abused/manipulated/compromised my physical, and relationships in my world – to, character by character, align me, my beingness into and as equal and one physical-living with and as my physical body, until I am HERE as me, as the living example that stands to direct myself and so all as myself, in showing/revealing the consequences we’ve created to ourselves and all in our mind-physical relationship, to transform consciousness to life-awareness so that we can finally see, realise and understand our responsibility to ourselves and all as ourselves, take/live that responsibility and stand up for ourselves as for all as ourselves.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed to within and throughout my life, ever question my relationship to me, to other human beings, to this Earth – but automatically accepted and allowed the ‘easy life / excuse’ of ‘only living MY life’, which is ‘only taking care of my selves/characters’ wants, needs and desires’ as MY Mind, never questioning / considering what it is that is making this ‘my life’ in MY Mind tending to MY character’s wants, needs and desires possible as the money I own, the clothes on my body, the food in my belly and the roof over my head – where my only concern is materializing/manifesting my Characters into the Physical; while what is making my life/my characters/selves in my Mind possible to the extent to which I’m living them, tending to them – is at the sacrifice of billions of beings’ lives in humanity and on earth. Thus – how can who I am be real, when it’s dependent on money and the sacrifice of billions of lives; when none of who I am in the characters in my mind would exist if I’d suddenly find myself on the outskirts of this World-System.

I commit myself to show – the extent to which the Characters/selves as definitions is/has become dependent on Money/the World-System at the sacrifice of billions of lives on this Earth/humanity; and thus why/how the definitions of Characters of those with Money is Illusion as it’s only existent at the cost of Reality, and will cease to exist when the Reality-connection as Money/material possessions cease to exist. Thus, I commit myself to through writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application – identify which characters I have defined according to and as Money, where I would accept and allow the World-System to continue existing as-is in its relationship to humanity, just to serve/maintain/secure my definitions/characters in my Mind.

And so I commit myself to establish an equal and one relationship with Money, where Money does not define who I am – but commit myself to walk with the Equal Money System in establish an equal and one World-System. I see, realise and understand that it’s not about severing my relationship to money/this World-system, this is not the solution. The solution must be who I am in my relationship to money, and that correction is practically walked with internally letting go of character-definitions to/towards money within my Mind, as I will only resist an Equal Money System when the current relationship I have with money is serving particular characters/definitions in my mind as personal wants, needs and desires. So the process is to simply change/transform my relationship to money WITHIN ME and commit myself to as I walk in this world-system and working with money, to know within me that I am committing/aligning myself to implementing to bringing forth the awareness of the solution to the current World-System as Money.  

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how – within me existing in the limitation of my various selves/characters; that what/who I am within me is all that I will see as myself, others and this world/reality as myself. At the moment, thus – only seeing/viewing everything/everyone through my characters/mind rooted within my personal wants, needs and desires and will not/cannot see the solution right HERE as me to this world/humanity within and through me simply aligning who/what I am to the physical in equality and oneness to finally see, realise and understand my responsibility to the consequences of humanity/this world I had accepted and allowed within and from my own accepted and allowed consequential relationship between the mind and the physical that have used my body, manipulated my body for resources to animate characters in my Mind that serve only me.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application assist and support me to see beyond the veil of the Mind/Consciousness and so the limitation of the characters in my Mind I have defined me as to in this at the same time establish self/physical awareness and realise my equal and one responsibility to me, as all as me. And so align me/my living to the purpose of establishing a world that is possible if all but realise, see and understand the limitation of the Mind/Consciousness and the evil we’ve become in reversing live for the purpose of only satisfying personal wants, needs and desires for and of the characters in our minds as our creation we’ve become enslaved to and slaves to as we serve these Characters within and throughout our lives, within and as our accepted and allowed abdication of responsibility to ourselves, the physical and all as self within existence.