Friendship Suspicion Character – Part Two: DAY 92
(To read this post, it
must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to
Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is
interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question
of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical
existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the
points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the
next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the
mutli-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as
Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced
with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self
first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many
dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in
previous posts.)
The
First Character-Creation – continued
The
Chicken or the Egg??? – continued
How
the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued
Who
I Am as Money – continued
As mentioned in the previous
post, we’re continuing with Friendship-Suspicion Character Part Two in
walking the details of what thoughts, internal conversations/backchat
arise/manifest within us within and during the Suspicion-Character possession,
how Consciousness bring up a myriad of thoughts and memories we try and
analyse/assess the why/how of the change/inconsistency IN OUR MINDS, instead of
simply ASKING as the extent
of fear we exist in, in protecting and defending our character/personality
that we would not even consider ASKING,
directly as this in itself may prove a potential threat/change to our
characters/personality.
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to, in equality and oneness with
and as Life,
energy and substance, the mind and the physical, from the beginning to now,
seen, realised and understood what processes manifest within my Mind-Physical
existence when and as another human being/friend is ‘under suspicion’ within
and as my Consciousness through and as the activation of and as the
‘Suspicion-Character’. Where, the detail of what manifest within me is:
What the primary purpose is of this ‘Suspicion-Character’ –
as it is the primary
purpose of Consciousness within and as my entire Mind-Physical Existence:
is the protection/defence of my definitions/characters/personalities of and as
me as the Mind, which always in all ways comes first. And so, when and as
within the ‘glass window pane’, my consciousness detect any
changes/inconsistencies within the other human being/friend’s character as
manifested in their behaviour, presentation and speech, an immediate/instant
activation of the ‘Suspicion-Character’ ensue, where Consciousness with that
one memory, with the highlighted inconsistencies/changes transfer itself into
the centre of the Mind/head/brain region and I become an entire possession of
Consciousness, the one Memory and the ‘Suspicion-Character’ that in ‘real time’
through my Physical-Mind Eyes – scan and zone in onto and as the
inconsistencies/changes; with the processes that manifest within me in and as
this possession is as follows:
As my Physical-Mind Eyes as Consciousness zone-in on the
inconsistencies/changes as highlighted within the memory, within and as my
‘Suspicion-Character’ – Consciousness simultaneously from and of that One
Memory manifested in the centre of the Mind/Head/Brain region, will resonate
the information as the highlighted inconsistencies/changes within and
throughout itself, into and as the Unconscious/Physical-Mind in the search for
any similar/same inconsistencies/changes I have been confronted with in the
past, where this Character/Personality that is now under ‘threat of change’,
had faced similar/same instances of inconsistencies/changes in another. To from
there: be able to assess/determine the ‘course of action’ to be taken to
protect/defend the Character/Personality and/or to assess/determine the extent
of the threat/change to/towards the Character/Personality of myself. Where,
while this is happening/manifesting within and as Consciousness and my
Unconscious-Mind – I am in my Conscious and Subconscious-Mind being preoccupied
with Thoughts and Internal-Conversations/Backchat about/of the human being/friend’s
changes/inconsistencies within and as my ‘Suspicion-Character’
physical-behaviour, with my body tensing within the chest, upper-arms, neck and
shoulders area with my tensed eyes and smile as my Thoughts, Internal
Conversations and Reactions are floundering within me, whilst still maintaining
a cordialness in my external physical presentation/behaviour/communication –
‘multi-tasking’ my participation with and as this human being, existing and
functioning within two multi-dimensional worlds at once.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see, realise and understand the nature of the Thoughts,
Internal-Conversations and Backchats that manifest within and as me as the
‘Suspicion-Character’ whilst my Consciousness is from and of the one Memory in
the centre of the Mind, fishing for similar/same memories/instances/past
experiences where this Character/Personality faced similar/same moments with
other human beings. Where, this ‘fishing’ for memories – is for ANY and ALL
memories where this character/personality reacted in fear/resistance as
friction/conflict, which could be from movie-scenes with actors/actresses certain
behaviours, presentation and speech, from images/pictures in magazines where
models were posed in a certain behavioural-instant to/towards which my
character/personality reacted in fear/resistance, from conversations OBSERVED
within a group of people, where this character/personality reacted in
fear/resistance: literally ANY and ALL memories are searched in ANY and ALL
contexts of any instances where the highlighted inconsistencies/changes are
existent in memories that this particular character/personality may/might have
faced.
Which within this, is why/how – as we are in ‘real time’
participating with this human being/friend, our Thoughts can come up with the
most far-out ridiculous conclusions regarding their change/inconsistency in
behaviour/speech/presentation as a various/multitude of memories and
thought-patterns are activated by/through the ‘Suspicion-Character’ in
relationship to Consciousness, to rather fuel the fear and resistance and
friction/conflict relationship within myself to/towards the human being/friend
within my Mind, than simply directly ask about the noticed/prevalent change in
behaviour, presentation/speech. Where an entire internal war is waged within
self, than simply communicating, here – because as mentioned, I would rather protect
and defend my character/personality, make up reasons/why’s in my Mind for the
change/inconsistency, accumulating a myriad of reasons/why’s in fear/resistance
as reaction, than having to go to the point of asking and having to deal-with
‘new knowledge and information’ that I’d have to filter, analyse and assess
regarding whether I will accept/allow this new knowledge and information into
and as my character/personality or whether I will downright resist/deny it to
protect/defend my character/personality without even really
investigating/exploring the new knowledge and information for IN CASE it may
lead to change.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see, realise and understand how, within and as the
activation, manifestation and ‘possession’ of myself within and as the
‘Suspicion-Character’, to/towards another human being/friend’s
inconsistencies/changes; the reason why and how so many Thought-Patterns,
Internal Conversations/backchats and seemingly arbitrary/random memories will
arise within the Secret of my Mind, is because: Consciousness – when and as it
find/allocate any memory/past experience within my Unconscious/Physical-Mind
database where this Character/Personality had faced any similar/same instances of fear/resistance
reaction to/towards anything/anyone’s similar/same inconsistencies/changes:
will bring-up those memories into and as the Conscious-Mind, align it with the
Memory in the centre of the Mind/head/brain region and so ‘test’ whether the
memories containing our character/personality that is currently under threat of
change – had faced any similar/same instances, whether towards actual human
beings, in movie-scenes with actors/actresses, in magazines or observing other
human beings from afar. Thus, any and all thoughts, memories that ‘activate’
within the Mind during and within the Suspicion-Character activation, will be
in an equal and one alignment to the current ‘real time’ participation with the
actual human being/friend and their inconsistencies/changes and our reactions
of fear/resistance to/towards them as this Suspicion-Character hold us within a
state of Fear/Resistance as the ‘frontman’ that stand before our
Character/Personality to protect/defend our definition of who we are of and as
Mind. And so, essentially – the stream of thought-patterns/memories that
manifest/preoccupy my Mind, is Consciousness in the process of ‘testing/cross-referencing’
selected memories/past experiences that is similar/the same to the one I’m facing
in ‘real time’ to attempt/try to formulate a ‘course of action’.
I commit myself to show, thus – with this very manifestation
of the ‘Suspicion-Character’-existing that has become automated in our
Consciousness/Mind-Physical existence, places into question whether any REAL
relationship exist, as we do not immediately go into the point of simply ASKING
or actually communicating within the ACTUAL REAL PHYSICAL REALITY, but will
trust our assumptions/interpretations that manifest within our Conscious and
Subconscious Mind first, as Thought-Patterns and
Internal-Conversations/Backchats together with reactions of emotions/feelings
to come up with reasons and whys: Trusting
MEMORY and experiences, knowledge and information, instead of actual real
physical communication.
Where, we as characters/personalities fear change to such an
extent – that any and all ‘New knowledge and information’ is confronted with
immediate Fear/Resistance, together with a ‘Suspicion-Character’ that activate,
that will firstly cross-reference the ‘New knowledge and information’ against
the framework of our Character/Personality to first analyse/assess the
potential changes that could/may/might manifest in our Character/Personality.
In this, I commit myself to show, that ‘fear of change’ –
cannot exist within and as the full absolute trust and standing of who self is
within the
principle of and as what’s best for all/equality and oneness in an equal
and one within and without living of ‘who I am’. Where self is the TRUST that
stand here with and as self, and will within this – assess all knowledge and
information within the starting-point of what is/will be best for all, and so
for self; assessing knowledge and information with regards to how it can
contribute to the life of all as with mine. And so, thus, where ‘fear of change’
and resistance to ‘new knowledge and information’ can only exist when/as we
have a solidified/cemented character/personality within our Minds, that serves
ONLY ourselves within particular-specific wants, needs and desires. And so will
essentially only meet with new knowledge and information in fear of
change/resistance, when there is in fact a hidden/secret want, need and desire
within and behind that Character/Personality self is protecting/defending that
serve only self’s interests.
Which, within this – is primarily why/how human beings
within their characters/personalities will resist/fear the message/standing of
what’s best for all/equality and oneness, because of fear of losing
personal/individual/self-interested wants, needs and desires that
characters/personalities protect/defend; and that serve only the wants, needs
and desires of the Individual – with no consideration/regard/care for
anything/anyone else but the
secrets we protect and defend in our Minds within and as our
characters/personalities of Mind.
I forgive
myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to, in equality and oneness with and as
Life, energy and substance, the mind and the physical, from the beginning
to now – seen, realised and understood the nature of the Thoughts,
Backchats/Internal Conversations and Reactions that manifest within being
confronted with a human being/friend that presented changes/inconsistencies in
their presentation/behaviour/speech, where for example:
Let’s say the Character/Personality this ‘friend/human
being’ secure, is one of the Primary
Characters I developed, constructed/manifested within and during my
childhood in my relationship with my parents/family/peers; as the origin of the
creation, construction and manifestation of the Primary Characters/Personalities
we physically embody/live-out. Which I then secure within
‘Friendship-Relationships’ to maintain/sustain such Primary
Characters/Personality I created, constructed and manifested within and towards
Family. So that when and as I ‘leave the nest’ of Family, that secured such
Characters/Personalities - I can continue securing such Characters/Personalities
within and as Friendship-Relationships, aligning myself with Friends/Human
Beings that is similar/the same to my Primary Character/Personality.
Thus, essentially – even within and as ‘friendships’, I
‘protect and defend’ my Character/Personality and so thus my Family-network/relationships
origins within and as my Mind-Physical Existence. Even though I create/manifest
Characters/Personalities in opposition/equality to/towards and from
Family/Parents/Peers: I always still solidify/cement the very Family-Construct
within and as my Mind-Physical Existence. Because, even the
Characters/Personalities I create, manifest and construct – either in
deliberate opposition/equality from and of what I copied/imitated from my
external reality/world, and drew from within my Memories of the Unconscious
Mind Platform of my Parents’ Minds/Memories as Characters, both the
opposition/equality Characters/Personalities still originate from my Parents’
Minds/Memories. And so, when and as I align my Characters/Personalities, whether
in opposition/equality to/towards my Parents/Family/Peer to/towards particular
friendship-relationships: I am still always in all ways in my Mind,
cementing/solidifying my ‘who I am’ in my co-dependent/interconnected
relationship to/towards Family/Parents/Peers from and of which I have become a
direct/opposite copy/imitation. And this thus the function of
‘Friendship-Relationships’: solidifying/cementing the copy/imitation/replica I
have become from and of my Parents/Family/Peers, internally and externally – always
ensuring that I remain the same in my Primary Characters/Personality I created,
manifested and constructed from and of my Childhood.
Now that we understand the why/how we manifest the
‘Suspicion-Character’ to/towards friends in protecting and defending our
Character/Personality, essentially our wants, needs and desires of and as
self-interest that we developed/manifested from and of our Family/those that
have gone before us: we’ll in the next post continue with the Practical Example
of the detail of the Thoughts, Internal Conversations and reactions that
manifest in our Minds in relationship to another human being, to assist/support
self in seeing/realising/understanding when and as the Suspicion-Character
activate, to in this – instead of fortifying self in and as the Mind, to simply
ASK and assess the information within the principle of and as what’s best for
all/equality and oneness, to stop existing in fear
of change, and really learn the potential of expanding/learning/growing
from others as self.
I commit myself to show, how – the Primary
Characters/Personality we embody/live-out, that is aligned within and as our
‘friendship-relationships’: is/has been constructed/manifested/created from and
of our Family/Parents/Peers within and during our formative/childhood years.
Where, our friendship-relationships essentially stand as ‘Guards’ to our
Primary Characters/Personalities within ourselves, protecting and defending our
Authorities as Primary Characters/Personalities we developed, constructed and
manifested from and of Parents/Family/Peers in and as our within and without. Where
our Characters/Personalities will accordingly align us into and as
relationships with friends that is the similar/same to our
Characters/Personalities, and so: we continue as the copies/imitations/replicas
of and as Family/Parents/Peers which we cement/solidify within and as
friendships. With the nature of friendships thus only to protect/defend our
definitions of mind to ensure we do not ever in fact really Change, but can
always in all ways remain the same…which is why and how humanity as the nature
of ourselves throughout the generations have never in fact really changed, as
generation after generation after generation, we protect and defend the honour
of the Mind/personalities/characters that had been transferred/copied/imitated
by us from our within and without through and as our Parents/those that have
gone before us, living out the exact same/similar lives as we aligned ourselves
in our Mind-Physical existence, and Friendships and eventually Partners to the
exact same/similar lives of our Parents/Family/Peers. Only existing in the
Honour of the Mind/Sins
of the Fathers as ourselves – within and as complete dishonour to/towards
reality/the physical as Life, with friendships thus in itself – existing only
for the interest of the individual, and in neither instances within friendship
relationships has to do with the totality of who each individual really is.
I commit myself to show, thus – that the starting-point
creation, construction and manifestation of who we are within our within and
without originate from and of our internal and
external relationships to Family/Parents/Peers. And so – the change
required for our very nature/living, has to start with identifying the
characters/personalities we’ve copied/imitated from those that have gone before
us, to assess such characters/personalities within equality and oneness/what’s
best for all, re-align our characters to the
One Character of and as Life in equality and oneness with and as the
Physical as Living Character of what is/will be best for all; so that within
and as this starting-point, we within ourselves stop the existence of the sins
of the fathers, stop living as memories from OTHER’S MIND’S/PAST and in fact
be/become the generation that prepares a world/reality of Life for all in
equality and oneness Here.
And so, I commit myself to –
assist and support me, to stand within and as the principle of and as
what’s best for all/equality and oneness, where within this
standing/starting-point I can walk this World-System/Humanity
and determine what within this world/the mind of me can/will stand within
what’s best for all/equality and oneness, what requires/needs
changing/alteration and/or what simply cannot stand at all. In this, giving up
my personal wants, needs and desires within the Secrets of my Mind that has
lead me to become a deceptive fearful human being,
interpreting and assuming everything/everyone to be a potential threat, just to
protect/defend my Mind/Secrets. So that I
can be/become a living example to in fact LIVE and stop being the EVIL I
have become in placing my Mind first above all life in and as equality and
oneness here in and as this physical existence, and take responsibility for me
as all as me, to finally align us as Living Beings, instead of the inner and
outer Evil that has consumed/possessed this existence as a whole. And so re-reverse myself from Evil, to
Live – to be/become a living example of stopping existing as the
Mind/Memories and in fact Living equality and oneness here, for me as all as
me.
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