The Death of a Loved One and the Death of Me - DAY 493
The Moment of Shock
Shock, Trauma and Stress (Part Fifteen)
I will continue in the
next post with some examples of the difference between perceiving death as loss
/ losing and how to practically change this relationship for yourself with how
to look at the life and death experience as a gift, where another person ADDS
to you / your life instead of you also losing yourself through the death of
another.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the death of a loved one –
to become the death
of a part of me, as I become so overwhelmed with the emotions involved with
someone’s death that has become so much a part of me, where the loss I
experience piercing me so deep – with the pain and hurt that sorrow, sadness
and grief creates being so profound that the wound of such a loss permeates
this physical realm into my very being…so profound the wound of death / loss of
such a someone in my life that it feels like I will never heal as it seems it
is a wound that can never heal…
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to
see, realise and understand how with me accepting and allowing myself to lose
myself in the emotions that come with the loss
of such a someone – a part of me gets lost and can so eventually a part of me ‘dies’
within myself if I accept and allow myself to continue existing in such
overwhelming emotions within myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
lose a part of myself, for a part of ME to die with the loss / death of a loved
one
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see, realise and understand that me losing a part of myself, that this
someone’s death contributed to a death / a loss of a part of me – is not what
they would have wanted; that death / loss should not mean a death / loss of self in an
way – but to as this someone breathed their last breath of life, for self to
breathe in that breath of life as the gifts this someone gave / shared to you
throughout your time spent together
I commit myself to breathe in the life, the lessons, the
gifts that I have learned from those in my world / life that has passed; to not
accept and allow the death of another to become the loss / death of a part of me
as this is not what death should be for ourselves / our lives; but instead to
see how the ENTIRE LIFE of the person contributed to the LIFE that is still to
be walked and experienced before me
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see, realise and understand how a moment of death can overwhelm my Mind to
such an extent with emotions, pulling me into this darkness within myself to where
I cannot anymore see ME, feel ME, live ME – the me that is still HERE, the me
that has a life to be walked before me – and in this darkness, in this
overwhelmingness I
lose sight of the ENTIRE LIFE that we have lived together, walked together
and HOW MUCH of that can contribute to me CREATING me, my life and benefit the future
I still have within this world / reality.
So therefore – I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed Death to suppress LIFE,
the LIFE of me, the LIFE of another and the LIFE we walked and created together
and so I commit myself to not accept and allow myself to do a disservice to me,
to this someone and everything and everyone else in my life and my future by
accepting and allowing death to suppress LIFE, but to focus on LIFE as me, this
someone and how our LIVES can contribute to the future of my life and that of
others
I commit myself to assist
and support myself and those in my life that has passed – to HONOUR them as I
honour myself, my life – by assisting and supporting me to breathe in their
life, their gifts, the lessons I have learned from them to become, be and live my utmost potential, so that their
lives become a gift – instead of their death becoming the loss / the death of a
part of me; of which their lives and all that they were would then have been
for nothing when looking at their relationship to me.
We’ll continue more in the
next post, explaining how the ‘wounds’ we inflict on ourselves through the Mind
will need a process of self healing, to again return to the life within self
that can be lost for a moment because of the shock, trauma and stress endured
during the loss / death of a loved one
