I Want it, and I want it NOW!!!: DAY 183

I Want it, and I want it NOW!!!: DAY 183

 Day 158: Are you my Main Character? by Jl Kenney
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Character Dimensions - FEAR Dimension (Part 2)

Character Dimensions – (Practical Application: Part 20)

The FORCE - continued

The Chicken or the Egg??? – continued

How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued

Who I Am as Money – continued

(To read this post, it must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the multi-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in previous posts.)

We’re in this post continuing with the Self-Forgiveness Statements that we have walked in the Previous Post, having a look at the Nature of our relationship to “I WANT it NOW” and Responsibility that is HERE in our immediate environment/physical world; with the creation/evolution of the Postponement Character as justifying/excusing/validating in important moments/instances, placing our wants, needs, desires and preferences before practical, physical, responsibility here.

FEAR Dimension: Self-Forgiveness (continued)

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to as a child see, realise and understand the concept of time, of space and time, and practical, physical reality responsibility and consequence – as I had primarily in my childhood years lived in the “instant-happy-McDonald’s”-world, where I IMMEDIATELY satisfy MY WANTS, needs and desires and preferences, and then suddenly/unexpectedly facing responsibility/obligation was something that I was interpreting as taking that immediacy of me satisfying my want, need, desire away. As though, if I don’t have my want immediately/instantly in THAT MOMENT, I will never get/have it again – completely locked into and as a perception/idea/belief about time, with not seeing, realising and understanding with not getting my want, need and desire in that moment, doesn’t mean I won’t get it AT ALL, it’s just that responsibility comes first and THEN when/as there’s time to indulge in the want/preference.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I still, now, in moments of facing responsibility/obligation am in essence placing my wants, needs, desires, preferences BEFORE physical, practical reality responsibility that will determine my relationship to me, others and my future in this world. In this, utilizing the Postponement Character/Personality as a means to justify/excuse/validate as essentially “making myself feel better” for placing my wants, needs and desires BEFORE physical, practical-reality responsibility. Where I in/as the Postponement Character/Personality initiate the reactions of fears of missing out/losing out on that SOMETHING ELSE experience/event/relationships if/as I place RESPONSIBILITY in REALITY before MY WANTS, needs, desires / preferences and so accept/allow myself to manipulate myself with Fear in relationship to my wants, instead of remaining/being here, stable in/as breath and getting things done.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I would still, to this day, with and as facing a responsibility/obligation – blame the education systems/teachers/my parents or even the responsibility/obligation in itself; as tacitly implying that it/they are in some way “taking away” MY WANT fulfilments in moments in Time where I know I have to tend to the responsibilities/obligations, but WANT to satisfy my wants, needs and desires FIRST. And so would inadvertently blame education/homework/school/the job/teachers/professors/parents – anything/anyone I can blame/exert my own inner conflict to/towards, as I actually do know what I am accepting and allowing, that I am frustrated/angry with myself in this inner conflict battle between MY WANTS and the responsibility/obligation that is here before me.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame everything/everyone else for ‘taking away’ MY opportunities/time to satisfy/fulfil MY WANTS – instead of me realising, seeing and understanding the self-honesty within this is that: I know what I am accepting and allowing as the inner conflict within me, that I do know the implications/consequence of not tending to my responsibilities/obligations but would rather satisfy/fulfil my wants and so I would try and use blaming others/things to further validate/justify/excuse me satisfying/fulfilling my wants BEFORE tending to the practical, reality responsibilities.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I still from childhood hold onto this relationship / inner conflict with TIME and the HERE of my world/reality within and as the relationship to responsibility/obligation, as I STILL, from childhood – place MY WANTS before life/responsibility/obligation in/as reality, which is essentially in a way tacitly implying that I can’t even be trusted with the responsibility/obligation of my OWN LIFE as I place wants, needs and desires of the MIND as entertainment before my life/living in this world/reality.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how this one point essentially applies to All of Humanity – even that we’ve created an entire Consumerist/Entertainment/Postponement WORLD SYSTEM with its primary prerogative as entertaining, preoccupying the wants, needs and desires of Human Beings, the entire living condition of “I want it, I want it NOW” that Money can BUY. While in/as this process as Human Beings continue satisfying their wants, needs and desires IMMEDIATELY, placing their WANTS before the responsibilities/obligation to humanity and this world as a whole – we’re all facing the consequences, the PHYSICAL PROOF of the consequences of placing wants, desires, needs and preferences BEFORE what is HERE as ourselves in/as this Existence.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I’m not a “child” anymore, from the perspective of me for most of my life trying to hold onto some bit of positivity/happiness/goodness that I WANT that make ME HAPPY with what I do in moments of postponement in my relationship to obligation/responsibilities – not seeing, realising and understanding how whatever happiness/positivity I get from what I do / don’t do as I follow the temptation of the mind in doing that SOMETHING ELSE to entertain myself with than getting to the practical, physical responsibilities of here: is Not Real. When having a look at - that it takes time, resources and MONEY for me to fulfil my wants, needs and desires, dependent on the very World System that is postponing humanity’s responsibility/obligation to existence as a whole. And this physical existence is not a happy, positive, good place in any way whatsoever. And so in this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go so far as creating an alternate “happy place” in my MIND, postponing my process of actually being a + 1 for change in/as this REAL WORLD, with really facing the REALITY of things: I have to stop WANTING positive/happy/good shit that I create in my Mind and instead face the Bad/Negative/Consequential Shit we and the generations before us has accumulated in this real, physical world/reality to in fact establish REAL SOLUTIONS to manifest a Heaven on Earth where there’d be a REAL PHYSICAL BALANACE between preference and responsibility, which I would suggest investigating with/as the proposal of the Equal Money System. So that we stop this acceptance and allowance of postponing, creating alternate mind bubbles trying to grasp at some happiness/positivity at the expense of most of humanity, this earth and the animal kingdom. Instead of each human being for this ONE LIFE for a moment, put aside the MY WANTS and get into “what would be best for ALL” so that we can get this world into an equilibrium/relationship where ALL stand within the balance of preference and responsibility – instead of what it is now as a minority satisfying MY WANTS at the expense of the REST OF HUMANITY and this Physical world. Time to really mature/grow up and get into prioritizing one’s life/living.

FEAR Dimension: Self-Commitments

I commit myself to assist and support me to see, realise and understand how I can no more accept and allow myself to in moments of facing responsibility/obligation, want to satisfy/fulfil MY WANTS before getting to the responsibilities/obligations. As this reflect in/on me and my world that if/as I give into placing MY WANTS before what is best for me/my life in this world/reality – that I cannot be trusted even with my own life in relation to determining importance/priority/responsibility. And so I commit myself to take myself, my life in this world/reality in/as my capable hands and living and get things done in prioritizing me/my time in such a way to ensure that I get to the responsibilities/obligations FIRST in directing me/my world and then afford some time to preference.

I commit myself to assist and support me to no more accept and allow the fear of missing out/losing out on MY WANTS to overpower, determine or control me in moments of facing responsibility/obligation – as I see, realise and understand that I am not in fact losing anything/missing out on anything that is real, that is substantial, that is relevant within the context/comparison of the responsibility/obligation that I am facing in/as that moment. If anything – I am in fact missing out/losing out on me/my life in/as this physical, practical real world and this simply indicate even further that I really need to sort out my definition/prioritizing regarding what Responsibility in fact is in my relationship to myself, my world and my future within it.

I commit myself to assist and support me to really in fact grow up and stop accepting and allowing myself to still act like a child in my relationship to my own life and the responsibilities/obligations within it, stop throwing tantrums in my mind through blaming others for the responsibilities/obligations I require tending to, stop placing MY WANTS as my attempt at creating an alternate reality in my Mind as the illusion of positivity/happiness before REALITY as the PHYSICAL that is Real, and get into the grips of reality/things in this world with seeing, realising and understanding that nothing in this actual, real physical world will/can change unless I stand as a + 1 in getting my priorities straight with seeing, realising and understanding that whatever positivity/happiness I create in my Mind CANNOT be real if it can ONLY EXIST at the sacrifice of humanity, this physical existence with the WANTS that I possess/accumulate/attract in my life through MONEY and money’s relationship to humanity/this existence as a whole.

I commit myself to assist and support me to start practising me prioritizing my responsibilities/obligations and preference, essentially “postponing MY WANTS” for a moment and getting into the immediacy/now/here moment of/as my responsibilities/obligations and real, actual substantial meaningful living in/as this world/reality. In this, essentially it’s time for the generations of human beings, to let go of the Consumerism Brainwashing mentality of “I want it, I want it NOW” and get into and as the practical, equal and one living alignment of/as “what’s best for all”, and this Postponement Character/Personality does not stand within the principle of/as what’s best for all/best for self in the small and the big, as will be more clearly seen when/as we walk the Consequence Dimension of a Character/Personality.

Thus, here, it’s too see, realise and understand the consequences we have individually and collectively accepted and allowed with shifting the balance between only focusing on the Positive/Happiness in the MIND as ENERGY in a relationship to MONEY and material possessions that are linked to a very system that is creating, PHYSICALLY a negative for that positive/happiness in our MINDS to exist, and that for only a minority elite. I mean, this is what must get through to human beings’ awareness – there’s NO WAY that positive/happiness ENERGY in the MIND is going to PHYSICALLY change this world that is being created by a SYSTEM and human beings’ living actions/natures that is currently determining the REALITY of this world. And so, for the minority/elite in this world system to be a + 1 in prioritizing our lives/living to/as what’s best for all, starting with ourselves, within our own lives and then taking it to the big as the standing with/as the Equal Money System. So, kids, time to grow up, time to see consequence/responsibility/obligation, unfortunately have to for a moment let go of the “heaven in the Mind as illusion”, get into the reality of things FIRST and establish a REAL Heaven on Earth with an equal and one balance to preference/responsibility in REALITY, instead of what it is now as a minority through money and luxury creating “happy places” as MY WANTS in the Mind at the cost/expense/sacrifice of this existence as a whole.

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