Character Dimensions - FEAR Dimension (Part 1): DAY 182

Character Dimensions - FEAR Dimension (Part 1): DAY 182

Character Dimensions – (Practical Application: Part 20)

The FORCE - continued

The Chicken or the Egg??? – continued

How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued

Who I Am as Money – continued

(To read this post, it must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the multi-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in previous posts.)

We’re in and from this Post having a walk-through of the CONSEQUENCE and FEAR Dimensions, as well as the REDEFINING Process, with having walked through the Thought, Imagination, Backchat, Reactions and Physical/Behaviour Dimension of the Personality/Character as we have taken the Postponement Character/Personality.

Now, with the FEAR Dimension – here one want to have a walk-through Memories regarding finding any past-experiences/relationships/moments where one’s Postponement Character activated/started, what are the most ‘emphasized’ memories that come up within self when having a look back at when the Postponing within oneself and one’s world started. And what one will find with regards to Personalities – is that the Origin will always be a FEAR, as Personalities are essentially systems/personas of the Mind that protect the self-interest of ENERGY. So, if one have a look at for example the Postponement Character, it protect/validate the Self-Interest of the Mind for that Positive Energy Experience of the SOMETHING ELSE, and in so doing compromise/sabotage self’s relationship to self, the physical body and so one’s world/reality.

Thus, what I had found for example with the Postponement Character/Personality with having a look at the FEAR Dimension, was within childhood, where I was / as a child experienced doing obligations such as washing dishes / cleaning my room as me ‘missing out on’ being able to PLAY outside / HAVE FUN with what I WANT TO DO / Experience within it. And within School as well – having to do Homework when I actually want to go outside and PLAY that the experience of me doing WHAT I WANT TO DO was more FUN than what was told to me to do / that I experienced as being forced to do / obliged to do. All of which primarily comes down to Children not being educated / explained with regards to the Nature of Responsibility, it’s more like “Stop playing / you have to now do this/that”, without explaining to the Child WHY it is important to do the homework/cleaning, what are the implications/consequence of NOT doing it, and already within the early years of the child implement structure in terms of “this is work time and this is play time”. I mean, for years – children essentially just “have fun” with no realistic perspective of reality / the responsibilities within it. So, essentially it would be beneficial to already from a really young age implement a balance between responsibility and play/entertainment.

In this, what I have found is that anything that would thus resemble responsibility/obligation – I would resist and immediately go into the original Fear of “Missing Out” on what I WANT /I WANT TO HAVE. Which within this is essentially the self-interest that develop in children that solely for the primary first years only consider their WANTS in regarding play/fun/the positive energy of experience and then suddenly/unexpectedly exposed to the world of responsibility/obligation and consequence. And so developed the Postponement Character/Personality which will protect/defend/validate what I WANT as an energy experience of SOMETHING ELSE/SOMETHING BETTER and not tend to responsibilities/obligations that will have a physical-reality Consequence. And in this: what we tend to miss then is only going for the I WANT and not seeing, realising and understanding the real consequential implications of me always wanting my WANTS and not considering my relationship to me, to others, to my world and especially my Future.

So, within the FEAR Dimension – this may initially be more difficult to identify, equally as with the THOUGHT Dimension. Because, one really have to look at what one is in fact doing in the act of the Personality/Character – meaning, breaking it down to the Basics – with having a look at the Postponement Character/Personality: It’s that one go into the Nature of WHAT I WANT, instead of what is HERE as Responsibility within considering self and all other’s involved within self and self’s World.

But, Primarily, the Framework one can Utilize here – is to have a look at what Self-Interest the Personality/Character protect/defend. As we Identified here, the Self-Interest is DOING SOMETHING ELSE, essentially WHAT I WANT, and have a look at where within one’s life one Developed a FEAR as and for the Character/Personality, such as what we Identified here with the Postponement Character/Personality – Fearing ‘Missing Out’ / ‘Fear of losing MY WANT’ / ‘Fear of Losing an Energy Experience’ etc.

So, what we suggest here with the THOUGHT Dimension and FEAR Dimension identification, if/as one get stuck in any Way and/or can’t initially identify them – to Visit the Desteni Forums Here, and we’ll assist/support with Guiding you through the Process of how to Identify the THOUGHT and FEAR Dimensions more practically within the context of the Personality/Character that you’re facing/walking.

 Once the FEAR Dimension is Identified, one assist/support self with the Process of Writing, Self-Forgiveness and Self-Commitments:

FEAR Dimension: Writing

Here, we’ll utilize the example of realising the Childhood Fear of having faced a Responsibility/Obligation of Homework/Dishes/Cleaning the room, as for example:

I realised that as a Child, with facing responsibilities/obligations such as homework/cleaning the room/washing dishes that I would experience a Fear, and within that a resistance as all I could think about was me WANTING to play/have fun/go outside and that me having to tend to a responsibility/obligation would “take that away from me”, losing MY WANT. And so see, realise and understand how I had throughout my Life developed this Postponement Character, because through Postponement – I could have MORE of MY WANT, and regarding my responsibilities/obligations, can give that 10% attention or no attention at all, that I would even go to the extent of not doing them at all and sabotage/compromise many opportunities throughout my life without a ‘care’ because my ‘care’ had been focussed on the attention of MY WANTS, even at the cost/expense of my life in this World/Reality.

FEAR Dimension: Self-Forgiveness

I Forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, as a Child and up until now – not understand my relationship to obligation/responsibility as I had initially come into the World and for a couple of years experienced only my relationship to myself, developing essentially a primary personality of who I am to/towards what I experienced ‘positively’, and then when/as I was introduced to obligation/responsibility – I did not have a mechanism/process in my Mind/myself in how to establish a relationship to obligation/responsibility as I had already vested within me a who I am to/towards what I ENJOY, and obligation/responsibility and the nature of it did not FIT into and as my Mind’s relationship/personality of Fun/Enjoyment/Play.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how, as a Child, I remember facing a moment of the process of cleaning my room / washing dishes / doing homework and I REALLY did not WANT to do it. Because I immediately within me had an imagination/image of me playing outside / doing SOMETHING ELSE and it’s like that moment in reality of facing the responsibility/obligation hit me with the realisation that: I can’t go and do MY WANT, I have to/tend to the Responsibility/Obligation and that I would be MISSING OUT on what I usually could do “freely”.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that coming into the world and living in the world for a moment in my own “personal heaven”, and not being structurally introduced to obligation/responsibility, that – when/as I was suddenly/unexpectedly introduced to obligation/responsibility especially within the ways it was approached as being “told to do it” / “how it was enforced”, that I would divert my reaction to/towards the parent/peer/teacher as “blaming them for taking away MY WANT” / “Losing MY WANT” as going out to play/doing that SOMETHING ELSE. Not seeing, realising and understanding that my reaction to the parent/peer/teacher is in fact originating from an inner-conflict within me with Not Understanding/Comprehending the WHY and the Consequence/Responsibility of me having to tend to the responsibilities/obligations, because all that I am understanding as a Child is MY WANTS, MY EXPERIENCES and facing this responsibility/obligation was like, MY WANTS/MY EXPERIENCES being taken away from me and that it’s the parent/peer/teacher’s “Fault”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, as a Child, interpret responsibility/obligation as an action/process of it “taking away” / “me losing” MY WANTS and MY EXPERIENCES that I LIKE, without seeing, realising, understanding and comprehending that I am living in this world with other human beings, that I am living in this world where my actions, responsibilities and obligations will determine the nature of my relationships with others, and also my future in this World. And so, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to consider the practical implications/consequence and responsibility with doing/tending to obligations IN REALITY, but only vested my interest in MY WANTS/MY EXPERIENCES.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to as a child, see, realise and understand that obligations/responsibilities was not taking anything away from me / that I wasn’t ‘losing’ anything, that – yes, in that moment / for the moment it was me having to place MY WANT on hold for a moment or even to the next day, but as a Child I created a relationship with TIME as NOW, and so in that NOW moment of having to tend to a responsibility/obligation instead of doing MY WANT, it was interpreted in the context of me “missing out” / “losing” MY WANT.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I Still – from childhood up to now, accept and allow myself to react in aversion/resistance to responsibility/obligation within and as the Fear of me missing out / me not getting/having WHAT I WANT, and so in this, accepted and allowed such a relationship to be/become a living condition, even into and as the Evolution of the Postponement Character/Personality, to justify/excuse/validate me getting/having MY WANTS and not caring/considering for the consequences I am in fact accumulating in me and my world/relationships with not seeing, realising and understanding the implications of responsibility/consequence, that extend beyond only ‘My Wants, needs and desires’.

We will in the next post continue with the Self Forgiveness and Self Commitment Statements in having a look at also the Dimensions of WANT and how we’ve individually and collectively always placed our Wants before responsibility/consideration of others in our worlds, essentially Humanity still Children that hasn’t matured with not being able to consider/regard others as self and our responsibility in this world, not only to ourselves but EVERYONE as ourselves.

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