Suicide Paranoia – 10: Understanding, Stopping and Changing Paranoia (Part Two) DAY 396

Now that we have looked at the practical application of Breathing, in moments when/as the Suicide Paranoia takes over – a few Points to consider:

One have to understand that ‘losing touch’ with Reality, does not come without its consequences – both with one’s Self/Mind, Physical Body and also life/living experiences. I mean, as a Humanity as a whole – we can visibly See consequence in Nature, the Earth, Animals, Environment and Human-Human relationships with ‘losing touch with Reality, what’s Real’ that there’s no consideration, regard, respect – not even in our own Minds, let alone in Physical Reality. So, within and as this process of aligning one’s Self/Awareness to/as the Physical Body - will expand one’s Awareness more to/as the Life that’s always been here that’s been missed due to our Separation from/of Reality.

Therefore, consequence in relation to Paranoia: if/as one do find oneself, at this stage, thinking about and imagining Suicide where it’s become quite possessive in the Mind/Self and one’s relationship to the external world/reality keep-on finding things to justify/excuse/validate the Suicide Paranoia in the Mind: we suggest seeing a Psychologist/Psychiatrist as they will assist/support with stabilizing the Mind more into and as Reality, which will within this assist/support with additionally utilizing writing, forgiveness, commitments and corrective application to stabilize one’s Awareness in relationship to the Mind. See, if/as the Paranoia ‘takes over’ – it ‘takes over’ the entire Mind, your Awareness and so everything you experience and see. If/as the Paranoia is still in its ‘infancy’ – one’s “Awareness/Self” within it all is still “there”, observing/watching and participating as the Thoughts/Imaginations every now and then or even once in a blue moon ‘cross the Mind’ and is so not yet “Possessed” and therefore have the Opportunity to stand up and Change. But, when the Awareness, Mind and Body is completely possessed, you have reached a stage where it’s too late to ‘help yourself’ and so require the additional support/assistance from a Psychologist/Psychiatrist to stabilize your Awareness/Self within and as the Mind back into and as Reality.

Also, what has to be seen, realised and understood regarding Suicide Paranoia is that: it’s not the situations/people in the external world/environment that’s the main ‘problem’, and many attempt/try/act out their suicide paranoia in a bid to “escape” / run / get away from what they feel, in their Minds, to be the cause/reason for what lead them / what is leading them to attempt Suicide and/or have Suicidal Tendencies. When, what must be seen, realised and understood with regards to the Mind is that: it can create a Possession to such an Extent that it REALLY makes you believe that ONLY everything/everyone else externally is the “problem”, the Mind like brings the external INTO ITSELF and so you’re only, absolutely, focussed on the “without” – inside and out, and do not consider your RELATIONSHIP to all within and as your own Mind. So, one of the most important things to see, realise and understand within this is, that what also contribute to Suicide Paranoia is- how the mind brings the external to the internal and so you get lost within and as the blame to/towards something and someone else, and in that Possession, cannot see “yourself” and your relationship to all, which then leads to the experience of “only that something/someone and your initial experience/reaction/relationship existing” and not seeing anything, such as a Solution beyond it. And how the MEMORY IN THE PAST can hold you captive, the demon haunting you in your Paranormal Reality in the Mind/Consciousness, and so you time-loop in Memory, even forgetting the present, the here, the moment, the breath and YOURSELF with the extent to which we can accept and allow a past MEMORY in our own MINDS to keep us so enslaved, that we do not consider solutions, to the moment, the present, the here and the fact that: “physically, I am not in this moment in that past memory, it’s not here, it’s done – so therefore, I in and as my here have the ability to simply investigate the memory, look at the relationship to it and CHANGE ME within and as it all.” Thus, see here how we can, in our Minds, have a memory / memories have more Power over/of who we are, physically here, in and as every moment of Breath. That’s the Moment where the “possessed of Paranoia” starts, when a Memory in the Mind has more power than one’s self awareness/commonsense in seeing, realising and understanding that self in fact have the power/ability to change one’s relationship to and as a Memory in the Mind.

Therefore, what we’re going to show in the posts to come – is how to assist and support oneself within one’s mind to assess/investigate memories/events/relationships and change one’s relationship to them within oneself, which, fascinatingly enough, one will through this actually then see things differently in one’s world/reality with seeing, realising and understanding how the mind can possess us to see things in ONE WAY, when, as we stand back for a moment and assess it all, there are actually a lot more ways to approach a situation/relationship/point.

Then to consider as well, and this one can reference in the Life Review Series walked in EQAFE is that: you, your awareness, never cease to exist. I mean, it’s definitely not the BODY that wants to end / cease its existence, it’s a Living, Breathing organism, unconditionally giving you the opportunity for Life/Living and even in the hereafter/afterlife, all the problems/experiences in this life still transfers with you – even more. There is no escape from what we face in this life, not here and neither in the hereafter. Therefore, we suggest – to start focusing on Breath, the Physical Body, the Life in the process of Breathing in and Breathing out – the MANY beings/organism in and as the Body gifting you life/living and to start considering the existence of MORE than just oneself in the Mind.

So therefore, we’ll in the next post have a look at practical application processes, both for those that haven’t yet been introduced to writing, forgiveness and corrective application and for those who have already walked the Desteni tools for quite some time. So that we no more accept and allow the victimization to/towards our world/reality and what we face/experience, but that we align ourselves into and as SOLUTIONS, instead of giving up / giving in on ourselves and so all as ourselves within and as this world/reality.

Suicide Paranoia – 9: Understanding, Stopping and Changing Paranoia DAY 395

 Who We Are is the Simplicity of the Moment as Breath.
2012 - New 21-Day Breathing-Challenge http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tuGhVZeIu2M

What has to be realised within and as this Process of the Creation of Paranoia, such as for example Suicide Paranoia: is how we actually, in fact, Create our OWN Paranoia in our OWN Minds from our OWN Reactions towards our OWN Memories, that then evolve into Imagination and Self-Talk/Thinking. That, this entire process unfolds in and as our Consciousness, simply because the creation of energy, the creation of memories and the relationship between energy and memories and Self’s Awareness within it all – is not Understood.

The primary problem within the creation of Paranoia, is that “the Creator becomes the Created”. This means that: the Paranoia that is created, possess the Mind and self’s awareness to such an extent, that it programs into the Mind, Self and the Body and so lead to ‘acting out / behaving / living’ the Paranoia created in and as the Mind; and so we live-out, the Creator as the Creation – who/what we program ourselves to be and become. Therefore, within the Process of Understanding, Stopping and Changing Suicide Paranoia is: the development of Self’s AWARENESS within the realisation that self can stop and change one’s relationship to emotion, memories, imagination and thought. Not accepting and allowing self to program self through ENERGY, this only leads to creations in CONSCIOUSNESS, the paranormal reality in the MIND that programs self into PARANOIA. But to align self’s awareness into and as the Physical Body, becoming the LIVING WORD to in fact create self into and as a Real Living Being in and as this Real Physical STABLE Reality.

So, this is an important point to realise as we have illustrated in what we have walked this far: the Paranoia creation process starts with ENERGY. The moment self’s awareness shifts into energy, energy experiences/reactions (emotions/feelings): you’re shifting and so separating yourself out of/from REALITY into the process of creating Paranoia in and as the Mind/Consciousness, because the Mind/Consciousness exists and is dependent on ENERGY, the very emotional/feeling reactions one experience. The moment that energy is suppressed, and it accumulates in one’s Mind/Body – this gives Consciousness the resource to start CREATING with it, which is where the memories and the self-talk/imagination starts evolving and one’s Self/Awareness is in the ‘background’, participating in it all, yet observing/watching it all Unfold; never realising that you in/as you’re Awareness: have the ability to Stop and Change Self’s Relationship within and as it all, releasing self from the Paranoid Paranormal Reality of Consciousness, and Stabilizing self in and as this Real, Physical Reality.

To be noted here, is that: when/as you’re in an overwhelming state of Energy/Emotional and/or Feeling Experiences – have you ever Tried in and as such energy-possession, to be stable, to be BREATHING, to be HERE? You’ll find it to be impossible as a proven Evidence of the extent to which emotional/feeling energy can separate you from REALITY, from something as simple as BREATH that is Physical, that is Real. So therefore, a Pillar of Support within this Process out of the Paranoia of Consciousness into and as Physical Reality: is and will be BREATH. Primarily, in the beginning of one’s process – the Paranoia in the Mind, the thoughts, imaginations, self-talk can become so Overwhelming that one even “forget” to be here with Breath, Breathing, that you even “forget” your own Physical Body RIGHT HERE with and as you giving/gifting you LIFE with and as each Living Breath. One do not see, realise and understand that we’ve never really in fact been here, equal and one with our own Breaths, our own Physical Bodies – as we’re constantly and continuously preoccupied in and as Consciousness paranoia and/or in the process of creating more Paranoia in our seemingly ‘infinite’ Paranormal Realms of/as the Mind/Consciousness.

So, a practical application Process to start off with and Practise is: Breathing when and as you find the thoughts, imaginations, reactions, self-talk in the mind becomes Overwhelming, you “slow yourself down in and as Breath”, you Breathe in and you Breathe out, so that it’s just you, your Awareness with and as your Breathing in and as your Body. Within this, you will find a MOST FASCINATING thing: the thoughts, imaginations, energies, self-talk will start slowing down and eventually disappear! Because, your Awareness/Self’s ATTENTION is no more being aligned with and as Consciousness Paranoia in the Mind (where we have discussed previously that: whatever you give ATTENTION to in the Mind, you substantiate even MORE), but your Awareness now move into and as what’s REAL, what’s STABLE, which is the Body – through and as Breath. And with you as your Self/Awareness stabilizing in and as Breath and the Physical attention, one move out of/from the Paranoia of Consciousness into and as Reality.

Obviously to understand that: Breathing is not THE Solution, it is an assistance and support in moments when and as you find you travelled up into the hereafter/paranormal reality of Consciousness into and as Paranoia, and to stabilize/ground oneself back into and as Reality. THE Solution is SELF and one’s relationship/self-change to/as self, the mind and the body.

In the next post we’ll have a look at the Practical Process through Writing, Forgiveness and Commitments to walk to assist and support oneself out of/from the Consciousness Paranoia of Suicide into and as Practical Living of Self, Here.

Suicide Paranoia – 8: Giving-up on Self and Giving-in to Paranoia DAY 394

Continuing with the process of Thought-development in relation to Suicide Paranoia, to understand that: as we have illustrated in the previous post, the process unfolds from energy, to memories, to imagination and self-talk, which is thinking; therefore, the human being Internalize reality into themselves, into energy, and then re-produce memories of actual reality WITHIN THE ENERGY THAT THEY REACTED. This means, that – if/as the individual reacted, emotionally, to/as other human beings’ words and behaviour, such as being belittled, over an extended period of time, those memories are internalized into and as the Mind and is ‘tainted’ with and as the Energy, the emotional energy’ that the human being experienced in and as reality, and is now being replayed, recreated in and as the memory / memories in the Mind.

So, it’s like fascinating that: the energy, such as belittlement, for example, permeate and infiltrate the memory and then in the memory and as the energy – the being then starts evolving the memory and the energy IN THEIR OWN MINDS even more, it’s like the energy itself, the memory/memories themselves “comes alive in the Mind” and so the being will replay the memory/memories over and over and over again and as we said/explained: creates a complete paranormal reality in their Minds, of themselves, of others, of conversations, of reactions/experiences which then in turn becomes a possession, into a paranoia where the Individual will then start seeing Reality/Others through the eyes of their Reactions/Memories/Paranoia that they created in the Mind and soon enough, EVERYTHING and EVERYONE starts looking like/feeling/saying/behaving according to how they created others to be in their own Minds.

Let’s say a being is exposed to bullying over an extended period of time. What their Consciousness/Mind memorizes are the moments/instances where they were verbally being bullied. Such things makes an extensive impact on an individual’s self/mind and experience/living, mostly because they don’t know how to deal with such bullies and also don’t know how to deal with the reactions they experience within themselves. Then, all those moments of bullying becomes accumulated memories in the person’s Mind, where they replay the events over and over and over again, where it’s like – with it being replayed in the mind, it’s experienced EXACTLY the same as though it is happening in reality / ‘real life’. What is also interesting regarding us Humans, is how we tend to believe MORE what OTHERS say about ourselves, than us standing by a decision/living statement of/as who we are – and so, because of this, the individual that is being bullied, with replaying the memories over and over and over again, with the memories/moments having such energetic/emotional impact on themselves, starts considering that What OTHERS are saying about them “must be true”. This in itself is quite a shock to the ‘Self’, because in a way – there exist the awareness of the fact that, Self is accepting/allowing others to define self, that Self is ‘giving into THEM and giving up on SELF’. So, it’s fascinating that the point of ‘giving up / giving in’ already in fact happen in the Mind-Self relationship, where Self accept and allow what others, in the memories of one’s Mind say about self, such as being useless/a loser/not worth it/not going to make it/ugly/fat/ etc.  to give up/give in and so let others Define Self in one’s own MIND. Other’s voices in the head, in/as memories Haunting one’s self / one’s Mind. And, when that happens, it is also, in a way, already giving up one’s life – we all in some way have committed a form of suicide in the sense of our “Self”, our “Who We Are”, our “What we Stand for and as” and have compromised that “for the sake of others”, to fit in, to be popular, to be a consumer, to have a social network, to be Noticed – but all in the sense of EGO, for Money, for Survival – preserving Self-Interest, and so-doing, ending THE Life, THE Self within the principle of/as equality and oneness, what’s best for all, so we all gave up/gave in on Life-itself for the sake of Self Interest, Ego.

Therefore, when the Human Being, in their Minds start defining themselves MORE to the voices of others, than hearing their own commonsense awareness: the relationship to/as Paranoia becomes more extreme, because in the memories of the voices of others, they lose their own Voice, their own Awareness, their own Stand and Paranoia takes over, the Memories takes over, the Voices of others takes over, their Own Thoughts turn against them as they, themselves, then start believing that what others are saying about them are real/true/in fact so. There is the saying “there can Only be One” – we’re either going to develop our SELF Awareness to stand and Live, or we create our own Paranoia, the Paranormal Reality in Consciousness that then possess our Self, our Awareness; I mean why not Consider what one can Create within and as SELF Awareness and one’s LIVING in and as this REAL WORLD than accepting and allowing Self to Create your own Paranoid Possessions in/as Consciousness that will only lead to unnecessary consequence and regret.

We’ll continue more in the Next Post