Suicide Paranoia – 7: The Creation Process of Suicide Paranoia (Thought Dimension Part 2) 

DAY 393

Here we’re going to walk the/a practical example to illustrate how energy transforms into thoughts/self talk in the Mind.

Because Human Beings do not Understand how emotional/feeling reactions/energies are created within our own Mind-Physical Relationship, the immediate assumption that exists is that: whomsoever “caused” the reaction/experience within our Mind “is to Blame”. Not realising that, it wasn’t the other person “personally”, but rather what they represented within their words, behaviours, tonalities,  movements, intentions etc. that activated memories and/or knowledge and information to which we reacted to in and as our own Minds. Thus, our reactions was  not so much towards the other person, personally, but more towards what memories, knowledge, information, views, perceptions, ideas and beliefs we hold / define ourselves as within our own Minds. Thus, other parts/pieces of what other humans represent acts like “activations for reactions” on ALL levels of our Minds – the conscious, subconscious, unconscious, quantum mind, quantum physical and physical body itself.

So, let’s walk an example of an individual that had been exposed, throughout their lives, to such moments of reactions within themselves, based on other people’s words, behaviours. So, with all human beings being exposed to reactions in their relationship to others, why do only some go to the extent of suicide paranoia and/or to the extent of actually acting upon it? This has much to do with emotional/feeling ‘sensitivity’. Meaning, where individuals are more ‘sensitive’ to reactions they experience in their Minds/Bodies and so reactions are then more ‘accentuated / intense’ than it would be in others. It’s fascinating within this as well, where – there will be one person with two human beings standing in front of them and say the same thing in the same tonality/behaviour to both of them, but it will affect each one of the two human beings standing in front of them differently. The one, being more sensitive to their own internal reactions, would take it more hard than the other who would be more easily to ‘move the reactions in their mind away’ / suppress it or vent it/exert it in some way or another. Thus, this ‘sensitivity’ of such human beings causes the individual to Internalize their reactions/experiences MORE. Internalize meaning, they would not have any ‘protection/defence’ mechanisms and/or exertion/venting tactics – but would like “take the punches” of words/tonalities/behaviour/body language and “sponge it up within and as themselves”. A Human Being that is Not ‘sensitive’, would have ways/means/methods to ‘deal with’ the reactions in their Minds/their relationships/worlds, the Human Being that is sensitive would not have such ways/means/methods and just internalize it all, sponge it all up, keep it to themselves, within themselves – with no-one/nothing/no support and assistance to direct their own reactions in some way or another. All of this obviously just showing/indicating also how uneducated human beings are within the simple field of something such as Communication and how your words, behaviours, tonalities affect/influence human beings differently/uniquely.

So, with this – the human being then is exposed to reactions in their Mind that within their life start accumulating. Now, they don’t have any other context for their reactions/experiences, but in relation to that something/someone that ‘caused it’. And so, such a human being would ‘take the punches, sponge up the reactions/experience” and then start replaying the memory of what happened within and as the Energy that they experienced it. I mean, imagine, you’re a child, growing up, there’s no Education with regards to our mental processes of thinking, emotions, feelings, imagination and how it works and so the only “relationship” the human being forms eventually with the reaction is “who/what caused it externally”, not realising how the reactions/experiences were caused in their own Mind simply because of not understanding how to effectively deal with one’s own reactions and/or other people’s words and behaviours.

So, what starts happening in the Mind is: the individual then replays memories, events, instances, moments in their Mind – over and over and over again, which from here is where the Process of thinking/self-talk starts emerging. This is also how the Mind of a child develops: starts with energy/energy experiences/reactions, then memories that imprints into themselves from their external reality, from where they reference memories to start forming their relationships, then from memories emerge Imaginations, from where they start ‘changing reality according to their individuality’, and then from memories comes thinking/self-talk. The same happens with the Suicide Paranoia process: the individual, in their energy reactions, starts looking at memories and from those memories starts “activating their imagination”. Where they over and over and over again look at the moments/instances that affected them deeply, and then they TALK about it in their own Minds, start THINKING about themselves, others, their experience and so they are catapulted into a Reality in their Mind where they can completely change what really happened in reality, and even change the way they are, look like, see themselves, experience themselves and so starts the process of losing touch with themselves and so reality and start BELIEVING THEIR MIND more, the memories, the imagination, the self talk and the thinking…until it possess them completely and eventually leading to making the biggest mistake of/as their existence and only when it’s too late, after death, realising what they had done, accepted and allowed in believing illusion in their Mind, more than the reality of their Awareness in every moment of breath.

We’ll continue more in the next post

Suicide Paranoia – 6: The Creation Process of Suicide Paranoia (Thought Dimension) DAY 392

For context from previous posts:

In the next post we will explain how the energy evolves into thoughts and imagination, and how we then enter into a vicious cycle in our own Minds, here the energy creates itself into thoughts/imagination and then we participate in the energy, thoughts and imagination – empowering/substantiating the energy/reaction/experience even more, validating the paranoia and creating the paranoia – in so doing, losing more and more touch with ourselves, reality, the physical and life. And so will within this continue with how to assist/support self from/of the Paranoia of/as Suicide in the Mind/Consciousness, to and as Self Aware Living in and as the Physical.

So, the question within this all is – WHY does suicide, or even the OPTION or CONSIDERATION of suicide exist within and as humanity / human consciousness? I mean, obviously, we can ask this question about A LOT of things, or almost EVERYTHING, from murder, abuse, violence, harm etc. – why does such things even exist in our consciousness/minds in any way whatsoever? I mean, obviously many would say it’s just “human nature” – but, within the processes we walk in Desteni, EQAFE Series – we explain in detail why and how such ‘natures’ evolved within human consciousness and that it’s only continuing to exist as-is by our acceptance and allowance not taking responsibility for and changing our Natures.

We’re in this Post / Posts focusing on Suicide – primarily manifesting as a complete internal “giving up and giving in” to/towards a particular problem/situation/relationship/circumstance/experience. But, still – the question remains: Why are we not from childhood educated how to face problems, ALWAYS analyse/assess moments constructively, with commonsense, and accordingly lay out all possible/probable avenues/ways/means/methods possible to assist and support self out of a problem/dilemma? Why do we not have available resources, help, guidance, assistance and support for human beings that face life/living conditions in relation to for example money, a job, health etc. in which they find themselves in circumstances that are, from a survival perspective – “impossible”. I mean, how many suicides have been due to life/living/survival conditions/circumstances due to how the majority of humanity is accepting and allowing this current World System/Money System to continue – you know, human beings that are left with NOTHING, no job, no money, no friends/family, everywhere they walk with pleading eyes for help, just for food, for something to continue in/as the next breath and yet – there’s no-one, there’s nothing...Aren’t we all then responsible for such an Individual’s state of Mind, created from/of this very world system/money system that we’re accepting and allowing to create immeasurable consequence in human’s lives, the earth, nature, the animal kingdom, the environment.

Thus, I would REALLY suggest investigating the Equal Money System as a solution all the consequence that this current World System/Money System is creating, even Suicides as a consequence-outflow. We’re supposed to be existing in a world/reality where humans WANT TO LIVE, instead – it’s astounding how many human beings have suicidal thoughts / have had suicidal thoughts/imaginations ‘cross their mind’ – whether once / intermittently – it’s been there.

The relationship to Suicide is multi-dimensional, here we’re firstly going to focus on suicide within the context of one’s personal life/living experience – where, instead of seeing Solutions, we condition ourselves into and as giving up / giving in. In terms of suicide coming up in the Mind based on life/living conditions due to Money / Job, specifically the dimension of Survival, this we will look at more in-depth in posts to come.                                                                                                                                                  

Now, as we had walked in the previous posts – this whole process of Paranoia-Creation in Consciousness starts with an ENERGY. The particular-specific Nature of the Energy being that of suppressing that which self do not understand, cannot comprehend, not having the education, tools or means to deal with/direct/come to terms with what one is exposed to in everyday life. So, the very specific “Nature” of the reactions in moments that accumulates into and as eventual thoughts/imaginations of Suicide – is like, almost where in moments one go into a “shock”, it feels like an ‘electrical current’ moving through your mind and your body, you take a sharp in-breath, eyes pulled open, and the body goes tense/rigid and the words that would describe such an energy reaction/experience is that of “I don’t know what to do” / “I cannot do anything” – it takes one into a state of powerlessness in a moment, where you’re literally shocked into that state, because in your Mind, your Mind/Consciousness cannot “compute” whatever just happened at all. Such moments/experiences accumulates within our lives, and it can be “small, seemingly insignificant moments”, you know – where kids are exposed to what they can SAY and DO to each other, and they don’t have ways to deal with it, so they go into a mental and physical ‘shock’ of “I don’t know what to do” / “I cannot do anything” – a powerlessness, a giving up, a giving in. This then they “invert” into themselves, meaning: yes – in reality, they don’t know what to do and cannot do anything, but they take what happens in reality, and invert it into their minds where it becomes an energetic condition/experience/reaction that translates into powerlessness/victimization/giving up/giving in. This then escalates where they feel more and more inferior/less than in relationship to others and their world/reality, that can take one into and as a state/experience/energy of depression, as they de-press themselves, press themselves in their mind, deeper and deeper into a state/condition of energy, losing more and more touch with reality, as they travel deeper and deeper into and as the Mind, away from everything/everyone else and so, through/within such Energy – leave themselves, consequentially, to the mercy of their own Mind.

Here then, what escalates, within such depths in and as the Mind/Consciousness – is self-talk processes, is thoughts. Where it initially for example will start with “I don’t want to go to school/work and/or see those people” / “I don’t feel like being with and/or doing this/that”, so what will then start emerging in the Mind is the point of blame – where the individual will then, based on their reactions/experiences to/towards something/someone – will Blame, in their Minds, others for the experiences/reactions/energies that had accumulated/suppressed in their own Minds. It’s what the Mind does with Energy – it needs to “use it” / “exert it”, so because the Individual is now more de-pressed, pressed into the depths of the Mind, the Mind will use associations and connections within and as the energy/reactions, and so busy the Individual’s Mind, creating all sorts of dimensions and relationships and scenarios within and as the energy-reactions. The individual will be talking about it all, imagining it all in their own Minds – everything and all involved in how they reacted in their own Minds, will be entertained. All the while, fuelling the reactions/experiences even MORE, replaying the same reactions/experiences through the Imaginations EVEN MORE, which lead the human being EVEN MORE into and as the depths of the Mind. So, now, what happened externally is inverted internally into the Mind – stuck/lost into and as a time-loop, stuck in time, that will eventually lead to the belief/idea/perception of the ‘only way out’ being suicide.

We’ll continue more in the Next Posts to come with an example of how this process plays out to illustrate how one create and become Paranoia in the Mind.

Suicide Paranoia – 5: How Consciousness disconnects from Reality in State of Paranoia 

DAY 391

So, with having a look at a dimension regarding Suicidal Thoughts/Imaginations: if you really have a look at them, that you will speak the thoughts and see the Imaginations in a very specific ENERGY, or energy experience. What has to be realised with Paranoia within the context of Consciousness is that: with Suicidal thoughts/imaginations/tendencies – the Mind, with Energy, “veils” YOU, your awareness and so everything else you see about you and this world/reality. It’s like this ONE ENERGY is completely taking over your Mind, Self and Body. Thus, I would REALLY suggest investigating and rather UNDERSTANDING the thoughts/imaginations and the energy that substantiates it, because – ending one’s life / one’s self because of listening to THOUGHTS and accepting and allowing an energy experience in the Mind to possess you and so drive you to/as the Point of wanting to end one’s life, I mean, when you get into the afterlife, as so many beings have that come through the Portal and for example share their life review and they realise that, they could have changed themselves, their life in a moment. That there were options/ways/means available to them if they’d just gotten out of the thoughts and the energies in their MIND that was veiling any and all Solutions, they have to exist with an eternal regret of the fact that they ended it all just because of thoughts and energies in the Mind, something they could have changed/stopped with mere Understanding, with a Decision and so changed themselves and so their lives.

Thus, we would not want this experience for any Human Being even considering suicide. So, I would REALLY suggest listening up, assisting and supporting oneself to stop listening to/believing your thoughts and emotional energy experiences – how to release yourself from such paranoia in/as Consciousness and find that there is in fact a lot more to yourself, to life HERE if/as one would just stop participating in/as the Thoughts and Energies and Learn to Live in and as every moment of Breath. So, we will continue with the HOW-TO release oneself from such Paranoia in posts to come, for the moment – to Understand HOW we create such paranoia and how the thoughts and imaginations evolves from ENERGY.

So, as we have discussed – Suicide Paranoia starts with Energy and for the Mind to become possessed with ONE Energy experience, that leads to a particular-specific thought process, imagination, self-talk: it needs A LOT of Energy.  Why? Because, if you have a look at how the Mind ‘normally’ functions – it is very specific with regards to its ‘energy distribution’, which allows it to create the illusion of a ‘natural flow’ in what you think about, what you imagine, what you feel/experience as your emotions/feelings etc. So, when ONE THING starts occupying the Conscious Mind, such as thinking about suicide/imagining it and then going into that emotional energy-experience – it really influence/affect the Mind’s ‘normal functioning’ as follows:

How the Mind works is, it takes external environment stimuli and then activates your Mind into different memories, thoughts, self-talk and reactions/experiences. This happens within and as multi-dimensional levels of your Mind-Physical relationship, such as for example – seeing a person, and your mind/consciousness takes an “imprint”, through your eyes, of what you’re seeing – changes it into a ‘live memory’ (This Process explained from blog DAY 83 with regards to how the Mind change reality into ‘live memories’) and then ‘scans’ through all your already-existent memories in your Unconscious/Quantum Mind to see if anything of that person you had just seen, could activate any memories/reactions/thought processes. So, the person for example wears a specific COLOUR and all of a sudden, you experience a ‘attraction’ towards the person, not knowing why, when all the while, it was just a COLOUR they were wearing that brought up memories of experiences with colours you’ve had in the past, and now you believe you’re attracted to the person, when all the while it was just the COLOUR that attracted your attention. See, such things in our world/reality we’re not even aware of, because we’re not AWARE or SELF-AWARE of all that we are in/as the Mind/Consciousness – within and as all the levels of the Conscious, Subconscious, Unconscious, Quantum Mind, Quantum Physical and Physical Body itself.

So, such ‘little things’ in reality, the Mind/Consciousness use to stimulate thoughts/imaginations and experiences – so much so, that human beings aren’t even aware of the extent to which your Mind is busy in all the levels of its existence, much of this is explained in detail in the Quantum Mind Self Awareness Series available on EQAFE. Therefore, the Mind/Consciousness needs a constant-continuous “movement” through such external reality stimulations to keep your Mind “normal”, if you will.

NOW, what happens with for example when ONE ENERGY takes of the Mind, is that – it SUPPRESS all the other natural flow of patterns/stimulations that would lead a human being to think/feel ALL SORTS of different things within and throughout a day. And, as that ONE ENERGY takes over and now only lead one into and as ONE thought process/imagination process / self talk process – everything that the Mind/Consciousness then imprints into the Unconscious/Quantum Mind from physical reality, then gets channelled into and as this One Mind Possession. And so, this is what causes one, when the suicidal thoughts/imagination/self-talk/experience gets to the EXTREME - where it feels like EVERYTHING in your world/reality that you see/do/participate within and as, feels like you feel in your Mind. There is no more a natural flow in thought/imagination/experience/self-talk and/or the varying stimulations from external reality that keeps your mind busy/preoccupied in various dimensions. And so in/as this ONE POSSESSION, one’s mind/consciousness completely “disconnect” with its relationship to everything else in your external world/reality – because as I have explained: the Mind uses ANY and ALL external stimuli to keep your mind preoccupied and so in that relationship it has a ‘active connection’ to this world/reality which in so doing creates the illusion that “you’re participating/living in this world/reality”.

Now, with the Mind Possession, in such an extreme case – there is not a constant-continuous ‘live streaming’ from the external reality into and as consciousness/the mind and so the mind/consciousness inverts into and as itself and created a “closed system”, where the Mind/Consciousness will constantly and continuously cycle only within and as the ONE POINT POSSESSION of/as suicide for example, where ONLY THAT exists for the individual and so, through their own creation of paranoia, lost/stuck in and as the Mind ONLY, completely disconnected from themselves and reality – then lead to actually ‘acting out’ the thoughts/imaginations as they think/imagine/experience the same thing over and over and over again, and so condition their ‘self’ and ‘body’ into and as a state of living/behaviour – programming themselves, from within and as their own minds, and so creating their life/living choices/decisions/actions leading to ending their own lives, simply because of listening to, believing ENERGY and THOUGHTS in the Mind, without realising it can be stopped and changes, just as it was created/programmed in the first place.

We’ll continue more in the Next Post