The Sexualized Personality: DAY 80
(To read this post, it
must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to
Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is
interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question
of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical
existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the
points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the
next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the
mutli-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as
Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced
with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self
first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many
dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in
previous posts.)
The
First Character-Creation – continued
The
Chicken or the Egg??? – continued
How
the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued
Who
I Am as Money – continued
(Please note, we will
be continuing with the process of The Origins of Males and Females and Adam and Eve within posts to continue once we have completed walking the framework
of ‘character/personality’ creations in the Mind that will be referred to
when/as we continue with walking the process of The Origins of Males and
Females, Adam and Eve. However, the thread/dimensions of The Chicken or the Egg
and How the Fruit of Life became Rotten still applies within this process of
Character-Creation in seeing/realising/understanding how we simultaneously
created/manifested our within and without as internal and external realities as
the chicken and the egg, and within this how we as the Tree of Humanity/Life
have produced the Rotten Fruit of ourselves/generations of children to come in
our accepted and allowed relationship of separation of and as the Mind and the
Physical.)
As mentioned in the previous
post, we’re in this post having a look at how we still in and as the Mind’s
relationship to the Physical-Body – create/manifest ourselves into and as
diminished representations of ourselves
as Characters; as we constantly, continuously move ourselves/our awareness
into and as separation from and of ourselves as Here in and as equality and oneness with
and as the Physical-Body – creating characters from and of our Primary
Character we’ve become as we exist as Energy/Mind in relationship/separation to
Substance/Physical in the search/seeking for and of the MORE of and as
ourselves/here, and how from this One Character – we’ve just continued
infinitely creating MORE characters/experience of ourselves/here. As our very
selves/here existence had become a Character – searching/seeking for the MORE
of itself/here.
So, in this post, we’re going to have a look at our
relationship to ourselves in, as and with Sex/Masturbation and Relationships –
regarding the
characters we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to create/manifest within,
as and of ourselves in this ‘searching/seeking of the MORE of self/here’-Character.
As and from this Primary Character of searching/seeking for the More of
Self/Here - that manifested into and as the extent of Fantasies/Desires
existent in our Minds as the ‘More of Self’ in relation to sex/sexuality and
our energy-experiences/orgasms within and during Sex/Masturbation
that’s manifested the ‘More of Here’ within ourselves. As we have done from the
beginning: where our Character-existence in Energy’s relationship to Substance
of searching/seeking for the MORE of Self/Here, created the innumerable amount
of characters as manifested-singularities as the ‘More of Self’ – equal-to and
one-with the extent of Sex/Sexuality/Masturbation/Relationship characters we
create/manifest in our Minds that become the More of Ourselves as the
extent/amount of different characters we create/manifest ourselves in our Minds.
And from the beginning - the energy within the manifested-singularities as the
‘More of Here’ – now manifested equal-to and one-with the extent of
energy-experiences/orgasms in relation to Sex/Sexuality/Masturbation/Relationship
we create/manifest in our Mind-Physical relationship as we experience the More
of ourselves within ourselves as Energy.
Where our Primary Character of the ‘search/seeking More of
Self/Here’ – had created/manifested the MORE characters/experiences of energy
in our Minds, within for example looking at the extent/lengths we go to
produce/manifest more Characters for more Energy-experiences within our
internal and external reality regarding our relationship to
Sex/Sexuality/Masturbation and Relationships.
And thus, within this – having a look at why/how it is we haven’t been
able to be stable, self-honest in our internal and external reality regarding
sex/sexuality/masturbation/relationships from the perspective of never being
satisfied/fulfilled Here with and as ourselves in an equal and one
relationship/agreement with ourselves, our physical-bodies and so with another
human being: ‘Cause we’re only existing for the search/seeking of MORE – and so
we create/manifest/become the More as we continue creating/manifesting
MORE characters and energy-experiences within looking at the example we’re
walking regarding sex/sexuality/masturbation and relationships and the
according consequences to ourselves, each other and humanity as a whole in this
incessant search/seeking for MORE.
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself, to in equality
and oneness with and as energy and substance, the mind and the physical, from
the beginning to now – seen, realised and understood:
What had happened within and as our relationship to
Sex/Sexuality/Masturbation and Relationships within not developing the internal
and external equal and one self-honesty of making a clear, practical decision
of who I am within me, in and as my equal and one relationship with and as my physical-body;
and so aligning me in and as equality and oneness with another human being in
Agreement. Where who we are in our within and without is equal and one as our
very Living; and so commit ourselves to walk ourselves and together in
developing/expanding/growing who we are within ourselves, individually and
together.
But instead, where relationships had become the Relations
between Characters, where two individual human beings – manifested within and
as their Minds with various different characters of energy-experiences/emotions
and feelings and Fantasies/Desires that is competing for their fulfilment/completion
within and as the Mind-Physical relationship of the Human. And even within this
– within and as the relationship-forming between two human beings, only one
Character can be satisfied at a time when physically in space-time being
connected to one Human Being, which then leaves all the rest of the characters
in our
Minds restless for materialization/fulfilment; which then takes us into and
as the Mind, where we explore/ride our Fantasies/Desires in various
ways/means/methods: in/during Masturbation/while having Sex with our
Partner/simply when alone with ourselves in our own Minds where we accept and
allow our Sex/Sexuality/Energy Experience characters to wander as we please the
rest of the Characters in our Minds attempting-trying to search/seek for the
More of themselves/here.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see/realise/understand how
and why we’re never self-honest with ourselves or the other/our partner – that
we’re not in fact in a real equal and one relationship with them or ourselves,
as only one of our Sex/Sexuality/Masturbation/Relationship characters is
lived-out in the Mind-Physical relationship when in a relationship with another
human being, with the rest of our Characters in our Mind still running amok in our
Minds searching/seeking for their fulfilment/moreness. Which we then give
to our characters in secret/hiding within and as our own Minds during
masturbation/sex/when alone with ourselves in our Minds; pleasing our own
Characters within and as our own Minds, with nothing of relationships in fact
having to do with self-honesty, integrity, respect, consideration and regard as
we only exist to fulfil our search/seeking of the More of Self/Here which we do
through continuously participating in and creating more Sex/Sexuality
characters and energy-experiences in our Minds.
Within this, where our characters we created in the Mind in
relation to ‘who we are’ within Sex/Sexuality – when one character that we
live-out in our Mind-Physical relationship with another human being/partner is
not enough, and the rest of the Characters in our Minds are not ‘satisfied’
with their Moreness accumulation of themselves/energy in our Minds, when we
fantasize/dream/masturbate/entertain them while having sex – we go to the
extent of where we then live-out those characters seeking/searching for more of
itself/here as energy; and so manifest more physical/sexual relationships
‘on the side’ with other Human Beings. Where those other human beings can
fulfil the moreness of and as the other characters in our mind
searching/seeking for the more of themselves/here as energy, where such other
human beings will be aligned in their characters with the rest of the
characters in my Mind and so we fulfil/complete/manifest/validate each other’s
sex/sexuality/relationship characters.
I forgive
myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand
how – with me developing my sex/sexuality characters from childhood, throughout
my life into adulthood – through and as the pictures, images, advertisements,
pornography, film and conversations; that I manifested into and as my
mind-physical relationship as memories that stored/accumulated and manifested
into and as my Unconscious, Subconscious and Conscious Mind; where every moment
I created me in relationship to a picture, image, porn video/magazine, movie,
conversation in desiring to experience/become what is portrayed within such
external views of sex/sexuality: I immediately created/manifested a character within
myself in my relationship to sex/sexuality – where I essentially said: “I want
to be/experience that person in the image / picture / porn video/magazine / film”.
And so immediately manifested me as the ‘star’/ ‘main character’ of that image/picture/porn
video/magazine/film; and would – dependent on
the alignment of that image/picture/porn video/magazine/film to reality: either
live it out in my Mind in Fantasies only and/or actually attempt/try to
materialize/manifest it in actual physical reality. And so, throughout life –
we accumulate memories/manifestations of images/pictures/porn videos/magazines/films;
which we manifest within ourselves, create a relationship to, making us the
primary character/star within our own Minds and then attempt/try to
satisfy/fulfil that character in our Minds / Physical-Reality.
But, in this – I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see/realise/understand within and as our primary character existent
in the ‘search/seeking for the MORE of self/here’, we continue within and
throughout our lives – searching/seeking for MORE sex/sexuality characters to
accumulate within ourselves as we’re searching/seeking for the MORE of
ourselves in our relationship to sex/sexuality. And within that searching/seeking
for the MORE of here within ourselves, we manifest MORE energy-experiences in
our relationship to sex/sexuality within ourselves/our Minds. And so, our
relationship to sex/sexuality had become the accumulation of sex/sexuality
characters from images/pictures/movies/porn magazines/videos etc. and our
energy experiences within that: separating ourselves more and more and more
from and of ourselves, our physical-bodies and the natural equal and one
physical expression of HERE within and during Sex that is possible within an
equal and one relationship with one’s physical-body; where sex does not become
an energy-experience created from images, pictures, movies, magazines, media
etc. but an absolute equal
and one expression AS THE PHYSICAL-itself. Where, relationships
essentially have become the following unspoken acceptance and allowance:
“You and I fulfil one of each other’s Characters in relation to sex/sexuality/relationship
– and then the rest we attempt/try to continue fulfilling within and as the
secrets of and as our own Minds” – with relationships thus becoming a point
where human beings can fulfil at least One
sex/sexuality/relationship Character with the rest left to be fulfilled in
the Mind in fantasies, dreams, masturbations and obviously sometimes/most often
going to the
extent of cheating; as we’ve accumulated so many Characters, competing for
fulfilment, that only fulfilling them in the Mind is not enough…
We’ll continue in the next post with the process of how we
exactly manifested/create ourselves as characters in relation to
sex/sexuality/masturbation and relationships from and of memories of what we’ve
experienced/seen/heard within and as this physical-reality. Thus essentially –
how we’ve used our own physical-bodies and this physical-existence to
attempt/try to materialize/manifest characters within and as our Minds of
Energy; within and as the starting-point Character of searching/seeking the
More of Self/Here, which we then created in our Minds as a myriad of characters
and energy-experiences; abusing, compromising and manipulating the very
fabric/construct of this physical-existence just for the fulfilment of the
MORE, instead of realising the simplicity of Life as Here in equality
and oneness with Self, the Physical-Body and this Physical-Existence as a
whole.
I commit myself to
show, the extent to which we’ve created/programmed and manifested characters
within our Minds from memories of our actual, real
physical-experiences/interactions/participations in reality, where – because we’re
not equal and one with ourselves, our
physical-bodies and this physical-existence, but existing in separation
from and of it as the Primary Character of searching/seeking the More of
itself/here: we’ve been using/abusing/manipulating ourselves, our
physical-bodies and this physical-existence through creating characters within
our Minds and energy-experiences within and as that in our search/seeking for
the More of ourselves/here. Which has caused/manifested the consequences of us
not living equal-to and one-with ourselves, our physical-bodies and this
physical-existence, within the extent to which we’ll justify, excuse and
validate our deceptions, secrets and dishonesties ‘in the name of
searching/seeking for that MORE of self/here’.
In this, I commit myself to show how – the moment we create
a character in our Minds, such as from images, pictures, movies, pornography,
magazines, media, advertisements which we store/manifest in our Minds and then personalize
those images, pictures, movies, pornography, magazines, media, advertisements
where we became the main star; starring in our own internal images, pictures,
movies, pornography, magazines, media, advertisements; in so doing,
creating/manifesting an innumerable amounts of characters, with their own
personalities, preferences, energy-experiences etc. that we access whenever a
character search/seek satisfaction/fulfilment. That, within this process of
creating/manifesting characters – we’ve separated who we are into and as images,
pictures, movies, pornography, magazines, media, advertisements from which we’ve
created/manifested varying characters as representations/parts of ourselves.
Where, as we’re existing now – we’re existing in and as characters in our own
Minds as our own creations of ourselves, where all these characters are
searching/seeking for the More of themselves/here. And so we spend our days in
our Minds – trying/attempting to please the satisfaction of the all the
characters we’ve created in our relationship to Sex/Sexuality; that lead us
into and as an internal isolation/separation, where we within the secrecy
of our Minds fantasize with and as our characters that we have
created/manifested as-ourselves; enslaved to our own creations of and as
ourselves.
In this, I commit myself to show how within and as us
accepting and allowing to create/manifest ourselves into characters in our Minds
as live-representations of ourselves in our own Minds, with each character
having its distinct characteristics of preference/experience; we’ve accepted
and allowed our characters to control, direct and manifest the
experience/living of ourselves, to the point where, for example: within and as
relationships, that one relationship with self and another being is
non-existent, as self’s primary relationship has become with and as the
characters in one’s own Mind searching/seeking for the More of themselves/here.
And so we’d dwell in our Minds, during Sex/within Masturbation to fulfil/satisfy
the searching/seeking of our characters’ fulfilment in our relationship to
Sex/Sexuality. Not seeing/realising/understanding, that no matter how much we
give/entertain our characters, they’re never satisfied/fulfilled – which then
eventually takes us into and as the living-condition of having multiple
simultaneous partners to attempt/try and please/satisfy the characters in our
Minds.
I commit myself to show, the extent of the
consequences we’ve accepted and allowed to create/manifest for ourselves,
within for example – creating a multitude of characters in our relationship to
Sex/Sexuality, separating ourselves in our Minds within various characters,
from various memories of pictures, images, movies, magazines, media,
advertisement and pornography that manifest to such an extent, that we become
it to such an extent: that it comes to direct/control/influence our decisions
of who
we are within ourselves, our physical-bodies and so this physical-existence as
a whole. Which is what leads us into the temptation of searching/seeking
for the More of ourselves, the More of Here; and in our path to
fulfilment/satisfaction – compromising, manipulating and destroying
relationships and lives, with ourselves, other human beings and so this
physical existence as a whole; as we’ve become Characters Possessed in One
Mind; all searching/seeking fulfilment at the same time. Which within that
manifested the consequence of most human beings’ relationship to Sex/Sexuality
possession; as so many characters was created in the Mind; that all
simultaneously search/seek for the More of themselves/here that become like One
Force that direct/control/influence the human beings’ obsession and possession
with sex, that can mentally and physically drive one to extreme consequences to
the extent human beings would go for their obsession and possession with
sex/sexuality.
I commit myself to show – how, human beings’
justification/excuse/validation of “it’s normal to masturbate / have sex /
fantasize with pictures, images, movies, magazines, media, advertisement and
pornography” - is in fact their characters in their Mind speaking, attempting/trying
to protect/defend their existence and experience of the addiction/obsession/possession
with and as that More energy-experience accumulation they attain/manifest
within and as their Characters in their Mind within and during
Orgasm/Sex/Masturbation.
In this, I commit myself to show, how and why -
participation in fantasies of pictures, images, movies, magazines, media,
advertisement and pornography – only exist when one is existent as the Mind of
Energy in Characters to accumulate/manifest a Mind-Energy
experience within and during sex/masturbation, and how this process/approach
in fact compromise and abuse self and the physical-body. That this process /
approach to sex/sexuality/masturbation only exist: because we haven’t been self-honest in our equal and one
relationship to ourselves and our physical-bodies. And in this – how and
why, the Sex and Masturbation
interview series, walk one through the process of how we created a
Sex/Masturbation MIND that we
experience in our physical-bodies during sex/masturbation, and how to
practically assist and support self to establish an equal and one
relationship with self/the physical body/one’s partner, where one PHYSICALLY
EXPRESS without the use/means/methods of accepting and allowing self to
participate in the Mind-Characters of pictures, images, movies, magazines,
media, advertisement and pornography to become stimulated in the Mind of Energy
within the Physical-Body.
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