Have you Ever Really Loved your Parents? – Part One: DAY 86
(To read this post, it
must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to
Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is
interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question
of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical
existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the
points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the
next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the
mutli-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as
Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced
with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self
first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many
dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in
previous posts.)
We’re in this post, with
now having the understanding of our relationship as energy to substance,
as walked in the previous posts, with how we have given ‘life’ to energy/illusion
at the sacrifice/compromise of
substance/physicality/existence
as real/reality. Within this - how we have constructed/created ourselves
into memories/characters from memories/characters of those that has gone before
us: and thus walking WHY we’re in fact ILLUSION and our beingness/substance and
the physical-body/this physical existence as substance-manifest is the REALITY
that is and always has been compromised/sacrificed for the Illusion as
Energy/Mind/Memories/Characters to survive/exist and maintain its ‘life’ from
the taking/stripping of what is real, and piecing ourselves into separation
within ourselves as Illusion.
To walk this relationship between illusion and reality,
we’re going to have a look at, from childhood our relationship to our
parents/siblings – in how, our relationship to our parents/siblings is/has
always been designed/manifested from and of a multi-dimensional relationship of
MEMORIES within ourselves that we created/manifested/constructed within our
MINDS. And so how/why we have thus never in fact really had any real/substantial
relationship with our parents/siblings within the entirety of who they really
are, never in fact really met/saw them within the entirety of who they are, as
we’d only design relationships/characters towards them within our Mind that
would serve our interests/intentions/preferences only.
I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself, to in
equality and oneness with
and as life, energy and substance, the mind and the physical, from the
beginning to now – seen, realised and understood how with me as a child, with
my automated consciousness existent in the merged-relationship between: my
beingness, my Mind Platform/Framework and my Parent’s Minds/Memories – where:
My Beingness -
consisting of/existing as memories/characters I have accumulated/manifested throughout
my lives that I lived on Earth, into and as my very beingness that had come to
define my very nature as a being, as -all the characters/personalities I
physically lived-out that became a ‘living pattern/habit’ within and throughout
my lives - that became ‘me’ as my beingness as the acceptance of
‘who I am’ within and as my
very beingness. And thus, whatever characters/personalities within/throughout
my lives I physically lived-out/embodied consistently within space and time,
would manifest a merging of acceptance between the mind, my beingness and the
particular-specific personality/character I would physically/habitually live-out.
And in this merging of the character/personality with the physical and so my
beingness: I would within my very beingness accept the very nature of me within
my ‘who I am’ as a being – equal-to and one-with such characters/personalities
I had come to physically/habitually live-out in my mind, beingness and physical
merging/relationship within and throughout my lives.
My Mind
Platform/Framework – that consist of/exist as the automated
functioning/movement of and as Consciousness as a multitude of
interdimensional-dimensional, multidimensional programs that activate the
moment my beingness merge with the Mind Platform/Framework. As substance’s (my
beingness)
relationship
to energy (the interdimensional-dimensional Mind) that give ‘life’ to the
Mind as energy consume substance, with this relationship between my beingness
and the Mind that becomes me in my physical-living, as through and as the Mind
I come to create my Characters/Personalities I will embody/manifest within my
Mind-Physical relationship within and throughout my life on Earth. And so, my
Consciousness
within the Mind Platform/Framework programs in its relationship to my
beingness, together with my Parents’ Mind/Memories – will be the initial System
from and through which I develop/manifest the
Future
‘me’ as Characters/Personalities from existent-memories manifested within my
Beingness, Mind and Parents’ Mind.
My Parents’
Mind/Memories – that initially merge as a platform within my
Unconscious-Mind of my interdimensional-dimensional Mind merged with my
beingness. With this platform consisting of/existing as primarily only Memories
representing Characters my parents created/manifested in their mind-physical
living, consisting of/existing as a multitude of multi-dimensional memories and
characters that they manifested in all dimensions within their Mind – within
their conscious, subconscious and unconscious mind. Memories/characters that
they either fantasized about or actually lived-out; all of it transferred into
and as a platform within my Unconscious-Mind that would become an entire
database that my automated consciousness would use to develop, construct and
manifest my own ‘personalized’ characters/personalities from.
I commit myself to show, how and why we have throughout our
lives on Earth – life, after life, after life, only accumulated into and as our
very beingness memories of characters/personalities we had physically lived-out
within and throughout our lives in our beingness-Mind relationship/merging
within the Physical. And how within and as our very beingness we had come to
exist as manifested/accumulated memories/characters that would come to
influence/determine/direct our ‘choices’ of ‘who we are’ in the lives to come,
from additional manifestations of memories as our very Mind and our ‘parents’ to
be Minds/Memories. Where within and throughout our lives, within our
relationship between our beingness, our Mind and our parents’ Minds/Memories
within the initial merged/manifested existence of Consciousness from birth:
will come to determine the new/ ‘evolved’ memories/characters we’ll
create/manifest in and from our new Minds/new lives/new Parents’
Minds/Memories.
However, life, after life, after life – the process remains
the same: constructing/manifesting characters from memories of characters
within our beingness, our parents’ Minds/Memories with the automated Mind that
facilitate this process FOR US, as a memory/character creation Machine/System.
That this is all that we’ve done and become within and throughout our lives on
Earth – creating/constructing/manifesting characters from an accumulation of
multi-dimensional memories; that is/always has only served our own
Purpose/living/experience within and throughout our lives in our own Minds.
Where, within this process – we develop NO relationship with ourselves, or
others in fact, as what control/manifest
‘who we are’ within
ourselves in our Mind-Physical relationship: Is MEMORIES. Where, within and
throughout our lives we’re simply as our beingness of substance, serving as a
‘life force’ for the Mind/Consciousness to automatically from childhood serve
us our memories/characters that we’ll personalize with, through and as
Consciousness to within and throughout our lives physically live-out. Where the
entire process of ‘who we are’ within our Mind-Physical relationship only
manifest within our INTERNAL REALITY of the Mind as Memories/Characters, with
NO equal and one relationship to ourselves, our physical-body or human beings
within our world/reality from childhood, as we’re always in all ways only
preoccupied and occupied with MEMORIES.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see, realise and understand in
equality
and oneness with and as life, energy and substance, the mind and the
physical, from the beginning to now, how:
My Mind Framework/Platform in itself – exist as a Memory, a
Memory-database of programs already prepared/pre-ordained that would initiate
into and as the existence of Consciousness, the moment my beingness/substance
merge with it, to prepare me/itself to create/construct/manifest/program my/its
own Characters/Personalities that will come to occupy the Mind/preoccupy me
from my equality and oneness with me, the physical-body and so existence as a
whole. And my Beingness – exist as Memory, a Memory-database of and as
characters I have come to accumulate/manifest into and as the
manifested-acceptance of ‘who I am’ within and as my very beingness. And my
Parents’ Memories/Minds of Characters, exist as Memory and together with my
Beingness Memories/Characters, with Consciousness/the Mind – this relationship
would come to evolve into and as my ‘personalized’ Characters I will
become/construct/manifest within my Mind-Physical relationship/existence within
and throughout my life.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see/realise/understand – how/why it is that I never in fact,
from childhood
really see the reality/equality
and oneness of and the totality of my parents, because:
Within the
relationship with my Parents: All that is existent within me, in my
Unconscious-Mind – is MOMENTS as MEMORIES of CHARACTERS they have constructed
in THEIR MINDS that transferred into me in my inception and conception process
within the womb of the female. Where my parents accordingly
constructed/manifested/created their memories/characters from their beingness
as memories/characters, from their parents’ minds as memories/characters,
through and as their merged-relationship between their mind, their beingness
and their parents’ Minds/Characters; and so: what transferred into me as my
parents’ mind, that I use to develop my relationship WITHIN ME towards them,
come-from only moments, as memories as characters of them that will come to
determine ‘how I see me in relation to them’ from the references as
memories/characters of them I firstly used within my Mind.
Thus, I never in fact have an actual, real physical, equal
and one relationship with my parents from childhood, as all I am busy doing in
my Mind with memories of them as characters in my Unconscious-Mind, is to
create/construct/manifest my own ‘personalized characters’ that will become
memories/characters I embody/physically live-out. And so, my relationship to my
external environment – whether siblings, parents, friends, extended-family,
acquaintances, colleagues, classmates: I never in fact in any way have any form
of relationship to them as a being within the totality of who they are: as they
as all people in my world serve as a mirror that I use within my MIND to
construct/create/manifest characters within me.
In, taking the example of the mother smiling at the child –
in that moment, I as a child do not see the totality of who my mother is in
that moment of smiling, her expression, her mind-state, why she’s smiling, how
she’s smiling, what she’s experiencing, the absolute detail of who she is in
that moment: Nothing of her exist in an equal and one relationship with me. All
that happens in that moment, is my Physical-Mind Eyes capture that moment into
the interdimensional-dimensional glass-window pane; scan through all my Parents
memories/characters as mere ‘pieces’ of the totality of who they are within the
platform of my Unconscious-Mind, search for MEMORIES/characters of who/how my
parents were in the PAST, with such memories that is accordingly used to determine
who I am/what/how I am in my experience and behaviour in that Moment. Thus, a
moment of interaction in physical-reality is used to create/manifest me into
characters I will come to embody/live-out based-on other’s behaviours/responses
towards me. Therefore, from childhood all my interactions in experience and
behaviour towards my parents, come from their PAST as MEMORIES of characters of
who they WERE that is manifested in my Unconscious-Mind as a database I use to
create me from as characters within my Mind-Physical relationship, creating my
own experience/behaviour as a character-incarnate from previous/past characters
manifested within me/my Unconscious-Mind of my parents. And, furthermore within
that – we later in
life,
when/as there aren’t memories within our parents’ minds/memory/character
database within our Unconscious-Mind that we can use to construct/create/manifest
into our own personalized characters as we participate in physical-reality: we
then use the reference of our beingness from
past-lives
characters/memories to manifest our experience/behaviour to/towards people in
our worlds. Thus, within this – how even most of our interactions as
experience/behaviour to/towards our parents/our relationship with them, as
characters we become/that activate in our relationship/interaction with them –
has not even been really designed/manifested within any context of ‘who they
are’ in actual real reality, as we’ve used references from past-life
interactions/relationships as characters we’ve activated to manifest characters
with which we interact/participate as, with our parents.
I commit myself to
show – how and why; we have never within our existence, or our lives on Earth,
had a relationship with another being, let alone ourselves. Because in having a
look at the processes involved in our interactions/participations with our parents
in physical-reality from childhood, is that we use such
interactions/participations; not to develop an equal and one relationship with
them in who they are as beings in really seeing/living with them in equality
and oneness, but use such moments of interactions/participations, to
develop/construct/manifest our own characters within the backdrop/blueprint of
the parents’ minds/memories of who they were, manifested within our
Unconscious-Mind within us, that determine our reaction/experience/behaviour as
character-manifestation TOWARDS them.
And, within this – I commit myself to show, as we continue
within this process of memory/character creation to substantiate our Minds with
characters we created/manifested from Memories in our beingness/Parents’
Minds/Memories in our Unconscious-Mind; we develop/manifest eventually our own
Subconscious-Mind characters/personalities that become the living-definition of
‘who I am’ in this life. Where – whenever we continue participating, with for
example parents later in life – we’ll use such physical-reality participations,
imprint/manifest such present-moments within us/the glass window pane. Then - use
MEMORIES of past-interactions with them, with such memories containing how we
experienced/behaved towards our parents in the past that is similar/the same to
the present-moment we just encountered. Where such memories of
past-interactions, contain our own view/perception/experience of our parents
dependent on how we experienced ourselves towards them in the
memory/past-encounter, thus WITHIN OUR MINDS framed our parents within a
particular ‘light/picture’. Where we essentially characterized our parents
within our Minds against our existent Characters/Personalities and so
warp/change/mould ‘who they are’ in relationship to our characters in our Minds.
Seeing them how we WANT to see them within our Minds that would best serve our
Character/Personality to be the best/better/right/winner within the
present-moment interaction/participation. And so develop an complete alternate
version of our parents within our Minds according to our interest of our
characters/personalities where we’re for example ‘right and they’re wrong’ and
so try and physically impress our
illusion
of them in our Minds onto actual physical-reality when in
conversation/interaction with them, as we’d behave towards them/experience
ourselves towards them in physical-reality, according to how we
framed/manifested them within our Minds, which is not the real representation
of our parents in fact.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to, in equality and oneness with and as life, energy and substance, the mind
and the physical, from the beginning to now, seen, realised and understood –
how I have NEVER in fact had a relationship with my Parents – in the totality
of who they are. Because each and every moment of interaction with them, from
childhood throughout my life – I in my Mind-Physical relationship,
created/manifested my Own characters as experiences/reactions/behaviours to
them, that had nothing to do with ‘who they are’, but had everything to do with
only ‘who I am’ in my mind-physical relationship as consciousness to
construct/manifest/create characters as experiences/behaviours to/towards my
external world/environment and everything/everyone within it.
And as I continue within my childhood and my relationship to
them throughout my life, I will capture/manifest interactions/moments of
participation with them in my Physical-Mind Eyes, into the glass-window pane,
scan through my already manifested characters/personalities in my
Subconscious-Mind and accordingly experience/behave within my physical-living as
characters as what is best suited in the moment to fulfil my own intentions,
wants, needs and desires. And so, from childhood to throughout my life – I
never have a relationship with who my parents are in the totality of themselves
in every moment of interaction/participation, and so it is with each human
being in my world/reality: because I will always only reference the
moment/interaction within physical-reality with them, within and as the
memories/characters in my mind and beingness, that can completely warp/misconstrue
the reality of an individual/person/parent to serve only my
interest/intentions/experiences/behaviours as characters within my Mind.
I commit myself to show – how, with writing,
self-forgiveness and self-corrective application – identifying all the
characters/personalities as Memories that’s come to control/direct our internal
and external experiences/behaviours as our entire ‘who we are’ in and as our
living. To write them out, to forgive ourselves for accepting and allowing
ourselves to separate ourselves / the creation of ourselves through an
automated system as consciousness as a
separation-creation
system, that’s taken from our beingness/physical body/this physical existence
to construct/manifest ourselves into pieces/parts as characters existent only
within our mind and occasionally live-out/embody into and as our
physical-living. That we’ve separated ourselves into memories/characters from
our beingness, our physical-body and so this physical existence: to construct
an illusionary self/reality only existent within our Minds.
To from here – identify the characters, forgive ourselves
for separating and so creating/constructing ourselves into pieces/parts as
characters to the compromise/sacrifice of our physical-bodies and so this
physical existence, to from here align our living into and as the physical,
where we re-align ‘who we are’ in equality and oneness with our beingness, our
physical body and so eventually this physical existence as a whole. Where we in
fact start LIVING HERE with the physical/what is real as we become the Living
Word as the Physical, and no more as controlled-separation as memories that
only manifest consequence to the physical/all relationships within our actual
world/reality. So that in this Equal and One Actual Living of ourselves as Here
– be able to develop ACTUAL REAL relationships/agreements as we
commune/participate/interact in equality and oneness in REAL TIME Here as every
moment of breath and in fact get to know each other for who/how we are in the
totality of ourselves/each other here.
We’ll in the next post continue with more practical/physical
examples of how we never in fact have a relationship with our parents/all
beings in our world for that matter, because ‘who we are’ in relationship to
them in our Mind, is/always has been constructed/manifested from memories
as-us, within ourselves. How, we even go so far as creating/constructing ‘alternate
versions’ of our parents within our Minds to serve only our interest/intentions/wants,
needs and desires according to how we manifested our ‘who we are’ in our Minds.
So, understand what we’ve walked in this post, is simply an introduction framework
and we’ll be going into more detailed, practical specifics in posts to come.
And within this continue with preparing for the process of
seeing, realising and understanding the difference between Illusion and Reality
as we outline this process of the extent of separation that in fact exist
within ourselves and others within our world/reality, where with us not even
having a real relationship with our parents; we don’t in fact ever have a real
relationship with ourselves.
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