The Story of a Hug (Part 2): DAY 453

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Another dimension to consider within self expression, with having a look at a hug – is spontaneity. It was really in the moment, simply on the way to horses as I usually am in the afternoons – where this moment opened up, to express a hug. And, once I gave a hug to Esteni and Maya – I was stable, on the way to horses and all was normal/ordinary again – the point didn’t linger in the mind / nor in relationship to each other, it was understood as simply to be a moment of expression – again, nothing more, nothing less.

This also being why/how it is an expression that cannot be created by the Mind – because in the Mind, as many would be able to relate to: to create a physical movement in the Mind is a process, where you first think about / imagine it, builds up the emotional/feeling motivation, while you’re hugging / with the person more mind dimensions open up, even sometimes afterwards start thinking about it / analysing it etc – this whole process that unfolds is an example with how the Mind/Consciousness interferes with a natural self expression through the Physical –where it is purely just that self expression and the physical sharing. With the mind-interference however – god, you’ve got all the before-hand equations, then the energies, then the imaginations/projections it creates, the interpretations, the judgments/opinions and can busy your mind for a while / a moment after that. Or where a hug is then just ‘neutral’ – where it’s like Robotic, just extend the arms, put it over the other, hold on tightly and let go – here, there is then no ‘self’, no expression – simply a robotic automated movement of the physical.

Therefore, with having a look at process, with walking with individuals – such as through the 7 Year Journey to Life and Desteni, and then more the Individual Process through the Desteni I Process LITE and PRO – what is emerging is an individual, a self and relationships amongst human beings that aren’t tainted with relationships/sex innuendo – but with a foundation/starting point of actual assistance and support, based within the starting point of assisting and supporting self and each other to become ‘more’, to find what of self can be built on, how can we assist and support each other to grow/expand/develop ourselves, release that of our own Minds/Consciousness that has limited who we are, how we live, the decisions/choices we make and the futures we create. I mean, yes – there are then the potentials for agreements that open up, and here again we have the Relationship/Agreement course that ensures the relationship do not go into the relationship/sex of consciousness/the mind – but that two individuals walk together as equals/one.

So, with having a look at this simple point as a Hug – many may go “but, I do THAT!, that’s how I hug!” – but my question would be: how can you – if you haven’t yet even understood what physical hereness/equality and oneness mean – which you can only in fact live, if you have walked a process in relationship to your own Mind/Consciousness, established your Self Awareness in fact, proven, through walking a real, evidenced space-time process of writing, forgiveness, commitments and corrective application? Additionally within this, have walked a process with others in the physical to be able to express such an expression of sharing/give and receive unconditionally?

See, this is what is so cool about this process – those that have walked for some time can easily assess who’s walked for real and who hasn’t – because such expression, such living/stand only naturally emerge through walking the process and cannot in any way be created within the limitations of the Mind/Consciousness…I mean, commonsense is – how can the Mind create such an expression, if the mind is based on programming, on energy and have no direct, equal and one relationship to the physical where such expression, unconditionally, in a moment exists?

I suggest investigating Desteni, the Desteni I Process – to discover what living/self expression in equality and oneness with the Physical in fact is and how limited the Mind/Consciousness of energy/emotions/feelings in fact is.

Suicide Paranoia – 7: The Creation Process of Suicide Paranoia (Thought Dimension Part 2) 

DAY 393

Here we’re going to walk the/a practical example to illustrate how energy transforms into thoughts/self talk in the Mind.

Because Human Beings do not Understand how emotional/feeling reactions/energies are created within our own Mind-Physical Relationship, the immediate assumption that exists is that: whomsoever “caused” the reaction/experience within our Mind “is to Blame”. Not realising that, it wasn’t the other person “personally”, but rather what they represented within their words, behaviours, tonalities,  movements, intentions etc. that activated memories and/or knowledge and information to which we reacted to in and as our own Minds. Thus, our reactions was  not so much towards the other person, personally, but more towards what memories, knowledge, information, views, perceptions, ideas and beliefs we hold / define ourselves as within our own Minds. Thus, other parts/pieces of what other humans represent acts like “activations for reactions” on ALL levels of our Minds – the conscious, subconscious, unconscious, quantum mind, quantum physical and physical body itself.

So, let’s walk an example of an individual that had been exposed, throughout their lives, to such moments of reactions within themselves, based on other people’s words, behaviours. So, with all human beings being exposed to reactions in their relationship to others, why do only some go to the extent of suicide paranoia and/or to the extent of actually acting upon it? This has much to do with emotional/feeling ‘sensitivity’. Meaning, where individuals are more ‘sensitive’ to reactions they experience in their Minds/Bodies and so reactions are then more ‘accentuated / intense’ than it would be in others. It’s fascinating within this as well, where – there will be one person with two human beings standing in front of them and say the same thing in the same tonality/behaviour to both of them, but it will affect each one of the two human beings standing in front of them differently. The one, being more sensitive to their own internal reactions, would take it more hard than the other who would be more easily to ‘move the reactions in their mind away’ / suppress it or vent it/exert it in some way or another. Thus, this ‘sensitivity’ of such human beings causes the individual to Internalize their reactions/experiences MORE. Internalize meaning, they would not have any ‘protection/defence’ mechanisms and/or exertion/venting tactics – but would like “take the punches” of words/tonalities/behaviour/body language and “sponge it up within and as themselves”. A Human Being that is Not ‘sensitive’, would have ways/means/methods to ‘deal with’ the reactions in their Minds/their relationships/worlds, the Human Being that is sensitive would not have such ways/means/methods and just internalize it all, sponge it all up, keep it to themselves, within themselves – with no-one/nothing/no support and assistance to direct their own reactions in some way or another. All of this obviously just showing/indicating also how uneducated human beings are within the simple field of something such as Communication and how your words, behaviours, tonalities affect/influence human beings differently/uniquely.

So, with this – the human being then is exposed to reactions in their Mind that within their life start accumulating. Now, they don’t have any other context for their reactions/experiences, but in relation to that something/someone that ‘caused it’. And so, such a human being would ‘take the punches, sponge up the reactions/experience” and then start replaying the memory of what happened within and as the Energy that they experienced it. I mean, imagine, you’re a child, growing up, there’s no Education with regards to our mental processes of thinking, emotions, feelings, imagination and how it works and so the only “relationship” the human being forms eventually with the reaction is “who/what caused it externally”, not realising how the reactions/experiences were caused in their own Mind simply because of not understanding how to effectively deal with one’s own reactions and/or other people’s words and behaviours.

So, what starts happening in the Mind is: the individual then replays memories, events, instances, moments in their Mind – over and over and over again, which from here is where the Process of thinking/self-talk starts emerging. This is also how the Mind of a child develops: starts with energy/energy experiences/reactions, then memories that imprints into themselves from their external reality, from where they reference memories to start forming their relationships, then from memories emerge Imaginations, from where they start ‘changing reality according to their individuality’, and then from memories comes thinking/self-talk. The same happens with the Suicide Paranoia process: the individual, in their energy reactions, starts looking at memories and from those memories starts “activating their imagination”. Where they over and over and over again look at the moments/instances that affected them deeply, and then they TALK about it in their own Minds, start THINKING about themselves, others, their experience and so they are catapulted into a Reality in their Mind where they can completely change what really happened in reality, and even change the way they are, look like, see themselves, experience themselves and so starts the process of losing touch with themselves and so reality and start BELIEVING THEIR MIND more, the memories, the imagination, the self talk and the thinking…until it possess them completely and eventually leading to making the biggest mistake of/as their existence and only when it’s too late, after death, realising what they had done, accepted and allowed in believing illusion in their Mind, more than the reality of their Awareness in every moment of breath.

We’ll continue more in the next post

Suicide Paranoia – 6: The Creation Process of Suicide Paranoia (Thought Dimension) DAY 392

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In the next post we will explain how the energy evolves into thoughts and imagination, and how we then enter into a vicious cycle in our own Minds, here the energy creates itself into thoughts/imagination and then we participate in the energy, thoughts and imagination – empowering/substantiating the energy/reaction/experience even more, validating the paranoia and creating the paranoia – in so doing, losing more and more touch with ourselves, reality, the physical and life. And so will within this continue with how to assist/support self from/of the Paranoia of/as Suicide in the Mind/Consciousness, to and as Self Aware Living in and as the Physical.

So, the question within this all is – WHY does suicide, or even the OPTION or CONSIDERATION of suicide exist within and as humanity / human consciousness? I mean, obviously, we can ask this question about A LOT of things, or almost EVERYTHING, from murder, abuse, violence, harm etc. – why does such things even exist in our consciousness/minds in any way whatsoever? I mean, obviously many would say it’s just “human nature” – but, within the processes we walk in Desteni, EQAFE Series – we explain in detail why and how such ‘natures’ evolved within human consciousness and that it’s only continuing to exist as-is by our acceptance and allowance not taking responsibility for and changing our Natures.

We’re in this Post / Posts focusing on Suicide – primarily manifesting as a complete internal “giving up and giving in” to/towards a particular problem/situation/relationship/circumstance/experience. But, still – the question remains: Why are we not from childhood educated how to face problems, ALWAYS analyse/assess moments constructively, with commonsense, and accordingly lay out all possible/probable avenues/ways/means/methods possible to assist and support self out of a problem/dilemma? Why do we not have available resources, help, guidance, assistance and support for human beings that face life/living conditions in relation to for example money, a job, health etc. in which they find themselves in circumstances that are, from a survival perspective – “impossible”. I mean, how many suicides have been due to life/living/survival conditions/circumstances due to how the majority of humanity is accepting and allowing this current World System/Money System to continue – you know, human beings that are left with NOTHING, no job, no money, no friends/family, everywhere they walk with pleading eyes for help, just for food, for something to continue in/as the next breath and yet – there’s no-one, there’s nothing...Aren’t we all then responsible for such an Individual’s state of Mind, created from/of this very world system/money system that we’re accepting and allowing to create immeasurable consequence in human’s lives, the earth, nature, the animal kingdom, the environment.

Thus, I would REALLY suggest investigating the Equal Money System as a solution all the consequence that this current World System/Money System is creating, even Suicides as a consequence-outflow. We’re supposed to be existing in a world/reality where humans WANT TO LIVE, instead – it’s astounding how many human beings have suicidal thoughts / have had suicidal thoughts/imaginations ‘cross their mind’ – whether once / intermittently – it’s been there.

The relationship to Suicide is multi-dimensional, here we’re firstly going to focus on suicide within the context of one’s personal life/living experience – where, instead of seeing Solutions, we condition ourselves into and as giving up / giving in. In terms of suicide coming up in the Mind based on life/living conditions due to Money / Job, specifically the dimension of Survival, this we will look at more in-depth in posts to come.                                                                                                                                                  

Now, as we had walked in the previous posts – this whole process of Paranoia-Creation in Consciousness starts with an ENERGY. The particular-specific Nature of the Energy being that of suppressing that which self do not understand, cannot comprehend, not having the education, tools or means to deal with/direct/come to terms with what one is exposed to in everyday life. So, the very specific “Nature” of the reactions in moments that accumulates into and as eventual thoughts/imaginations of Suicide – is like, almost where in moments one go into a “shock”, it feels like an ‘electrical current’ moving through your mind and your body, you take a sharp in-breath, eyes pulled open, and the body goes tense/rigid and the words that would describe such an energy reaction/experience is that of “I don’t know what to do” / “I cannot do anything” – it takes one into a state of powerlessness in a moment, where you’re literally shocked into that state, because in your Mind, your Mind/Consciousness cannot “compute” whatever just happened at all. Such moments/experiences accumulates within our lives, and it can be “small, seemingly insignificant moments”, you know – where kids are exposed to what they can SAY and DO to each other, and they don’t have ways to deal with it, so they go into a mental and physical ‘shock’ of “I don’t know what to do” / “I cannot do anything” – a powerlessness, a giving up, a giving in. This then they “invert” into themselves, meaning: yes – in reality, they don’t know what to do and cannot do anything, but they take what happens in reality, and invert it into their minds where it becomes an energetic condition/experience/reaction that translates into powerlessness/victimization/giving up/giving in. This then escalates where they feel more and more inferior/less than in relationship to others and their world/reality, that can take one into and as a state/experience/energy of depression, as they de-press themselves, press themselves in their mind, deeper and deeper into a state/condition of energy, losing more and more touch with reality, as they travel deeper and deeper into and as the Mind, away from everything/everyone else and so, through/within such Energy – leave themselves, consequentially, to the mercy of their own Mind.

Here then, what escalates, within such depths in and as the Mind/Consciousness – is self-talk processes, is thoughts. Where it initially for example will start with “I don’t want to go to school/work and/or see those people” / “I don’t feel like being with and/or doing this/that”, so what will then start emerging in the Mind is the point of blame – where the individual will then, based on their reactions/experiences to/towards something/someone – will Blame, in their Minds, others for the experiences/reactions/energies that had accumulated/suppressed in their own Minds. It’s what the Mind does with Energy – it needs to “use it” / “exert it”, so because the Individual is now more de-pressed, pressed into the depths of the Mind, the Mind will use associations and connections within and as the energy/reactions, and so busy the Individual’s Mind, creating all sorts of dimensions and relationships and scenarios within and as the energy-reactions. The individual will be talking about it all, imagining it all in their own Minds – everything and all involved in how they reacted in their own Minds, will be entertained. All the while, fuelling the reactions/experiences even MORE, replaying the same reactions/experiences through the Imaginations EVEN MORE, which lead the human being EVEN MORE into and as the depths of the Mind. So, now, what happened externally is inverted internally into the Mind – stuck/lost into and as a time-loop, stuck in time, that will eventually lead to the belief/idea/perception of the ‘only way out’ being suicide.

We’ll continue more in the Next Posts to come with an example of how this process plays out to illustrate how one create and become Paranoia in the Mind.