Suicide Paranoia - 3: The Creation Process of Suicide
Paranoia – Energy Dimension (Part One) DAY 389
So, let us have a look at HOW exactly we create the Suicide
Paranoia in our own Minds with understanding the mechanics of Consciousness
through the constructs of energy (emotions), thoughts, imagination
and self-talk, the role our ‘awareness’
plays within it all and finally – how to assist and support oneself to set
oneself free from Suicide Paranoia into and as a Practical, Functional Living Being that
respect/honour oneself as life in and as each Living
Breath.
In the previous post, we explained how it all starts with
ENERGY-movement, such as an Emotion that then with awareness/attention being
given to it, will becomes defined into a thought/self-talk and even into
Imagination. So, we’re now going to slowly but surely walk through all these
dimensions to practically see/realise and understand how a Paranoia in/as
Consciousness is created; primarily because of us not understanding our own
existence/relationships and dimensions within and as Consciousness/the Mind.
What must first be Understood is that: we exist in a Mind, a
Beingness and Physical Body Trinity Relationship. Our Mind is a
‘interdimensional-physical System’, it is that which contains our thoughts,
emotions, feelings, imagination, self-talk – everything we can participate
within, but not physically ‘touch/dissect’. Our Beingness is that which is
suppressed by the Mind System. One can only reference the existence of one’s
Beingness through the point of Awareness. This means that, the fact that one is
AWARE, the fact that one can SEE and OBSERVE the thoughts/imaginations you have
for example: it is THAT which SEES, which OBSERVE, which is AWARE of the
thoughts, the imaginations. It’s like, if you for a moment look at the process
unfolding in the Mind/Secret Mind when you think/imagine, it’s like you’re at
the same time watching it AND participating in it. If/as YOU were the thought
itself or the imagination itself, you would have then seen/experienced yourself
AS the imagination/thought itself, seeing/experiencing everything through the
eyes of thoughts/imagination. But, we’re not, it’s more like we’re looking,
watching and observing it all unfold in the Mind – thus, proving that,
thoughts/imaginations are ‘separate things’ in our Consciousness/Mind. Then,
obviously we have the Physical Body – that which is the ‘source of life’ for
Consciousness through which Consciousness/the Mind resource its
emotional/feeling energy from/of and also the ability to create the Thoughts,
the Imaginations for example. This one can learn more about in the Quantum Mind
Interview Series. Also, to understand more the Trinity Relationship between
the Mind/Beingness and Physical Body and why our Beingness is not the Primary
Awareness of ourselves/our living – suggest investing in the EQAFE Series Atlanteans, Reptilians and Kryon.
So, within the as the Paranoia of Suicide, there exist in
sense of Overwhelmingness. Like, there is this “experience” of energy in one’s
Mind and in one’s Body that is just SO overwhelming that one want to stop it,
and is this energy that becomes defined into and as Suicidal Thoughts and
Imaginations. Therefore, what we first have to Understand is this ENERGY –
where/how does this energy come from? How do we Create it? Because, obviously,
this energy, this experience within our Minds/Bodies was NOT there
within/during our childhood – so, how did it come to possess our Minds and
Bodies to the point of wanting to commit suicide? To understand this, let us
draw from the Paranormal Realities of the hereafter/afterlife to from there
understand how your Mind/Consciousness also function/operate in relation to
ENERGY:
So, in the hererafter/afterlife – before the Portal opened,
there were different dimensional planes of existence. Each dimensional plane
consisting of/existing as a particular energy frequency/vibration. Your
Mind/Consciousness exist in the exact same way, as your emotions/feelings can
be categorized as different ‘mind dimensional planes’, because each emotion and
feeling as its own frequency/vibration/substance/definition. Now, beings in the
hereafter/afterlife – dependent on their substance/vibration, would accordingly
align themselves into and as specific dimensional planes. With energy emerging
in your Consciousness, especially a specific energy or emotion that is in the
process of defining itself – will also ‘connect itself to a specific
dimensional plane’ in your consciousness to start defining itself into an
entity/being/force that will become a Personality in/as your Mind.
So, now we first have to look at how that ENERGY/emotion
creates itself in the first place! This process can be multi-dimensional,
meaning: if one reference the Quantum Mind Series, one will learn that
emotional energy is produced through a friction/conflict relationship of your mind/consciousness
to/as the substance in your physical body. This is imperative to understand to
understand your own emotions and feelings and how they are in fact created. The
moment that energy is created, it starts looking for its place, it’s definition,
its purpose for its existence. Now, what can trigger the creation of such an
emotional energy is memories and/or when something happens in your
world/environment that one’s mind/consciousness preprogramming cannot deal
with/handle and/or when/as one do not have the reasoning/understanding skills
to handle/deal with that something/someone internally – this can trigger an
emotional reaction. If one reference the Parenting Interview Series, we explain
within it that: us Humans aren’t ‘educated’ from childhood with regards to how
to process reality information commonsensically, for most part, as children, we
REACT to our external environment – emotionally. The consequence of this being,
that: as children, one can accumulate so many emotional reactions within you,
most of them ‘undefined’, ‘cause you did not understand them – that then later
in life can accumulate into and as this Energy that leads to Suicidal
tendencies, because ALL that energy that one accumulated becomes SO
OVERWHELMING in the mind, self and the body that one do not know what else to
do with it/change it but to ‘end it’. See, beings think/believe that with
suicide that you believe that you want to ‘kill yourself / end yourself’ – but,
what is in fact the story within/behind it all is the ENERGY and the THOUGHTS
of suicide that one want to stop/end/get away from.
I mean, as children – imagine, you come in as an ‘innocent
consciousness’, not knowing what to
expect and already as a child you’re exposed to parents arguing / lashing out,
loud voices, explosive behaviour, bullying from other kids, - I mean shit, here
I am in this world, arms wide open and you’re met with all this shit? With NO
comprehension/understanding/tools/education with regards to how to handle,
direct, change the REACTIONS you as a kid experience in such circumstances and
so for most part, ALL such reactions/internal processes goes into suppression,
because as a child, at that stage, your consciousness is not yet developed
enough to transform reactions/emotions into vocabulary/thought in the Mind.
But, the moment when/as your consciousness/mind develops its vocabulary when
you’re introduced to words, THAT’S when consciousness steps in and starts the
process of defining prominent emotional/feelings experiences that accumulated in
your mind/body during childhood.
We’ll continue with this in the Next Post
Thank you for this explanation, certainly something we had never considered until now