The Forward March to HELL: DAY 28
In this post, we’ll be going into more detail/specificity
regarding the process of movement as we started walking it within
DAY 24 and
DAY 25, from the perspective of how we conditioned/manifested our movement out
of the mother’s womb within and as the starting-point of negative-energy
experience, with (mostly) extensive crying as the physical body surge of
negative-energy experience and pain and within this: what the consequence of
our movement as energy/mind through the consumption of the physical manifested
within ourselves and this physical existence as a whole.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to,
throughout time – manifest my movement within and through the motivation /
instigation from, of and as negative-energy experience. Where my initial
conception of me as
separation from and of the whole, instigated
friction/conflict as opposition – in that friction/conflict instigation ignited
the combustion of substance-consumption that transformed substance into and as
negative-energy experience – as the
fire would consume the wood through
ignition of friction/conflict, equal-to and one-with how I as energy, would
consume substance with the ignition of friction and conflict; and so consume
the wood/substance-manifest, as I would only exist as Fire/Energy as long as I
consume the wood/substance-manifest through friction/conflict as
negative-energy experience. In this process, for standing solid in one point as
a manifested-singularity that initially conceived myself into existence as
energy through separation as friction/conflict that reverberated/rippled into
and as my beingness and accumulated neutral and positive-energy experience, as
the energy-experience ripples/reverberations/fire consumed my very beingness
within and as my manifested-singularity for it to accumulate, as eventually as
I stand there in the one point as manifested-singularity, as fire burning from
wood – reaching my utmost optimum experience as positive-energy experience, as
the fire consuming the wood reach its utmost tip of burning as its highest
flames. And as the substance within my beingness, and external
formation/structure as manifested-singularity within and as that one
point/position diminished – my positive-energy experience/highest flame started
diminishing to experiencing ‘only me’ as neutral-energy experience, and
eventually the lesser of me as energy as negative-energy/experience/the
simmering of the fire within the consumed-wood.
And so, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to as Energy - because my awareness of and as me as Energy had already
been defined within and as the MORE of/as me as positive-energy experience/highest
Flame,
I in and as my
manifested-singularity moved myself to search/look for the experience of/as me
within and as myself as the MORE of/as me as positive-
energy experience, which
I as Energy did through moving myself within and as existence/substance with an
abundance of substance as existence as the whole available to me as Energy to
consume as I move myself as a manifested-singularity within and through
existence, as the Fire would move itself in and as its environment in its
search for the survival of itself as the highest flame, through consuming more
physical-materials to transform into Fire. And as I MOVED through and as the
motivation of/as the lesser experience of/as me as negative-energy experience
to look/
search for the more of and as me as positive-energy experience, the
very movement generated/created more friction/conflict as negative-energy
experience as I move within, through and as substance itself as
existence-manifest, and my very movement create the motion in the relationship
between my manifested-singularity and substance/existence, as my manifested-singularity
formation/structure accumulate negative-energy experience within and as my
constant/continuous friction/conflict to/towards it within and as my
constant/continuous movement within and as it. And as the negative-energy
accumulate as I consume
substance in and as my very movement as
manifested-singularity within and as existence, so did the neutral energy
experience accumulate into and as the positive-energy experience of/as MORE
of/as me. Equal-to and One-with how Fire itself would move itself, in that very
movement motion the process of consuming the wood/physical materials through
and as the friction/conflict it manifest to/towards the wood/physical-materials
for it to reach its highest flame and so continue existing/surviving. And so,
from that moment – the very movement of and as me as manifested-singularity was
constant/continuous in/through the motivation of/as me - searching for/looking
for the MORE of and as me as Energy within/as myself as positive
energy-experience the moment I started experiencing either the neutral-energy
experience of/as ‘only me’ and/or the negative-energy experience of/as the
lesser of me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to,
throughout time thus – manifest my emergence/rebirth into and as this
physical-existence as existence/substance manifest, where – within the mother’s
womb I develop/manifest simultaneously through the process of conception as
Mind and inception as Physicality; within and during that process
rebirthing/re-emerging the
Energy-Reality from and of the consumption of and as
the Physical-Reality. With the mother’s womb, equal-to and one-with my initial
positioning within and as one point within and as existence:
Where: as I developed/manifested my Energy-Reality as
energy-awareness of me as negative-energy experience, to neutral and positive
within and as my manifested-singularity in and as the one point/location within
and as existence. Equal-to and one with where I develop/manifest my
Energy-Reality as energy-awareness of me as negative-energy experience, to
neutral and
positive within and as my physical-body in and as the one
point/location within and as this physical existence as the mother’s womb.
Where:
as I was
within that one point/location within and as existence as manifested-singularity,
developing/manifesting my energy-awareness into and as the positive-energy
experience, consuming all the substance available to me within my beingness and
manifested-singularity structure/formation within and as that one point/location:
my positive-energy experience awareness started diminishing/lessening to the
experience of ‘only me’ as neutral-energy experience, to the lesser of me as
energy as negative-energy experience. Which was the first moment/instance that
instigated/motivated the act/action of movement of me as the manifested-singularity
through existence: where that movement allowed me to accumulate more
friction/conflict as negative-energy experience and so the neutral and positive
energy experience. Because, the more I moved, the more substance of existence I
consumed and transformed into Energy – from my external formation/structure
into and as my beingness. Equal-to and One with – in the mother’s womb, as my
conception and inception process manifest into the successful development/manifestation
of my physical-body and development/manifestation of my energy-awareness, from
the negative, to the neutral to the positive-energy experience as the more of
me, that I reached as I consumed from and of my physicality and my beingness
within and as my physical-body: my positive-energy experience eventually starts
diminishing/depleting as within that one point/location within and as the
mother’s womb – I have
consumed all the resources/substance available to me
within and as my physical-body and beingness to consume to experience my
energy-awareness of and as positive-energy experience. And so, my very moment
out of/from the mother’s womb/that one location/position/point, is a
physical-movement of me as negative-energy experience, that move the very
physical-body – as I as the negative-energy experience of/as the lesser of me
physically moved me as manifested-singularity out of/from that one
position/location – to as negative-energy experience within and as my
physical-body, physically move myself into and as this physical-existence, from
where I will within and as my constant/continuous physical-movement as
negative-energy experience, consume from and of this physical-existence and my
beingness, for me to accumulate my neutral energy experience of only me, to my
positive-energy experience of and as the more of me as Energy.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand, how – in the beginning, my very first ‘physical
movement’ as manifested-singularity was FORward FOR the REward of and as myself
as Energy as positive-energy experience. With (FOR)(war)d:
FOR - as the initial motivation/instigation of me as
Energy-awareness searching-FOR/looking-FOR the experience of me as the
awareness of me as energy as positive-energy experience, and MOTIVEation – the
motive for my movement as the search/looking for Energy as me, with my motive
(moti) initiated (vation) as starting-point from and of the negative-energy
experience as the ‘lesser’ of/as me as energy-awareness, to search for/look for
the ‘more’ of me as positive-energy experience of/as me as Energy.
WAR(d) – as I search FOR and look FOR the more of and as me
as energy-experience in and as my motivation/instigation by/through the
negative-energy experience of and as the lesser experience of me as Energy, my
very movement/act of movement FOR(war)d stand within and as the nature of war,
as I consume substance through and as my manifested-opposition to/towards
existence/substance as me through constant/continuous friction/conflict within
and as my very manifested-singularity structure/formation of and as me,
transforming substance into and as negative-energy experience, that accumulate
the neutral and so the positive-energy experience of and as the more of and as
me as energy.
Thus, FOR(war)d – (d) the manifestation of and as me, as
starting-point of and as action/physical-movement as manifested-singularity –
moving myself within and as existence/substance, instigated/motivated
by/through the negative-energy experience of and as the lesser of and as me
(FOR) me to accumulate energy within myself through consumption of substance
(war) within and as friction/conflict; as experiencing the more of and as me as
positive-energy experience. With (RE)(war)(d):
RE – as the receiving/having/getting more Energy for me
within myself to experience the positive-energy experience of and as the more
of me as Energy, which I do through the act/action/physical-movement of me
(FOR)(war)d, and the more I move forward – the more the
REceiving/having/getting more Energy for me within myself manifest, as in and
as my very movement, I consume substance from and of existence as a whole.
WAR(d) – as I within and as my very nature/self as Energy –
manifest war against/to/towards me as existence/substance as a whole, because
for me to receive/get/have energy, I have to move forward, and thus in that
very movement/doing as Forward, that manifest from and of my very nature of me
as Energy, my very nature stand within the starting-point of war as
initiating/instigating physical-movement as movement forward for me to
accumulate/get/have/receive more energy for me to fulfil my purpose/reason as
Energy to experience the more of and as me as energy as positive-energy
experience.
I forgive myself that I have thus accepted and allowed
myself to, manifested the very nature of me as Energy as Reward, and the very
action/movement of me as Forward within and as the starting-point of and as
accumulating more energy for me within and as myself, through and as the
consumption of and as substance/existence for only me to experience my
positive-energy experience of and as the more of me, that I do through waging
war (earning energy) through and as constant/continuous friction/conflict
to/towards existence/substance as me.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see/realise/understand, the exact nature of how and why, initially within
and as my one position/location within and as existence as
manifested-singularity did not sustain my process of consuming substance from
and of existence without, and my beingness within, where: from and of my
external formation/structure as manifested-singularity, that produced the
negative-energy experience as I consumed from and of substance/existence without,
that rippled/reverberated into and as my beingness within, for the neutral and
positive-energy experience to consume my beingness to be able to exist/survive.
That my very physical-movement forward for my reward of and as Energy –
initiated the process, whereby: in my moving forward – I moved ‘deeper into’
substance/existence without, where the deeper I move into substance/exist
without, the more substance is available in the depths of substance-itself/ as existence-manifest
for me to consume and transform into and as negative-energy experience. And so,
the same manifested in the within of myself as my beingness of/as substance,
where: the energy-experience that would reverberate/ripple into and as my
beingness, would move deeper into and as my beingness/the depth of my beingness
as substance-manifest and so consume more of my substance as beingness-manifest
and accumulate itself from the neutral-energy experience, to the
positive-energy experience. Equal-to and one-with the movement of Fire within
and as this physical-existence, that would from its one-point/one-location with
the resources/physical materials available to it within and as that one
point/one location – would move itself forward for its reward of and as the
highest flame, and in that movement forward – would move deeper into and as
this physical existence, and in its process of movement deeper into its
environment, would consume the very physical-materials for it to reach its
highest flame.
We’ll continue in the next post, with how this movement into
the depths of substance within and without, to consume substance for energy:
equally as one manifested our movement out of the mother’s womb, forward,
head-first. With the cries the sound of negative-energy experience through,
with and as the physical as sounding its starting point of war against the
physical/this physical existence, by consuming physicality/substance for Energy
to continue existing/surviving as the Mind within the Physical-Body. Until
eventually where the depths of substance had been transformed into energy
relationships of unified fields, that eventually manifest to the final
diminishment/depletion of Energy; as we as energy consumed all of/as substance
itself for a finite existence as energy’ instead of standing with and as substance
in and as equality and oneness and living
eternally here with and as substance
as
Life.
I commit myself to – through
writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application assist and support me to
put out the fire of me asEnergy/Mind/Consciousness that has consumed my physical-body and beingness, and
equally as one putting out the Fire as me within this physical-existence as
me
as the World-System of Money that has
equally as one consumed from and of this physical existence, as the very physical-materials/manifestations
and lives of beings/manifestations within this physical existence for it to
continue surviving/existing.
I see, realise and understand, that – for me as Energy/Fire
to exist, I consume my very beingness/physicality for me as Fire/Energy to only
exist for a finite-moment in and as the eternity of and as this physical
existence as a whole. And so, through writing, self forgiveness and self
corrective application – I commit myself to, assisting and supporting me, to
release the fear of not existing as Fire/Energy, that can only exist when I
know that I will cease to exist as Energy/Fire eventually, because my existence
is dependent on the consumption of substance/physicality of which I only have
so much opportunity/time to use/abuse for me as Energy/Fire to exist for a
finite moment.. And in releasing this Fear through releasing myself from and of
Energy as the Mind/Consciousness and returning me to Substance/Physicality as
the process I walk in standing/being/becoming the Living Word as transforming
myself from Energy-experience to Physical-Living, to stand equal-to and
one-with substance/physicality/existence: I will come to see/realise/understand
that I have not ever in fact existed/lived – I have survived through
consumption. That I have never in fact existed/lived as I have missed Life,
here as existence in and as
equality and oneness as me, and so in that – my
fear of not existing was only manifested, because I wasn’t
EXISTence in fact as
eternity, here.
In this, I commit myself to
being a living-example – to
have others walk with me, in and as equality and oneness, as we all walk
together in putting out our fires/energy as Mind within and as ourselves,
stopping the process of beingness/physical consumption and actually
being/becoming living-beings, instead of consuming energy-systems; to in our
standing-together – walk into and as the
World-System of Money, to together put
out the Fire in and as the without as ourselves that we’ve created/manifested
together, and manifest the System as the
Equal Money System –that do not
consume life, but gift Life.
I commit myself, to thus – as I put out the Fire/stop as
returning me as Energy/Consciousness/Mind to and as the Physical in
being/becoming a living being of and as equality and oneness: thus stop the
movement of me as forward for the reward of and as positive-energy experience
as the more of me, as my self-interested participation in this existence as me,
as I consume substance/physicality within my movement forward for only me to exist/survive
as reward. That I have to see/realise/understand that I must first STOP, which I
do with and as breath, and my process of and as writing, self forgiveness and self
corrective application and stand equal-to and one-with the movement as expression
of and as my physical-body, to see/realise/understand what movement as expression
in and as equality and oneness really in fact mean.
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