The Soul of Fear: Day 35

Energy as Authority - Part Five

The Chicken or the Egg??? – Part Six

How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – Part Seventeen

Who I Am as Money – continued

As mentioned in the previous post, we’re walking how we as Blame within ourselves in the beginning, to the evolution of ourselves as the Mind and the creation of ourselves as the World-System of Money within and as the deliberate nature and action of ourselves as spite, excuse and justification: have deliberately ‘suppressed’ the evidence as consequence of our existence as Energy-Authority in deifying ourselves into ‘godliness’ and defying actual Life-Authority into and as ungodliness. Where to this day – we see the consequence of ourselves as Mind and World-System of Energy and Money in our physical-bodies and this physical-existence, but deliberately not see our individual responsibility to our relationship as the Mind to the Physical and the World-System of Money to this physical-existence. To understand how we as Blame – within and as spite, excuse and justification protect/defend our existence/survival as Energy, and deliberately not see/face the consequence we create/manifest in this – first have to understand Fear, Energy as Fear, and how Fear became our Consciousness that has manifested the acceptance and allowance of our existence as Energy-Authority to life/substance as existence as a whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in the beginning – from and of my initial conception of separation to/towards substance/existence-manifest, manifested friction/conflict that consumed substance into negative-energy experience from and of my external formation as manifested-singularity, where the negative-energy experience reverberated/rippled as accumulated into my beingness within my manifested-singularity, which consumed my beingness into and as neutral-energy experience awareness and from here accumulated into and as positive-energy experience. Where, because I conceived as defined my ‘who, what and how I am’ as Energy – my awareness as energy shifted from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive. In this shifting of and as energy-awareness – I separated my awareness as Energy to only exist within and as the positive-energy experience of and as the MORE of me as Energy.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - for me to maintain and sustain my positive-energy experience awareness of and as the MORE of me as my possession/possessing as survival of and as myself as Energy, I continued accepting and allowing my nature and action within and as Blame as deliberate spite, excuse and justification – deifying me as Energy-Authority as ‘life’ – blasphemizing actual Life as substance-manifest in and as my beingness and manifested-singularity as substance-manifest, in the nature and action of me as excusing life-authority for energy-authority as me to assert myself just to survive/continue existing.

I forgive myself, that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how - in this process of shifting my awareness into and as Energy as the negative, neutral and positive – my only purpose/responsibility as Energy came into existence as possessing me as Energy and surviving as Energy within and through the nature and action relationship of me as Energy to/towards substance as Blame within and as deliberate spite, excuse and justification; manifested as deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, manifest the purpose/responsibility of me as Energy – to only possess me as Energy, with the nature of that possession as Survival; within and through the nature and action of and as the entirety of me as Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification. In this, only manifested my responsibility to me as Energy-Survival, and separated me from my responsibility to and as all as me as substance/existence-manifest. In this accepted and allowed separation from and of Responsibility to and as Life/Living as Substance-manifest – to possession and survival of and as me as Energy within and as the nature and action of Blame through spite, excuse and justification: Deifying me as Energy and defying Life as Substance-manifest – I asserted my Authority to such an extent, where I would accept and allow any and all abuse, misuse and manipulation as negative-energy experience friction/conflict for me as Energy to survive and possess me, because the friction/conflict as negative-energy experience is the only way/means/method within and through which I attain/accumulate my positive-energy experience. And therefore, from this moment – my entire existence would exist within the starting-point responsibility and purpose of possession and survival of and as me as Energy within and as the nature and act of me as Blame, through spite, excuse and justification.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow such an existence of me as Energy to/towards Substance/Life-manifest that I reasoned as valid/necessary for me as Energy to possess me and so survive/continue existing, and because I deified me as Energy-Authority into ‘godliness’ and Life-authority as Substance/existence-manifest into ‘ungodliness’ – it made it easier to accept and allow myself to in and as blame, spite, excuse and justification continue with my existence as deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand that what of me as Energy-Authority is maintaining/sustaining this relationship of me to/towards Substance/Life-manifest – to this day as the Mind/Energy-Authority relationship to the Physical-Body, and the World-System of Money’s-Authority relationship to this Physical-Existence: is my starting-point purpose/responsibility of possession and survival as Energy/Mind/Money-Authority that can and does only exist within my assertion of me as Energy/Mind/Money-Authority being ‘godly’ – and the rest of existence, as my physical-body, this physical existence as substance-manifest being ‘ungodly’. In this Godly Deifying of me as Energy-Authority, and Defying of Life-Authority as Substance-manifest into and as Ungodliness, within and as me as Blame as the nature and action of me as spite, excuse and justification - giving me thus the authority over and of physicality/substance-manifest, in deeming it my servant to do with it as I please for my pleasure as consuming substance/physicality to transform into energy for my pursuit of pleasuring me as Energy into and as positive-energy experience awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to – in and as this Energy-Authority relationship to/towards Life-Authority as substance-manifest, manifest that which make me as Energy-Possession and Survival possible: ‘less than me’ / inferior to me. When it’s in fact all in reverse, I as Energy-Authority am in fact less than/inferior Life-Authority as Substance-manifest, because I only exist to the evolution of myself as positive-energy experience, and have to diminish the nature and action of me to Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification to possess me as Energy and to survive as Energy; existing as possession and survival within blame as spite, excuse and justification – instead of existing/living here in and as equality and oneness with and as Life/Substance-manifest within eternal expression and creation.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, how – the moment in my beingness/manifested singularity in my first experience of me as energy-awareness from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive; where in that one position/location within existence – my positive-energy experience awareness started diminishing/lessening to the neutral and to the negative: how this moment was the birth of the substance of me as Energy as Fear. Because in that moment I perceived/believed I ‘lost’ my positive-energy experience awareness, and so had to go ‘find/search/seek’ my positive-energy experience awareness, which I did within and as my movement/motion forward for my reward as Energy within and as the starting-point of me as negative-energy experience that initiated/instigated the movement, and as I moved forward for my reward in and as the starting-point of fear as negative-energy experience; the energy consumed deeper into my beingness, manifested-singularity and existence-manifest; and in that consumption – accumulated my energy-awareness from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive. Thus, my starting point of and as survival as possession of me as Energy as positive-energy experience awareness stood within and as fear within and as the action and nature of me as Blame through deliberate spite, excuse and justification – to continue surviving as possessing me as Energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to throughout time, exist within and as fear of ‘losing my positive-energy experience awareness’ of and as me as the possession and survival of me as Energy-awareness, and in and as this Fear of Loss, accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow my relationship to substance/life-manifest within and as the nature and action of me as Blame through spite, excuse and justification within the starting-point of me as friction/conflict negative-energy experience for me as energy to possess me and survive as me.

Thus, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand that my very nature and action of and as Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification as  deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness: only exist within and as fear. Fear of losing me/my Authority/survival/possession as Energy. And so will, and have throughout time – deliberately accepted and allowed my relationship as energy to substance/life as blame within and as spite, excuse and justification of and as fear, as the godly relationship/authority of energy to the ungodliness of life/substance-manifest – for me as Energy to survive/possess me as Energy.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, that me as Energy apparently being ‘godly/authoritative’ is just a cover-up - when the truth of my existence as Energy is in fact fear; and will continue accepting and allowing the relationship of deliberate consumption and consequence to/towards substance/life-manifest to protect and defend that fear through and as blame within and as spite, excuse and justification to not ‘lose me’ as Energy.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, that – the only Authority I as Energy in fact have, is the authority of possession as the accumulation of me as Energy and power of consumption through deliberate Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification – that is empowered into and as godliness through and as deliberate friction/conflict as negative-energy experience as the existence of me as Energy in protecting and defending my possession/survival of and as Energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to accept and allow me to create myself as Energy as Fear, existing only to possess/survive me as Energy within and as the nature and action of me as blame within and as spite, excuse and justification – serving only my interest/pursuit of happiness as survival/possession of Energy, making my existence/purpose/responsibility only to me, myself and I as energy possession/survival.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand – how, I will thus not, and cannot have any concern/regard/consideration for any other part of me within and as existence as substance-manifest; because the fear as Energy possess me as my possession of and as my survival as Energy to such an extent, that I will continue existing to/towards all and everything and everyone in and as deliberate blame of spite, excuse and justification to protect/defend my survival/possession of and as Energy. And will thus, within this – continue accepting and allowing my nature and action of Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification as deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness, both within myself and the without as myself – to ensure my continued possession/survival as Energy.

We’ll continue in the next post, with how this Fear manifested as a ‘presence’ within our unconscious, subconscious and conscious-mind as Consciousness – that manifested into and as our entire Minds, protecting and defending our action and nature of blame within and as spite, excuse and justification – where this Fear became a force/presence/entity that took control/authority over and of our awareness as Energy; and it is this Fear that suppressed us into not seeing/realising/understanding the consequences of ourselves as Energy-Authority over and of the physical-body and this physical-existence. In this – how, essentially – our beingness became that of fear for survival and possession, and completely programmed our Minds/Consciousness in that starting-point and how we deliberately use Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification to protect and defend that fear. Instead of us standing up for Life/Equality and Oneness – we fall into the protection and defence of Fear as the survival/possession of ourselves as Energy.

I commit myself to – through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, assist and support me in and as my process of transforming my Mind/Consciousness existence of and as fear as survival/possession within and as the nature and action of me as Blame within and as deliberate spite, excuse and justification – into and as a living-being, equal-to and one-with the living-flesh as my human physical body; to birth me as eternal life from and of the physical.

I commit myself to, assist and support myself within and during writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, not accept and allow myself to give-into resistance, postponement, apathy, laziness – as I see/realise/understand that such constructs are in fact protection/defence mechanisms of manipulation within and as the starting-point of fear of Consciousness/the Mind to protect/defend its survival/continued existence for me not to change/transform me from Energy-Survival to Physical-Living of and as equality and oneness with and as the Physical. As this change/transformation would mean the End of Energy, and the Beginning of Life, and energy will fight for its survival at the cost of life/physicality/substance-manifest – but I decide to live and no more accept and allow an inferior/limited existence of survival as Energy, but to stand as life-expression in and as equality and oneness with and as my physical-body and so this physical existence.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application assist and support myself, to re-establish life/physical-authority within and as my physical-body and so this physical-existence, to no more accept and allow myself to be controlled, manipulated and directed by Energy as Consciousness within Fear of/for Survival and Possession. But to in fact live and stand up for and as life/physicality as substance-manifest, so that we can stop – firstly within ourselves and then the without as ourselves - our accepted and allowed natures and actions of blame, within and as spite, excuse and justification of and as fear for possession/survival of and as energy/money; that we’ve accepted and allowed to manipulate, abuse and misuse physicality/life-manifest.

I commit myself, to show, reveal and expose the true nature of Energy/Consciousness/Mind/Money Authority as the fraudulent ‘god’ it in fact is within this existence, that exist only in and as fear, to survive and to possess only itself within and as the deliberate nature and action of Blame as spite, excuse and justification – that has manipulated, abused, and misused the actual god/life as the physical-body and this physical-existence. So that all energy-gods can humbly step down to the equality and oneness of the Physical, and start the process of standing equal-to and one-with physicality as life/substance-manifest, to stop our internal and external consequences of manipulation, abuse and misuse of physicality/life and start the process of in fact birthing and creating Life/Living in ourselves and this existence as ourselves.

  

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The Forward March to HELL: DAY 28

How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – Part Ten

Who I Am as Money – continued

In this post, we’ll be going into more detail/specificity regarding the process of movement as we started walking it within DAY 24 and DAY 25, from the perspective of how we conditioned/manifested our movement out of the mother’s womb within and as the starting-point of negative-energy experience, with (mostly) extensive crying as the physical body surge of negative-energy experience and pain and within this: what the consequence of our movement as energy/mind through the consumption of the physical manifested within ourselves and this physical existence as a whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, throughout time – manifest my movement within and through the motivation / instigation from, of and as negative-energy experience. Where my initial conception of me as separation from and of the whole, instigated friction/conflict as opposition – in that friction/conflict instigation ignited the combustion of substance-consumption that transformed substance into and as negative-energy experience – as the fire would consume the wood through ignition of friction/conflict, equal-to and one-with how I as energy, would consume substance with the ignition of friction and conflict; and so consume the wood/substance-manifest, as I would only exist as Fire/Energy as long as I consume the wood/substance-manifest through friction/conflict as negative-energy experience. In this process, for standing solid in one point as a manifested-singularity that initially conceived myself into existence as energy through separation as friction/conflict that reverberated/rippled into and as my beingness and accumulated neutral and positive-energy experience, as the energy-experience ripples/reverberations/fire consumed my very beingness within and as my manifested-singularity for it to accumulate, as eventually as I stand there in the one point as manifested-singularity, as fire burning from wood – reaching my utmost optimum experience as positive-energy experience, as the fire consuming the wood reach its utmost tip of burning as its highest flames. And as the substance within my beingness, and external formation/structure as manifested-singularity within and as that one point/position diminished – my positive-energy experience/highest flame started diminishing to experiencing ‘only me’ as neutral-energy experience, and eventually the lesser of me as energy as negative-energy/experience/the simmering of the fire within the consumed-wood.

And so, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as Energy - because my awareness of and as me as Energy had already been defined within and as the MORE of/as me as positive-energy experience/highest Flame,  I in and as my manifested-singularity moved myself to search/look for the experience of/as me within and as myself as the MORE of/as me as positive-energy experience, which I as Energy did through moving myself within and as existence/substance with an abundance of substance as existence as the whole available to me as Energy to consume as I move myself as a manifested-singularity within and through existence, as the Fire would move itself in and as its environment in its search for the survival of itself as the highest flame, through consuming more physical-materials to transform into Fire. And as I MOVED through and as the motivation of/as the lesser experience of/as me as negative-energy experience to look/search for the more of and as me as positive-energy experience, the very movement generated/created more friction/conflict as negative-energy experience as I move within, through and as substance itself as existence-manifest, and my very movement create the motion in the relationship between my manifested-singularity and substance/existence, as my manifested-singularity formation/structure accumulate negative-energy experience within and as my constant/continuous friction/conflict to/towards it within and as my constant/continuous movement within and as it. And as the negative-energy accumulate as I consume substance in and as my very movement as manifested-singularity within and as existence, so did the neutral energy experience accumulate into and as the positive-energy experience of/as MORE of/as me. Equal-to and One-with how Fire itself would move itself, in that very movement motion the process of consuming the wood/physical materials through and as the friction/conflict it manifest to/towards the wood/physical-materials for it to reach its highest flame and so continue existing/surviving. And so, from that moment – the very movement of and as me as manifested-singularity was constant/continuous in/through the motivation of/as me - searching for/looking for the MORE of and as me as Energy within/as myself as positive energy-experience the moment I started experiencing either the neutral-energy experience of/as ‘only me’ and/or the negative-energy experience of/as the lesser of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, throughout time thus – manifest my emergence/rebirth into and as this physical-existence as existence/substance manifest, where – within the mother’s womb I develop/manifest simultaneously through the process of conception as Mind and inception as Physicality; within and during that process rebirthing/re-emerging the Energy-Reality from and of the consumption of and as the Physical-Reality. With the mother’s womb, equal-to and one-with my initial positioning within and as one point within and as existence:

Where: as I developed/manifested my Energy-Reality as energy-awareness of me as negative-energy experience, to neutral and positive within and as my manifested-singularity in and as the one point/location within and as existence. Equal-to and one with where I develop/manifest my Energy-Reality as energy-awareness of me as negative-energy experience, to neutral and positive within and as my physical-body in and as the one point/location within and as this physical existence as the mother’s womb.

Where:  as I was within that one point/location within and as existence as manifested-singularity, developing/manifesting my energy-awareness into and as the positive-energy experience, consuming all the substance available to me within my beingness and manifested-singularity structure/formation within and as that one point/location: my positive-energy experience awareness started diminishing/lessening to the experience of ‘only me’ as neutral-energy experience, to the lesser of me as energy as negative-energy experience. Which was the first moment/instance that instigated/motivated the act/action of movement of me as the manifested-singularity through existence: where that movement allowed me to accumulate more friction/conflict as negative-energy experience and so the neutral and positive energy experience. Because, the more I moved, the more substance of existence I consumed and transformed into Energy – from my external formation/structure into and as my beingness. Equal-to and One with – in the mother’s womb, as my conception and inception process manifest into the successful development/manifestation of my physical-body and development/manifestation of my energy-awareness, from the negative, to the neutral to the positive-energy experience as the more of me, that I reached as I consumed from and of my physicality and my beingness within and as my physical-body: my positive-energy experience eventually starts diminishing/depleting as within that one point/location within and as the mother’s womb – I have consumed all the resources/substance available to me within and as my physical-body and beingness to consume to experience my energy-awareness of and as positive-energy experience. And so, my very moment out of/from the mother’s womb/that one location/position/point, is a physical-movement of me as negative-energy experience, that move the very physical-body – as I as the negative-energy experience of/as the lesser of me physically moved me as manifested-singularity out of/from that one position/location – to as negative-energy experience within and as my physical-body, physically move myself into and as this physical-existence, from where I will within and as my constant/continuous physical-movement as negative-energy experience, consume from and of this physical-existence and my beingness, for me to accumulate my neutral energy experience of only me, to my positive-energy experience of and as the more of me as Energy.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, how – in the beginning, my very first ‘physical movement’ as manifested-singularity was FORward FOR the REward of and as myself as Energy as positive-energy experience. With (FOR)(war)d:

FOR - as the initial motivation/instigation of me as Energy-awareness searching-FOR/looking-FOR the experience of me as the awareness of me as energy as positive-energy experience, and MOTIVEation – the motive for my movement as the search/looking for Energy as me, with my motive (moti) initiated (vation) as starting-point from and of the negative-energy experience as the ‘lesser’ of/as me as energy-awareness, to search for/look for the ‘more’ of me as positive-energy experience of/as me as Energy.

WAR(d) – as I search FOR and look FOR the more of and as me as energy-experience in and as my motivation/instigation by/through the negative-energy experience of and as the lesser experience of me as Energy, my very movement/act of movement FOR(war)d stand within and as the nature of war, as I consume substance through and as my manifested-opposition to/towards existence/substance as me through constant/continuous friction/conflict within and as my very manifested-singularity structure/formation of and as me, transforming substance into and as negative-energy experience, that accumulate the neutral and so the positive-energy experience of and as the more of and as me as energy.

Thus, FOR(war)d – (d) the manifestation of and as me, as starting-point of and as action/physical-movement as manifested-singularity – moving myself within and as existence/substance, instigated/motivated by/through the negative-energy experience of and as the lesser of and as me (FOR) me to accumulate energy within myself through consumption of substance (war) within and as friction/conflict; as experiencing the more of and as me as positive-energy experience. With (RE)(war)(d):

RE – as the receiving/having/getting more Energy for me within myself to experience the positive-energy experience of and as the more of me as Energy, which I do through the act/action/physical-movement of me (FOR)(war)d, and the more I move forward – the more the REceiving/having/getting more Energy for me within myself manifest, as in and as my very movement, I consume substance from and of existence as a whole.

WAR(d) – as I within and as my very nature/self as Energy – manifest war against/to/towards me as existence/substance as a whole, because for me to receive/get/have energy, I have to move forward, and thus in that very movement/doing as Forward, that manifest from and of my very nature of me as Energy, my very nature stand within the starting-point of war as initiating/instigating physical-movement as movement forward for me to accumulate/get/have/receive more energy for me to fulfil my purpose/reason as Energy to experience the more of and as me as energy as positive-energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have thus accepted and allowed myself to, manifested the very nature of me as Energy as Reward, and the very action/movement of me as Forward within and as the starting-point of and as accumulating more energy for me within and as myself, through and as the consumption of and as substance/existence for only me to experience my positive-energy experience of and as the more of me, that I do through waging war (earning energy) through and as constant/continuous friction/conflict to/towards existence/substance as me.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, the exact nature of how and why, initially within and as my one position/location within and as existence as manifested-singularity did not sustain my process of consuming substance from and of existence without, and my beingness within, where: from and of my external formation/structure as manifested-singularity, that produced the negative-energy experience as I consumed from and of substance/existence without, that rippled/reverberated into and as my beingness within, for the neutral and positive-energy experience to consume my beingness to be able to exist/survive. That my very physical-movement forward for my reward of and as Energy – initiated the process, whereby: in my moving forward – I moved ‘deeper into’ substance/existence without, where the deeper I move into substance/exist without, the more substance is available in the depths of substance-itself/ as existence-manifest for me to consume and transform into and as negative-energy experience. And so, the same manifested in the within of myself as my beingness of/as substance, where: the energy-experience that would reverberate/ripple into and as my beingness, would move deeper into and as my beingness/the depth of my beingness as substance-manifest and so consume more of my substance as beingness-manifest and accumulate itself from the neutral-energy experience, to the positive-energy experience. Equal-to and one-with the movement of Fire within and as this physical-existence, that would from its one-point/one-location with the resources/physical materials available to it within and as that one point/one location – would move itself forward for its reward of and as the highest flame, and in that movement forward – would move deeper into and as this physical existence, and in its process of movement deeper into its environment, would consume the very physical-materials for it to reach its highest flame.

We’ll continue in the next post, with how this movement into the depths of substance within and without, to consume substance for energy: equally as one manifested our movement out of the mother’s womb, forward, head-first. With the cries the sound of negative-energy experience through, with and as the physical as sounding its starting point of war against the physical/this physical existence, by consuming physicality/substance for Energy to continue existing/surviving as the Mind within the Physical-Body. Until eventually where the depths of substance had been transformed into energy relationships of unified fields, that eventually manifest to the final diminishment/depletion of Energy; as we as energy consumed all of/as substance itself for a finite existence as energy’ instead of standing with and as substance in and as equality and oneness and living eternally here with and as substance as Life.

I commit myself to – through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application assist and support me to put out the fire of me asEnergy/Mind/Consciousness that has consumed my physical-body and beingness, and equally as one putting out the Fire as me within this physical-existence as me  as the World-System of Money that has equally as one consumed from and of this physical existence, as the very physical-materials/manifestations and lives of beings/manifestations within this physical existence for it to continue surviving/existing.

I see, realise and understand, that – for me as Energy/Fire to exist, I consume my very beingness/physicality for me as Fire/Energy to only exist for a finite-moment in and as the eternity of and as this physical existence as a whole. And so, through writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application – I commit myself to, assisting and supporting me, to release the fear of not existing as Fire/Energy, that can only exist when I know that I will cease to exist as Energy/Fire eventually, because my existence is dependent on the consumption of substance/physicality of which I only have so much opportunity/time to use/abuse for me as Energy/Fire to exist for a finite moment.. And in releasing this Fear through releasing myself from and of Energy as the Mind/Consciousness and returning me to Substance/Physicality as the process I walk in standing/being/becoming the Living Word as transforming myself from Energy-experience to Physical-Living, to stand equal-to and one-with substance/physicality/existence: I will come to see/realise/understand that I have not ever in fact existed/lived – I have survived through consumption. That I have never in fact existed/lived as I have missed Life, here as existence in and as equality and oneness as me, and so in that – my fear of not existing was only manifested, because I wasn’t EXISTence in fact as eternity, here.

In this, I commit myself to being a living-example – to have others walk with me, in and as equality and oneness, as we all walk together in putting out our fires/energy as Mind within and as ourselves, stopping the process of beingness/physical consumption and actually being/becoming living-beings, instead of consuming energy-systems; to in our standing-together – walk into and as the World-System of Money, to together put out the Fire in and as the without as ourselves that we’ve created/manifested together, and manifest the System as the Equal Money System –that do not consume life, but gift Life.

I commit myself, to thus – as I put out the Fire/stop as returning me as Energy/Consciousness/Mind to and as the Physical in being/becoming a living being of and as equality and oneness: thus stop the movement of me as forward for the reward of and as positive-energy experience as the more of me, as my self-interested participation in this existence as me, as I consume substance/physicality within my movement forward for only me to exist/survive as reward. That I have to see/realise/understand that I must first STOP, which I do with and as breath, and my process of and as writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application and stand equal-to and one-with the movement as expression of and as my physical-body, to see/realise/understand what movement as expression in and as equality and oneness really in fact mean. 

 

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Life and Death Engineering: DAY 10

Who I Am as Money – continued

In this post, in this dimension of the multi-dimensional relationship between ourselves as Illusion and Reality – we’re continuing having a look at the relationship between ourselves as who we are as energy within, and who we are as money without.

With our very ‘self’ currently existing as Energy as the Mind Consciousness System manifest – this ‘self’ as Energy has superimposed and so used/abused the Reality/Substance of ourselves within and as existence. This can be seen clearly now, for example within this world – in how the Mind of the human-being would superimpose their Illusionary Energy self as the Mind in their relationship with Money on this world/earth, and use/abuse the Earth/what is ‘real’ as nature/the animal-kingdom and human beings to attempt/try to make their Illusionary Mind-Reality real with Energy and Money.

This is how we’ve existed throughout time. Where, in the beginning – before the creation/manifestation of humanity/this physical existence – we were individual beings in a process of evolving as Energy, where for Energy to exist, we extracted/channelled our actual substance of/as equality and oneness into ourselves through friction generated from our deliberate separation as opposition-stance to/towards all as ourselves and created our individualized experiences of positivity/neutrality/negativity to/towards all as ourselves to maintain our survival as Energy through constant/continuous friction and experience.

From here, one can see within this world/on this Earth – where ‘life’ has become constant/continuous friction, internally and externally which generate experience/energy internally for our Minds and generate survival/money externally for the World-System as ourselves. Animals, Nature, Earth, Humans – their physical lives on this Earth, used/abused for the World-System of Money to continue existing, where the nature of the World-System of Money stands within the principle of inducing friction in their physical-lives to extract Money/their survival from/of them – taking, taking and taking. Equal-to and one-with what we accept/allow to do within ourselves with the relationship between the Mind and the Physical, where the Mind take and take and take Substance to transform it into and as Energy for itself. The Nature of what we have become is – TAKE AND TAKE AND TAKE, for survival: and this is everything and everyone within existence.

(See the solution of this Earth/Physical Existence –where we transform the principle of take, take and take as what each individual had been forced to succumb to within their entrapped conditions of survival on this Earth, to where each one stand within/as the principle of giving to all – equally as one. From individual taking, and taking and taking – to each individual standing alone and together: to give to All. The Equal Money System)

This is why/how – the Mind/Energy as Consciousness within as Evolved throughout time, our creations of technologies/systems has evolved throughout time: but what has in no way evolved is our ability as humanity to live together/function in this world-system together – with ourselves, each other, the earth, the animal-kingdom, nature…Technologies/Systems of Money within the circuit of the World-System has evolved, because they stand equal-to and one with how our Programming/Systems of Energy as our Mind Consciousness Systems have evolved within the realms of imagination/fantasy/personalities/thoughts/internal conversations/habits etc. As our Mind Consciousness Systems evolved, we’ve been further and further separated from our human physical bodies and this physical existence. Equal-to and one-with how the evolution of Technologies/Systems of the World-System of Money has separated humanity farther and farther and farther away from their direct relationship to/with this physical existence and what is real as the physical lives of all of humanity, nature, the animal-kingdom, the earth etc. This is because we’ve approached our relationship to ourselves and all within the starting-point of Energy within and Money without – and because of that starting-point, Energy within and Money without is what Evolved. But, ourselves and our equality and oneness with and as all…became lost in the Illusion Energy as the Mind created as ourselves and the World-System of Money created in this world/on this earth.

Life – is not Evolution. Life Lives. Life is Here. Evolution only exist from/through Systems as they move through time, utilizing their own past and simply expanding/specifying themselves based-on what they had been before. Thus, evolution is not Real Change – it’s simply an ‘upgrade’ from the previous condition it existed as. Evolution is past, present and future orientated. Where, the systems utilize its past, to upgrade it in the present for its continued survival in the future. Evolution is Survival-based, to attempt/try continued control over/of its continued existence. To exist in the past, present and future – means, self is not Here; because the past, present and future is a time-line that was manifested/created in the Mind for beings to not stand/be equal-to and one with their physical human bodies Here, Here which is the physical equality and oneness of/as this physical existence which is where we were supposed to have been. But, we’ve been lost in the Illusion of the Mind, stuck in the past, present and future as the Timing-Pillars of/as Consciousness that it use to Evolve/’upgrade’ its own Systems/Technologies for Survival. In this, we have missed HERE, our equality and oneness with and as this physical existence, and because we’ve missed HERE, missed REALITY – we’ve only evolved as Energy and Money, at the peril/cost of reality/substance/here as this physical existence.

As we continue walking this process in our posts – more of this relationship between Evolution of Consciousness/Energy and the World-System/Money will become clear, how we’ve been lost in Time as past, present and future – trying/attempting to survive through evolution as upgrading ourselves as/within Energy and Money; and not been Here Living in/as our equality and oneness with and as existence as ourselves and the consequences this is/has been manifested for ourselves as for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself believe that the experience I gain within myself from the friction of separation to/towards my substance manifested as my equality and oneness with and as all – is ‘power’. When in fact, that ‘empowering’ experience I am having, is my automated Energy System as the Mind, feeling itself being charged with its life-source as Energy and that I am not in fact ‘empowering’ me – I am charging my Mind as Energy with more Energy as I continue within my relationship experiences to/towards all that exist as me within the experiences of positivity/neutrality/negativity.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself believe that having more and more and more Money / gaining more Money – which I take and take and take at the cost/peril of many physical lives within this physical existence: empowers me in this world. When in fact I am empowering my physical world of money as material possessions and through that, empowering the World-System of Money as I become but a body within the World-System of Money that circulate its life-source as money to continue existing/surviving at the cost/peril of countless physical lives within this physical existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘power’ within myself as my Mind Consciousness System gaining energy for its own survival, as it continue extracting substance from/of my beingness and so I as a being became limited/diminished to nothingness as my entire manifested-Illusion as my Mind Consciousness took possession of me, my equality and oneness with/as existence.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘power’ within my world as Money for my own survival within ‘my life’ in this world, as I continue extracting/taking money from/of the World-System of Money. Where Money has become my possession as all I strive/live for is Money – enclosing/isolating me further into only ‘my life’ and so diminishing/limiting my life within this world/on this earth from having any ability to see or do anything about the existential problems/consequences Money is creating/manifesting in this physical existence as me because I have become so entirely/completely possessed with only ‘my life’ of/as Money, that I don’t see/realise all lives of/as me in/as this physical existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me from Real Power as the manifested equality and oneness with/as all as me, that was me standing/living/being with/as all as me within and as existence and always in all ways giving to all as me as I would give to myself, so that we’re all equally as one empowered to live/express/create to our utmost fullest potential and always in all ways honour/regard each one’s living in the absoluteness that we exist as within this existence. To now, where ‘power’ has become an ‘experience’ of a charge created from friction within myself as my constant/continuous deliberate separation from/of all as me within and as existence. Equal-to and one-with what the World-System of Money has become in its manifested-separation from/of all within and as this physical existence – that deliberately create friction in the physical-lives of beings/manifestation in and on this Earth to generate Money for itself, to empower itself with the circulation of Money within and through its Systems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create/manifest me into and as a Mind Consciousness System, that has become my manifested-separation – that extract/channel substance into itself and transform it into Energy. Not seeing/realising/understanding how – more and more substance is taken and taken and taken for more and more Energy to be produced. Equal-to and one-with the World-System of Money – where more and more of this physical existence is used/abused, extracted/channelled and transformed into and as Money for the continued survival of/as the World-System of Money. In this, the Mind Consciousness System completely separates me from my physical equality and oneness with and as all, and has not direct equal and one hereness with and as all, but only use/abuse all to take and take and take and channel/extract substance for me to create/manifest my Illusion as the Mind of/as Energy. Equal to and one with the World-System of Money, that has no direct equal and one relationship with and as all within this physical existence, but only use/abuse this physical existence to take and take and take and channel/extract what is physical/real for it to create/manifest its continued existence as a World-System of Money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become possessed by, within and as a manifested Illusion as the Mind Consciousness System – not seeing the manifested consequences I have created in Reality / this physical existence with accepting and allowing myself to only become an entity that survive off of Energy. That for me to survive or ‘give life’ as ‘Energy’ to myself – a part of me as Substance ends/dies as it becomes transformed into Energy and absorbed by the manifested Energy-Illusion of/as my Mind Consciousness System. The Energy as transformed substance being used/abused for the purposes of empowering/charging my various Systems/Programmes of/as my Mind Consciousness System to continue surviving for a moment. Where I take the substance of Eternity, transform it into a momentary experience of Energy, channel it into Energy-Systems of finiteness that use/abuse that transformed substance of energy to charge/empower itself for a moment and that substance as transformed energy comes to nothing. So the cycles within me continued throughout time: where a part of me as substance ends/dies for my Illusion as Energy-manifest as the Mind/Consciousness to continue surviving on its dependence on Energy as transformed substance.

In this – I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create/manifest a World-System of Money, which transform physical-manifestations/lives within/as this physical existence, into and as Money – and as physical-manifestations/parts/lives of this physical existence is transformed into Money to only last for a moment to fuel/charge/empower the World-System of Money, that part/manifestation/life of/as me in this physical existence dies/ends for the Illusion of/as the World-System of Money to continue existing/surviving.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand how I have become the creator of ‘life’ and ‘death’ within/as this existence as me. ‘Life’ which has become the charging/fuelling/empowering of/as Energy within, and the charging/fuelling/empowering of the World-System of Money, and ‘Death’ as the extraction/channelling/transformation of/as my substance of/as equality and oneness to give ‘life’ to energy, and ‘Death’ as the extraction/channelling/transformation of/as parts/manifestations/lives as me within and as this physical existence into and as Money to give ‘life’ as ‘money’ to the World-System’s continued survival. Where - for Energy within and Money without to continue existing/surviving – parts of me within myself ends/dies – equal to and one with where parts of me within/as this physical existence ends/dies. Not seeing/realising/understanding that Life – THE LIFE of/as equality and oneness has not been HERE; where THE LIFE is/has supposed to have been where all as me exist eternally here, living here, expressing here – with/as THE LIFE, there exist no Death/End.

I commit myself to – through writing, self-forgiveness and self corrective application, stop the accepted and allowed life and death cycles within and as me, through assisting and supporting myself to stop my relationship with myself as Energy manifested as Consciousness as the Mind Consciousness System. Because as I stop my existence as Energy manifested as Consciousness/the Mind: I stop the processes of life and death within me as extracting substance to be transformed into Energy to fuel/charge/empower my manifested Illusion as the Mind/Consciousness System.

In this process of stopping – I commit myself to assist and support myself, to re-establish my relationship with myself as substance of/as equality and oneness, through transforming my energy relationships with myself, as with all, into and as a standing of/as equality and oneness here that will stand eternal.

I commit myself to – through writing, self –forgiveness and self corrective application, share my process and stand as a living example of the process each as all as me will walk equal-to and one-with me, as I assist and support me to stop the life and death cycles within me, that each walk their processes of doing the same. So that each can stand within/as their manifested equality and oneness with and as all, as each stand eternal within and as themselves, until we’re all HERE standing equal and one within ourselves as eternity – to in fact manifest/create the eternity of/as Life as equality and oneness here.

I commit myself to, as I walk my process of writing,self-forgiveness and self corrective application and stop the life and death cycles within me, and transform me into a living example of/as equality and oneness here, I see through the cycles of life and death and the systems of/as the Mind/Consciousness I have become because of it, and walk myself into/as physical equality and oneness. In this, gifting myself with the ability and responsibility to see the solutions for/within and as this World/on this Earth – to transforming the World-System into and as a functioning System that gift the opportunity of Life to all, equally as one. Where the Equal Money System will unify humanity and transform the living of each on this Earth from survival into and as having an opportunity to walk their processes of birthing THE LIFE of/as eternity from/of the Physical through stopping the life and death cycles within themselves as stopping Energy as the Mind/Consciousness and standing/being/becoming equal and one with and as themselves as with all.   

In this, I thus commit myself to – walking this current World-System of Money – to end the life and death cycles it create/manifested within and as this physical existence as me, to transform it into a World-System as the Equal Money System as a first step to gifting all as me an opportunity to birthing life from the physical. Because in an Equal Money System, we will start the processes of establishing/finding ways where these life/death cycles can stop/end in the name of Money and Survival, and we all together can find ways/solutions to ourselves and our living to stand on this Earth equal and one, honouring, respecting, considering and regarding each other and everything/everyone else, as we would ourselves. 

 

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