Eternal Darkness (Part 3): DAY 465

  

Another point opened up that’ll show why and how we’re in fact self-responsible for the reactions we create in our Minds:

Here I am referring to the example I used in the previous post regarding our tendency to blame others for our own reactions, such as anger – where we’d think to someone / say to someone “YOU made me angry”. Now, in ‘real-time’ (real-time, meaning while we’re having an argument /disagreement with someone) – it’s ‘easier’ to say “YOU made me angry” / “it’s YOUR fault I’m in this/that mood”, because the person is right in front of us and our focus is on the person / the conversation; little attention is paid to what we’re in fact doing in our Minds that is actually creating the reaction of anger / the mood we’re experiencing.

However - when we’re alone with ourselves, our own Minds, in the evening before going to sleep – we’d often think about the day / recall memories. In the process of thinking about and recalling memories of events/interactions with other people and there was an instance where we had an emotional reaction towards another: we’d still continue blaming the other! But, isn’t this quite strange? Because, we’re alone, with ourselves – in our own Mind and Body, the person is not in our immediate environment – is nowhere to be found and yet when referencing the memory of the event/conversation with the person: we still access the reaction / the anger for example. So now explain to me – lol: how on earth can the person be ‘making you angry’ still if they’re not there??? The anger is still experienced when referencing the memory, so now: who creates the anger? Where is the anger coming from? If one is still able to experience the reaction of anger within oneself when you’re alone – despite the person not being in your environment, not saying anything / doing anything: this then comes to show that we ourselves create / activate the emotions, such as anger for example – that we experience in the Mind and Body. Because, when you’re around the person or when you’re alone with yourself – one thing remains constant: that is the emotional reaction, such as anger in this example, that one is experiencing within oneself. If/as the emotional reaction, such as anger – COMPLETELY went away when you were not physically around the person, even when looking at the Memory of the event and there is NO REACTION or movement or change within oneself AT ALL: then, yes – we could say that the person was the cause. But, each one self-honestly can assess for themselves, that: when they had a reaction towards another in ‘real time’ and they’d think about / remember the memory of the interaction/conversation/event: the reaction / experience remains.

So, many here can have a look at the example and say that one is accessing the MEMORY of what happened and in the MEMORY is existent the reaction that the other person created within oneself – so the memory is containing the reaction, one is not making oneself angry…Really? Now, this time – what is blamed for the reaction is the MEMORY…it’s interesting how far we’d go to abdicate responsibility, to understand how we ourselves create reactions in our own Minds / Bodies.

So, if the reaction was then contained in the memory – then, the reaction should be localized to the memory only. Meaning: we look at memories in the head / brain region – so, if the memory of the event came up and the emotion was caught-up in the Memory, then we should only be experiencing/feeling the anger in the head/brain region where the memory is being looked-at. But, when accessing Memories – especially ones where we reacted, in for example anger: our whole body responds and we can feel the energy moving in the solar-plexus area. Here, we are in fact – in our bodies, through the mind and memory: recreating the emotional reaction of/as anger for example.

What I’d like to show in this example is why/how it is so effective to utilize the moment before going to sleep to assist/support oneself within one’s process by reflecting on the day / looking at memories. Here, one can self honestly assess one’s responsibility within creating emotional / feeling reactions and accordingly take responsibility for one’s own thoughts and reactions. In the next post – I’ll continue with explaining how exactly we create, for example anger, in the ‘real time’ moment we’re interacting with the person/event and also when we’re referencing a memory. Within this - also show you how you can change the reactions, where you can decide not to react, which is also proof that we ourselves create the reactions we experience, because: if we can stop and change reactions – it means we started them in the first place. No one else can stop reactions within your Mind: only self can.

Suicide Paranoia – 15: Suicide and Blame (Part 2) DAY 401

Featured Artwork by Andrew Gable

We’re continuing having a look at the Relationship between Suicide and Blame, how Blame in itself can become Paranoia to the extent where one would even accept/allow oneself to consider ending one’s own life with the extent to which Blame within the context of Revenge/Anger/Spite towards others can possess one. So, first and foremost to understand here is How one is Creating ALL of this…in one’s OWN MIND. So, if you’re creating all of it and all your reactions/experiences within and as it – you sure as hell can un-create it, let go of Blame/Spite/Revenge/Anger towards others, let others go IN YOUR MIND and start focusing on you, your life/living in this Real World/Reality.

One have to here also understand the Nature of Blame, within the context of Anger/Spite/Revenge: we all have/do in some way/another – IMAGINE what we’d do unto others/can do unto others and some actually DO it in REALITY when/as we feel OTHERS are Responsible for how they make us feel in our own Minds. That, in some bizarre way – doing something to someone else, either in our Minds or in Reality is “getting payback”, that “they deserved it”, “they had it coming”, that it was/is “righteous” when you spite/take revenge onto/towards something/someone either only in your Mind’s Imagination and/or in Reality. But, it’s interesting how such a way of approaching things…always only lead to CONSEQUENCE. Some to the extent where it ends lives, others prison – life-changing moments that will fuck-up the rest of your life here AND in the hereafter, a moment/an action that defines / will define you eternally when you accept/allow yourself to “act out”, in reality, vengeance/spite/anger within and as Blame onto/towards another when in Paranoia Possession in the Mind/Consciousness. Some now might go “Argh, it would be worth it / it is worth it” / “I would give up my life just to get back at them/they” / “I don’t care what the consequences are, I’ll do whatever it takes to get back at them/they” – but, it’s fascinating with this all that: EVERYTHING that one IMAGINE one is doing to another, whether you just imagine it and/or justify/excuse/validate/reason why you actually did it /acted upon it in reality…only exists in YOUR OWN MIND. You have NO IDEA the process of another human beings’ mind/life and how ANY action – whether imagined/lived, will in fact influence/affect another human being’s life/mind. Therefore…are you really then, in fact, doing ANYTHING to ANYONE…or just yourself? It is really in fact just yourself, because the Mind can REALLY make you believe that what you’re doing, the intention with which you’re doing it in your Imagination / in Reality is really going to manifest in accordance to how you intended it…when it does not in fact, not at all.

Like for example with attempting Suicide/Thinking about Suicide within the starting point/context of Blame as Spite/Revenge/Anger, you BELIEVE you’re doing it TO someone, you BELIEVE that you’re ‘getting back at them’…but that’s most certainly NOT how other human beings would interpret it/internalize it, so – the entire process/attempt would really be futile. This really goes for ANY and ALL contexts of revenge/spite/anger within and as Blame, everyone’s MINDS make them believe they’re doing something to someone else according to how they intend it to manifest/come out/play out…but in Reality: it never really in fact happens that way AT ALL. You’re only doing EVERYTHING in your own Mind – from the belief that you’re doing something TO someone, to the point where you believe it was ‘worth it/just/righteous’ – none of it in fact making any impact/difference in the long-term to you/your life or that of another.

So, revenge/spite/anger towards another within Blame – in Imagination/Reality, and attempting to manipulate others/reality through Suicide is futile with ALL of it really only existing in the Mind. We suggest considering changing one’s relationship to the Mind in such a way, where you no more accept/allow memories/people to occupy it/haunt it in your imagination with reactions/experiences, but learn how to work on a SELF-relationship and changing/living your life into and as meaningful/purposeful way/expression, where you GIFT yourself LIFE – instead of taking it and/or even aligning your Mind/your Life in blame of others – it’s only wasting breaths/energy and benefitting the Illusion of Consciousness that will in anyway cease to exist upon Death and so look back at your life/self and really wonder what you were thinking with accepting and allowing Illusion/Paranoia/Possession of ENERGY to control/determine your Life/Living.

We suggest learning to let go of anger/revenge/spite that always only compromise Self/lead to consequence – start focusing one’s Life/Living on SELF in every moment of Breath, rather than haunting one’s Mind with memories/imaginations of OTHERS – and become the Directive Principle of oneself/one’s life that will lead to actually contributing to life/living in this existence, rather than possessing your mind/your entire life with one/few people within the Possession of Blame.

We suggest visiting Desteni, Desteni I Process LITE – the Forums and Free Course, that will assist and support one with UNDERSTANDING the Mind and how to direct it, rather than it controlling you to giving up on yourself / giving yourself up for others – and learn what it means to GIVE to you/GIFT you life/living.

We’ll continue more in the Next Post

Suicide Paranoia – 14: Suicide and Blame DAY 400

Featured Artwork by Andrew Gable

In and from this post, we’re going to explore the ‘Blame Dimension’ existent within Suicide Paranoia in the Mind. In one of the recent Reptilian Interviews, Paranoia was explained quite well with using an illustration of the extent to which Paranoia cause one to ‘lose touch’ with Reality. How, the Creators of the Human, initially intended the Mind/Consciousness to exist ‘congruent’ with Reality – with Consciousness and Reality ‘existing closely side-by-side’ so that there would not be TOO much of a separation between Consciousness and Reality; for example where one would listen to another’s words – one would still be able to contextually understand what the other person is saying while AT THE SAME TIME, in your own Mind REACTING to their words. Whereas, in Paranoia Possession – one would be listening to what another person is saying, but the ‘reality’ of their Words are not heard, because all one hear/interpret is one’s own Paranoia Possession. Changing the words of another person COMPLETELY in one’s Mind to the extent that it in fact has no reality to what the person in fact said - and so one had, in one’s Mind-Reality relationship – completely moved farther away from the Mind-Reality congruency / ‘close relationship’ and more and more into the Mind. I would suggest investing in these recent Interviews to assist/support more with Understanding Paranoia in the Mind/Consciousness and how to stabilize oneself back into Reality.

Back to having a look at the Relationship between Suicide Paranoia and Blame:

So, when we Blame – we direct our own reactions to something / towards someone else. For most part – Blame is done in anger/revenge, like in our own Minds, when we Blame something/someone – we believe, in a way, that we’re in our own Minds “getting back at them”. Within this, fascinatingly enough – Blame ‘feels good’ to the individual possessed within and as it in the Mind. Especially when the Imaginations can go quite ‘wild’ in terms of what one would Imagine ‘doing TO’ that something/someone because of what ‘they did TO you’. So, the Nature of Blame we’re going to look at here with regards to Suicide – is Blame within the context of ‘anger/revenge/spite’. It’s interesting how many Human Beings who consider/think about Suicide – if one self honestly look at moments when/as this was done, was also done in a way/means to ‘Manipulate’ another, where one would in one’s Mind say: “Yes, wonder what they’d going to do/say if I’d kill myself –that’ll mess with them” / “I’m just going to kill myself and get it over with, let THEM live with what they’ve done to me” / “I’m going to make them suffer, they have to suffer for what they have done, if I kill myself – THEY’RE responsible and I will make everyone know it” and so it can continue. Within this, the individual in their Suicide Paranoia really believe that, by committing suicide – it will in some way have an impact on other’s lives/minds / ‘the One’s that apparently are responsible for their state of Mind/Self’. When, what such Individuals aren’t seeing/realising/understanding is that: No one can Hear what is going on in your Mind…but yourself. No-one else is in your Mind…but yourself. Additionally within this, it’s fascinating how the Mind deals with suicide / those who commit suicide – when it’s done/attempted to be done out of anger/revenge/spite: it doesn’t really in fact impact other’s Minds as they cannot fathom/comprehend/understand how they’d be ‘Responsible’ – they were not in the Individual’s Mind while the Individual was ‘talking themselves into Suicide / the attempt thereof’ to understand what reasoning went on in there for Blaming others for their internal experiences.

And so, Individuals that attempt/try Suicide as a manipulation of other’s Minds/Lives within the context of Anger/Revenge/Spite: really in fact only Spite themselves, Compromise themselves and their own Lives. The Mind/Consciousness of Human Beings are SO BUSY all of the time that, the one that crossed-over will eventually simply become but a Memory in the Minds of the humans left behind, and they will continue living their Lives. It’s like, people try and “get back at others” through committing suicide / attempting to commit suicide – but no else ‘pays the price’, in fact – but Self.

It’s fascinating in this context how the Mind can make one believe that what One “Believe” one is doing to others, through committing suicide / attempting Suicide will in fact affect them/influence them as one attempt/intend to do. I mean, one cannot in any way project how other human beings would react with not knowing how their Minds in fact operate/function and so – the Mind can make Illusion ‘seem REAL’, even to the extent where the Human Being really BELIEVE that what they imagine/self-talk in the Mind is in any way relevant/related to Reality.

Therefore, I would suggest – rather than taking your own life to ONLY IN YOUR OWN MIND take revenge/compromise/spite others, when it really in fact only spite/compromise yourself: to rather Understand how the Mind works with self-talk/imagination and especially emotional-reactions to others, that you do not internalize and suppress all of that and keep it in your Mind, which will only lead to Paranoia and Losing Touch with Reality. But to assist and support yourself to UNDERSTAND your own Mind/Reactions, how to direct your internal Reality/reactions/experiences into Solutions, so that you do not accept/allow others IN YOUR OWN MIND to haunt to, but that you can learn to remain stable/here/directive and not accept/allow other’s words/actions to become Possessions in your Mind that only possess you/compromise you, but to Learn to LIVE YOU so that you don’t in your own MIND lead yourself to an Regret that you’ll really have to live with into the hereafter for how silly you’d been for accepting and allowing reactions, thoughts and imaginations in your OWN MIND to control you, when you could have simply stopped and changed your relationship to it with a Decision, every moment of Breath.

To Understand your own Mind/Reactions and assist/support oneself to be/become the directive principle of/as it and learn what it means to LIVE through releasing oneself from/of Paranoia Possessions of Consciousness – visit Desteni, Desteni I Process LITE.

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