Suicide Paranoia – 5: How Consciousness disconnects from Reality in State of Paranoia 

DAY 391

So, with having a look at a dimension regarding Suicidal Thoughts/Imaginations: if you really have a look at them, that you will speak the thoughts and see the Imaginations in a very specific ENERGY, or energy experience. What has to be realised with Paranoia within the context of Consciousness is that: with Suicidal thoughts/imaginations/tendencies – the Mind, with Energy, “veils” YOU, your awareness and so everything else you see about you and this world/reality. It’s like this ONE ENERGY is completely taking over your Mind, Self and Body. Thus, I would REALLY suggest investigating and rather UNDERSTANDING the thoughts/imaginations and the energy that substantiates it, because – ending one’s life / one’s self because of listening to THOUGHTS and accepting and allowing an energy experience in the Mind to possess you and so drive you to/as the Point of wanting to end one’s life, I mean, when you get into the afterlife, as so many beings have that come through the Portal and for example share their life review and they realise that, they could have changed themselves, their life in a moment. That there were options/ways/means available to them if they’d just gotten out of the thoughts and the energies in their MIND that was veiling any and all Solutions, they have to exist with an eternal regret of the fact that they ended it all just because of thoughts and energies in the Mind, something they could have changed/stopped with mere Understanding, with a Decision and so changed themselves and so their lives.

Thus, we would not want this experience for any Human Being even considering suicide. So, I would REALLY suggest listening up, assisting and supporting oneself to stop listening to/believing your thoughts and emotional energy experiences – how to release yourself from such paranoia in/as Consciousness and find that there is in fact a lot more to yourself, to life HERE if/as one would just stop participating in/as the Thoughts and Energies and Learn to Live in and as every moment of Breath. So, we will continue with the HOW-TO release oneself from such Paranoia in posts to come, for the moment – to Understand HOW we create such paranoia and how the thoughts and imaginations evolves from ENERGY.

So, as we have discussed – Suicide Paranoia starts with Energy and for the Mind to become possessed with ONE Energy experience, that leads to a particular-specific thought process, imagination, self-talk: it needs A LOT of Energy.  Why? Because, if you have a look at how the Mind ‘normally’ functions – it is very specific with regards to its ‘energy distribution’, which allows it to create the illusion of a ‘natural flow’ in what you think about, what you imagine, what you feel/experience as your emotions/feelings etc. So, when ONE THING starts occupying the Conscious Mind, such as thinking about suicide/imagining it and then going into that emotional energy-experience – it really influence/affect the Mind’s ‘normal functioning’ as follows:

How the Mind works is, it takes external environment stimuli and then activates your Mind into different memories, thoughts, self-talk and reactions/experiences. This happens within and as multi-dimensional levels of your Mind-Physical relationship, such as for example – seeing a person, and your mind/consciousness takes an “imprint”, through your eyes, of what you’re seeing – changes it into a ‘live memory’ (This Process explained from blog DAY 83 with regards to how the Mind change reality into ‘live memories’) and then ‘scans’ through all your already-existent memories in your Unconscious/Quantum Mind to see if anything of that person you had just seen, could activate any memories/reactions/thought processes. So, the person for example wears a specific COLOUR and all of a sudden, you experience a ‘attraction’ towards the person, not knowing why, when all the while, it was just a COLOUR they were wearing that brought up memories of experiences with colours you’ve had in the past, and now you believe you’re attracted to the person, when all the while it was just the COLOUR that attracted your attention. See, such things in our world/reality we’re not even aware of, because we’re not AWARE or SELF-AWARE of all that we are in/as the Mind/Consciousness – within and as all the levels of the Conscious, Subconscious, Unconscious, Quantum Mind, Quantum Physical and Physical Body itself.

So, such ‘little things’ in reality, the Mind/Consciousness use to stimulate thoughts/imaginations and experiences – so much so, that human beings aren’t even aware of the extent to which your Mind is busy in all the levels of its existence, much of this is explained in detail in the Quantum Mind Self Awareness Series available on EQAFE. Therefore, the Mind/Consciousness needs a constant-continuous “movement” through such external reality stimulations to keep your Mind “normal”, if you will.

NOW, what happens with for example when ONE ENERGY takes of the Mind, is that – it SUPPRESS all the other natural flow of patterns/stimulations that would lead a human being to think/feel ALL SORTS of different things within and throughout a day. And, as that ONE ENERGY takes over and now only lead one into and as ONE thought process/imagination process / self talk process – everything that the Mind/Consciousness then imprints into the Unconscious/Quantum Mind from physical reality, then gets channelled into and as this One Mind Possession. And so, this is what causes one, when the suicidal thoughts/imagination/self-talk/experience gets to the EXTREME - where it feels like EVERYTHING in your world/reality that you see/do/participate within and as, feels like you feel in your Mind. There is no more a natural flow in thought/imagination/experience/self-talk and/or the varying stimulations from external reality that keeps your mind busy/preoccupied in various dimensions. And so in/as this ONE POSSESSION, one’s mind/consciousness completely “disconnect” with its relationship to everything else in your external world/reality – because as I have explained: the Mind uses ANY and ALL external stimuli to keep your mind preoccupied and so in that relationship it has a ‘active connection’ to this world/reality which in so doing creates the illusion that “you’re participating/living in this world/reality”.

Now, with the Mind Possession, in such an extreme case – there is not a constant-continuous ‘live streaming’ from the external reality into and as consciousness/the mind and so the mind/consciousness inverts into and as itself and created a “closed system”, where the Mind/Consciousness will constantly and continuously cycle only within and as the ONE POINT POSSESSION of/as suicide for example, where ONLY THAT exists for the individual and so, through their own creation of paranoia, lost/stuck in and as the Mind ONLY, completely disconnected from themselves and reality – then lead to actually ‘acting out’ the thoughts/imaginations as they think/imagine/experience the same thing over and over and over again, and so condition their ‘self’ and ‘body’ into and as a state of living/behaviour – programming themselves, from within and as their own minds, and so creating their life/living choices/decisions/actions leading to ending their own lives, simply because of listening to, believing ENERGY and THOUGHTS in the Mind, without realising it can be stopped and changes, just as it was created/programmed in the first place.

We’ll continue more in the Next Post

Suicide Paranoia – 4: The Creation Process of Suicide Paranoia (Energy Dimension Part 2) DAY 390

So, from childhood – the first construct of Consciousness is emotional/feeling energy. We are as children firstly exposed to emotional/feeling reactions/experiences through which we in our Minds create relationships to our external world/reality, and then as our vocabulary / imagery develop – our Imagination and so our Thoughts develop/evolve. The Detail of this Process how we are introduced to our Mind-Being-Physical Trinity relationship through emotions/feelings as infants – is explained in detail in the Parenting Interview Series.

So, ALL of what one had experienced, energetically, as emotions/feelings as a Child: one cannot remember, yet – those first seven years of your life, is what determined/defined your emotional/feeling bodies of Consciousness, such as WHY you react in specific emotions/feelings in moment, the INTENSITY of the emotion/feeling, what triggers the emotion/feeling and then also of course your very Thoughts, their content, Imagination – everything that seems so ‘natural/normal’ now, was in fact PROGRAMMED by you in those first seven years of your life. And ALL of that – ALL the reactions that you experienced, that now evolved into thoughts/imaginations for example, the origin of that is still existent within you, but suppressed into and as the Unconscious/Quantum Mind of your Mind. You now only live-out the memories of all the reactions/relationships/definitions you have given to all the emotional/feelings energies you experienced that now come to manifest in the form of Thoughts and Imagination, for example.

So, for example – one as a child was exposed to bullying, you know, even that stage where child hit each other, for example, and/or you were just exposed to loud noises you couldn’t understand, or seeing your parents in vocal/behavioural arguments, and/or being hit – with NO comprehension/understanding of it all, you inverted/suppressed such reactions, within the primary experience “Why me?” / “Did I do something wrong” / “Is something wrong with me” / “What did I do” / “Why is this happening to me”. Now, obviously, as a child, you cannot word this or define this and so it becomes an energetic-reactive memory in your Consciousness. Now you grow up and there’s this lingering feeling ALL the time within you, and you can’t quite pinpoint it or define it, it’s just ‘there all of the time’. It feels like a deep-abyss, a depth within you that you’re in, yet you fear at the same time, it’s like, the energy when you’re in it and you experience it feels like this emptiness, this nothingness that’s there and it feels like it literally just sucks everything from your mind/your self into it. Your mind feels heavy, you feel heavy, and soon as that energy takes over, it’s like you can see nothing anymore in anything, or anyone – everything and everyone is just empty, like you don’t even have the energy anymore to WANT to look at anything/anyone, DO anything, don’t want to think, to breathe. Obviously, such an energy evolve into Suicidal tendencies and what can drive one into and as suicidal tendencies as well, as FEAR – when you are confronted with challenges in your world/reality and you have NO IDEA how to deal with it, handle it, confront it, change, find a solution and so that FEAR becomes the deep-abyss as explained above and one just decide to ‘end it all’. Sound familiar doesn’t it? Where, as children – we have NO IDEA how to handle this world, life, people, sounds, words, behaviours and so we SUPPRESS it all. BUT, what is not seen, realised and understood is that: as you age – EVERYTHING you experience/manifest/participate in within your Mind/Consciousness STAYS IN THE MIND and STORES ITSELF IN THE BODY. Thus, the more energy/suppression you go through from childhood into teenager/adulthood years, the less ‘space’ is available in your mind-body relationship for all that energy to be stored and eventually becomes SO MUCH, it just takes over the Mind/Self.

So, primarily to be understood here is that – the ENERGY that initiated the Suicidal experience, thoughts and imagination, is an accumulation process of where you in yourself/the mind just don’t know how to handle things in this world/reality and/or consequence you create for yourself – and then you initially go into suppression of such reactions to things/people/consequence in your environment, to the point where the suppression becomes too much and the energy start overwhelming the Mind/Self and before one know it: it seems like there’s ‘no way out’ – but ‘out’. When, individuals do not see, realise and understand that: what is making you FEEL this way is ENERGY, it’s in the Mind/Consciousness. You as a beingness/awareness is only OBSERVING this all and EXPERIENCING this all, and the Mind and Energy can take over to such an extent that you believe your own energy/thoughts as Paranoia – because it creates the Paranoia of the fact that, because you EXPERIENCE the ENERGY in the MIND, that EVERYTHING ELSE in reality “looks/feels the same” – when it is in fact NOT. The question that has to be considered is that: you have earlier in your life, lived, experienced, laughed and enjoyed and now suddenly there’s this idea that ‘the world is against you, life is not worth it, there is no reason to continue’ etc. – what you must REALISE is that this is a Energy Possession in your mind that is making you SEE yourself and life this way, a Paranoia of Energy/Thought you created/programmed in your Mind, simply because of not understanding how emotions/feelings, thoughts and imagination work and the extent to which we can create a Paranoia, a ParaNOISE a complete alternate paranormal reality in the Mind that can make us lose touch with reality to such an extent, that we can’t even remember anymore who we are, how we are and/or can’t even remember how we saw life/living/ourselves before.

In the next post we will explain how the energy evolves into thoughts and imagination, and how we then enter into a vicious cycle in our own Minds, here the energy creates itself into thoughts/imagination and then we participate in the energy, thoughts and imagination – empowering/substantiating the energy/reaction/experience even more and so give life to something in our Mind / Consciousness that take us farther from/of REAL LIFE/LIVING, that is who we are in and as every moment of Breath.

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Suicide Paranoia – 1: What is Paranoia? DAY 387

(To understand that this is going to be a Series of Interviews – as we walk this process through step-by-step, to ensure to not accept/allow opinions, judgments, perceptions, ideas to influence one from the get-go, but to walk-with, interview by interview as we explain how the Suicide Paranoia is created in the Mind and how to assist and support oneself to set oneself free from such mind-relationships; into and as Practical Physical Living in and as this World/Reality)

So, let’s first establish the definition/premise for ‘Paranoia’ – because the context of Paranoia we’re going to have a look at here is within/as Consciousness/the Mind in its relationship to THOUGHT. I suggest for context for this interview and interviews to come, to Read Creation’s Journey to Life Blogs - introducing/outlining the context for/as Paranoia in relation to Consciousness: DAY 395, DAY 396, DAY 397, DAY 398, DAY 399, DAY 400

If we have a look at thoughts, the process of thinking in our Minds – our minds are equal to a ‘ghost/interdimensional realm’ like the afterlife. Thoughts are like ghosts floating in the Mind, they have a dimensional/interdimensional substance to them – they are not physical, touchable, tangible / dissectible as one’s relationship to the Physical Body/this Physical Existence. Thus, our Minds and the thoughts/thinking/imagination processes, even self-talk/internal conversations we have - are equal to a ‘Paranormal Reality/Existence’.

Therefore, our Mind/Consciousness is a Paranormal Realm in and as which we create our own Paranormal realities – such as ghosts, from memories that ‘haunt us’, demons from self-talk/imagination that are bad/evil/negative, angels as entities/positive feelings in our minds that make us ‘feel good/positive’, possessions from thoughts/imaginations/images that possess our minds/ourselves that cause us to lose touch with reality. In this Paranormal Realm of the Mind/Consciousness, just as in the REAL interdimensional/dimension existence before the Portal Opened – one can create ALL SORTS of realities, beings, entities, environments with a snap of a finger – taking oneself into and as alternate realities of the Paranormal within and as one’s Consciousness.

Therefore, even in relationship to our Mind/Consciousness we’re looking at a study of Parapsychology – and how we within and as the Paranormal of the Psyche/Consciousness of/as the Mind: create Paranoia. Paranoia specified within/as/through the Word “ParaNOI(se)” – the Noise as sounds, words, sentences, constructs we participate within, in the PARAnormal reality/realm of/as the psyche/Consciousness of/as the Mind.

So, how does Paranoia, as the ParaNoise within the Paranormal of the Mind/Consciousness relate to Suicide and so Why is Suicide Paranoia.

In and from this Interview we’re going to walk a Process of Understanding why Suicide is Paranoia, how we program it/THINK it into existence through thoughts/voices and energy experiences as ghosts/demons that ‘haunt’ our own Minds in and as the Paranormal Reality we create with the Overwhelming Paranoise and so get into the Parapsychology – Paranormal Psyche of/as Consciousness/the Mind. 

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