(To understand that this is going to be a Series of
Interviews – as we walk this process through step-by-step, to ensure to not
accept/allow opinions, judgments, perceptions, ideas to influence one from the get-go,
but to walk-with, interview by interview as we explain how the Suicide Paranoia
is created in the Mind and how to assist and support oneself to set oneself
free from such mind-relationships; into and as Practical Physical Living in and
as this World/Reality)
So, let’s first establish the definition/premise for
‘Paranoia’ – because the context of Paranoia we’re going to have a look at here
is within/as Consciousness/the Mind in its relationship to THOUGHT.
I suggest for context for this interview and interviews to come, to Read Creation’s Journey to Life
Blogs - introducing/outlining the context for/as Paranoia in relation to
Consciousness: DAY
395, DAY
396, DAY
397, DAY
398, DAY
399, DAY
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If we have a look at thoughts, the process of thinking in
our Minds – our minds are equal to a ‘ghost/interdimensional realm’ like the
afterlife. Thoughts are like ghosts floating in the Mind, they have a
dimensional/interdimensional substance to them – they are not physical,
touchable, tangible / dissectible as one’s
relationship to the Physical Body/this Physical Existence. Thus, our Minds
and the thoughts/thinking/imagination processes, even self-talk/internal
conversations we have - are equal to a ‘Paranormal
Reality/Existence’.
Therefore, our Mind/Consciousness is a Paranormal Realm in
and as which we create our own Paranormal realities – such as ghosts, from
memories that ‘haunt us’, demons from
self-talk/imagination that are bad/evil/negative, angels
as entities/positive feelings in our minds that make us ‘feel good/positive’,
possessions from thoughts/imaginations/images that possess our minds/ourselves
that cause us to lose touch with reality. In this Paranormal Realm of the
Mind/Consciousness, just as in the REAL interdimensional/dimension existence
before the Portal Opened
– one can create ALL SORTS of realities, beings, entities, environments with a
snap of a finger – taking oneself into and as alternate realities of the
Paranormal within and as one’s Consciousness.
Therefore, even in relationship to our Mind/Consciousness
we’re looking at a study of Parapsychology – and how we within and as the
Paranormal of the Psyche/Consciousness of/as the Mind: create Paranoia.
Paranoia specified within/as/through the Word “ParaNOI(se)” – the Noise as
sounds, words, sentences, constructs we participate within, in the PARAnormal
reality/realm of/as the psyche/Consciousness of/as the Mind.
So, how does Paranoia, as the ParaNoise within the
Paranormal of the Mind/Consciousness relate to Suicide and so Why is Suicide
Paranoia.
In and from this Interview we’re going to walk a Process of
Understanding why Suicide is Paranoia, how we program it/THINK it into
existence through thoughts/voices and energy experiences as ghosts/demons that
‘haunt’ our own Minds in and as the Paranormal Reality we create with the
Overwhelming Paranoise and so get into the Parapsychology – Paranormal Psyche
of/as Consciousness/the Mind.
We’re in this interview post having a look at self-consequence more in depth, understanding how, right now, in the mind, being/spirit and physical inversion - we are creating, manifesting and accumulating our own consequence. This is with understanding now that the mind, consciousness itself - consciousness being that which direct our thoughts, our emotions, our feelings, memories, internal conversations, and the very content and material of what types and kinds of thoughts, backchats, or internal conversations, emotions, feelings, imaginations, fantasies, projections, we accept and allow ourselves to participate in and automatically accept and allow without question ‘to be all that we are or ever will be’.
So, what the mind consciousness is in what comes up within us is the systematized version of our inherent beingness, our inherent nature, I mean, it’s all there in full view with what we participate in within our minds as our consciousness, with Consciousness thus being the awareness of the systematized version of ourselves that we simply automatically without question, accept and allow and participate in without change.
Within this, one have to have a look at, for example, one thought being like a drop of water, and your beingness and your physical body being that which the drop, the thought, drop into and ripple into and as. Meaning, if you take a bowl of water and you release a drop of water into, that drop of water will ripple within the bowl of water. Now that is the exact same relationship with regards to what happens with each and every single thought that you have; and not only every single thought, this is with every single internal conversation, with the very nature of that internal conversation, meaning, the energy within which you speak it; this happens with every word you speak, the sound, the energy, the experience, the presence, and the nature of yourself in every word you speak. Literally every single thing that you participate in within your mind has and functions like a drop of water that ripples into your substance, your beingness, and your physical body.
Now, this relationship between the drops of the mind that fall into the substance of your beingness and physical body is that - it doesn’t just ripple, it ripples and it manifests as a memory. Meaning that, when you have a thought, the thought is like a drop of water that will fall into your beingness and your physical body, rippling into your beingness and physical body - then that very ripple will store as a memory into your beingness and physical body. Now this particular relationship to such thoughts that have such force that they will ripple into your beingness and physical body, as primarily thought patterns, words, even behaviours – meaning, how you behave and live, your physical mannerism, that also constitute a drop - as it’s a pattern, it’s a system. Whatever you participate in over and over and over again without change also accumulates a force within itself. If you have thoughts or thought patterns that you participate in over and over and over again throughout your life, the same with the words that you speak and the nature and the experience of yourself in those words, behavioural patterns – they all accumulate a force and the more force they accumulate throughout your life, the more extensive the drops become, the bigger the drops become that they exist as.
So, the more extensive the drops become, the bigger the drops become that they exist as, and so the bigger the ripples become and the more effect the ripples will have in your beingness and physical body. So, it’s these types of thoughts, words, it can also be imaginations, fantasies, internal conversations, anything and everything that’s become a habitual pattern within you and your physical body: will be the things that have such an intense/extreme effect into your beingness and physical body with those ripples becoming actual memories that accumulate and manifest into your beingness and into your physical body.
This is essentially the process of how we program ourselves, our beingness, our physical body, and what’s even more fascinating within this relationship is that: we don’t realize that the things that we are participating in our minds, that we are accumulating a force for to become more superior or powerful is like parts of ourselves. As we have explained, the mind and consciousness is a systematized representation of our inherent beingness, our relationship to it was supposed to have been to look into the mirror of ourselves, see what we are accepting and allowing, understand the consequence of it - to change our inherent beingness, our inherent nature. But instead - we constantly, continuously participate in the same things, in our minds, in our consciousness, in our behaviour, over and over and over again without change, that accumulate more force and then it overwhelm and overpower us. It’s like our own inherent nature, our own inherent beingness overwhelms and overpowers us, and we literally program ourselves into our own possessions with our own inherent beingness, our own inherent nature through the mind as consciousness.
This is how we are at the moment creating our self-consequence, and how such thoughts patterns, emotional feeling bodies, reaction patterns, imaginations, fantasies, it’s all over and over and over again likes drop rippling into our beingness, physical body, accumulating - manifesting as memories, accumulating a force, and so comes to determine, influence, effect, and control who we are, how we are, and what we live into the very relationship as our physical body, our relationship with other people, our relationship with this physical existence, with humanity as a whole. These relationships, in terms of seeing the extent of what we participate in, within our minds, does not only affect ourselves and our own physical, but our relationship to everything and everyone else in this existence. It’s explained in the life review interview series, where beings for the first time see, realize, and understand the extent of responsibility they in fact had, not only to themselves, but to everything and everyone else within this physical existence.
So, it’s fascinating essentially when having a look at this all that we have walked thus far in terms of the mind, being/spirit and physical trinity, and how we have existed in that trinity separation. The creators of the human race, this physical existence maintained that separation between the mind, spirit/being and physical body - and within that the soul system. Because the only relationship they wanted us to have, was with the mind, with consciousness - was first to remain separate from our own being, from our own awareness, from the physical, from this physical existence as they only wanted our beingness, and physical body, and this physical existence to be used as an energy resource. So, as long as we maintained our separation from our own awareness, our own physicals and this physical existence as a whole - and only align our awareness into our own consciousness, to exist in energy experiences of emotions and feelings: in that separation - that is how heaven, the entire heaven existence, substantiated and animated the heavens elite and us as humanity; the slaves to consciousness/ to energy/ to heaven. Within this trinity-separation was then existent that process of the channelling/ redistribution and deflection of consequence and karma.
Not realising that what was really in fact happening with the consequence and the karma being distributed/deflected or channelled was a postponement of facing consequence. Meaning; even though consequence was distributed/channelled or deflected into our minds, or the demons, or into the Unified Consciousness Field - what was still directly and indirectly accumulating, layering and memorizing into our beingness/ physicals and this physical existence: was this consequence that we were creating in relationship to our minds as the thoughts, the memories, the emotions and feelings, the internal conversations, reactions, behaviour patterns. I mean; this within and throughout our lives / reincarnations and life experiences within this physical existence was rippling, was dropping like drops that was rippling into our beingness/ physical body and physical existence and the consequences accumulating, memorizing itself.
One have to understand within this, all that the mind is - is really an evolved systematized version of your inherent beingness, your inherent nature. Literally, all that we’ve been doing throughout our reincarnations within this physical existence is accumulate and postpone consequence. I mean; one have to understand that the thoughts that you have, the thoughts you participate in your mind is something that just comes up and goes away, you really have to ask yourself this question: where do the thoughts really, in fact, come from in the first place? That they are suddenly there, then they are not…Where does your emotions and feelings, which you become overwhelmed with in a moment, come from? They are suddenly there and then suddenly not…
One really have to investigate this, because these things are coming from somewhere within you, and they’re not just coming and then going away and there’s no consequence…The thoughts that you have, one can for example see, like your entire beingness, like coming together in an instant, in a moment, like a snap-shot, like a photograph, like a thought as a photograph is a snap-shot, is a moment of a representation of your inherent beingness, your inherent nature. The same with your emotions and feelings, where they come from is from your inherent beingness. It’s like your inherent beingness rises up from the depths of yourself and your physical body and then it come together in one point into one singularity as an emotion or a feeling, and there you ‘experience yourself’ - everything in your mind is an experience of yourself, is a mirror of yourself , is a representation of yourself. That’s where the things come from that you participate in your mind. It comes from yourself, it is little snap shot, snap shots, little moments, little representations of your inherent nature of your beingness.
Every time you participate in, what comes up in your mind, automatically, without question - you are giving your inherent nature more force, more power, more control. And in that - what you participate in then ripples into your beingness, into your physical body, as a memory, and there you’re just reprogramming yourself over and over and over again, the same inherent nature accumulating over and over and over again.
So, we have really never escaped consequence or karma - it has always been here, but in waiting. So, we have postponed it all and look at where it got us…Look at the nature of our minds and really have a look at what comes up within it - and that’s everything, the good, the bad and the ugly. Have a look at human nature, humanity as a whole, our relationships, this physical existence: all of it, that you see, is an accumulation of consequence, of us not understanding, realising and seeing that we have never really in fact changed. I mean; that’s proof in one’s relationship with one’s own mind: You’re participation in the same things over and over and over again - and you are creating your own force in relation to your own inherent nature or beingness within yourself. There is no life and there is no real change from what exist as our inherent beingness/nature that comes up in the mind. It’s all still exactly the same. For most part, most human beings have just found creative ways of how to suppress our inherent nature/beingness or create polarity opposites of it. But, face it directly, understanding it, where it comes from, how it exists, how to really transcend it - NOPE that has not yet come to realisation or transcendence.
So, this interview post is to understand where what comes up in your mind comes from and how you are creating your own self consequence - through participating in and creating a force of your own inherent nature/ beingness within/as what you participate in, in your mind that is a mirror/representation of your inherent nature or beingness. Within this; why it is that we’ve never really in fact changed or taken responsibility for who/how and what we are and how it comes up in the mind, is like little drops that ripple, that memorize, that accumulate consequence in our beingness and physical body. How we have done this in this physical existence as well every moment we’ve spoken a word, we’ve taken action - it has rippled in other people’s lives, in humanity as a whole and in this physical existence. Primarily understanding how, if anything, all that the creators did was postpone consequence, so it’s not like they are responsible. We are absolutely responsible for what our mind is, for who/how and what we are. Again, as I explained, they didn’t program our nature - Our nature is who/how and what we are and always have been. And to realise that you can postpone consequence, but in postponing consequence there is a consequence, and that is that the consequence will accumulate.
Therefore, we suggest re investigating Desteni, the Desteni I processes: In this we structurally, practically assist and support you in understanding why and how your mind is a mirror; how to face consequence in your mind, being/spirit and physical body relationship; how to walk through your mind practically, the conscious/sub conscious/unconscious/quantum mind/quantum physical and physical body; how, to get back to yourself – your awareness, to unify you back to your equality and oneness, with your beingness, the physical body and this physical existence.
In the next post we will continue with explaining – how, we had to have asked ourselves: How did we create such a relationship of a conscious/sub conscious/unconscious/quantum mind/quantum physical? Why we are existing in such levels of separation from the very physical body. Why did heaven not want us to have a relationship with our beingness, our physical body and with this physical existence? What was within it (our beingness and physical body) that they were using to create energy for themselves that they did not want us to see, to realise and stand equal to and one with? What was it that they used to empower the heaven existence that was within this physical existence / our beingness?
Problem: Accepting
and Allowing Failure to Motivate Success in relationships of Fear and Desire
In and from this Post, we’re going to have a look at our
acceptance and allowance of using Energy-Polarities in Consciousness, such as
Fear and Desire in a relationship to Failure and Success, such as for example
changing self from Laziness to Discipline: and how we would within this, never
actually really get to a Point of Self-Change – because we’re always, in fact,
Cycling within Energy/Energy experiences in the polarity between Failure and
Success and how this, consequentially, can in fact actually Lead to manifesting
Self as Failure and/or compromising self mentally and physically – with
accepting and allowing the Fear of Failure to fuel the Desire of Success.
Solution:
Here we’re going to walk through opening up all the
Dimensions of the Problem and within the Problem – also see the Solution, as we
walk a Process of Writing of Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, that –
to transcend my Process from Laziness to Discipline, from a ‘failure’ to a
‘success’: to have to be done through a Process of ‘Fighting Myself’, where I
would create a ‘Fear of Laziness’ and a ‘Desire for Discipline’ and in this
Polarizing of Failure vs. Success and Fear vs. Desire: I in fact split my
Consciousness/Awareness into two separate worlds/experiences/me’s within
myself. And in this Process: actually Create my own Internal Conflict/War
against two parts of me.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see, realise and understand how: with creating a FEAR towards
‘Failure/Laziness’ and a DESIRE
towards Discipline: I am separating myself into and as three tiers of Hierarchy
within both Polarities where my relationship-equations exist as follows:
Awareness-Fear-Laziness vs. Awareness-Desire-Discipline. This means that: I, in
my Awareness, accept and allow the Energy-Experience of Fear towards Laziness,
and the Energy-Experience of Desire towards Discipline to ‘Motivate’ myself
into and as Change through utilizing the Polarity of Fear vs. Desire and then
through that, attempt/try to make Discipline the ‘outcome’ of me Motivating
myself into Change from the Fear of Laziness. Not seeing, realising and
understanding how, within this Process – Energy-relationships work, that will
ALWAYS attempt/try to Balance itself out, and how I would never release myself
from Laziness and/or in fact become Disciplined as all I will do is always
‘Fight Myself’ in/between the Polarities of the Energies of Fear and Desire.
I commit myself to show, how: what we do within ourselves
with creating emotional and feeling REACTIONS to parts of ourselves, is in fact
Never, Really Change, but Only Cycle, repetitively, in and as Emotional and
Feeling Experiences to/towards parts of ourselves we have Separated ourselves
from. With having a look at this instance of Laziness and Discipline, for
example:
We find ourselves in our relationship to
Responsibilities within our world, as being Lazy. We then create/generate a
Fear/Judgment towards that Laziness, in our Minds, which is in fact creating a
fear/judgment towards OURSELVES as the Character we’ve become in our minds and
living as ‘Lazy’, and then through the Fear/Judgment in our Minds to the
Character of ‘Laziness’, we create a Desire/Expectation of ourselves as a
Character being ‘Disciplined’. Now, what becomes the ‘motivating Force’ for
ourselves to ‘Change Characters’ is the Fear/Judgment of the Lazy-Character in
our Minds and the Desire/Expectation of the Discipline Character in our Minds.
Now, we keep the Lazy-Character in our Minds, in the back of our Minds, and our
Fear-relationship towards it, to motivate/push ourselves, through ENERGY, into
and as the Discipline-Character. So, whenever we see the Lazy-Character rear
its head, Fear/Judgment arise and from the Fear/Judgment of being
possessed/controlled by the Lazy-Character, we initiate the Desire/Expectation for the
Discipline Character and so FORCE ourselves, with Energy, to be/become
Disciplined as activating/initiating the Discipline Character.
And so, within this: I forgive myself that I haven’t
accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand the type/kind of
existence I am accepting and allowing within myself, through existing as
Characters in the Mind that is motivated/activated/changed through
Energy/Energy-Experience with Not Understanding the nature/dynamics of Energy in
and as Consciousness, where: ALL that is in fact Benefiting in this polarizing
of self into energies as sources for Characters in the Mind: is Consciousness.
Because, now – I have the two Polarities of Fear as the Lazy-Character, and
Desire as the Discipline Character, where I am STILL ACCEPTING AND ALLOWING
Failure as Laziness to exist within me, as a Character in the Mind and Using
That Character as the STARTING POINT of who I am to motivate/activate me into
and as Desire/Expectation of becoming the Discipline-Character. Not seeing, realising
and understanding within this, that: the more and more and more I fear/judge
the Lazy-Character as the part of me I feared/judged
as being a ‘Failure’,
to more and more and more motivate the Discipline-Character as the part of me I
desire/expect to become as a ‘Success’: I am in fact, actually, over and over
and over again, integrating the Lazy/Failure-Character more and more and more
into my Being/Physical Body and so will in fact, through time, make it more and
more and more difficult to maintain the Discipline-Character existent within
desire/expectation – because I need ENERGY to keep the Discipline-Character
going, in and as my Energy-War between Fear/Judgment and Desire/Expectation.
In this, I commit myself to show – how, one can: with accepting
and allowing such Self-Polarization in and as the Self-Definition of ourselves
in our experiences as Energy, as for example Fear and Desire to/towards
Characters in the Mind: that we can take our Minds/Selves/Bodies into and as an
Absolute Possession, where we would physically compromise our Bodies and Minds
to attempt/try to ‘win this Fight’ / ‘inner conflict’
within ourselves to change from Laziness to Discipline – where we would
drive/force/enforce all sorts of Compromise to ourselves/our Bodies as we
attempt/try to push ourselves into remaining ‘Disciplined’ as a
Desire/Expectation with the Fear/Judgment of Failure never lurking too far
behind and can actually so – drive/force/enforce ourselves mentally and
physically into and as ‘burnout’, because we’re waging wars of ENERGY within
ourselves and can use so much Energy as we cycle from Fear to Desire, running
from Laziness towards Desire –that this is all that we do in our Minds, we run
from and run to: but we Never BECOME
Change as a Living Condition as WHO WE ARE in and as Every Moment of
Breath, that exist of NO ENERGY, but as a LIVING EXPRESSION/PRESENCE.
We’ll continue with the Self Forgiveness and Self Commitment
Statements in the next post, together with the Self-Reward.
In this blog, beings from the Afterlife come through me, The Portal (see EQAFE.com) sharing their existential insight and perspective into themselves, humanity, life on earth and the hereafter - with the directive and principle of supporting existence into its potential of creating heaven on earth.
