Relationships: a Quick-Fix for Inner Chaos - DAY 489

The Moment of Shock

Shock, Trauma and Stress (Part Eleven)

In the next post, I will continue with explaining the detail of how we’ve used suppression in the Mind and Body – why it is that everything we’ve suppressed in the Mind within/during a relationship comes rushing back the moment you realise the dependency is not in your world/reality anymore that you used to hold your suppressions in the Mind; and finally – how this influence our Minds and Physical Bodies. To within this, see / realise and understand the Potential we’re taking for granted in relation to the Mind and Body and our relationship with others, if we’d stop living in fear / hiding from our own Minds and start give ourselves the opportunity to start living and so creating ourselves and our relationship with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use relationships as a ‘quick fix’ – where it’s been easier to feel something positive for someone, whether in my imaginations / fantasies and/or in reality, than it has been actually doing introspection into my own Mind and walking a process with myself and my relationship to the things in my Mind that I try and keep hidden from myself and so from others.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to self honestly introspect this relationship between positive fantasies / imaginations of relationships and/or the initial physical experience of a relationship – having a look at how in a quantum moment I can construct an ‘idyllic fantasy / imagination’ in my Mind and/or bring up thoughts and feelings when it comes to my physical relationship with someone; yet – when it comes to the real things, the problems / issues / troubles inside myself / the Mind: I just as quickly suppress them / move them aside – refusing to really look into them and so look at myself. Where, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I have been approaching both the negative and positive polarities inside of myself with ‘quick fixes’ – “QUICKLY” fantasizing / imagining a relationship, “QUICKLY” getting a relationship / sex and then “QUICKLY” suppressing / ignoring my emotions / problems / issues within myself.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to take a moment for myself and in fact see, realise and understand how I have never given myself the space and time to really sort through myself, get to know myself and so understand myself – and in so doing, I have never given myself the space and the time to really ask myself what I want out of a relationship practically, how it would be creating a relationship, living together, establishing short-term and long-term goals and of course merging my vision with that of my partner – both equally, actively participating in individual as well as collective growth as we use the relationship as a platform from which we support ourselves and each other to learn, develop and expand in who we are and how/what we live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take such a quick-fix approach to the relationship with myself, my Mind and so others in my life – never putting in the time, patience and understanding; especially the EFFORT to actually walk with myself, my life and others; not seeing, realising and understanding how this has led to a form of conflict and chaos existing inside myself and my relationships, where most of the time I do not understand why / how I think things, say things and do things towards myself and others that I can see sabotage / compromise me and others. In this, I then try / attempt to find ways / methods to ‘deal with / handle and/or just get through’ the conflict and chaos that is existent in my mind, relationships and life in general.

Where, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that most of the conflict / chaos inside myself – is existent because I do not in fact know myself and understand myself in relation to how the Mind / Consciousness operates / functions; because all I do is suppress everything / cover it up in some way or another, not seeing / realising and understanding how all these / such suppressions eventually manifest into the unconscious mind and becomes a backdrop of information / data that seeps through into my conscious-reality and accordingly affects my thoughts, words and deeds that will infiltrate my world and my relationship with others.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand – with investigating and introspecting my relationship to fantasies/imaginations of relationships / ‘real-life relationships’ that: I was all this time expecting the relationship to alleviate the chaos / conflict existent within me / my mind; when time and time again it was proven that relationships cannot be for me – what I am supposed to be for myself. In this, I commit myself to assist and support myself, to give myself the space and time to sort through myself, get to know and so understand the chaos / conflict so that I can assist and support myself to approach relationships as a platform for personal growth and expansion, finding out what it means to really create a life with another, rather than a ‘quick fix platform’ with the starting point of hope that another can save me from myself.

I will in the next post continue more with how suppression influence our Minds and Bodies and so affects our words and behaviour and what we create and so experience in our relationship with others.

Money: Existing as Illusion within - is easier than seeing the Reality of Chaos without: DAY 371

In the new Soul of Money interviews, available on EQAFE (Freeing your Mind from Money and Power Play with Money) – we’re walking the process of Deconstructing ‘Money Consciousness’, with seeing, realising and understanding the extent to which Money defines and controls who we are, and so our choices/decisions – blinding us from the reality of ourselves and so life on earth; thus essentially more realising the extent to which Money POSSESS our minds, reactions and behaviours and how to assist and support oneself to set oneself free from money Internally, to see, realise and understand how we can set humanity/this physical existence externally, free from Money as we now exist in relationship to/as it.

Within/during the interview, an interesting point opened up – where they were walking / explaining what Exactly goes on in our minds when a point of attraction to/as a particular garment/clothing manifests within our Minds within the starting point of DESIRE, and then purchasing that garment/clothing creating the illusion of a form of ‘empowerment’ through ownership/possession. However, afterwards, returning home to the REALITY of our relationship to Money as, essentially debt and disempowerment – with the experience that Money on an subconscious/unconscious level create/manifest, where every time we look at debt/what we owe/the amount of money we do have, it creates a reaction of Disempowerment.

So, they were explaining how we create this illusion of empowerment with being able to buy something within a starting point of desire, and in that Desire/Illusion of empowerment through possession/ownership – we do not take into account the REALITY of our relationship to MONEY and then we return to REALITY, go back to the polarity of disempowerment through debt, through what we OWE and then cycle back into OWNING and believing we’re enriching ourselves/empowering ourselves in a moment and so we cycle over and over and over again.

So, with looking at the relationship to money in this context – it’s like Humanity was DELIBERATELY disempowered, restricted and limited in relationship to money, so that it creates that ‘empty void’ as DESIRE to want to fulfil it – money creates an experience of LACK, and so with that very relationship between Money creating the LACK in the first place, we’re trying to create FULFILMENT through that very same manifestation as MONEY – thus, going through the cycles of lack and fulfilment, disempowerment and empowerment, caught in time-loops/cycles with and as our relationship to Money. Not seeing BEYOND the hold/possession that Money has within our Minds. As another point they mentioned, which was interesting is that: Humans tend to only see what’s directly in front of them. Like, our thoughts in our  conscious mind – humans don’t go into it, investigate it, source it, how was it created, where does it come from, what’s its origin, what’s its substance, how does it materialize – so the same with clothes for example, the history, process, relationships, networking, sweat, labour, resourcing etc. – none of it is investigated, It’s like the clothes in the store just magically materialized there, like the thoughts in your mind just magically materialized there, NOTHING is ever questioned/investigated and so humans in their internal and external reality, exist in this PROTECTED WORLD and not seeing beyond the evil / consequence really involved with thoughts existing in the mind  /clothes manifesting in stores.

So, in the SOM interview series – they’re taking you internally and externally into the depths of self/existence to see/realise/understand what’s REALLY going on in our minds and in this world in relationship to Money within and the Money Consciousness without.

Time to get out of your Comfort Zones and Illusionary Protected Worlds in the Mind within and your Personal World without and start really seeing how the Mind works and this World Works to understand the extent of control/possession and brainwashing you’ve always in fact exist as and existed within. In this then, to finally realise how we ourselves, individually and together will in fact be/become the Solution to life on earth, if humans would only DARE start introspecting/investigating and SEEING beyond what one directly look into as the Conscious Mind within and Money in your world without.