SEEING in the DARK: DAY 192

SEEING in the DARK: DAY 192

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FEAR of our own SHADOW (Part 4)

EVIL – continued

The FORCE - continued

The Chicken or the Egg??? – continued

How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – continued

Who I Am as Money – continued

(To read this post, it must be understood that we’re walking this process/Blog - Heaven's Journey to Life multi-dimensionally, which means – each post covers one dimension, but is interconnected into/as multi-dimensions in our process of walking the point/question of “who I am” and how this “I” created/manifested this entire physical existence. Thus, suggested – to read this Blog from DAY 1, as many of the points in previous dimensions/DAYS/posts are always brought-through into the next days/dimensions/posts as all the dimensions interconnect as the multi-dimensionality we’ve created/manifested as our separation as Energy/Consciousness from/of Life/equality and Oneness. Thus, if one is faced with this post, and have not yet read this Blog from DAY 1 - suggest that self first start from DAY 1, as otherwise one will have no context of many dimensions that is walked in this post, that has been dealt with in detail in previous posts.)

The Context that we’re walking within Fear of our own Shadow, stand within the Question: “Why, with Always being aware of what goes on in the Mind, what comes up in the Mind –have we never questioned our nature, our beingness, but simply blindly followed/denied it and had it define us/determine our actions/words and behaviour. Simultaneously in such moments knowing we can stop/change and how different the outcome for the moment/relationship would be, but would still, despite that knowledge and awareness – act on/deny the Evil of Mind?”

And within this, we’re starting more specifically with having a look at our accepted and allowed relationship to/towards our own shadows / “Dark Sides” that manifests in our Minds, within our Physical Bodies as-ourselves, where we have mentioned in the previous post that we’ll walk some practical examples in the Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments of how we create Illusions to hide from the reality of the Dark and how this thus inadvertently proliferate the Dark, where we’ve been running away from the reality of ourselves, when we should really just face it, direct it and sort it out.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand the defeatism and victimization relationship I have created to the inherent evil/bad/negative/dark within myself and this world – where it has become just an automated, natural, acceptance and allowance “part of human nature” / “part of life on earth”. However the question within this, is – where have we lost our motivation, our drive, our absolute determination to ensure/secure a better life/living for ourselves and for all in this world/reality, and/or where have we lost our motivation, our drive, our absolute determination to become individuals with integrity, trust, respect, care, consideration, regard, understanding, commonsense within ourselves and our living? Or has this never existed in the first place? I would go for the fact that such characteristics as an actual internal and external living condition has Never existed for Real; otherwise we would not be where we are now in our relationship to the Mind, humanity’s relationship to the World System and the consequences our Mind and World System creations is manifesting in our relationship to ourselves, the physical body, others, humanity and this physical existence as a whole.

I commit myself to show, how many would say “But, look at what those people are doing for others” / “But, look at what that organisation/business/charity is doing for that country” / “But, look within me – there is good/benevolence” / “But, look I do ‘good things’” – however, the facts that must be faced is that, in comparing the extent/amount of good vs. bad in our Minds and in this World – the Bad is substantially MORE overwhelming. We really kind of went “Okay, the bad/negative/evil/dark exist in my Mind and in this World, BUT I can ‘make up for it’ by/through doing this / being that / thinking/imagining/experience this/that”. It’s like, in our Minds and in this World we’ve created consequence, and then we have from that consequence-outflow tried to cover it up/make up for it/searching for redemption/forgiveness (e.g. from Religions), resisting the consequence through only being of love/light/ascension/spiritual (e.g. through Spiritualities) – however, we never considered understanding the Mental and Physical SCIENCE of HOW we created the Consequence in the First Place. Both Religions and Spiritualities stand within the context of Resisting/turning our backs on the Consequence, abdicating Responsibility through blame/projection (e.g. the Devil/Lucifer/Satan being responsible for the Consequence) and/or through denial/resistance (e.g. Spirituality – that the negative that the Positives experiences in themselves originate from someone/somewhere else) and then we have the “normal” humans walking the Earth – blaming/projecting/denying/resisting Mental/Physical/Life-consequence on everything/everyone else BUT SELF. Really have a look at ourselves: how much have we in any way taken responsibility for who we are/ how/what we live in really introspecting/investigating how the Mind determine our self-definition, and so our living/behaviour that so determine/manifest this world/reality?

 I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to consider, what I am accepting and allowing to manifest in my Mind as the evil/bad/negative/dark within and as it, that I would accept and allow to participate in when/as I believe I AM ALONE in my MIND and that no-one will EVER FIND OUT. But, not seeing, realising and understanding The One I am deceiving the most, here, The One that I am most dishonest to/towards, is: MYSELF. Because, I KNOW what I do within my Mind, alone with myself – and even though no-one else knows, what determines this relationship to me within and as my Mind, is my Self-Definition, Integrity, Trust, Respect, Comfortability – all of which becomes compromised when I reveal one Face to myself, and another to Others. What does this show about the actual nature of our SELF-Relationship, the relationship that should be the most important, as this Self-Relationship is what determines one’s living, one’s relationships, one’s life in/as this World: what does this show about our Self-Relationship, when we can accept/allow such dark/evil/negative/bad to manifest in our Minds in moments without a flinch, without a flicker of shame, without even any second thoughts and simultaneously within that believing that “we’re getting away with it, cause no-one else knows what’s REALLY going on in our Minds”. What does this say about the actual inherent nature of us Human Beings, that we can continue participating in such things in our Minds and then through little/small/insignificant claims/good deeds define ourselves/who we are as being an “inherently good person”?

I Commit myself to show how this bring us to the point of how we have become desensitized from/of the evil/bad/negative/dark in this World/Reality – that we do not even FEEL for the countless majority of humanity, the earth, the animal kingdom that is suffering in unimaginable ways  - that we can see/hear this happening without a flinch, without a flicker of shame – without any determination, drive and motivation to not have ANY Human, ANY Animal, ANY part of/as this physical existence deliberately suffer just so that a Minority can live their lives in “the bliss of ignorance”? This desensitization originates from/of our relationships to our own Minds. Where we have become so automatically/naturally “used to” the evil/dark/negative/bad that exist/manifest within it, justify it / blaming/projecting/denying/resisting/suppressing it through all sorts of excuses/reasons/validations as protection/defence mechanisms; and using that little bit of goodness/love/light/benevolence to make ourselves FEEL BETTER. Have a look at how much we do within our Minds and this World in our relationship to the consequence that manifest in the Mind and this World and our reaction to the consequences is always within the context of what makes us FEEL BETTER…for a moment. That makes us FEEL GOOD about ourselves/what we have done. HOWEVER, these feelings of bettering/goodness has yet again, made no visible, physical difference to the inherent nature of what manifest in our Minds and in this World as a Whole. We propose to consider, that life should not just be about those insignificant moments of making yourself feel good/feel better about doing something really insignificant when looking at the Grand Scheme of things of Life on Earth. That, when/as one face consequence in the Mind, this World System – granted, the World System is going to be a bigger task, and suggest investigating the Equal Money System for a Total System Change as SOLUTION. So, with facing consequence in the Mind, the first point to consider is not to fear it/judge it; as this is creating a split/separation within self, but rather UNDERSTAND it. I mean, this is how we walked with Demons in the Demon Dimension – rather than fearing them/judging them, we communicated with them to UNDERSTAND who/how they are and could from there, as we understood them, as they came to understand themselves in/as AWARENESS and Self-Honesty: Could in fact Change and become the Solution to themselves/their existence. (The Process we have walked through/with the Portal with the Demons is discussed in the Journeys into the Afterlife Series available on EQAFE).

Thus, we suggest – for those ready to UNDERSTAND the Mind, not fear it/judge it/condemn it, to join the Desteni Forums to walk a process of writing/self-forgiveness as the Guidance of UNDERSTANDING the Mind and how to walk the Mind into and as an EQUAL AND ONE LIVING SOLUTION.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how we have even gone to the extent of Personifying our relationship to the Good and the Bad within the context of “Optimism and Pessimism”, where apparently, if/as one focus on the bad/negative/dark/evil of the Mind/of this World – one is a “Pessimist” and as an Optimist, essentially, one should only focus on the good/positive/light/love. However, again here – to consider the Polarity that we’re participating in, with being an Optimist in comparison to the Pessimist – Optimism is NOT going to practically, PHYSICALLY, solve the current conditions/state/living of humanity/this World System – nor is it going to change, for real, the inherent Nature of/as the Mind of ourselves. If anything, the Personification of the Negative into Pessimism and the Positive into Optimism was more for the Self-Interest of those hiding from/justifying the bad/negative/evil/dark of the Mind/of this World. So, with defining giving attention to/taking responsibility for/looking/searching for solutions to the dark/negative/bad/evil as Pessimistic, the Optimist can furthermore justify/excuse/validate hiding in the Positive and so resisting/denying/suppressing the Negative and not having to take responsibility for it.

I commit myself to show, that the Polarity of Optimism / Pessimism is again the flipside of the same coin – resisting/denying the dark/negative/bad/evil through hiding within the light/positive/good/love, again, neither personification bring forth a viable, substantial solution to what is going on in the Mind of Humans and the World System of this Earth/Physical Existence. We propose to not be limited in/as definitions/polarities, but stand within the starting point of equality and oneness as what’s best for All – really LOOK at and FACE the inherent Nature of the Mind, with writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application with support/assistance available at Desteni, the Desteni I Process and then the inherent Nature of this World System that we’re facing/walking into and as Solutions within/as the Equal Money System. So, in this, to stop using the Optimism, Pessimism polarity/definition to not take responsibility for the Mind/this World – take responsibility through facing it and in the facing, bringing it into/as an Equal and One Living Solution for Self and this World/Humanity as Self.

If anything, it should not be “turning on the Lights to see in the Dark”, it should be “trusting ourselves to stand in the Dark and face it as-ourselves”. To essentially learn to SEE IN THE DARK and we may just realise that we’ve actually always only been afraid of ourselves, we may just realise that this fear of ourselves was so totally unnecessary when/as one walk through that FEAR of self/the Mind and realise: “hey – it’s just me, a part of me I did not Understand, now I SEE and now I can CHANGE”. Where, this seeing in the Dark is not through the ILLUSION of LIGHT that misconstrue the Dark. This SEEING in the Dark is a Direct Seeing of Insight, Awareness, Understanding and Self-Honesty AS SELF, attributes/keys that self develop through/as walking the process of Writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Application – suggest reading the 7 Year Journey to Life Blogs as an example of what it means to SEE in the Dark through/as Awareness, Insight and Understanding within/through Self-Honesty and how through/as the Seeing, one come to actual, real, visible, practical Solutions to/as Facing the Dark of/as Self/Mind.