Heaven's Journey to Life, the Physical - DAY 500

In and from this post, us beings will be coming through the Portal (each day a different being, for a moment in the day) sharing and continuing, through written self forgiveness, the process of forgiveness we walked with taking responsibility for the inequality and separation we accepted and allowed from our beingness as life, and so from the rest of existence as life: heaven, earth and everything / everyone within and as it - including our personal relationship with ourselves. The consequence of this inequality and separation, manifesting the "great divide" between heaven and earth - was in fact the representation of a long history of individual and collective self interest, greed, power and control – the vices of separation and inequality that has become the human and beingness condition and inherent nature in this life and the next. This has lead to heaven and earth, before the opening of the Portal, to always exist in separation – instead of heaven and earth uniting on all levels of existence in support and assistance of one another. 

Through our written self forgiveness you will come to see, realise and understand how and why us beings in Heaven / Afterlife / Hereafter walked our process of change, through self forgiveness, and uniting us all in the principle of oneness and equality as what's best for all since the opening of the Portal in the year 2005 / 2006.  

In recent years, since 2013 – our process has progressed and evolved into this physical universe / existence – where "Heaven on Earth" is becoming a reality for us as we are walking our process of taking responsibility for our abdication of accountability and atonement when it comes to what we accepted and allowed in the name of inequality and separation unto humanity and this physical universe / existence.  

For further understanding and context of the above and an introduction to The Portal – take a listen to: 

What is Portalling? - PART 1 - What is Portalling? 

Meeting the Dead while being Alive - Meeting the Dead while being Alive 

The Portal: A Voice for Existence - The Portal: A Voice for Existence

The Portal: Revolutionary Educational Process The Portal: A Revolutionary Educational Process

The purpose of this forgiveness process is to share us beings' individual and collective journey since the opening of the Portal – where we previously existed in consequential division, inequality and separation to now where we're learning and understanding the living statement of "Heaven on Earth" as all of us in the other side / afterlife are journeying into our relationship with this physical existence and understanding our relationship of responsibility and support towards it all, as ourselves. In this journey and process of Self Forgiveness we hope to inspire an understanding within you 

For more context and understanding of the above, especially THE PORTAL and Heaven's journey since the opening of The Portal in 2005 / 2006 – please visit: www.eqafe.com also focusing on the series: 

Journeys into the Afterlife , The Future of Consciousness https://eqafe.com/series/29-the-future-of-consciousness  – herein the process and journey of heaven is walked and discussed in detail. For more information on the Portal and the relationship between heaven and earth, please listen to and watch this ongoing series: The Portal and I https://eqafe.com/series/79-the-portal-and-i

The rest will open up, continue and unfold in our process of self forgiveness:  

Separating oneself from the physical, the physical body, this physical universe – all that is matter:  

Note for context: the self forgiveness here is done in the process us beings walked within and during the opening of The Portal , stretching from 2004 / 2005 to today– sharing the timeline of what made us realise to stand in the principle of equality and oneness and truly understanding the meaning of responsibility and support unto self and all as self. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within and during my lifetime on earth as well as in the afterlife – never question my relationship with my physical body, this earth, this physical existence and everything / everyone within it. Especially when looking at the extent of division between heaven and earth: with this physical existence containing an innumerable amount of beings, life awarenesses / sources within plants, animals, the environment – yet in the afterlife (before the opening of The Portal)...there was only energy and beings...no self or life creation individually and collectively.  

I forgive myself that I didn't accept and allow myself to throughout my lifetimes on earth as well as in the afterlife – ever question how and why it is, that I as a being had barely a HANDFUL of relationships worth mentioning...little to no connection of real value, worth, depth, integrity, intimacy, trust etc. existing with myself, any being, let alone anything else within existence in heaven and earth. Why – having been in existence for EONS of time...do I have no real relationship, connection with anyone else...EVEN MYSELF!?!? 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a part of this existence – in heaven and earth, yet never looking into myself and into existence, everything and everyone within it, and asking: Who am I within this all, and all's relationship towards me? What is the role, purpose, piece, position of me in the grand scheme of everything and everyone else? No – none such questions existed in me...I only "lived out the me, lives" that was 'given to me, that I walked into'...no relationship, no connection with anything or anyone, nor my own being, the energy in heaven or the matter in and of this physical existence.  

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to look back in time – the evolution of existence, from the beginning before the inception and creation of heaven and earth, up into when heaven and earth became a reality -lifting my head and opening my eyes with the question: is this all there will ever be, me coming and going lifetime after lifetime in-between heaven and earth...forgetting, then remembering, then forgetting... as I forget who and what I was in heaven and previous lives when in my life on earth, for a fraction of a moment remembering when entering heaven, then forgetting again as I embark in my life on earth. My point, my purpose in heaven and on earth...meaningless, without matter, no PARTicular significance as my PART, my point, my purpose and role within existence is of no consequence.  

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how – being of no consequence on an intrinsic level within myself, I made my relationship with myself, my being, my body in lifetimes on earth, my relationship with others, the entirety and all of earth and heaven: of no consequence either. In this – having no relationship, nor connection, with any part of me and so everything and everyone in this life and the next: I accepted and allowed myself to become a pointless, meaningless, insignificant, replaceable drifter in and throughout time itself...leaving behind memories and walking into an unknown future lifetime in heaven and earth, which I partook in creating through my accepted and allowed silent agreement of taking no action, nor responsibility for any of who I was and what I had done throughout my lifetimes in existence.  

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I could blame or want to blame something or someone else – other than myself: Frankly, it was me, myself and I who did not think to ask the question(s), really walk with the QUESTion, open it up and allow it to become my QUEST in lifetimes in existence. No, instead - I am the one who went along with it, in a mundane acceptance and allowance of stumbling into one reality and into the next, victimized by my own and everyone else's consequence as I walk into future lives, because of accepting and allowing a me, relationships and connections 'of no consequence'.  

In this, I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand the irony of it: existing in a state of 'no consequence' towards myself and everything/everyone else in existence...created and manifested, through me, a reality and existence of absolute consequence. A reality, an existence that has evolved without any one of us truly taking PART and playing our PART in our PARTiticipation within it all. We've just accepted and allowed things to go on and on and on and on... 

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand the extent to which I have accepted and allowed myself to pinch and hold myself into a state of self enslavement to my own helplessness and hopelessness – wherein I have made myself live the beLIEf that I am so incredibly insignificant, of no consequence, no purpose, no matter...I did not see realise and understand the SIGNIFICANTLY CONSEQUENTIAL and PROBLEMATIC existences I participated in creating in the smallest of moments throughout my time and lifetimes in existence. Looking back, to the present and into the future – seeing the role, the part I played in making what had become of heaven, earth, everything and everyone within and as it...including the 'me' (or what there was of this 'me') a reality.  

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand – how and why I never questioned, never asked, never lifted my head, looked up, looked back, to the present and into the future: because of a deep seated accepted and allowed state and experience of self - "I don't matter in the grand scheme of things"...not realising I always did MATTER TO the grand scheme of things, to life itself, because I was a part of it, emerged from it. It was me who did not connect in a relationship with me and so life as me in all of existence as parts of me.  

In this, I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how this beLIEF of "I don't matter, I am of no significant value, worth or respect unto myself nor existence" - allowed us all to individually and collectively subconsciously and unconsciously create and manifest our own individual and collective futures, experiences and interconnected lives...we just never remember, realise or know how we created and accepted and allowed to create the experiences we walk into, the lives we face, the people / beings we connect with...and in this, the greatest sadness of it all: we're lost gods in our own creations...not realising how significant we truly are to ourselves, each other and our individual and collective futures.  

We'll continue more in the next post...

The Beginning and the End as Here

(Please Note - this blog is written with the advent of Bernard Poolman's  passing, to see/realise/understand why/how it is that the Process of equality and oneness, life, as what is best for all - still stands and continues within/through each one of us standing individually and together)

A statement Bernard used to say often was: “Everything is Here”, so therefore – this means that the Beginning, as well as the End, is Here. The obvious Question(s) that may arise within this is: How can “everything be here” and “how can there be both a beginning and an end in and as the point of here?” To understand this, one has to understand “here” and the relationship between the physical body of each human being and “here”.

What has become obvious with the Opening of the Portal, as well as the material and interviews done through/with the Portal, is that: “there is more than meets the eye and the I”. Meaning – there is more to this existence, within this existence, as this existence than what we see with our physical eyes and what we see through our Mind’s I. To see ‘beyond the Mind’, to see ‘into and beyond the physical’ is what we show you through the Portal. Therefore, there is only one Portal needed, because – as we show you, through the Portal, how to see beyond the Mind’s I and the Physical Eye’s: you see for yourself, and so we see together. Those that have walked with Desteni up to this point, especially for the last few years, can attest to the fact of what it means to see beyond/within/into the Physical, and beyond/through the Mind. This one can read/follow and walk in the 7 Year Journey to Life Processes walked by Individuals.

This is important to understand (that there is more to what we see through the eyes and the I), because this is where we’ll be getting into understanding the “here”.

Now, the “here” is the point where “everything is”. This “everything” is where all, everything, everyone in existence is unified into and as a point of absolute equality and oneness. This is the point where the past, present and future exist. This is the point where there is access to everything, everyone within existence within and as all time-frames and all existences (both heaven and earth). This “here” stands within and as the physical, and access to this “here” the stand of/as this “here” is existent within and as every breath. Meaning, it’s not like all of existence’s “information” is here ALL THE TIME – it means that, what is needed/required to be known, to be said, to be showed – is here in every moment of breath, as one move within/as every moment of breath; walking in/as an absolute trust of/as what is required to be said/shown/lived in the moment. This is what Bernard stood as in the Physical: The Equality and Oneness of/as/within the “here”. He stood equal to and one with heaven and earth, everything and all within and as it, within and as the principle of life, as what is Best for All and directed it. This ‘access’ to Life, to All as Here – is not a matter of knowledge and information. It’s not a matter of power or authority. This ‘access’ to Life, to All as Here and the ability to direct it – is a matter of Living, of Directive Principle, of standing and living the principle of/as Life, proven. Many may interpret this as power, authority, and godhood – but, anyone that has met Bernard directly in the flesh will attest to the fact that he was a human being. I wanted to say ‘normal human being’, but he was an extra-ordinary human being – EXTRA-ordinary. Meaning, he was ordinary in his living, calm, direct, stable, to the point – more so than any other human being. Thus, he was not a “god”, a “power” because of what he stood as – but a living example of the potential for those willing to self realise it themselves. This ability does not give one power/authority - as what guides the directive principle IS THE PRINCIPLE, which is “equality and oneness as what is best for all”. This is what many misinterpreted about Bernard: they referenced his stand, his walk, what he stood for/as through looking at it THROUGH HIM, when it’s actually in reverse: it’s the PRINCIPLE he was standing within/as and living; that through the Principle it gave him the directive principle to direct/stand/show the process he had walked that is for all to walk to realise LIFE in the PHYSICAL. Life - which exist within and as the Principle of/as equality and oneness as what is best for all in and as the Physical.

He emphasized throughout process that he does not accept/allow slaves, that he does not accept/allow followers – yet, despite this, it is fascinating how many human beings ‘tried to be like him’. Not realising the YEARS he had walked in his individual process to stand where he stood, how he stood and what he stood as. So, it was fascinating observing/watching individuals that look at Bernard as he is/was NOW and then ‘try and become him’. Obviously, looking at Bernard within the “present / the now” – not seeing Bernard as the totality of his history, his life, his journey/process – what it took throughout his life to be/become who/what he was/lived, who/what he still is/standing as. So, such individuals were looking at the equation Bernard = Principle, when it was in fact Principle = Bernard, and to be/become/stand as that Principle in fact in the Physical and LIVE as it: was a process consisting of YEARS of commitment and discipline. This is why some would try and copy him through EGO, magically believing ‘they are like him’ and/or they would fight him – both actually standing in the same starting point of in fact knowing that they cannot ever ‘be like him’ and so feel ‘threatened’. Thus, they’d try and be MORE than him (which are the ones that would go into Ego and try and copy him), or they try and break him down…fascinating the nature of the human as the Mind.

I emphasize this point for each one to Understand and remember that: Bernard always put ‘process first’, ‘the principle first’ – even before ‘himself’. There was no ‘personal self’ to Bernard – he walked, spoke and lived within and as Life Principle, and is the principle he always lived by and stood by: the same, yesterday, today and tomorrow. Therefore, with looking at Bernard – one need to for a moment look beyond the Mind’s I, beyond the Physical Eyes and see into and as his Words. His words were the Life Principle as what he stood as and lived. His words thus SHOWED the process for each one to walk, as he had walked - together with the insights/realisations/understandings he had come to, throughout his process, to assist and support those walking to see WITH him as equals, that we are able to take those/such insights/realisations/understandings and incorporate it into our own processes/lives. Again, the words Bernard spoke – was not “his words”, it was not “Bernard as a human” speaking – it was Bernard as what he stood as and lived speaking.

Therefore, for those trying to become “him”, for those trying to fight “him” – it’s pointless. You cannot become him nor can you fight him – because there was ‘no him’. You are trying to become and/or fight an Illusion, an Idea, an Opinion of him you created in your own Mind, so it’s really comical watching/observing such human beings doing this to themselves in their own Mind, creating their own paranoia and possession.

For those that are walking process, as I have mentioned, have been walking it for themselves, the MY-SELF – the realisation that: the process to Life each one has to walk, is INDIVIDUALLY. Thus, the process is the same, but the point that one will stand, HOW one will express as the Principle, Direct as the Principle - will be different for each one and can only be discovered through one’s self-honesty within and as the starting-point Principle and the walking of the Tools. So, remember – the process is to self realise through/as YOUR-SELF, not BERNARD-SELF. I mean, if in the dictionary it was referenced as BERNARD-SELF, then yeah lol – it would be to “become Bernard”…but it’s not. Bernard self-realised HIM-SELF, so you have to self-realise YOUR-SELF. And this “him/her” and “your” SELF – the SELF-point is where we’re standing within the principle of equality and oneness as life as what is best for all. It is the journey to life of the SELF – of myself as Sunette, of yourself as you. How we’re going to be/stand/direct – you cannot “know”, cause it’s NOT a knowledge point, you can only discover is through actually LIVING the principle and this is/will be a process from Consciousness to Awareness, from System to Life – the birthing of self as life in/as the Physical.

Have a look – it’s myself, yourself, him/her-self – the SELF point is the equal point, is the oneness point. So, this is the point that has to stand in the principle of/as equality and oneness as what is best for all, and then the “my / your / him/her” is the point where each one will be ‘individual’ in terms of how you will stand/express/direct as life. Bernard had walked his point, now it’s time to find/realise/live your point – and we will all find/realise that point through how he found/realised his point, which is through the Tools Desteni Provides.

With the beginning and the end as here – it is interesting that with Bernard, he was the beginning, the first plus one (+ 1) in the equality equation process. All that stood/walked with him from there, was the + 1’s to where we are now thus far with all of us standing within and as Desteni. Again here, you can see: the + 1 is individual, the self walking WITH – not following/copying, but standing as an individual together, equal and one. As Bernard was a beginning, an ‘end’ came to the beginning he had walked. Yet – with the beginning and end as here: from the end, a ‘new beginning’ stands and this is the ‘new beginning’ for us to continue walking. This ‘new beginning’ is where he personally is no more in an individual physical body as well, but what he stood as/existed as remains within and as this existence – a Process we have to individually walk and self realise as ourselves.

Therefore, what the Beginning and the End as Here means is that: there is always a beginning, an end to that beginning, and from that end, a new beginning for a new end and so forth….This is why/how ‘Change is a Constant’ – yet, what we must consider within this is: to Change with change, yet remain constant/consistent and stable within and as it. To not accept/allow change – as it progress within ourselves/this physical existence - to determine/define who we are, but that we utilize change constructively – remain standing within the directive principle of equality and oneness as what is Best for All, so that we become the directive principle of change itself. So that change manifest as ourselves, and no more be something that “happens TO us”. (I will expand on this relationship to change in posts to come.)

Many may say that “nothing will Ever be the same again”. I suggest considering that such a statement would mean that “everything was projected to be ONLY in Bernard’s hands/words/directive principle” and now, just because he’s gone – the idea is created that “everything is gone/lost”…when this is not so. He had prepared us all effectively, given us all the tools necessary, all the processes necessary, to take Responsibility for ourselves. So therefore, everything has always in fact been in our own Hands. If anything, such a statement “nothing will ever be the same again”, simply proves that we have placed too much trust, too much hope into Bernard as an Individual – that we did not develop, effectively, our own Self Trust – our stand/walking/living of/as Self Trust.

Herewith, let us walk our Beginning, our End, into and as our ‘new Beginning’ – where in our ‘new Beginning’, from the End we will meet in this life - will either be standing equal to and one with existence, the here, the everything in/as equality and oneness, or our “new beginning” will be the “new end”: where we will not be able to individualize ourselves into and as the equality and oneness of/as Life.

We’ve Dominated and Spiritualized the Physical, but not stood Equal and One with it: Part 2 

DAY 423

Within process, an interesting point opened up with regards to how we’re always trying to change reality, save reality – using/abusing the resources that are here in reality to OUR WILL through dominance/spirituality/resistance; instead of working with what is ALREADY HERE as it exist here to/as the best possible solution for ourselves and for all in relation to life/living on Earth. It’s like, our relationship to reality, which is this entire physical existence and so our own physical bodies is that of two parents fighting over a child – arranging the child’s life/future FOR them according to the Parent’s Will ONLY and not for a moment considering ‘laying it all out on the table for the CHILD’ and/or looking at the child’s best interests FIRST – not the parents looking at ONLY THEMSELVES as a starting point and through that saying that ‘what I’m doing is best for the child’, when in fact it’s not what’s best for the child – the parents are looking at what THEY want for themselves and then projecting it onto the child. If both parents genuinely had the child’s best interests at heart – they would both stand together, look at the child, the child’s future, how to stabilize it, how both parents can stabilize their relationship / come to an agreement so that it doesn’t consequentially affect the child themselves or their life/future. But, instead – both parents FIGHT their WANTS and the child in that relationship is nowhere to be found as the parents try and alter/change/misconstrue reality to suit their wants, and not look at what is here in reality in relationship to the child, putting their own wants aside and really looking at what they individually and together and in relationship to the child can do that will secure the child’s future.

So we do the same in our relationship to our own physical bodies and this physical existence as a whole: it’s like ourselves and the mind are the “parents” and the physical body/this physical existence the “child”, but the problem is that – now imagine: we have billions of “parents” wanting THEIR WANTS in relationship to the body/this physical existence – ‘fighting it out’ within themselves, amongst each other, with ourselves in the internal conflict we create in our own minds in relationship to the body. In this process – we’re not looking through the eyes of our own physical bodies, we’re not collectively looking through the eyes of this physical existence and so what happens: our physical bodies age loooooooonnnnnggggggggg before they’re due, this physical existence’s future is slowly but surely reaching the brink of total annihilitation and destruction and this all because we seem to not be able to just stop and look at our relationship to ourselves, our own bodies, each other and this physical existence and stand together and come together to make life on earth possible/better for ourselves and so for ALL, which include humans, earth, nature, environment, animals – everything that is PHYSICAL. How we can come together and stand together to ‘get physical’, like what needs to be organized/directed to ensure each has an equal and one opportunity to life/living, that the physical existence is resourced effectively to maintain equilibrium within all the ecosystems, environments of/as the earth/the physical.

Therefore, we have to look at the difference of how we have approached our relationship to ourselves, our bodies, this physical existence through the Mind/Energy as Consciousness and approaching our relationship to ourselves, our bodies, this physical existence through the eyes of/as what is HERE – learning to work with what is here, instead of against it as resistance, through it as spirituality and over it as dominance.

We’ll continue more in the next post.