Thank you for
Supporting me to Understand Self Honesty: DAY 499
In the next post, I will continue with “Thank you for supporting me to understand the meaning of self
honesty” and “Thank you for showing
me what it means to know myself, to understand myself”…
Also expanding more on how – with ‘losing yourself in moments’,
such moments are opportunities to LEARN about yourself, to UNDERSTAND yourself
as the Mind and so opportunities to grow, develop and expand your awareness
even more…
Before I continue with the next two dedications, I would
like to expand on the point of ‘losing yourself in moments’ in thoughts and
emotions in your Mind, which I discussed in the previous blog.
Understand, you will ‘lose’ yourself in moments, this happens
in the process of understanding the Mind – especially when you’re facing new
thought- / reaction-patterns you haven’t yet faced / dealt with inside your
Mind. Such ‘new’ things will often rise up from deeper dimensions in your mind
/ body. Process is like walking through layers within yourself, the moment
you’ve walked through one layer, the next layer beneath it opens up and is it
opens up…Pandora’s box reveals itself as the new thoughts / emotions and
dimensions in your consciousness unveils itself, which often comes up quite
intensely, overwhelming one in moments. So, even though you reach a point in
your process / awareness where you’re able to direct mind constructs and
energies effectively, it does so happen that points inside yourself ‘creep up’
unexpectedly and ‘catch you off-guard’; before you know it – you’re overwhelmed
by thoughts / emotions and many other things inside yourself. When this happens
– this represents a ‘new process’ inside yourself that’s emerging, but you’ll
find you will be able to ground yourself, stabilise yourself much faster and
introspect / investigate the new dimensions of thoughts / emotions to deal with
/ face and change
within yourself.
The ‘problem’ only comes in when you continue doing the same
thing over and over and not learn from it that it becomes deliberate – ‘cause
you KNOW where a certain train of thought and reactions will lead you, yet do
nothing to change it…and cycle in the same pattern over and over again. So, in
such instances – best to identify why you’re ‘deliberately’ losing yourself in
alternate realities and reactions in your Mind, assist and support yourself to
stop and change these cycles…because only you can do it for yourself, no one
else is existing in your own Mind but you.
However, there does come a time…in the future
of one’s process, where one even stop being able to be ‘caught off-guard’
by your own mind. This is when you reach the quantum physical / physical
dimensions of your process after having walked the conscious, subconscious,
unconscious and quantum mind. Where you’re able to be aware of thoughts /
energies trying to come up / move from within your mind / body and already stop
participation before they come into creation. So, there’s still quite an
fascinating process of awareness ahead when it comes to getting to know /
understanding your own mind and body and the relationship between the two!
Let’s continue with the dedications:
“Thank you for
supporting me to understand the meaning of self honesty”
Self honesty has been the most empowering, yet frightening
thing I have faced within this process. In the beginning of my process – I struggled
with the difference between ‘honesty’ and ‘self honesty’. I initially thought I
had to be ‘honest’ with ‘everyone else’ – to always ‘speak my MIND’, speak exactly
what I think and feel and this obviously coming from my initial starting point
of believing ‘all that I am is my thoughts and emotions’. However, I had come
to understand an interesting thing within my process when looking at the
following question: “how can you really be ‘honest’ with everyone else, if you
have not been honest with yourSELF? How can you understand what ‘speaking the
truth’ means, if you have not been truthful with yourSELF? What does it mean to
be honest
with SELF, truthful with SELF?”
‘Speaking my Mind’ more often than not got me into a bit of
trouble, speaking my thoughts as they came up and speaking the exact detail of
my emotions and feelings; especially WHILE I was in thoughts and emotions…so I
would literally ‘speak my Mind in real time, in the moment, immediately’. Most
people did not respond well to this. So, I literally took ‘honesty’ as I
understood it then – to the extreme. All it ended up leading to was creating
more conflict inside myself and my relationships with other people – ‘honesty’
in no way brought me, nor my relationship with others to understanding,
realisation, growth and expansion…
Now, some would think this to be a ‘commendable trait’ – being
fearless to speak one’s Mind, which is also often termed to be ‘speaking the
truth’. However – with understanding the difference between self honesty and
honesty…one will understand how our current perception / definition of honesty epitomizes
the separation from SELF we accept and allow in our relationship with the Mind,
our thoughts and emotions/feelings. So, what I had come to learn about self
honesty, the difference between this and honesty is already obvious when
looking at the words: SELF honesty
and honesty. With honesty – SELF is missing. Now, what does this mean? More
importantly – why can Self Forgiveness only be applied within Self Honesty to
really have an effect on one’s process of self change, self realisation and
self expansion within this process from Consciousness to Awareness?
In the next post, I will continue with explaining how Self Forgiveness
supported me to understand and face Self Honesty. Also, why ‘honesty’ still
only keeps you locked into Consciousness – whereas Self Honesty expands your
Awareness to be able to take that step back in your own Mind in relation to
your own thoughts and emotions, to be able to understand how exactly your own
mind, you within your own Mind operate…so, really – understanding Self Honesty
through Self Forgiveness was an important key within my process from
Consciousness to Awareness and breaking through the idea/belief I held of
myself as ‘only being my thoughts and emotions’…when there’s in fact been so
much more to me, to who I am and so each one of us.
Furthermore, I will share examples to illustrate the
difference between self honesty and honesty – showing how self honesty leads to
understanding and solutions, with honesty – more often than not leading to
further friction / conflict…
