The Soul of Fear: Day 35

The Soul of Fear: Day 35

Energy as Authority - Part Five

The Chicken or the Egg??? – Part Six

How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – Part Seventeen

Who I Am as Money – continued

As mentioned in the previous post, we’re walking how we as Blame within ourselves in the beginning, to the evolution of ourselves as the Mind and the creation of ourselves as the World-System of Money within and as the deliberate nature and action of ourselves as spite, excuse and justification: have deliberately ‘suppressed’ the evidence as consequence of our existence as Energy-Authority in deifying ourselves into ‘godliness’ and defying actual Life-Authority into and as ungodliness. Where to this day – we see the consequence of ourselves as Mind and World-System of Energy and Money in our physical-bodies and this physical-existence, but deliberately not see our individual responsibility to our relationship as the Mind to the Physical and the World-System of Money to this physical-existence. To understand how we as Blame – within and as spite, excuse and justification protect/defend our existence/survival as Energy, and deliberately not see/face the consequence we create/manifest in this – first have to understand Fear, Energy as Fear, and how Fear became our Consciousness that has manifested the acceptance and allowance of our existence as Energy-Authority to life/substance as existence as a whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in the beginning – from and of my initial conception of separation to/towards substance/existence-manifest, manifested friction/conflict that consumed substance into negative-energy experience from and of my external formation as manifested-singularity, where the negative-energy experience reverberated/rippled as accumulated into my beingness within my manifested-singularity, which consumed my beingness into and as neutral-energy experience awareness and from here accumulated into and as positive-energy experience. Where, because I conceived as defined my ‘who, what and how I am’ as Energy – my awareness as energy shifted from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive. In this shifting of and as energy-awareness – I separated my awareness as Energy to only exist within and as the positive-energy experience of and as the MORE of me as Energy.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - for me to maintain and sustain my positive-energy experience awareness of and as the MORE of me as my possession/possessing as survival of and as myself as Energy, I continued accepting and allowing my nature and action within and as Blame as deliberate spite, excuse and justification – deifying me as Energy-Authority as ‘life’ – blasphemizing actual Life as substance-manifest in and as my beingness and manifested-singularity as substance-manifest, in the nature and action of me as excusing life-authority for energy-authority as me to assert myself just to survive/continue existing.

I forgive myself, that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how - in this process of shifting my awareness into and as Energy as the negative, neutral and positive – my only purpose/responsibility as Energy came into existence as possessing me as Energy and surviving as Energy within and through the nature and action relationship of me as Energy to/towards substance as Blame within and as deliberate spite, excuse and justification; manifested as deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, manifest the purpose/responsibility of me as Energy – to only possess me as Energy, with the nature of that possession as Survival; within and through the nature and action of and as the entirety of me as Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification. In this, only manifested my responsibility to me as Energy-Survival, and separated me from my responsibility to and as all as me as substance/existence-manifest. In this accepted and allowed separation from and of Responsibility to and as Life/Living as Substance-manifest – to possession and survival of and as me as Energy within and as the nature and action of Blame through spite, excuse and justification: Deifying me as Energy and defying Life as Substance-manifest – I asserted my Authority to such an extent, where I would accept and allow any and all abuse, misuse and manipulation as negative-energy experience friction/conflict for me as Energy to survive and possess me, because the friction/conflict as negative-energy experience is the only way/means/method within and through which I attain/accumulate my positive-energy experience. And therefore, from this moment – my entire existence would exist within the starting-point responsibility and purpose of possession and survival of and as me as Energy within and as the nature and act of me as Blame, through spite, excuse and justification.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow such an existence of me as Energy to/towards Substance/Life-manifest that I reasoned as valid/necessary for me as Energy to possess me and so survive/continue existing, and because I deified me as Energy-Authority into ‘godliness’ and Life-authority as Substance/existence-manifest into ‘ungodliness’ – it made it easier to accept and allow myself to in and as blame, spite, excuse and justification continue with my existence as deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand that what of me as Energy-Authority is maintaining/sustaining this relationship of me to/towards Substance/Life-manifest – to this day as the Mind/Energy-Authority relationship to the Physical-Body, and the World-System of Money’s-Authority relationship to this Physical-Existence: is my starting-point purpose/responsibility of possession and survival as Energy/Mind/Money-Authority that can and does only exist within my assertion of me as Energy/Mind/Money-Authority being ‘godly’ – and the rest of existence, as my physical-body, this physical existence as substance-manifest being ‘ungodly’. In this Godly Deifying of me as Energy-Authority, and Defying of Life-Authority as Substance-manifest into and as Ungodliness, within and as me as Blame as the nature and action of me as spite, excuse and justification - giving me thus the authority over and of physicality/substance-manifest, in deeming it my servant to do with it as I please for my pleasure as consuming substance/physicality to transform into energy for my pursuit of pleasuring me as Energy into and as positive-energy experience awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to – in and as this Energy-Authority relationship to/towards Life-Authority as substance-manifest, manifest that which make me as Energy-Possession and Survival possible: ‘less than me’ / inferior to me. When it’s in fact all in reverse, I as Energy-Authority am in fact less than/inferior Life-Authority as Substance-manifest, because I only exist to the evolution of myself as positive-energy experience, and have to diminish the nature and action of me to Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification to possess me as Energy and to survive as Energy; existing as possession and survival within blame as spite, excuse and justification – instead of existing/living here in and as equality and oneness with and as Life/Substance-manifest within eternal expression and creation.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, how – the moment in my beingness/manifested singularity in my first experience of me as energy-awareness from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive; where in that one position/location within existence – my positive-energy experience awareness started diminishing/lessening to the neutral and to the negative: how this moment was the birth of the substance of me as Energy as Fear. Because in that moment I perceived/believed I ‘lost’ my positive-energy experience awareness, and so had to go ‘find/search/seek’ my positive-energy experience awareness, which I did within and as my movement/motion forward for my reward as Energy within and as the starting-point of me as negative-energy experience that initiated/instigated the movement, and as I moved forward for my reward in and as the starting-point of fear as negative-energy experience; the energy consumed deeper into my beingness, manifested-singularity and existence-manifest; and in that consumption – accumulated my energy-awareness from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive. Thus, my starting point of and as survival as possession of me as Energy as positive-energy experience awareness stood within and as fear within and as the action and nature of me as Blame through deliberate spite, excuse and justification – to continue surviving as possessing me as Energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to throughout time, exist within and as fear of ‘losing my positive-energy experience awareness’ of and as me as the possession and survival of me as Energy-awareness, and in and as this Fear of Loss, accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow my relationship to substance/life-manifest within and as the nature and action of me as Blame through spite, excuse and justification within the starting-point of me as friction/conflict negative-energy experience for me as energy to possess me and survive as me.

Thus, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand that my very nature and action of and as Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification as  deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness: only exist within and as fear. Fear of losing me/my Authority/survival/possession as Energy. And so will, and have throughout time – deliberately accepted and allowed my relationship as energy to substance/life as blame within and as spite, excuse and justification of and as fear, as the godly relationship/authority of energy to the ungodliness of life/substance-manifest – for me as Energy to survive/possess me as Energy.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, that me as Energy apparently being ‘godly/authoritative’ is just a cover-up - when the truth of my existence as Energy is in fact fear; and will continue accepting and allowing the relationship of deliberate consumption and consequence to/towards substance/life-manifest to protect and defend that fear through and as blame within and as spite, excuse and justification to not ‘lose me’ as Energy.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, that – the only Authority I as Energy in fact have, is the authority of possession as the accumulation of me as Energy and power of consumption through deliberate Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification – that is empowered into and as godliness through and as deliberate friction/conflict as negative-energy experience as the existence of me as Energy in protecting and defending my possession/survival of and as Energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to accept and allow me to create myself as Energy as Fear, existing only to possess/survive me as Energy within and as the nature and action of me as blame within and as spite, excuse and justification – serving only my interest/pursuit of happiness as survival/possession of Energy, making my existence/purpose/responsibility only to me, myself and I as energy possession/survival.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand – how, I will thus not, and cannot have any concern/regard/consideration for any other part of me within and as existence as substance-manifest; because the fear as Energy possess me as my possession of and as my survival as Energy to such an extent, that I will continue existing to/towards all and everything and everyone in and as deliberate blame of spite, excuse and justification to protect/defend my survival/possession of and as Energy. And will thus, within this – continue accepting and allowing my nature and action of Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification as deliberate manipulation, abuse and misuse of substance/life (excusing life-authority for energy-authority to exist), as consuming substance to transform into energy (justified as defying life, and deifying energy) through and as deliberate friction/conflict (spite) for the survival/rewarding of me as Energy and positive-energy experience awareness, both within myself and the without as myself – to ensure my continued possession/survival as Energy.

We’ll continue in the next post, with how this Fear manifested as a ‘presence’ within our unconscious, subconscious and conscious-mind as Consciousness – that manifested into and as our entire Minds, protecting and defending our action and nature of blame within and as spite, excuse and justification – where this Fear became a force/presence/entity that took control/authority over and of our awareness as Energy; and it is this Fear that suppressed us into not seeing/realising/understanding the consequences of ourselves as Energy-Authority over and of the physical-body and this physical-existence. In this – how, essentially – our beingness became that of fear for survival and possession, and completely programmed our Minds/Consciousness in that starting-point and how we deliberately use Blame within and as spite, excuse and justification to protect and defend that fear. Instead of us standing up for Life/Equality and Oneness – we fall into the protection and defence of Fear as the survival/possession of ourselves as Energy.

I commit myself to – through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, assist and support me in and as my process of transforming my Mind/Consciousness existence of and as fear as survival/possession within and as the nature and action of me as Blame within and as deliberate spite, excuse and justification – into and as a living-being, equal-to and one-with the living-flesh as my human physical body; to birth me as eternal life from and of the physical.

I commit myself to, assist and support myself within and during writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, not accept and allow myself to give-into resistance, postponement, apathy, laziness – as I see/realise/understand that such constructs are in fact protection/defence mechanisms of manipulation within and as the starting-point of fear of Consciousness/the Mind to protect/defend its survival/continued existence for me not to change/transform me from Energy-Survival to Physical-Living of and as equality and oneness with and as the Physical. As this change/transformation would mean the End of Energy, and the Beginning of Life, and energy will fight for its survival at the cost of life/physicality/substance-manifest – but I decide to live and no more accept and allow an inferior/limited existence of survival as Energy, but to stand as life-expression in and as equality and oneness with and as my physical-body and so this physical existence.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application assist and support myself, to re-establish life/physical-authority within and as my physical-body and so this physical-existence, to no more accept and allow myself to be controlled, manipulated and directed by Energy as Consciousness within Fear of/for Survival and Possession. But to in fact live and stand up for and as life/physicality as substance-manifest, so that we can stop – firstly within ourselves and then the without as ourselves - our accepted and allowed natures and actions of blame, within and as spite, excuse and justification of and as fear for possession/survival of and as energy/money; that we’ve accepted and allowed to manipulate, abuse and misuse physicality/life-manifest.

I commit myself, to show, reveal and expose the true nature of Energy/Consciousness/Mind/Money Authority as the fraudulent ‘god’ it in fact is within this existence, that exist only in and as fear, to survive and to possess only itself within and as the deliberate nature and action of Blame as spite, excuse and justification – that has manipulated, abused, and misused the actual god/life as the physical-body and this physical-existence. So that all energy-gods can humbly step down to the equality and oneness of the Physical, and start the process of standing equal-to and one-with physicality as life/substance-manifest, to stop our internal and external consequences of manipulation, abuse and misuse of physicality/life and start the process of in fact birthing and creating Life/Living in ourselves and this existence as ourselves.

  

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