Reward – Reap from Wars Within and Without: DAY 20

Reward – Reap from Wars Within and Without: DAY 20

How the Fruit of Life became Rotten – Part Three

Who I Am as Money – continued

In this post, we’ll be walking through the specifics of our beingness/‘self’ that had become based within the nature/manifestation of a rewards-based system. How our initial I/Self design of ‘who I am’ that we created as ourselves within/as our manifested-singularity within the layers of self-separation as negativity, neutrality and positivity and the relationship between those layers – manifested ourselves into/as the Mind/Mind Consciousness System in a human physical body. Within this – walking-through the manifested-consequence our accepted and allowed self-separation from/of the whole as-ourselves created/manifested within the context of ‘who we are’ as Energy/Mind as Energy-Consuming machine that only consider/regard the survival of ourselves as Energy, and our positive-energy experience within ourselves as MORE of/as ourselves and how we obtained/extracted/took that energy from substance, through friction/conflict as negative-energy. And the consequences of this with ourselves, the mind, the physical and our relationships with others and this physical existence – as we still, to this day exist as an Energy-Consuming machine that evolved ourselves/our beingness into/as the Mind, the Physical-Body and this Physical-Existence – as well as the World-System of Money that we created/manifested in our image and likeness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to transform my equal and one hereness with and as all as me, where my communication was with and as each part of me within/as existence equal and one – to a limited version of communication, within the moment of my accepted and allowed separation, where my communication of/as ‘who I am’ to/towards all as me within/as existence was: conflict/friction as opposition as manifested negative-energy experience, and from here – this moment of communication of ‘who I am’ to/towards all as me within/as existence became communication as me, and so – all starting-points of/as my communication from/of/as me to/towards all as me, manifested within the nature of conflict/friction as opposition.  

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand how – this starting-point of communication of conflict/friction as opposition, manifested as my self-communication within/as me within my manifested-singularity that I had become, and that my self-communication with me within myself manifested within the starting-point of conflict/friction as negative-energy experience. And so – all communication within myself, with myself – would be manifested within this starting-point of/as conflict/friction as negative-energy experience. But, because of my manifested-separation within my singularity as the layers of my own self-awareness from the negative-energy experience, to the neutral-energy experience of/as only me – to the positive-energy experience of/as MORE of/as me – where my awareness became solidified only within the positive-energy experience of/as MORE of/as me, shifting between the neutral-energy experience of/as ‘only me’ to the positive energy-experience of/as MORE of/as me and seldom into/as the negative-energy experience of experiencing ‘less’ of/as me as energy: I became unaware of how all that I am within/as my singularity originate from negative-energy experience.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand how I now exist within/as my Mind Consciousness System as me, within/as my manifested-singularity as the human physical body that I had evolved myself into and as, where: I shift between the Conscious and Subconscious-Mind as my positive/neutral energy experiences of/as MORE of/as me and ‘only me’ – completely Oblivious/Unaware of how my Unconscious-Mind that I am unaware of in my preoccupation of my self-awareness within the Conscious and Subconscious-Mind - is generating/creating/manifesting energy for me within my Subconscious and Conscious-Mind through conflict/friction as negative-energy experience. How my entire Mind Consciousness System had evolved into an networked-unity that move within the relationships of negative, to neutral to positive for me to always experience the MORE of/as me as positive-energy experience within/as my Conscious-Mind. And, within this: how my entire Mind Consciousness System as Energy-Consuming machine, derive/create me into and as the experience of positive-energy through the constant/continuous relationship between the energies of negativity, neutrality and positivity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my internal reality of/as me within and as my manifested-singularity, to become structurally designed within layers of negativity, neutrality and positivity and the substance/beingness within me to be networked/weaved/threaded into relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity - where all parts of me, within myself as my manifested-singularity would consist of and exist as relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity. To so always ensure that within/as all the parts of me I have separated myself into and as within myself as my manifested-singularity, as I created my relationship-creations of me to/towards all parts of me within and as existence – would imprint into me within the nature of negativity, neutrality and positivity. As each relationship that I form/manifest from within me – to/towards a part of me, would stem from the negative, to the neutral, to the positive and only engage in relationships and relationship creations within myself, where the relationships of negative, neutral and positive would always get me the MOST energy.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be/become a Mind Consciousness System – structurally designed within layers of negativity (Unconscious-Mind), neutrality (Subconscious-Mind) and positivity (Conscious-Mind) and where all parts of me within my entire Mind Consciousness System – thoughts, feelings, emotions, backchat/internal conversation patterns, personalities etc. – would be threaded/networked/weaved in relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity as I am in constant/continuous conflict/friction within myself, as myself within/as/towards all parts of me of my Mind Consciousness System to so constantly/continuously generate/create conflict/friction for me to experience my positive-energy experience as MORE of/as me within myself.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to structure my world externally within the equal and one structure of my Mind Consciousness System, in relation to placing people, environments, situations/experiences, places etc. within the categories of negativity, neutrality and positivity and within that, engage within those very structured categories in relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity that had become the constant/continuous ways and means of engaging within my relationships with all as me within my world/reality and this entire existence as a whole, as we constantly/continuously experience/move/establish our relationships within the relationship-experiences of negativity, neutrality and positivity.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create/manifest a World-System of Money in my image and likeness, that communicate to/as all within and as this physical-existence within/as the natures of negativity, neutrality and positivity. Where, the initial starting-point relationship of Money to/towards human-beings/this physical existence is negative as the dependency of money for one’s life/survival, and from that negative-energy experience relationship, move human-beings/this physical existence from the negative, to the neutral to the positive as the reward/jackpot of them obtaining/getting/extracting/having money for themselves within their lives for their continued survival. But the nature of this relationship of communication from the World-System of Money to/towards humanity/this physical existence – moves everything/everyone that is here, within the constant, continuous relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity. Holding humanity/this physical existence captive through them fuelling/charging themselves from the initial negative-energy experience in their relationship with money, to experience the positive-energy experience within themselves in relation to money in getting/having MORE money within their world/reality and so MORE positive-energy experience within themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create/manifest within me – from the beginning, to the evolution of the Mind/Physical-Body, to the creation of me as this World-System of Money – the nature/existence of communication/interaction as relationships within the energy-experiences of/as negativity, neutrality and positivity that had become the accepted and allowed norm of the nature of relationships within myself, towards others, this physical existence and the World-System as a whole. When, in fact – the actual nature of such accepted and allowed relationships of constantly, continuously moving within negativity, to neutrality and positivity within myself, towards others/this existence and within my creation as the World-System of Money – is the manifestation of each individual being, part, manifestation of/as me in constant continuous competition within themselves, towards others/existence and within and as the very World-System of Money itself – to get/have/extract the MOST Energy through inducing/instilling the MOST conflict/friction within themselves towards others/this existence.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand – how, within layering myself into negativity, neutrality and positivity and accept and allow my interaction/relationship with myself to be within the relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity: that I would accept/allow such a way/method of interactions and relationships to/towards all as me, and so accept/allow such interactions/relationships within/as my creations as me. And so, have throughout time – done nothing to in fact change me, within myself, change my relationships to/towards all as existence as myself, or change my creation as the World-System of Money – because within those very relationships of/as me getting/extracting/having MORE of/as me within myself as the positive-energy experience within myself, my relationships and my relationship to the World-System of Money: I win the reward of myself, my own experience of/as positive-energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to – throughout time, throughout all my lives, gather and extract from existence – that which would/will make me experience myself as MORE/Positive within and as myself, where I would design/programme my Mind in such away – accumulating, extracting and hoarding from existence, that which I will use/abuse for me to experience my Ego as positive/good within myself, utilizing the relationships of valuing/defining existence within the starting-point of me as Ego as taking/extracting/hoarding only that which will accumulate my MORENESS as positive energy experience.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to – create/manifest this entire existence and all as me in such a way, where each individual part/manifestation/being compete within themselves, within their relationship-creations to/towards all of existence: to within those relationship-creations that manifest within ourselves from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive – align our relationships in such a way within ourselves where we can get the MOST positive-energy experience. And so the ‘game of survival’ was initiated, where – beings, manifestations / parts would align themselves in themselves with relationships to/towards existence, through generating/creating the MOST friction/conflict, to accumulate the MOST neutral experience, to get the MOST positive-energy experience within/as themselves as ‘self-empowerment’. That for self-empowerment – empowerment of energy being powered/charged within ourselves from the negative/friction/conflict: we had to go into/as the most conflict/friction to/towards all parts of/as ourselves.

In this, I forgive myself that I didn’t accept/allow myself to see/realise/understand that for some to get the MOST energy-empowerment as perceived self-empowerment through friction/conflict as negative-energy experience, other parts of/as me had to experience the LESS energy-empowerment within/as themselves. Because – in the moment of conflict/friction with/as another part of/as me – this moment of friction/conflict is the moment of competition, where one part will win in getting the MOST negative-energy experience and the other part will lose in getting LESS negative-energy experience. Dependent on the one that can in that moment of friction/conflict generate the most negative-energy experience – the negative-energy experience will discharge into/as the one that utilize their beingness/force with the velocity that all/most of the energy gets discharged into them, accumulating/rewarding themselves with the the positive-energy experience within themselves, where the one that lose, only gets the minimal discharge of the negative-energy experience and so only a minimal accumulation of positive-energy experience.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create/manifest this World-System of Money in my image and likeness of achieving the self-reward of positive-energy experience as money accumulation through/as inducing/inflicting/instilling the most negative-energy experience as conflict/friction unto others/this physical existence, where: The World-System of Money engage in competition with this physical-existence – by/through conflict/friction – such as animal-abuse/slaughtering, deforestation, fracking, water and air pollution, starvation, poverty etc. – as the World-System of Money induce/inflict/instil the most negative-energy experience as conflict/friction unto others/this physical existence. The competition between the World-System of Money and this physical-existence/physical lives that the World-System of Money continue winning as its own self-reward as getting/extracting/having Money as its own self-empowerment, and the majority of this physical-existence/physical lives lose/get little to nothing. Within that conflict/competition with the World-System of Money for it to have its self-reward as positive-energy experience as MORE Money as empowerment unto itself, the physical-existence/physical lives of/as individuals get nothing/less as the losers in the game of survival between the World-System of Money and themselves.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand – how, most of my relationships within myself, towards myself, my relationships towards others as me, my relationship towards this entire existence as me: stand within the nature of conflict/friction as negative/negative-energy experience. That I only have a minute amount of neutral to positive energy-experience relationships – not seeing/realising/understanding that those handful of neutral to positive energy experienced relationships, is in fact the groupings of myself with others as myself that equally as one compete together in similar/the same ways/means/methods to obtain/get/have the MOST positive-energy experiences within/as ourselves through the ways/means/methods we deliberately use/abuse within such groupings to instil/induce/inflict conflict/friction within ourselves, towards others/this existence as parts of ourselves to generate/create the most negative-energy experience.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create/manifest the nuclear family-systems – as groupings of individuals/manifested-singularities that come-together, with specific ways/means/methods of inducing/instilling/inflicting conflict/friction within themselves, towards others/this physical existence – to get/obtain/extract/have the most positive-energy experience within/as themselves. This the survival-skills that is taught/imprinted on the children birthed into such groupings/nuclear family systems, of how to most effectively - instil/induce/inflict conflict/friction within themselves, towards others/this physical existence to get/obtain/extract/have the MOST positive-energy experience/self-empowerment within/as themselves for their survival within this physical-existence as energy and with the World-System with Money.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create/manifest the World-System of Money in my image and likeness, where the World-System of Money exist in groupings, with various methods/ways/means of inducing/instilling/inflicting deliberate conflict/friction within and towards this physical existence, in transforming physicality into Money for its own self-empowerment as accumulation of money as positive-energy experience unto itself only. That I did not accept/allow myself to see/realise/understand – how the World-System of Money only accepts/allows for a handful/minority to experience the neutral to positive experience of/as Money – while the Majority experience the loss/losing, because for those few/handful/minority of the World-System of Money to get/extract/have their positive-energy experience as accumulation of Money – the majority as to suffer as the loss/losers within this competition. Because the World-System of Money – for it to accumulate the positive-energy experience as MORE Money, it has to instil/induce/inflict conflict/friction as negative-energy experience within this physical-existence and physical-lives to be accumulated to positive-energy experience as Money.

Equal-to and one-with me within my limited/minority groupings – for me/us to have/extract/get the MOST positive-energy experiences within ourselves – we have stand/be in conflict/friction to/towards the Majority of/as ourselves within this existence, as from that negative-energy experience: we transform it into positive-energy experience within ourselves, for ourselves for our self-empowerment reward as Energy.

In the continuation of this Blog, we’re going to have a look at the skills the parents/family system train into children within the nature of competition and the rewards-based system, that prepare the child for the game of survival as competition in the living of their life in the World-System of Money. Where ‘life’ had become about competition and survival for reward in ego and self-interest, instead of all lives being regarded within/as equality and oneness.

I see/realise/understand that, with me continuing my relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity within myself as how I have created/designed/programmed me within my Mind Consciousness System as me: I will accept and allow the continuation of my relationships with others, this physical existence and so the World-System as me within the nature of negativity, neutrality and positivity and only because I don’t change: I won’t change my relationships with others/this physical existence and the World-System. In this, I commit myself to change me as the Mind of relationships of negativity, neutrality and positivity through my process of writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application, to assist/support the transformation of my relationships with others/this physical existence and the World-System to stand within equality and oneness, to stop the nature of relationships within myself, others/this physical existence from competition for survival to equality and oneness and living.

I commit myself to – stop the nature of relationships within myself as competition between the energy-experiences of negativity, neutrality and positivity that I have only accepted and allowed myself to engage within for me to experience my self-empowerment as energy-reward for my positive-energy experiences within myself; which had placed me into a relationship of competition to/towards others/all as me as well as my creation as the World-System of Money. I see/realise/understand that – this reward of/as energy through competition is not me in fact winning, because what ‘lose’ in the competition of me in all aspects that I exist as/within as myself, others, this physical existence and the World-System of Money: is the majority of me within/as existence. That this ‘winning’ as ‘reward’ as self-empowerment of energy and money is at the cost of the majority of/as me within/as this existence. That this is not simply a game of winning and losing, but a war between lives of individuals/beings/parts/manifestations of/as me within/as existence. And if I accept/allow myself to continue this war to/towards all as me within the illusion of winning/the reward of self-empowerment as positive-energy experience: that I am in this equally as one responsible for all as me that lose their lives/beingness/potential of life within this existence as me. And in my awareness of this – is my responsibility, to stop/change/transform me from a being of war and murder due to my separation within competition, to a being of living that give life in/as equality and oneness.   

I see/realise/understand that the starting point of me, my relationships – my creation of/as this physical existence and the World-System: is me. And to transform this existence as me, from an existence of competition to survival as wars and give to all life as equality and oneness: I have to give/transform me into/as Life to be able to give to all as me, Life. With Life as equality and oneness, manifest – I thus commit myself to birthing myself as Life from the physical to standing equal and one with all as me within myself, starting with me standing equal-to and one-with me, by walking through my Mind Consciousness System as manifested-separation of/as me aligning my relationships with myself into/as equality and oneness as Living Words, to live here in/as/with my human physical body. And as I walk my self-equality and oneness within, I walk as a living example so others can walk with in the process of stopping the wars within and the murdering of ourselves within, as we destroy/harm/annihilate our human physical bodies through the Mind – to become living beings that gift to ourselves Life/Living in/as our equality and oneness. And so come together and stand together to stop/change/transform the World-System of Money of wars and murder/suffering/pain, to a World-System that give life to all – equally as one as we have done for ourselves.

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